Plese don't arrange that

She started to communicate the using the "f" language with me. Although I was once a pro in the "f" language but perhaps now I can't seemed to comprehend any because to me none of her words make any sense. Had enough, I dragged her aside from other familiar faces and made her tell me what's going on.

"My grandma had match make me with a guy".

I looked at her uncertainly, although actually I had heard the same news somewhere.

"So? Have you met him?"

She shook her head but she had a picture of him in her possession. According to her the guy was podgy and short which should not be an issue. The concern now is, the grandma made her look like a desperate spinster.

And she is younger than me.

Well, if you must know, the mother of the guy called her after heard her saying she would give it a shot, just to gratify the grandma. She had to say yes after the mother insisted of knowing her. But things didn't work out after the mother anticipated more that she could offer. According to her, the mother wished that she would be shorter than the guy which is whattttt? And started to make some gratuitous comments of her other requirements and perhaps she is not the perfect match for her son.

She was hurt yes but mostly she is ashamed. Now it looked like she is the one who is drooling over him. First of all, she did not give any consent saying that someone should look for her soul mate, neither her parents. Obviously the parents were mad after finding out the truth.

She asked the grandma, what is the reason for dear grandma to take such action. Oh, the grandma pity her because it seemed that everybody is getting hitch.

That, bunnies. Made me snort. I mean, what is that suppose to mean?

Why must most people assume that being unattached and unmarried would make you miserable? Although I must say having a partner does boost your mood but not in all cases. And why must most people assume by getting married is something like reaching the nirvana? Like, hello I am getting married, it's like I am meeting the dalai lama.

Maybe true to some people but not entirely true to say until one get married, one will not be happy.

And if you are unmarried, you would somehow become a loser and should be sympathised by everyone?

Don't get me wrong. I do want to get married but until I find the right person for me, I don't mind loitering around [even there will be some time when I get stressed thinking about it.Hehe].

I don't know about other people but to me, a match make partner especially by my family member is a big no no. I revere guys who prefer to make their own effort by finding their own soul mate rather than asking it to be arranged. Yes, if you say that used to work last time, then good for you. But not for me. I cringe to hearing such proposition.

Because even when you thought u found someone and you thought you knew that person like the back of your hand, yet one day you wake up, you realised that you actually don't.

And you asked me to believe in arrange marriage?

Now please save the jodoh di tangan Tuhan for this entry. As true as it may be, it sounded too cliche to me.

Batak Mandailing

Hectic day. I had to wake up early to drive back to hulu langat. Yana's wedding ceremony again but this time on the groom's side. Thank God aku tak payah jadik bunga telur girl lagi.


Speaking of bunga telur, I remember one incident during the wedding [on our side] three weeks ago. I was told by my emak who was the manager of the day on what to give and what not to give. Like to women, you are suppose to give the red ones while the man should receive the egg in cute basket.And only kinds will receive sweets. The sweets are limited sebab tak tahula pulak bekas gula-gula tu tah pegi mana tah. So memanglah tidak boleh kasik extra dekat orang.


So I was doing my job when I approached a family. Well, ok they are my relatives but ehe I don't think they know who the hell I am sebab aku malas balik kampung and also I don't really favour to bermesra-mesra with my relatives, unless my immediatelah. I have my own reasons ok.


Sigh. These people from my mom side are sort of poyo to me sebab kunun-kunun ala-ala anak wakil rakyat dan orang ternama dan semua orang kena mencium bontot mereka. Ok whateverlah but the previous phrase might explain what will happen next. So as I bagi the telur, the guy asked for the sweets for him.


He: Can I have the sweets for me instead of telur?
Me: Uncle, sweets untuk budak-budak je.
He: No, I want the sweet.
Me: Bukan apa uncle, tak cukup nanti.
He: But I prefer the sweets.


Aku kalau orang macam ni pegi mati kaulah. So I just smile as sweetly as I can dan buat bangang. Then he suddenly bangun and said.


He: Macam ni ye, saya nak gula-gula ni, bukan telur.


He spoke as if I am a retard and dengan garangnya mengambil gula-gula dalam bakul aku.


Tsk. Ok, I also don't know kenapa aku tanak bagi but I think it's unfair since all of his kids dah dapat and give the sweets to other kidslah. Kalau kau nak jugak pegila beli. I am just doing my joblah bodoh.


Tapi yang paling aku benci sekali, apa hal kau nak speaking-speaking dekat hulu langat ni hah? Ada david beckham ke dekat sini? Kau ingat kau speaking kau bagusla sangat? Macamlah aku tak tahu kau keturunan batak yang semasa muda bercakap minang. And I am so offended when he decided to talk malay dengan eksyennye as if aku tak faham english [setelah aku mengabaikannya]. Maybe he though I was a high school drop out yang hingusan yang tak faham apa dia cakap.


God. I really hate this type of people.


So, you think only those who speaks english and pakai ala-ala korporat umpama pakai tie dalam kepanasan adalah distinguish and adalah baru layak to earn your respect?


To me, kau tak payah poyolah nak pakai tie ke, kereta besar ke, cakap spanish ke if you want to appear as someone big. I mean, oklah if you have it siapa tak suke kan tapi perlu ke nak poyoo?


Dan tak perlulah nak jeles dengan orang if they mampu ok? Dan selepas itu mengeluarkan statement yang entah hape-hape.


Anyway, I just ignored that pakcik for the rest of the day but I told my mum about it. Ehe, according to my mum,what he did, is not something new.


Haih, kenapalah aku ade sedara berdarah batak ni. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Lewat malam

At this moment, my hair smells like smoke from various brand. Not, it was not from me but from those people at the club. I don't really go to club nowadays, only for special occasion like tonight.


Fahimi is back so yeay. So we went out for dinner at tony romas and and as usual to the live bands. I must say. the band was great but the disc jockey macam sial ok. Apa motif kau main lagu 70's la cibai. Aku lansung hilang feel ok. And no hot chicks, tak memangkin lansung.


Or maybe I am just getting older, inside. I prefer quiet place but to think again, it's not entirely true, hatiku melonjak-lonjak bila lagu dimainkan oleh band itu cuma crowd yang keji membuatku benci.


And I smile looking at few girls who danced on the table, hugging each other with glasses on their hands. Oh I miss that. I really do.


Like tonight, when I was halfly enjoying the songs, my mind flown away to my unfinished assignment, to a YM session that I am supposed to attend and to my own comfort, my room.


Tsk. What happened? I miss my carefree days. Dancing in the moonlight, not knowing what will happen tomorrow and don't even care what will happen tomorrow. I only have to remember not to follow anyone home and also the date of my exams.


Maybe I am not getting older[haha] but maybe I have more responsibility now.


But between you and me, I am more happier today.

Even I have panda eyes, I am happier! And kau dah gemuk ok, fahimi.Haha!

Back for a short break from a break.

I am supposed to be on my depressed-break. But I am so depress that I decided to take a short break from the depression because it gets more depress. Kire ni macam s hort break from a breakla. Pening tak?


I am also supposed to berlari-lari anak di pandang futsal now but I had conjunctivitis which started to redden my eyes since two days ago. Now tell me, How am I supposed to play without my contacts dengan spek aku yang suka jatuh ditambah pula dengan aku yang menggelupur?


And I am also supposed to date fahimi tonight but since mata dah merah and die plak cun cun adehal. Which is good.


But good thing can be stressful when today I had to pay a frequent visit to the toilet. Sampai sekarang I am undecided whether I should put on my pants or just don in my towel sebab kalau pakai suar tiada gunanya kalau setiap 5 menet nak mencirit.


Actually I can sense the arah tujuan mecirit ini. Two days ago I ate 2 bungkus nasik lemak for breakfast and lunch, I know I am supposed to be on diet but can you say 'tolongla jangan makan, kau tengah diet' to a depress person? Exactly. As the result perut adalah ala-ala panas sebab sambal die pedas. The next day I ate the whole mooncake followed by another bungkus nasi lemak. It was not my fault. Bukan aku yang beli. Orang dah beli, siap dengan ayam rempah lagi,takkan nak buang kan? And I had choki choki for dessert [ok this is my fault but who can resisit choki..chokkii enak sekali..choki chokki adik gemari?exactly].


I know this cerita is going no where but kau baca je bleh tak?


So, today I got ceret beret and having ceret beret while driving from KLIA to Shah Alam is not kelakar ok. Now I know, why some people speed dan suka memotong tak pepasal tanpa bagi signal.


And, tiba-tiba aku tengok manjalara semalam, alih-alih dia dah kurus. Wey, baru 2 hari aku miss dah kurus ke? Gila tak tunggu orang ok!


Last skali, ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii malas gile nak buat assignmentttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


nak pegi disneyland.

Chics is on a break that she desperately needs.

Last night, someone told me she sat up in bed to count her blessings.

She told me she woke up in the morning, forgetting where she stopped. Apparently she realised then that she had a lot more blessings that she ever cared to count, so many she nodded off while counting.

I have one great blessing in my life.

I have chics:)

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I am so not in a good mood. My body is aching and my hormone is jumping up and down. I feel like going to pub and stand on the table with a baseball bat and smash all the lining up cocktail glass and smash all the colourful liquor. And of course, hit the bartender.

1. I am enjoying my life but some thought crossed my mind that I should and have to face the mundane world again . Wake up at 7, mandi, face or beat the jam and sit religiously from 9 to 5, and ohhh learn how to kiss people ass. For every monday to friday. And then go to class. Ahhhhhhhhh, the idea of it, dah cukup buat aku menangis ok. The inner torture.But do I have a choice. Some how the vision is blur.
   




2. Gwen is coming like.. soon. And I love her from nips to bottom. Like you don't knowlah kan. I don't really like to go to concert unless I really like the artist.I mean really really likeeeee. And, yes. I love Gwen Stefanie so very much that I could even marry her. But, when she finally decided to has her sweet escape here, I found out that I am broke. Like broooooooooooooooke. Tak ke macam cibai tu? Sangatttttt 2@$$#$^&#$RT^%#@@. Aku depress tau tak?
   



3. I am not enjoying my lectures this semester because the lecturers are boring except the law lecturer Dr Shad. Sangat comel ok dia itu but then again I dont understand sepatah haram yang dia cakap because I don't get the terms that he used. Oh my God..I am like.. stupid *gasp.Sheesh. But yes, the rest..Tsk. I feel like killing myself during my Tuesday class.And sadly I got him as my thesis supervisor. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.




4. Usually when I am not in a good mood or depress, the smell of new things will make me happier but in this case, please refer to number two, the few last sentences. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkk
   



5. Aaaaaaaaaaaaargh. Ok, that is not the sound of me depressing this time. That is the sound of me needing to go toilet. Sakit perutlah.
   


Tata.[no.No happy weekend for yew bunnies today. Hoh!!!]

Al Fatihah

Al Fatihah.


Babe,
I am sorry that I could not say anything when you call me to tell he's gone.
I lost my words. Saying I'm sorry will not do, saying be strong sounds ridiculous leave alone hang in there.

I wish I could just hug you that time and just hug you.
I am sad, yes I am.
But the conversation we had earlier make me even sad.


Tak apalah sayang. God love him more than we do.




I have lots of things to say of things that I know but for everyone's good, I shall not. Just that it hit me. Really hard.

if you have something that you really wish to do
don't wait, do it now.


if you have something to say to someone
don't wait, say it now.


if you love someone,
don't wait, show it now.



don't wait for one more day,
one more week or one more year.
don't wait till you are thirty or fourty or even fifty
because you will never know whether you will live that long.


So today, while you are still alive, while other people who revolve around you still do,
buatlah apa bende yang patut. Letakkanlah ego tu ketepi, sebab bila dah tak berkesampaian, menangis air mata darah pun tak berguna.


Who are you to fight fate?




Life is too short to procrastinate.


Life should be no regret.

+ Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart +.
Marcus Aurelius

Di alam lain

Yesterday was 1 rejab. I was thinking to fast but tak jadi since I had to go to KL to get the rempah biryani pakistan for emk. Oh, I don't eat biryani but actually I don't eat Indian biryani. You should try the pakistan biryani. When you do, you would never want to eat Indian biryani anymore.


Since the spices shop is located next to Semua House, I was thinking to have Nasi Ayam Chee Meng yang dah setahun aku tak makan but, I saw 1 masakan minang resturant in front of Wisma Yakin. Tunjang masak kalio, cili hijau, pucuk ubi rebus and sambal hijau. Would I choose Chee Meng over that? I don't think so.


Macam ala ala berpeluhla aku makankan, dicampur dengan air polkado[avocadolah, heh]. Since I had a hearty lunch, I cancelled my plan to eat nasik lemak for dinner and opt for baked beans with breads instead.


This is when I saw a series called Di Alam Lain. I have seen the gazette and sort of wanting to watch it but by the time I switch on the tv, it was nearly over.


And I was glad that it was almost over.


Macam celake ok cerita tu. First I saw a hantu yang diambil gamba from beberapa angle. I can't really tell who was it but I think it was azean irdawaty. Althought I must tell you, the movie she berlakon in the 80's which entitled perjanjian syaitan adalah amat menakutkan. I hid under the selimut bila melihat tongkat itu bercakap-cakap. Macam celake ok takutnye.



Oh back to the story. So it looked like it's a duel between 2 mak bomoh which is in my opinion is azean and the second mak bomoh is joyah. I forgot her namelah but I think you know who is joyah. Mula-mula joyah looked like a normal person until this azean ghost appeared in front of her. She laughed-laughed eksyenly and turn back. Suddenly her outfit and face bertukar jadi hantu plak. But hantu baju hitam and rambut adalah sedondon juga manakala hantu lagi satu berbaju putih di matchingkan dengan rambut putih. I tak sempat check their kasut because I was struggling between eating, watching and not choking.


One question, why hantu in Malaysa have to appeared as ugly? Tak boleh ke buat hantu rambut rebonding and tidak membazir mekap? Ugly doesn't mean scary ok. And pasal sikit-sikit nak gelak? Sheesh.


Anyway, after joyah turned herself into hantu both of them floated on air and start fighting.


The thing is,aku hampir tercekik roti bila joyah mula buat aksi "abuken" dalam street fighter dan mengeluarkan bola api dari tangannya dan dibalas oleh hantu putih dengan cara yang sama.


Haha. Macam lach ok.


I think Rashid Sibir should concentrate in only making drama yang buang hingus + air mata orang meleleh since that's what he does best.


He failed miserably in his attempt to create and oh-so-romatic movie, that starred nasya and rosyam and obviously he failed in attempting to be seram.


Cukup-cukupla tu ahmad idham sorang je yang berusaha nak buat cerita ala-ala seram kelaka, kau toksahla.

Virgin suicide

I went partying the night before and it lasted till around 3 but I forced my self to wake up for the 8.00 am class. You can't miss the class when you are one of the main target of some lecturer who prasan diri as ustaz. So around 7.55 I arrived at the faculty parking lot at saw a red kancil parked in the middle of the way, not parked properly. I guess that's ok since the were less than 5 cars there. The window was misty and the engine was running.


Ok, whatever. I had to rush for tempat duduk blakang sebab aku tak ingin nak duduk depan muka lecturer tu.


After class, I went to my ex faculty to have breakfast together. The car was still there but now, more cars were also there.


My other class for that day was at 10, so by 9.30 I made my move when a friend stop me, not to far from my faculty.


Him: Eh, ada budak bunuh diri dekat faculty.
Me: Ha?Serious?


Him: Serious, aku nak pegi tengokla ni
Me: Eee, aku nak, aku nak! Jom


And I dragged him into my car and drove to the parking lot. In my mind I was asking myself, how did that person do it? Would I jerit when I see it?


By the time we reached the parking lot, a number of people gathered there which was unusual. Yes, memangla banyak kereta tapi takdela pulak aku selalu nampak orang berkumpul ramai mcm tu. They gathered around a car. Kancil. Red.


Oh my fucking shit. The red car I saw earlier.


I don't know why but I step foward to the tempat kejadian. Curious perhaps. No, I am not the type who are afraid when things like this happen. Although I am getik but I am the brave type of getik. hehe


It was a guy,chinese. His face was already pale and he was holding a C++ books in his hands. There was a piece of roti krim besides him. I still can remember how his tongue went out hanging from his lips.


Then I realised, the exhaust of the car was blocked with a rubber hose and covered with plastic.


Not too long after that, police came to the scene and shooed most of us. I am to dazed[not shocked] to go to class that I decided to lepak at cafe instead. Hehe


I don't know what happened to him but romours said that he commited suicide because he failed to accomplished his assignment. Some even said, he willed his car to his friend, a malay guy. Lots of stories being told about him.


But for sure, he commited suicide.


So that's what they said.


I totally forgot about that incident until last night, something occured to me while lying in the dark, waiting for my eyes to shut. Just don't ask me why I suddelny thought of it.


But.


What if actually he does not committed suicide? I mean, who would read C++ books before they kill themselves while eating roti?


What is someone sabotaged him?


I mean, deciding to take your own life is not easy at all. Trust me.
It takes a lot of guts. So eating roti macam tak masuk.


But I am glad, it was none of the people I knew back then, in the faculty.
Tapi macamla aku kenal ramai orang pon. Heh

Nuri

Epy smsed me yesterday asking whether I had read the news. Azlan helicopter is missing. Azlan, is someone who is close to epy's heart. Someone quite significant.


I was caught up in making some preparation for Yana's celebration that I completely forgot about the sms until this morning when I read the newspaper and saw his face. He is the pilot of the latest missing Nuri. So I called her up and talk for a while. She said, Azlan called her few days before that to inform her that he lost his handphone and now he's no where to be located.


I know she is worried.


And strangely I feel sad for her. Not strangelylah. Aku memang selalu menangis bila baca surat khabar.


Let's pray that they will find him, ok.



Anyway, I also read another column saying they are not going to replace Nuri that soon because it masih boleh digunakan, that's all. No condolences [epy alerted me on this].


Like hello,Nuri has been either missing or terhempas since 10 years ago ok and can you just replace those fucking cold war helicopters? Ye mahal aku tau, harga dia bukan seposen 3 but I think it would be better to spend money on something like that which always risking people life rather than sponsoring or aiding money for people who want to claim their own fame by mendaki some mount yang cuma berjaya mendaki kaki bukit sahaja atau tak sampai puncak dengan alasan oh kami tak berdaya, gunung kinabalu tidak sama dengan gunung ini. Taiklah, there was a cacat guy, amputated legs, managed to concur everest and using his own fund. ok? And stop sending orang buat penerjunan at kutub or lautan penuh jaws or whatever, boleh tak?


And stop, stop mahu menanam Quran di mana-mana. Even I am not a person who is arif about agama but setahu akulah Al Quran adalah untuk dibaca dan dijadikan panduan hidup, not as a trophy.


And pleasela wey, if you want to claim your own fame tapi menggunakan nama negara to conceal your niat, stop the fucking shit. Unless you use your own fund.


I mean, the country will celebrate its 50th independence soon. So, what does independence means actually?


Adakah perlu menunjuk kepada semua untuk mengikitraf negara merdeka padahal bende-bende remeh tak ter jaga? Seperti at least prihatin terhadap people who try to berkihdmat untuk negara.


Kan dah keluar semangat patriotik aku.


But pleaselah, change the old Nuri to something better boleh tak?

Loser on saturday

Today was a great day since emak cooked her so sedap soto. Not especially for me lah but for my cousin, yana and her husband. Ok, honestly I didn't know that after you got married you have to pay visits to your relatives to mengenalkan your spouse. Gila leceh ok. Macamla tahun depan ke, raya ke tak jumpa kan [kalaula mak aku baca ni komfem kene kuti].


Anyway, I realised one thing that people always say tapi aku skeptical. Orang kata orang kawen ni muka berseri and before this I was like..duh! But to day I witnessed it. Yana looked so ravishing ok. Berseri-seri and glowing. Chantek.

Kening tinggi sebelah. cacat sial aku nih

And as I listened to usher, tetibe terasa nak pakai lawa-lawa dan menari-nari. Lama gile sial tak buat kerja tak berfaedah and today I missed it.


And Zaireen messaged me on friendster. I missed her too!

Random thinking

I have random thoughts again. And I must tell them all. Be hold, some might be keji but some be kiut[haha].

1. I think I am having a penyakit. I seperti lost the mood to blog. Decided not to but then feel obligated.Boleh macam tu?
   
   



2. The weather is so hot. I wonder if they sell water heater and water cooler.You know, during rainy season use the water heater and during hot season, water cooler. Hehe. Best tak?
   



3. I found my new love after Garcia decided to leave Liverpool. His name is James Morrison. Aku tau takde kaitan but his voice menggetarkan jiwa perempuankulah ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh




4. My boss cat is a penyumbangleweng. He [the cat] will rush to the toilet whenever my boss need to pangsai[berak] to berak together. And he always do that. Suka membuat joint venture kucing itu.




5. I am worried and feel like escaping class because I scared that I would not be able to watch manjalara. Gila keji aku ni kan but the manmade-fat girl rocks my wordla. Korang rasa kalau aku ngorat die, dia nak tak?




6. I hate my mouse. I used to have the same mouse but I terrrpecahkan it so bought the exact one since I love it so much walaupon ianya adalah murahan. But the new one memang perangai mcm murahan.





7. I talked to my senior on YM yesterday. She was a year older than me, she used to scare melah she. Very garang face but yesterday she made my day. But she apologised for calling me names at school. Not just her lah, but her batch. They called me dangdut. Bolehhhhhhhhhh? Haih! But I also called names to my juniors. Haha




8. I need to revamp my wardrobe. Like really. And I need to do something with my hair but I need to put aside my money for something else. Lanchauuuuuuuu. Nak baju baru!!!!!




9. Teringin nak makan kuah durian dengan roti and laksa penang yang sedap. Where can I get laksa penang yang sedap in Shah Alam?




10. BTW, my classmate tegur that she noticed the difference on my tummy. She said "chics, perut kau dah flat! Jeles." and she is not the type who puji sembarangan. Haha. Lalu aku pon menjoin sekali lalu memuji diriku sendiri. Hahaha




11. Memuji diri sendiri adalah sangat best.Therefore I can start working on my assignment sebab dah berasa happy. Haha

Enjoy your weekend bunnies!

Mulut manis

I was having a conversation with someone about his attempt trying to tackle women after so long being single.


someone: sekarang aku tak kutuk pompuan puji jer
someone: semua cantik


someone: ader improvement kan
chics: tapi dlm hati sama ke?


someone: hihih
someone: hati mengkal sikit la


chics: mana boleh
chics: hati kene sama dgn apa mulut cakap


someone: janji mulut maniskan siam cam pak wan
chics: buat apa macam tu
chics: kalau takde mende elok yg hati nak cakap baik diam


someone: ambik hati
chics: buat apa nak amik hati
chics: tak payahla


someone: kalu tak org cakap kurang ajar
someone: nak tak nak kena la puji


chics: tak payahla cakap
chics: diam je la
chics: ahh buat apa puji tak ikhlas


Honestly, smart women doesn't want to be showered with kata-kata pujian all the time. I mean perempaun bukan bodoh ok [okla maybe some are born stupid] but they all realised they are still berpijak di bumi yang nyata.


And whats up with mengucapkan kata-kata manis? Heve been in a siuation where you berjalan berkawan-kawan and bump onto another friend with a baby and everyone went alaaa cutenye anak-kau thingy, which you don't understand why such act?


After that you asked told them they must really like babies but only some did the rest is just doing it because it was the right thing to do.


You just do it because it is only right to do or else kau akan dialianted kan.


Dan orang-orang yaang berperangai seperti bagaimana dia rasa akan tidak disukai dan di cap sombong. Apa kau ingat kau chantek?Hah?


No, I did not say I never done that. I think I pernah but now if I did that my face will surely be senget dan dalam hati sangatlah benci disuruh buat begitu.


Like have to salam dan senyum-senyum buatkan air macik yang suke ngumpat mak bapak kau dan ngumpat kau dan kucing-kucing kau skali. Kalau tak buat nanti mak cubit.


Nampaknya menjadi diri sendiri adalah hina dan keji dari menjadi ass kisser.
Atau memang sifat semula jadi adalah ass kisser?

Friendster

I don't know why I still have my friendster account. I only know less than 20% of the people in my list but I have no heart to reject their request to add me. But if they put their dick pictures I will rejectlah. Keji!


It's all ok until they started to ask me for teh session or my number or a meet up


For trillion,billion time, I am going to state that, it will not happen


Not because of I prasan lawa or sangke aku adalah perempuan paling cun tetapi ini adalah kerana I had stumbled few kisah ngeri after meeting up with virtual people. Mula-mula nampak ok, lepas tu perangai macam cibai and those kisah silam freaked me out.


I might had done it in the past but no more for now.


The thing is to melah kan, if you genuinely wants to be friends, what difference would it make if it's virtual or real? Cuma tak berjumpa sahaja. And why got offended when I said I have trust problem and only keen to be friends virtually?


Tak kirelah kau claim kau bukan bad guys ke. kau jejaka kesunyian ke, kau mahu mengenali aku dengan lebih mendalam ke. Semuanya aku tamaw.


And excuse me, those pictures are mine and I am not berlakon as someone else ok, if you think that's the reason why aku tanak jumpa kau depan-depan.


Lagi satu yang aku benci ialah bila orang menulis "Please comment on my page"


Like, hello?Pahal aku nak kene comment, just because you wrote comment on my page, by using some glittery text and whatnots?


Adakah you are expecting some kata-kata pujian such as "this guy is handsome and caring" or cute-cute emoticons and simple says like "hi, nice knowing you" when aku tak rasa nice pon?


Samalah kejinya macam "Hi, interesting blog, please visit mine or please link mine"



Kalau aku rasa nak tulis, aku tulisla. Barula ikhlas.takdela menulis dengan keji, ok?

Fever craving

Fever is such a bitch.


Make me also feeling like one. And my tekak also bertambah neraka.


Despite I am so tak larat to do anything I finished up Bubur MCD, Nasi Ayam Hainan, Keledek Goreng and New York Cheese Cake. Was thinking to buy cottage fries but nasib baik tersedar diri dah makan banyak. Besok-besok jela.


Oh, demam also make feel like giving up diet and snuggle with someone who I am supposed to love and supposedly love me back. While merengek-rengek mintak manja.


Which is so berimaginasi tinggi. An during this sick hours also I will bermimpi bukan-bukan such as mimpi makan cottage fries. But few days ago I dreamt that I made out with Peter Petrelli. Bila bangun sangatlah horny dan perasaan membuka-buak kasih sayang terhadap Peter Petrelli.


Bodoh!


Bitch betulla macam ni kan.


Dahla nak tido.
Tolongla jangan aku mimpi makan apa-apa lagi.

Yana is married

Beautiful Monday bunnies and I am back in Shah Alam, no more in Hulu Langat. Oh, the wedding went well, my cousin who is 4 years younger than me is officially a wife to a guy. Hope both of them will have a blissful journey.


I am going to put pictures because I love pictures and will also jot few points that have been screaming in my head in the past few days.

1. The water is Hulu Langat was and still is extremely cold. Macam mandi air batu even it's 11 a.m. I don't know how my nenek managed to mandi at 5 a.m.




2. My inai did not turn red, it only turned orange and it doesn't look hot. I wonder, how to have red looking inai? We had already campur gambir and nasi panas.
   
   
   




3. The tok kadi took 30 minutes to himself instead of menikahkan orang he tried to give ceramah. I almost sleep while waiting for the akad nikah




4. Why do people cry after akad nikah? Except for Nik who smile gleefully. Hihi
   
   
   
   
   The Bride and me




5. My cousins and me became the bunga telur girls. It looked like an easy job but it was not. I had to smile and forcing a smile while explain to a pakcik why he can't get sweets and receive telur instead.
   
   
   
   




6. I don't agree with parents or even relatives who try to pujuk toddlers by saying "Kalau [toddler's name], ikut cakap mama/aunty,nanti bagi sweets banyak-banyak". I mean, bagi gula2? That's so keji. No wonder lots of kids these days are obese.
   
   
   
   
   No we are not obese but yes, we are the vain ones




7. I don't mean to be judgemenal but this time I might be. I think langat youngster sucks. Adakah kelakar mengetawakan aku yang menggelupur bagi bunga telur ditengah panas and do you think it is fucking cool for you to wear your subang sebesar duit 5 sen when you are a guy? And what's up with the torn jeansla wey? You have no respect for people ceremony? And you think by staring at me I will be menggelupur and prasan cas aku lawa?[Ok I was menggelupur but I was not prasan lawa [i mean kalau dah lawa apa nak prasan?haha keji]]. If that was not a wedding, I would have spit air sirap to your face.



8. My cousins turn the wedding into some karaoke + concert by singing songs and menari-nari keji.




9. It is hard to pretend malu-malu kucing di hari persandingan mu. But if you don't pretend my nazi nenek will bark in your face, which I don't understand why. Salah ke senyum-senyum girang? Sheesh
   
   
   




10. I think my cousins rock. Don't ask me why but we spent the night by listening to lagu-lagu rempit. Hehe
    
    
    
    
    We love rempit songs




11. Why do they ask the question " Awak bila lagi?". So keji.In fact, beyond keji.




12. Why do do the nwely weds tak sabar-sabar nak beranak? Sheesh. Hearing they talk about it smoldered me. And please don't tell me,"kau tak rasa lagi". No, I don't need that.




13. I used to have no problem to endure pedas food, but since I started on my low carb diet, my body can't tolerate pedas food. I gotceret beret after eating a small potion of sambal. Oh no!
    




14. No, they were not even a single hot guys there. Semua keji.
    
    

I ate too much. I think I am going to be demam now.


Tata

Bibik

I think being a bibik you must have your body made out of steel.


This is 1.00 a.m in the morning and everyone is tired after a tiring night, especially bibik who has been doing lots of works from the morning.


I was typing something and my aunty came and said


"Bibik, lepas ni tolong buatkan air teh misai kucing untuk kami"


If I were bibik, I would guling-guling on the floor coz I am too damn tired. Did anyone care how I feel after having me work all day?


And now you ask me to make teh?


Poor bibik, but I love her coz she always make special food for me and layan me baik-baik and tell me gossip gossip.


Btw, what the hell is teh misai kucing?

Kampong

Hey, here I am sitting in my grandma dining guestroom with inai on my left hand and my right hand is writing craps. Letih ok nak menaip seblah tangan.


No, it's not me who is getting married but it's my cousin but i tumpang sekaki pakai inai. My emak started it so we join the fun. But now my emak is in dilemma coz like me, she also wear inai on her left hand but she suddenly has this urge to berak.
Haha.


Everyone is busy except me because I am lazy but tomorrow I can't escape anymore sebab emak sudah meng-aim aku.Hohhhhhhhhhhhhh.


I am bored, I can't blast this place with music like I did every night and the nyamuks are killing me. I must be such a sweet girl that they really like the taste of my blood. Haha.


I become more poyo when I get bored.


I'm off in few minutes sebab nyamuk sudah menggila.
Happy weekend bunnies

She makes me stronger

I am still in my melancholic mood.


First of all, I am not sure whether I should write this but I will anyway. Hope the person would not mind.

Taken from fatdoctor.org

She always this scar on her hand and that always left a question mark on me. Later I find out that it was a result from bone cancer.She is 26. Young and sweet.


I never had the chance to really talk to her until last night. Late dinner made me listen to her story.


She was 17 that time, the peak time for a teenage and realise the was a lump or more like a bone on her lower hand but it was not painful, in fact it was painless. She thought it was nothing until she decided to go for a check up. And she was detained in the horrible government hospital for few days. She cried the whole day she was there. Missing her family and battling her fear.


This is when was diagnosed with bone cancer. The Dr has to replace the bone [not sure radius or ulna] with her fibula, a bone from the leg along with two iron plats. She will be fine, the Dr said if nothing happen within few months of few years [I can't recall sebab aku macam sedih].


And few months later the cancer cell has spread to her lungs. Non-chalantly she told me quarter of her lungs is gone. The Dr had to take them out and will take out even more if they spread to other part of the lungs.


They will keep doing that until there's no more part of the lungs left.


Her family was and still here to support her.Hoping and wishing only the best thing for her. Oh, you should come to her birthday party the other day, you will understand what I mean.


The fact she is suffering form all this, she is always smiling and still smiling when she told me the story. I, on the other hand was terrified and being a cry baby adalah mula terasa hendak menangis.


No, I did not feel sorry for her. Looking at her you know she doesn't want your sympathy so feeling sorry is not what she ask. She..despite her kelembutan and her sweet smile, is a very strong person. I am not sure I would react the same if I am in her shoes. I don't think so.


She is a strong person. She is.


I feel hopeful for her but I must say I am also feeling sad. Hopeful that things will be better for her and sad because all the pain that she had gone through. Mentally and physically.


I know that God is Allmighty, so I wish to Him, at least give people like her a chance to enjoy and unfold the beauty that lies in life. Please let her taste the sweetness after being punt under a painful test.



Her story make me realise how many time in life I feel like giving up and how many time in life I feel like this life doesn't matter much anymore. And all the time when I neglect my health.


But she make me realised there's more to life. So much more.


Her life is no less enriched because of her disease, people like us should have no excuse to be miserable, quoted from someone who I really really adore.


Her last words that night was


"Sekarang ni aku berdoa dekat Tuhan supaya janganlah orang lain kene macam aku sebab sakitnya Tuhan aja yang tahu"


Baby, if they do,I hope they will be strong like you.

L is for the way you look at me

First thing first. Gwen is coming to Malaysia and it was my nerdy boss who told me. So I managed to ask the teteks and it is a big chance that they will go! If they don't want to go, I will find someone who wants to go with me [or force to go is more like it]. Yo yo o je akukan, tengok-tengok last minute tak pegi. Haha


Anyway, it seemes to me that now is musim mengawan [I think AM mentioned in her blog before]. Kalau tak musim orang kawen is musim orang berbunga chenta. I came across few blogs who were insanely in love. No, don't get me wrong. I am not feeling disgusted nor revolted instead I feel something kembang inside.

I wish to say love sucks out loud but who am I kidding man? I still do want to be loved and to love.


Or maybe I should say guys sucks? Ehe . Nolah. Tak jadilah. I still love guys [despite the fact i like err girls]


Ok. Serious. serious.


I think there's no feeling which is more mengasyikkan besides falling in love. In my experience, falling in live make your heart bigger than your body but your body seems to be lighter than the air. The beginning part was the most infatuating, you would probably think of that person 24/7. Tengok mee kari ingat orang itu, tengah hisap rokok ingat orang itu. Nak tido toksah cakapla kan. Asyik-asyik muka die jelah. Kalau tak telefon sehari rasa macam menggelupur gila ok.


What make my heart warmer is when I read blogs belong to guys who were so sweetlah. The fact that I really loathe pengote hingga ke enam kaki ke bawah is undeniable yet I can't say that I get flattered when a guy or guys show their sensitive side and become considerate. Sangat menyintai dan menyayangi but in their kind of waylah. Like malu-malu kucing pon ada, which is kiut. Hehe


Secretly, when you read these blogs, you would hope that things will turn out well for both of them. The blogger and the lover.


But again, love is unpredictable although you think it's something that you could control. Like you thought it would last coz you did everything you could but at the end it does not. Or you love someone but u know there's no way that person will love you back, that's your prediction but somehow at the end the both of you end up together.


You may shout out that you are no longer in love with a certain person but deep down inside you still do and at the end of the day it is that person you seek for although kau dah cakap macam-macam kata cacian terhadap orang itu. Jilat ludah sendiri pon jilatla, apa kira. Because love, make you feel that way.


And sometimes you said it out loud that you love someone when actually you don't but that is the thing that you should be doing. You want to control it.


One thing I am sure about love, when it's gone, when the other person doesn't feel it anymore, there is no use to make him/her stay.


Let go ajelah. Walaupun sakit but to force someone to love you is like forcing your L butt size into an S size jeans. Boleh tu memang boleh, it's either your butt will get hurt or the jeans will koyak.


Like lari topik I know. But nevermind.


I feel so jiwang + penuh perasaan chenta gelora tonight. Like really but somehow I don't know how to say it.


But I think you get my point. Kan?

Open minded

Now, every time I received a message online or email containing words "I am an open minded person" I will cringe.

What do they mean by saying that actually? Let me give you a scenario

Jejaka Miang Undercover: Hi, hOw R u?
Me: Fine

Jejaka Miang: Nice bLOg/niCE smILe/nice whateverla[please pick one]
Me: Tq [actually I would not be this polite but okk]

Jejaka Miang: yOu OpeN tak?
Me: Open?

Jejaka Miang: Open mINdeDla. I ni NakaL SkeT Tapi I oPen.
Me: Okkk

Jejaka Miang: You suka Tgk DiCK Lelaki tAK ? [offering me to view his webcam]
Me: Tak

Jejaka Miang: Sikit Je. I pUnye 12 Inci.
Me: ye ke?cara tulis macam 1 1/2 inchi je *click the X button and the window was gone

3 minutes later

Jejaka Miang Undercover:#@%FTYHG$%* swear+carut

1. Does open minded means I want to talk about sex and it's ok I won't judge you?
2. Does open minded means if a person disagree with you, he/she should get cursed>
   
   

So. It's that mean that by claiming you are an open minded person you could discuss sex and harras people? Ok, maybe it needs an open minded person to talk about sex but will you be open minded if the lady said she doesn't want it and think you dick is not that great and you went berserk?

Kata open minded sangat, apsal tak nak terima apa orang cakap?

Like you meet up with new person and he/she said that he/she is open minded because he/she drinks or smokes or sleep around which it might be true that he/she is an open minded person but when it comes to certain discussion like perhaps you said it was not George Bush fault he had to attack Iraq or kill saddam or something like that he/she get offended and start saying what a bad person you are. And all the worst thing in the world.


Or when he/she like to criticise and konon-konon observelah but when it comes to his/her turn to be criticised he/she becomes offensive and defensive. Mulala nak tunjuk perangai macam lanch die tu.


Now, what is so cool being labeled open minded? Does claiming yourself as one makes you feel good about yourself or does it make you feel so like modern and ko-ol? Like I am so urbanise!


I think the terms "open minded" adalah sudah disalah ertikan.


I mean what is wrong if you are not?


It's like, so what? I don't like to hear your opinion because I just don't and it doesn't matter if you don't like mine.I am not an open minded person.


There's nothing wrong with that. Rather claiming yourself as an open minded person and the only thing that register in your mind is obscene topics.


Lain-lain hal, fail.

Makan at layla's.

Hehe. I have to say I am flattered with all the support towards the previous entry. Aku baca balik dekat blog budak tu rasa kesianla plak [haha]. Sayang you bunnies okies.Like..muahss!


Oh, anyway. The eatting session at layla's place was great. Makanan yang dimasak oleh ermie adalah sedap ok and as usual my diet plan failed. Actually is ws topek's bday [layla boyfriend] but aku rasa layla je yang macam ter-excited lebeh. Hehe. Layla jangan marah


Of course, there are pictures!

Fadzi, chics and layla. My hair!It's long!*Gasp



The food. Oh the satay were full of lemak.I like



chics, keirun, jaja, nikkit and fadzi are always happy when it comes to eating




chocolate banana is tina's fav but she was not there :(

After that they all went to sakinah's place to chill tapi aku balik awal sebab malas nak drive sorang-sorang pukul 1 pagi. I mean budak-budak ni kalau dah melepak tak ingat rumah tapi diorang takpe berteman


And next week, they'll be at jaja's place sebab jaja is getting married next week. And I could not make it coz my cousin is also getting married next week. I asked my mum about it


me:mak, jaja kawen next week, tanak pegi yana nikah pegi kawen je bley ke?
mak: jangan nak menggatal!


Pegi jaja kawen pon nak menggatal ke? Haihh.


Okkkkkkkkkkkk. I know. I know you don't have to tell me.


Happy monday bunnies!

Brainful handling the brainless?

Pleasela. I have already posted many times of people plagiarising my writings and somehow ada lagik. Yang paling best ialah tajuk blog itu ialah Brainful Handling the Brainless?


Are you telling me you are brainful kalau kau cuma mengubah beberapa ayat dari karangan orang sahaja sahaja?


I think I am the only mangsa here, she might plagiarised some other bloggers' writing too. I mean it didn't sound original okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk



Yang paling aku angin sekali, entry aku pasal my birthday pon nak tiru ke? Siap dengan perkataan yang mak aku tulis untuk aku dekat dalam kad tu pon dia nak letak sekali. Tapi untuk membestkan cerita die telah mengeditnya dengan mencampurkan entry birthday 2005 [sila fokues ke 21 February dengan 2006 [sila fokus ke 24 February] maka jadilah entry dia .

Memang macam celake la kan? Malahan kebanyakan entrynya adalah entriku. Don't you know I am a third degree blog whore that I would finally find your blog?


What is yor fucking problemla wey?



Don't you have your own words to say or your life just sucks? Or you fail your karangan?


Wait ,do you know what do brainful and brainless mean?

Oh man, you really adore me don't you? Even the fact I love girls, but I only go for those with attitude [if no brain] ok?


Now don't leave nasty comments about me or use the f words here to show your tidak puas hatian. It will show how keji you are[ more of course] Who ask you to be stupid at the first place?


Or should I say brainless?