i know my blog is a mess.for the time being just be satisfied ok?i'm a buzy lillte bee...

sprained my ankle during futsal again last night..luckily this time it's not so bad.Unexpectedly i met rizal there,have usual chat..nothing interesting except he wanted to have a match with my team..must be losing his mind.

i'm supposed to have a class now but i just signed my attandance and dashed to the lab..heheheh..evil me..

azam is coming back today..suprisingly i didn't feel the excitement.hummm...go figure!!

found a new house..it's filthy and messy but we aint got no choice..see what happens nextlah..

azam is coming back..azam is coming back...

yesterday i heard this song on my way back home with a friend..i found that the lyric is so amusing..maybe for me..

Baby when I think about
The day that we first met (the day that we first met)
Wasn\'t lookin for what I found
But I found you
And I\'m bound to find happiness in being around you

I\'m glad when I\'m makin love to you
I\'m glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I\'m glad when you walk you hold my hand
I\'m happy that you know how to be a man
I\'m glad that you came into my life
I\'m so glad

I dig the way that you get down
(you get down thugged out)
And you still know how to hold me
(and you still know how to hold me)
Perfect blend, masculine (can\'t get enough now)
I think I\'m in love, damn finally

I\'m glad when I\'m makin love to you
I\'m glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I\'m glad when you walk you hold my hand
I\'m happy that you know how to be a man
I\'m glad that you came into my life
I\'m so glad

I\'m glad that you turned out to be
That certain someone special
who makes this life worth living
I\'m glad you\'re here just loving me
So say that you won\'t leave
Cause since the day you came
I\'ve been glad

I\'m glad when I\'m makin love to you
I\'m glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I\'m glad when you walk you hold my hand
I\'m happy that you know how to be a man
I\'m glad that you came into my life
I\'m so glad

yes..i'm so glad..

last wednesday night we plan a suprise party for tina..i enjoyed all the food as usual..hehehe

huhmmppp...life is getting complicated everyday,really..i had a major headache thinking what should i do to proceed with my life.I know the desicion is with me but will the desicion leed me to happiness?

azam will be back tomorrow and he forbid me to play futsal...i'm kinda angry but luckily there'll be a futsal session tonight.aightt!!time to get sweaty and kick ball!

something is better left unsaid..i think that quote is so true.lately i'm getting kinda close with someone which is kinda overwhelming actually.actually it's not a big deal but some issues make things complicated and intricated.

so last night i had a long conversation with that person,trying to find some answer to my questions.i did but somehow it kinda change my perception..towards my self.i know that the person would say something as i expected but the truth BITE ME!

somehow i learn that i am a treacherous person,bitchy and maybe i'm selfish.The person did not say that but from all words i can say summon i have these 3 elements.I'm so regret for what had happen..i wish i could just erase it but what a girl to do??

when i manage to think more clearly now..i know that i was totally FUCKED UP.no use crying over spilt milk..it's not that i regret getting close with that friend of mine..it's just that.. i was so ashamed from the way i behaved lately.

the problem is..i dun want to get untangle coz..i fall..and i keep falling..

i guess..now i know what all the premonition "dun play with fire" is all about..

azam..he's been acting weird and different lately..whyyyyyyyyyyyy??i dunno i wish i have the answer.if he calls,we'll only talk about few minutes and he dun use his cutey lovey dovey voice anymore....i feel so unloveeee..when i asked him why he said..

"tak ada apa-apalah"

sigh.maybe he's tired..maybe he's..arhgg..we'll see..like someone say to me..observing is gooood

haven't write for quite long time..been bz..got my ankle sprained...sigh..but luckyl someone urut it for me and it's getting better already!!

been messing around my life...get tooo involved with something taboo but..what the hell..as long as i enjoyed it..as long as i'm happy i dun care..

not sure whether i should go for futsal or not coz my leg kinda hurt and i kinda got something else to do..but i want to get rid of these fat ass!!!hmmmmmm???so how ahh?

hmmm...what a rainy day..what a lazy day..

last nite i met up with a friend and we talked about guy gurl relationship..seemd like it's difficult to get a good fish nowadays. For me i'd go for the most hard to get guy..hehe..i dunno why..but if the guy is soo easy to get,i'll get bored easily.and for some reason,guys who trid t court me backed off easily..maybe it's because of me?or..the other way around?

i'm supposed to meet rizal but because of the weather..i get lazy..and some other thing came up..so??dunno yetlaaa..

hmmm..i had a bad start of the day today.My stomach is still upset which me feel so not comfy.feeli like throwing up and at the sametime abide the nature's call but sadly none of that happen..urghhhh..please go away..

during last night futsal session i was kicked on my calf..huh and now i'm bruising which is turning to purplish now..i have to forget skirt for the rest of the week then.

might be going out with friends tonight and buying the thumb drive.I can;t stand to be left out of technology!!duhhh

in your room i long to be
room by room patiently
i wait for u,,like a stone
i wait for u..aloneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

this song keep singing in my head..i like it!usually i would fall in love with the song lyrics but this one is different.it just...stoneee..hehehe

might be playing futsal today even my sickness havent completely cured yet..

i woke up late today..the result of losting my mind last night..somehow i can't understand how could i acted so undescent..tsk..tsk..as nick would say "you are such a biatch!!"

i'm supposed to go out with azam today but he just called and suggest something
"why dun we just chill out at ur place instead of going out?"..
erm...which make me think..am i that boring to just stay at house and just laying around talking shit?atleast we go out..and see the world..so u could leave me afterword as u always did..

talked to rizal today..suggested that we should chill out this wednesday...good idea..and thurday maybe i'll be picking up yip to hp..he's leaving next month for UK.

must get bz..my bf will not be seeing me so often this month..

azam came back yesterday but inside him he's not longing to see me..i know..he's buzy..graduation is coming..but i won't be able to see him for the next 3 weeks :(

just finished talking with nik..she consulted me about few things which is sooooo true..i wish i could listen to her but...my heart tell me otherwise..she told me about her break up..and also about the 'friend' boundry line betwen her and the other person..boundry line...hmmmmmmm....interesting

tomorrow might be going out with azam..have fun ...ad wish he would forget to go back to perak..

bored..boring..boredom..three word describe me now.i am so damn bored...

tonight there might be some futsal session which i really want to go..but....hmmmm...

1.i'm in the mood to groove
2.i dun have accompany
3.i have a bad feeling about this
4.i dun want to get sweaty tonight

but there are still chances..besides i dun have any comformed plan for today..might be crusing petaling street ..might be..

yesterday i went for a movie with a friend and we ended riding cars touring KL..i must say i kinda enjoy his company.When i reached home,my housemate were already hitting the club which make me felt lonely for all the sudden.But as i say i tried to minimize my partying time.at 1 i went flat and the stupid guard clamed my car..

this morning when i woke up this phrase keep graviding in my mind
"dun play with fire.."

what the hell is that suppose to mean?Did i get somekind of premonition?or maybe my psychotic mind has gone to the nirvana level?

hmmmm...5 minit to a boring class..there's still enough time to catch my morning call..

maybe my life were meant to be corny..why must i missed my BF every night and day even i have lots of entertainment lay upon me?i wish i can find the answer for that one..

might be going out for a movie this evening..the rest of the day is still undecided

before my bf went back to perak he told me to settle 2 things for him..so this morning i went to fished the first chore which is posting his credit card application..when i wanted to finish the second one i couldn't find the envelope which is soo damn important..i must left it somewhere..after a while searching..i finally found it at the post office,,phew..or else..my ears will turn red listening to azam's babble

ironically..mr.paranoid depends on miss absent minded to settle his chores now..funny..hehehe..

that incident sort of ruin my day..beleive it or not..i even dun have the mood to kick ball tonight!!how bad is that??

hmm..azam just went back about...2 hrs ago and i felt like...making flood on my pillow..hehehe..good news is he might be coming back next weekend but if he does i won't bee seeing him until august..can i manage to hold on?huhuhu.. i hope soo..

anyway..we had such a good time..went shopping as usual..talking craps as usual..testing foods at supermarket and discussing the latest gossip..

uh oh..now i really miss him :(

i have a rashes due to some allergic reaction today..my nape is damn itchy and it's turning to red coz i keep on straching it..:( and now my physcotic mind started to tell me that both of my hands are itching too.

i decided to skip robotic class coz..even though the lecturer is kinda cute but it may lead me to snoring in class so i'd better snore and snuggle up in my bed..hmmmmm

last night i had a small fight for azam coz i was fighting for my freedom..social freedom but today everything turns fine..he's coming back tomorrow!!!can't wait

yesterday as usual i had a blast at the futsal session,but one particular thing keep bugging my mind..i dun want to go to JB coz i think i want to use the money i get to buy some books but i hate to the the expression on my friends face,she's kinda dissapointed.hum..how am i supposed going to tell her?maybe i'll call her today coz i'm heading to shah alam after this.

no ANN class for today..yeeehaaaaa..what a wonderful life!
today azam calls me in the morning several time coz he coulnd get me..just to say happy anniversary!!

i love u too,sayang...