Eve

It's new year's eve and I am at home. Well not mine but still a home.


Probably this is the first time after so many years not celebrating outside. I wonder what will the teteks do tonight?


Despite celebrating the new year in few more minutes, I am less thrill. Probably because I am missing my usual company and probably because 2007 had been such a great year that I don't want to let go. And perhaps, I am feeling scared what 2008 might have for me.

Totally not happy when 2007 has to go

I hope everything will go well.


So I can keep on smiling.


Anyway, Happy New Year. Hope 2008 will bring more joy!

Monday tag

Emak smsed me telling that MJ is sleeping on her bantal. She also told me how lost MJ was, keep walking to my room but to find no one. She looked sad so my mum had to pujuk her.

I almost cry when I read that sms. She is not he only one who is feeling rindu. Everytime I saw a cat I surely will think of her and yearn for her perut lemak. And I missed emak too :(.

Anyway, I was tagged by eleen.


-must reveal the things inside your handbag, as precisely as possible.. and tag 5 others..


baiklah!


Ini tak ada dalam arahan.Tapi aku saja nak tambah. Hehe.Memperkenalkan tuan punya beg.

Jom jalan-jalan![aku seres benci tagline ni]

On the way to the beach. Went there during the weekend. More pictures here.


This is one of my favourite bag. I love this bag because its capability to hold lots of things tanpa nampak keji. Beg yang besar adalah sangat penting untuk membawa burger, onion ring dan kettles [ini bukan cerek ok] ke dalam wayang.

Beg cap anjing.

Ok. This is some of the things. Ada yang tertimbus dekat bawah. Fret not, I will menghuraikan satu persatu.Be hold. Hehe

Sampah kah?

The bag is divided to three compartment. The first compartment is this.

First compartment

Kunci rumah, tissue[Kleenex please], batteries, eye drops, contact lense solutions, hair clip,blister repairs, plasters, bangle,tea and coffe bags and also some packets of sugar [not mine but was assigned to carry], small change and err.. postinor, protection dikala kecemasan. Hehe


Second compartment

Mostly make-ups.

Brush, eyebrow colour, eyeliner, lip brush, lipgloss, compact powder, eyeshadow + blusher set mascara, more batteries, shaver and lip balm.


Third compartment

Mixture of sorts

Osmosis water, sunglass [ in the black case], my red purse, brown wallet [penompang], my phone, other phone [penompang jugak], pencucuk otak err..the stick to secure your bun and finally the shawl that i used as the alas.


Kalau beg aku ni muat letak kasut, memang aku letak. Hehe.



OK.

I am tagging the first five who read this. Or whoever yang nak buatlah okies. Why not 5 people?
That's ok, I don't really like to follow rules.


Enjoy your monday bunnies!

Oh it's him

Babi, aku dah gemuk

I went to to a restaurant to have lunch today. There was a transsexual at the cashier. He [or is it she?] looked like someone I know.


The eyes, the nose, the lips really reminded me of someone. Tapi siapa ya?


The whole afternoon, I keep thinking about it while enjoying my meal. Tak puas hatinye aku! Nak kata I've meet him before in Kl, not possible although they may some possibility in it. Hmm.


Then, like a snap it came to me.


The eyes, the nose and the mouth, the only things that were lacking were the height and the fairness.Resembles a person.


My ex.


Haha. Macam ni rupanya kalau dia pakai mekap.Berunsur keji especially dengan liquid eyeliner yang tebal di mata.
Sikit lagi nak tersembur mee aku tadik.

Today I learned

Today I learned that not only muslims go for pilgrims.
Today I learned there is away for Malaysian to enter Israel although to certain restricted places.


Today I learned some people would rather swallow everything that being fed to them rather than think on their own at the first place.
Today I learned being a Muslim is a blessing but it will be more than blessing if Muslim live without prejudice and just respect other people despite different races, gender, skin colour and languages that we speak.


Today I learned not only Muslim are sensitive, other races are too. Most of the family members had to cater muslim caterers because now one of their family member is Muslim. My in laws stop cooking non halal food in their house since 1 year ago.
Today I learned that not all people who appear smart are actually smart.


Today I learned what is it to feel to be accepted in a family other than my own.
Today I learned openness and willingness to share is a powerful tools rather than hatred


And today I learned, being a Muslim is nothing to do with being a Malay.

Flightplanners

Merry Christmas. I ate a lot today [ when I am writing this, it is not actually Monday yet tapi saya memang suka cheating] but will still eat after I turned chloe off. It's ok the diet will only start next year. Haha. Although, my day would be better if I could have few sips of the red wine but of course I can't. Had to slowly sip my diet coke as everyone was enjoying their potion of the ruby coloured drink.



Today entry will crap about planes and airports. I don't know why but somehow cramping my butts inside the flight last night gave me some ideas.

1. The flight last night was ok except, this budak who was sitting behind me made a terrible noise, menangis half of the journey. Not really menangis, but buat bunyik menangis tanpa air mata yang sangat annoying. Being me ,who dislike [ i try not to put hate :P] kids, I was so close to stand up and scream. Thank God I still have some self control :P.



2. I actually like one fo the stewardess on the flight last night. She was actually one of MAS pretty looking stewardess who have not many jerawats and genuinely gave you pleasant smiles. I know when people fake their muka manis. No offence for any stewardess but selalu aku jumpa stewardess yang cas cun tapi tak cun pon,takpela lagi tapi tayahla blagak macam kau Naomi Campbell bleh ?



3. I love the taking off but hate air pocket [who doesn't la kan?]



4. Everytime during bergegar-gegar sebab air pocket, I fell like.."that's itlah, aku memang nak matila lepas ni sambil memikirkan benda-benda yang masih belum tercapai". Drama queen.



5. When I was small and had to use the plane's toilet, I pray that no one would stand belom the toilet bowl even it's thousands feet below sebab aku tanak sesape kene taik aku. Bangang I know.



6. I think it was in the early 90's when Iraq didn't allow any foreigners to enter their country. My Grandma managed to though since her youngest brother,one of my atuk was the ambassador for Iraq that time. But as soon as she went through the electronic inspection thingy, she was arrested because she smuggled the airlines cutleries. Ko dahla tak boleh masuk negara orang kan, ada hati nak curik barang dari airline die lagi tu. Not only that, if you come to her room, you can see lots of airlines blankets, pillows, shavers[nak shave apa pon aku tatau], segala mak nenek barang from the plane. Nak kata jakun tak penah naik, tak jugak. She went almost everywhere on the globe tapi tulah. Habit yang keji.



7. Ros Kamal always requested for toys or any cute things to give to us when he was on the flight. He stopped doing that when I started working.



8. I wonder how is it feels like to make out in the plane's toilet. Hmm. Macam best.

Ok. Have to go. To eat, to sleep and to God knows what.

Tata 2007

It's the end of the year again, and it passed by within few blinks, again.


I love 2007. Really, I do. No point for guessing why, but one of them is because I managed to achieve all my resolutions which are to remain being happy and ermm.. to love, wholly not just because.


Oh.Oh. I have new resolutions.

1. To be totally stretch mark free. I sort of managed to get rid 50% of them and I tell you it involved a very demanding effort so I sort of fall out while doing it in 2007. But fret not, I have my personal body scrubber now who volunteered not to only scrub my thigh but also my butts and God know how I repay him for his effort. Hehe. Please don't ask me how I do this, not yet I will tell you once I managed to get rid of them. And oh, did I tell you I will get a new bikini as the reward? Can't wait.




2. To get rid of my eyebags and dark circle. I heard La Mer do wonders. If I must, I will visit the beauty surgeon to get rid of them. I don't know yet but that thing is killing me and it has to stop.




3. Ermm. To be in shape. Flat tummy, shaped arms, shaped legs and butt. You knowlah right? This sounds a bit impossible but hey, it's new year!




4. Stop being so nice to people who talk shit and doesn't get it. So, please don't tell me to be less evil and give me lecture on my behaviour if I told you to fuck off. I had enough of weird-supposed-to-be-funny-comment or people who just want to say something although they have nothing to say. If you don't have anything smart to say here, just shut up.




5. Take care of my health. Most of my family members be it close or far died with cancer. I want to stay living and start living a healthy life.




6. Learn to sit up straight. Good posture.

I have some more but 6 is quite a number already.



Happy Monday and Merry Christmas bunnies.
Hope I will be able to blog after I reach my destination tonight.


Or else, Happy New Year too.

Saya budak malas mandi

Hello.Nama saya chics. Ini adalah pukul 2.40 petang sekarang dan saya masih belum mandi. Saya mahu mandi tapi mahu kemas bilik dahulu,kerana bilik saya adalah seperti sarang naga.


Naga itu telah keluar sejak semalam. Dia tidur dirumah lamanya bersama kawan dan kucing-kucing serta anjing yang disayangi. Apabila naga ada dirumah, dia suka menagakan bilik dengan meninggalakan banyak benda die merata tempat.Saya tidak boleh marah kerana walaupon dia begitu, dia suke membasuh pinggan hingaa meninggalkan bunyi yang menciutkan. Mungkin kerana axion. Saya pula tidak suka basuh pinggan, habislah calar dan kasar tangan saya yang lembut dan lemah gemalai ini [sebenarnya saya tidak suka membuat satu kerja pon :P].


Saya juga sedikit risau.Salah seekor kucing saya adalah mengalami ceret beret sekarang dan sangat upset. Dia hanya tidur sahaja. Sudah diberi makan ubat buatan sendiri itu tapi nampaknya masih sama. Marilah sama sama kita berdoa agar die cepat sembuh dan hati saya tidak gundah gulana lagi.


Ok. Saya rasa tibalah masa saya mengemas bilik dan menyiapkan diri mengemas bilik. Dan berchantek chantek.Kerana malam ini naga yang jahat itu akan pulang ke rumah.


Hihi. Saya tengah senyum ni.

Bored bored

May Eidul Adha was ok. Slept and ate the whole day, which is nothing new isn't it?Hehe


Ok. I declare today is the survey whore day.


Tagged by Pjoe

1) Name of a person who made you laugh last night?
Lost of peoplelah. Katanya balik kampung


2) What were you doing at 0800?
Sleeping.Hehe


3) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Facebooking. Sigh, I know!


4) What happened to you in 2006?
Lotslah.


5) What was the last thing you said out loud?
Lapar lah I ni!


6) How many beverages did you have today?
two.air suam and coke


7) What colour is your hairbrush?
Black


8) What was the last thing you paid for?
Nandos chicken.aum


9) Where were you last night?
At my relatives house


10) What color is your front door?
Brown


11) Where do you keep your change?
All over the place.hehe


12) What's the weather like today?
Sejuklah


13) What's the best ice-cream flavour?
Oh oh butter pecan and almond pistachio!


14) What excites you?
Shoes, bags and sex.bleh?


15) Do you want to cut your hair?
Not really. Love the current hair


16) Are you over the age of 25?
Yes but that's ok I still look 17 [haha]


17) Do you talk a lot?
Sort oflah


18) Do you watch the O.C?
No. Aku pon tak percaya


19) Do you know anyone named Steven?
Steven Gerrard! Kacak seta berbontot tegap.


20) Do you make up your own words?
Hehe. They come out from no where


21) Are you a jealous person?
So so lah


22) Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'
Ainul


23) Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'.
Katik


24) Who's the first person on your received call list?
June


25) What does the last text message you received say?
"Isninla, aku malas hehe"


26) Do you chew on your straw?
No


27) Do you have curly hair?
Now I do :P


28) Where's the next place you're going to?
To kedai makan I guess


29) Who's the rudest person in your life?
I have to say me


30) What was the last thing you ate?
Tortilla Chips and beef queso!


31) Will you get married in the future?
Can I?


32) What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks?
The Holiday. Dah banyak kali tengok ni


33) Is there anyone you like right now?
Like as in apa ni crush ke?


34) When was the last time you did the dishes?
Tadik


35) Are you currently depressed?
Not really. Sleepy is more like it


36) Did you cry today?
Did not


37) Why did you answer and post this?
Coz I love survey and such!




Tagged by eleen and AM

- list (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.



1. I am addicted to coffee mate. I ate like 5 scoop every night secara sorok-sorok coz I am supposed to diet .Haha


2. I wish I can control my fart, so I wont feel like farting at inappropriate place like when doctor tekan to check my perut or when the beautician is doing my face.


3.Demmit, the weather is cold and I feel like going for a kench but dah malas coz masuk ni dah kali berapa tah


4. Fieda, June and Baby agreed that I gained weight. Lanch


5. Sometimes I cry in my sleep. Bad, weird dreams.


6. Honestly, I am bored sitting at home and doing nothing. Might try to look for another job where I won't ended shagging the boss.


7. Eh babilah, aku still nak pegi Europe. Nak. Nakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.



8. Except for my mum, I don't think there's any more reason why I should still be here.


Ok. I am bored. Tata

First [k]night.

I was discussing this last night.


How can they say malam pertama itu sungguh indah? Or ungkapan, kembalikan kenangan malam pertama anda? It doesn't make sense to melah.


Because:-

1. You think the first attempt won't hurt? Most girls that I know shed few tears



2. If it doesn't hurt maybe it will be awkward or you just don't know how to react. Just lying there stiff ,when you are supposed to act like jenna jemason or at least share the feeling she [jenna] is feeling :P.



3. That's for women, for guys, unless you just want to ramp anything in front of you, guys should also face some awkwardness like, wtf am I supposed to do now and what does it means when she start to ramas ramas the bedsheet? Where should I put this thing ? Come on, admit it. It's ok, we know. Hehe



4. Or, if the guys is already and expert or perhaps had memorised the theory or did the practical with other objects, it would not be nice if the girl is kayu isn't it?

I don't know if ada orang first attempt dah rasa seperti menawan everest. Well, maybe I am wrong but yeah, to me, the unkapan malam pertama is so tipu ok.


Oh come on, we are adult aren't we? Melainkan kau mat rempit tak cukup umur yg tengah membaca blog ini setelah mendapat link ini dari perkataan "sex", "tetek" dan "main dengan ustazah" yang ditaip using any search engine.


But then again, this entry will add another reason why keji people with sexual desire yang abnormal ended in this blog.


Hey, mine is normal, in case you need to know. Haha.


Ok, aku dah berasa keji. Tata.


Oh,one last thing, selamat hari raya haji.

Chinese movies

One of many things that I missed is good chinese movies. Not to say that current chinese movies are not that good but eh actually to me they are notlah :P.


The movies they have now often have heroes like looks like heroine. The hair, the tight fitting clothes, if you know what I am talking about. Aku pon konfius mana satu hero mana satu heroin, contoh seperti iklan "nama saya rain". Itu adalah sangat keji ok, adakah mahu mengembang hati dengan lelaki seperti itu yang berwajah jambu dan menari-nari dengan simbahan air? well obviously not me.


And the heroine, I don't know how to describe it but the cuteness is something yang dibuat dengan usaha yang terlalu bersungguh-sungguh. Really, I just don't know how to describe it.


So ok, can they just make nice movies like they used to make for example, happy ghost. Hey, that story is bongok I know but I love it and sungguh kelakar ok. Tidak malu semua perempaun itu untuk kelihatan keji , well at times they are cute but not the cute that you find today.


What about the fishy story with Maggie Cheung in it? I always adore Maggie Chung coz to me is she is chantek. And in that movie, she look classy and oh, how can you forgot the song, smokes gets in your eyes eventhough hong kong movie really like to use that song. Like smookkeee get in yourrrrr eyeeeeeeeeeeeessss . Dramatic,dramatic [please read dengan nada berkeluh kesah]


But I must say, out of all chinese movies, I love this one the most. Butterfly lovers. Not sure whether you bunnies ever watched it or not but each time I watch it I will a) cry; b) terasa sangat chenta ; c) nak tengok lagi.

Basically it's like romeo and julietlah tapi it is different in certain degrees. It makes me believe for once, there is pure love yang datang dari hati yang ihkas dan tulus suci [eceh ayatttt]


Dan tidak ada aksi lelaki berupa perempuan atau perempuan yang membuat muka hilang ingatan ala-ala helpless dan tak berguna untuk nampak kiut. Tak ada ok.


And also, i prefer the previous chow sing chee movie without much special effect. Zaman-zaman seludup ayam dalam bontot dan zaman anita mui ada taik lalat besar, or even zaman karen mok masih lagi sudi berlakon as perempuan busuk.


I don't really feel like going to the cinema to watch chinese movie biarpon jay chou ke or segala lancau yang berlakon. Coz you sort of know what you are going to get. Kekejian.


Despite all that, I still have some faith in chow sin chee just because he is chow sin chee and his hairstyle is still the same and I never see him wearing baju ketat lubang-lubang ala singlet di mana-mana. If you did, just please keep to yourself, I prefer my mental image not to be ruin.


Because of that, I might still be hitting the cinemas when CJ8 come out somewhere early next year. Though I am hoping, chow sin chee, please don't fail me.


Aku masih ingin melihat muka dan ucapan "wahhhhhhhhhh " itu sama seperti dahulu.

The Shadow

It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.
- Iris, The Holiday


I love the movie.


I cried because I felt as if she just dived into me and said everything I had in mind.


Although I must say I wanted to add this phrase after the bold sentences
"And after thinking too much, you told yourself to hell with those bastards and you promise to take care of yourself. Hell yeah, you did until you didn't realised you are over protecting it till one day you realised you either can't feel anything or deprived"


I am still deprived.
I avoid talking about my personal life or another person in my life.


Some people said I am being unfair because that person is only like a shadow of me not something that described too significantly. No name, no face and sometimes forgotten.

I told them, I don't need to put any glaring lenses on him.
To me, he has a name, a face that I always remember even when both eyes closed and he exist, in me everywhere I go, whether or not people realised it whether or not people are looking.


There is no need to tell people about how perfect the life you are living in. How sweet the roses smells or even how tasty the chocolates taste like, now that you have him.
The only thing that matter is you know he exists and blooms.


Only you know that,you alone.


And that because of that shadow, little piece of your soul finally came back. And all those fuzzy stuff, those years of your life you wasted, are slowly fading.


Shadow or not, deprived or not, you know he knows that you know. And feel.


He, alone.





I don't have to explain but I already did. If you don't understand, it's ok.
I've tried.


Even it means stripping what I prefer to hide.

Velveeta

I just watched The F Word when my mum's friend, a guy came. I had to go up since I am wearing my shorts. Well, please don't ask for further explaination, if you know my mum, you would understand.


I love Gordon eventhough he swears a lot, oh wait. Maybe that's why I love Gordon and his F word shows. But now Gordon is making me hungry. I saw him making tenderloin with mushromm and cream on top.


Feeling hungry is not good.


Because right now I am really rooting for beef queso. I can go to Chilis yes but I am too lazy and am thinking to cook on my own. So I can eat a lot and pay less. Haha.


The problem is, one of the main ingredients is velveeta cheese and I have been searching high and low for it,tak ada ok velveeta cheese. Some said the closest resemblance is kraft cheddar cheese but looking at the texture macam tak close pon.


Jadi apakah subsitute for velveeta cheese? Or any recipe to make beef queso without using velveeta?


Cepat-cepat, aku nak buat cheesy nachos [with sour cream of course] dan di dipkan dengan beef queso ini. Siapa tahu jawapan kasik tau okies?


Laparrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

My cat the murderer

Two days ago I received a jab from the doctor, on my butt. In case you forgot how did jab on the butt feels like, it feels ok at the beginning but throbbing later. Dan menyebabkan aku berjalan dengan buntut terangkat sebelah. Can't imagine it? Just close your eyes and try your best to imagine it but one thing for sure, itu adalah sangat tak best. Especially when it times to sit down or sleep.


Later in the evening, I fed MJ her food when she came back to me, meowing signaling that I should teman her to eat [because I left her eating alone]. If you didn't know yet, I am the official slave for my cat. I wait for her to eat, drink, sleep or whenever she asks me to. So, dalam kepayahan aku turun tangga dengan buntut yang dikeraskan sebelah sebab aku tak mau dia jiggle banyak sangat when suddenly MJ went down running like a mad cat.


There must something else besides the food, I mean, takkanla sebab nak makan je dia berlari macam kucing perempuan gila sebab dia bukanlah chics untuk berbuat begitu. My assumption was right, she saw Miu Miu trying to catch a bird at the window. Without delaying any second, she too joined in the frenzy trying to catch the bird which make me shouted.


My cats, should never ever harm any animal. Not even kucing jahat diluar. My cat should behave dan haruslah menyayangai antara satu sama lain makhluk di bumi ini.


Because the bird was still outside but trapped between the curtain, I tried to shoo Miu Miu away since she was the nearest to the poor creature. Dengan buntut yang sakit aku mencuba sedaya upaya untuk membebaskan burung itu dari kekejaman. But in the chaos, the bird suddenly termasuk ke sebelah dalam rumah but still caught between the curtain. I drew the curtain to let it free. It was free alright but only for a while when suddenly Mj jumped down with something in her mouth.


Fucking shit. She got the bird. I thought the bird flew away but she was faster than the poor cretaure.


I screamed for help but the other person in the house was too engrossed playing FIFA Championship Manager. Had no choice but to kejar her around so she would release the bird. Tapi apalah yang mampu dibuat oleh seorang gadis [ker?] yang terpaksa mengemut buntutnya agak tidak menjiggle supaya tak sakit? Dengan larian kaki kuat seblah [sebab satu lagi sebuk keraskan buntut] I chased her around until she went under my bed.


Kau ingat aku nak merangkak ke bawah katil dengan keadaan buntutku sebegitu? Tidak sesekali, tidak.


Someone was forced to get her and after several attempt at different places[coz she was so sleekla that cat], we managed to catch her but then, by then it's too late.


The bird was no more alive.

I am sorry and I feel bad that you have to die like this.

I am upset. Because

1. My cat is now a murderer to birds which I too adored and always thought they should remain flying and living freely



2. I would be able to save her if I just let loose dan tidak memikirkan kesakitan buntutku itu



3. My butt hurts even more after that

No. Don't tell me it's cat nature to kill birds and what not. I know that. Like you , I too watched National Geographic and others but still..my sweet cat, the pembunuh?


As a punishment, she was told to stay out from my room but was let in after mewing sadly outside.


Sigh.

New baby boy!

Yesterday, we teteks received a new anak buah. Keirun gave a birth to a baby boy Syed Ali Saifuddin at 2.00 pm after being in labour since 5 am. Gila lama, kalau aku dah rasa nak bunuh diri dah. Tak pon habis semua barang kat situ aku baling.


When we arrived at Tawakal, she was brestfeeding him and she looked calm and serene like ever unlike me and nik yang macam biasa menggelupur sambil mengepit apabila mendengar cerita-cerita horror from keirun and Ito.


Ito, the father of the baby could not be more happier. The moment I heard his voice on the phone aku adalah tahu dia sangat gembira and he would not stop smiling.


Perhaps you bunnies know how unmoved I am by babies no matter how cute they are but today when I look at Keirun as she hold the baby, I feel dah menangis ok. It's so beautiful. Maybe you don't understand why but for someone who know how she wished for a baby after waiting for quite long it is something yang menyebakkan dada.

New baby boy

I don't think by typing that, my maternal instinct is finally showing up. No, not really.


Anyway, to Keirun and Ito, congratulations. The boy is so adorable and I am sure you guys would be a terrific parents, sebab ngkoranglah antara couple yang ko-ol yang aku kenal. Tidak menggelupur disana-sini.


Oh. As the penutup we ate at the mamak nearby and I managed to gobbled 2 bungkus nasi lemak, 1 mangkuk sup kambing [tapi sharela] and Nicky managed to convinced me to eat roti pisand and no I am hook. Sungguh celake.


Aku sendiri pon, tak taula camna aku boleh termakan dekat mamak dan memakan dengan banyak .

The slides

For 27 years I have been living in the same house facing a playground. I love that playground, my brother and used to play together when we were small. All of the playground equipment, I love the swing and the slide the most.


The slide was made of steel with wood as the penggelungsur. It was a fine slide because it will make you slide so fast that you could hear the wind at your ears, plus it's a high slide, well high enough for kids. Being beruk, I love to slide not only hanya beraksi duduk tetapi membuat aksi superman juga. Dengan memakai seluar katuk, menelentangkan diri atas slides sambil kepala kebawah dan tolaklah dengan kaki. Sungguh terasa hebat diwaktu itu. We also like to play choo choo train on the slides but if the train is too long tak best sangat sebab skejap je dah sampai.


Now one day, like any other evening my brother and I went to the playground and I told him "cepat, lumba siapa sampai gelongsor dulu, siapa lambat dia anak [aku keji nak tulis benda ni]".


Maka dari jauh kelihatan dua orang budak berlari-lari sambil menarik baju sesame sendiri sebab masing-masing nak sampai dulu.


I can't really remember who get there first but I remembered playing I-want-to-slide-first and continuing to pull and push each other. We were standing on the slide that that and my brother pushed me as a continual to our pushing game. Least that he know, his push made me fall from the slide, to the ground.


Did I let him stay there and not join the fun? Of course not. Dengan tangan sekecil lidi, aku menarik bajunya which were initially to find a place to hold but he followed me down, to the ground.


And he fall on me.


Then I realized, something is wrong with my hand. Apsal siku aku lain macam je ni? Apasal macam ada tulang terkeluar?I showed my hand to the kakak [maid] and she said "ala sikit je tu, dah pegi main balik" and continued talking to her mates. I didn't continue to play coz it was excruciating but went to show it to my mum. When I showed it to her dengan gelepuran sekelip mata aku telah berada di hospital.


The hospital was nothing but scary. But the scary-est part was during the first night, a nurse walked to me with a tray full of injection dengan pelbagai size. Ada injection kecik, ada yang besar and ada yang bapak besar. Somehow I was convinced that the nurse would took out the biggest injection and stab it to my butt. Dan dengan drama queennya aku meronta-ronta ketakutan dangan linangan air mata dimana akhirnya nurse itu cuma mahu bagi aku makan ubat sahaja.Hehe.


Eventually I got my hand casted. If I am old enough that time, mungkin aku boleh berlagak ko-ol menconteng simen itu macam dalam cerita ali setan tapi apalah yang reti dibuat oleh budak tadika yang hanya pergi ke tadika islam [ye aku pegi tadika islam, heh]


Despite ending with a tangan that can't be straighten properly now, I still love the slides, and the swings and whatever they used to offer. But what made me sad now, most of the equipment were not there anymore.


The other day, when I went for a walk to the kedai to buy ice creams, I realized how much I missed sliding down the slides yet, the wooden and steel made slide was no where to be seen. Only plastic slide stood there, they even changed the swing which were used to made also from tyres and wooden seat and now they replaced it to some kind of rubber materials that when you sit on them, the will squashed your butt, too bad if you have a big butt [like me :(]. That made me wonder.


Why? It was fun. And even to think of it still make me smile until today.


Perhaps it is because of safety reasons but I feel sorry for today kids because they have less fun than I used to.

Christmas is coming to town

I think the weather kind of affected my mood.


But I am cheered up a bit by sweet people in human pets ,one of face books applications who showered me with Christmast gift although it was virtual rather than something real but still!


Speaking about Christmas, I received this notification a little too late. And it really made me upset.

Few hours before receiving the email, I had give a nod when someone asked me whether will it be ok for us to fly back to his hometown for Christmas and since Mas is having special promotion, all tickets bought within the period cannot be changed. So the ticket was booked starting from Christmas eve up to the second day of New Year.

Dan tiba-tiba aku dapat email ni setelah di send banyak kali tapi bounced coz the file was too big. Of course I am upset. I mean, how can I forgot that the reunion will take place this month and how can I not be upset when I really,really, really want to go?


I was offered another ticket back to Kuala Lumpur on the 28th December, a day before the dinner take place because maybe someone tak larat nak tengok muka aku macam taik but I feel as bad as I am already feeling right now if I take the offer. Taikla kan, takkan kau nak balik awal from festive season sebab kau nak pegi reunion kot? I was assured that it will not be a problem but hey, akukan budak baik lagi berbudi bahasa. Mementingkan diri adalah bukan sifat terpuji saya ok [haha, as if!]


Tapi babilah kan, mesti diorang ni ambik gamba banyak-banyak dengan baju chantek. Dahla sebenanya aku dah ada baju yang sesuai untuk dinner itu nanti. Benci.


Dah.Tanak tengok gamba korang semua. Tanak


Oh, oh by the way I am really excited. Jay from candidsyndrome emailed me asking to choose the photos for the wedding album already. I love the pics shown to me so far especially shots by saiful nang.


I look prettyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy [hihihi] even masa hari sanding tu aku rasa rupaku adalah sedikit haram.


I have been in love with his work since dah lama ok. Tapi takde sapa nak kawen dengan aku kan, jadi taklehla gatal nak suruh dia amik gambar so stalk-stalk fotopages die pon cukupla hehe.


Tapi sekarang sudah berjaya berasa getik apabila melihat gamba-gamba itu.
Haha. Sukeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.


Haih. Getik..getik [aku tau korang tengah cakap macam ni dalam hati].
Hehe.

Monday i loathe

Ugh. Today is the day that I feel like taik again. Blame it on my mood swings.Although I know Monday is the official taik day but still as a person who have no preference for day like me it is something ok.


Maybe I should start doing something new. Like go jogging early in the morning or go to gym or urghhh.forget it.


Anyway, how was your weekend? Mine was ok. I got to eat the sought after cendol on Sunday. You see, despite not liking anything made by mamak I developed a serious craving for cendol after eating it at my neighbour's wedding reception, 2 weeks ago. Ehem, perhaps you know I could really be a real pain in the ass when I crave for something


Bangun bagi, "nak cendol".
Nak tutup lampu, "nak cendol".


Kalau yewla kan, bingit ke tak rasanya?


The thing is, when the appropriate time came which is during the day I tend to forget about it. But.. bila hari dah gelap, waktu subuh barula teringat.


So yeah, it was a delighted moment for me, slurping my cendol sambil berdiri menghadap orang lalu lalang. But you know what? As I am typing this, I feel like eating that cendol again. Setaplah!


Oh, I also went to have an evening walk at tasik shah alam. As keji as it may sound, it helped me to bring some peace ok. Despite the fact is so full of rempit who tried to look for opportunity to main korek and raba, I kind of like jalan-jalan at places like that. Breezy and cooling and a great exercise too. It would be much better if ada orang jual roti ice-cream yang ada letak kacang.


The last time I ate roti ice cream was at muzium negara 2 years ago. And I kind of miss it, the ice cream roti I mean.


Sigh. I am telling myself that I should start dieting everyday, but here I am talking about food again.


Sheesh.


Happy Monday bunnies!


Hug me before you close the window ok?

All I want for Christmas

Dear Santa,
For this Christmas I want:-

1. To go to Europe but not backpacking. How can I backpack if I have to bring at least 5 shoes? So, I want to go ot Europe in comfort.
   
   
   
2. My eyebags to be gone. They are so ugly and they make me sad every time I look into the mirror. Tell me Santa, does cosmetic surgery hurt?
   
   
   
3. Getting back my nice complexion like 3 or 4 years ago. Ok, maybe my complexion wasn't that nice but at least it is nicer than now. I can't believe I am saying this, but sometimes I do regret that I smoked. They did bad things to my skin. But they are so like the devil, always calling my name :(.



4. For Woofie to able to see again. So that she can walk and we can play kejar kejar at the taman like we used to. I don't understand how could human be so cruel?




5. That I will finish my study next year. I gila dah termuntah darah ni Santa oi. Cecopekla habih ni haaaaaaaaa.




6. That some people stop to gloat about themselves and their so called perfect life. Worst blog about it. Please Santa, save other people from termuntah darah too.




7. More shoes Santa, and please no more patent shoes. I learn my lesson well from that pretty circa joan and david shoes. They hurted my feet with blisters like taik.
   




8. Make everything smooth for 2008.

Oklah Santa, I nak pegi tengok liverpool nih, sambil makan fries .Tata



P.S: One more wish:-


Create everything non fat or 0% fat so I can eat without feeling taik before going to bed. And oh, please take away my lemak-lemak berlebihan. Tq

Combo

I had jering sambal tonight and I eat 2 pinggan. For lunch I had ubi goreng with ikan 3 rasa cooked by bibik.


Do you know what combo will jering and ubi make?


Big fart. I don't want to talk about the smell. I still have a pinch of politeness in me[haha]


Mungkin keji untuk dibaca tetapi itulah hakikat sebenarnya ok. And I was forced to do sit up before sleeping. Because I complained too much about how much weight I gained.


Now I feel like termuntah sambil mengentut.
Which is too, not a good combo.

Kasihan Mary Jane kerana terpaksa menidokan diri dengan manusia berperangai begini.

Heat

The day was hot and she was wearing songket. Not that she wanted to but she was just succumbing to her mom's demand. She had something else on her mind that time. Bad thought. What could be worst than the mak andam forgot to provide them with the umbrella?


Wearing mighty songket [that scorch even more under the blazing sun] with groups of silat people but no umbrella. The moment her cousin pulled out two normal white umbrella she started to get annoyed. There should be gold umbrella rather than white with some logo on it. This is her day, and it was supposed to be perfect.


How can it be perfect when the bridesmaid is not there yet? The silat people took their place followed by the sounds of kompang.


She hated silat. She hated to walk on the red carpet even on her wedding. She hated everything. She wished they could disappear and be somewhere else rather than smiling to people who are mostly strangers to them.


"Smile, love. Don't be stress" He said.


She smiled but only for a while. The sound of her aunty who volunteered to become the bridesmaid at the last minute, telling her how to walk what to do eradicated her smile.


"Get ready to walk". The aunty said.


She sighed.
She took a deep breath.
Closing her eyes
I am going to hate this, she thought.
Urghh.


Out of sudden she felt his hand on hers. Tight


In the middle of the heat, the noise made by the kompang, the mayhem, she heard him whispered.


"You look so pretty love. I love you"


And he gave her the sweetest smile ever, ushering her towards the aisle.


Walking her first step she know, that will be a fine day.





Now, whoever you are, you need to stop googling already.
I don't like it.

I know you did more than that :)

Chenta itu

Have you watch Green Mile? I did. The second time just now. The first time I watched it, I blinded my eyes with tears [which is not something new since everybody know what a crybaby I am]. The first time, I was too engrossed with the storyline that I missed out most of the tiny details.


That story was something and was not stereotype at all plus the actors did a very fine job but today I noticed something extra. The love shared between a character named Hal and his wife Melinda. If you watched the movie already, you would know which one is Hal, some sort of ketua penjara or something with the dying wife. The one who was suffering with cancer.


It's been a while since I saw a man who really loves his wife like that. The way he cried and tried to hide it when Tom Hanks saw him at the office and the way he cried when he saw how John Coffey[one of the guys who was facing death sentence] bring hope to his wife by curing her with his gift.


And the way he cried when his wife was finally out from the death calling. To me, he could not thank more.


He really make me wonder, is there such love still exist? Adakah lagi orang yang memang mendabakan hidupnya hanya untuk seorang sahaja? Dan the rasa chenta still exist sampai ke akhir hayat, tak pernah berubah?


Itu sungguh manis bukan?


Perhaps Hollywood or even Malaysia movie maker should start doing movie about something like that. Rather than datuk A main chenta dengan perempaun Q dan datin G ada toyboy bernama lelaki T.


Why can't they just spread the love?


I am sure lots of people would like to see something like that rather some story with storyline yang memualkan.


Or is it just me?

Tetapi gila

It's hot these days and my house is without air condition.


Since I was small I have this habit stuffing my face at the freezer to get some cool air and my favourite was my nenek's freezer because hers was always extra cool.


Memang agak cacat but I like.


I still carry that habit until today. Few weeks ago the weather was very hot and I needed some thing to alleviate the heat. So I tuned to my mom's freezer. That time bibik is cooking in the kitchen.


While I was enjoying my time stuffing my face in the freezer, dreaming about maybe this is how alaska might feels like, someone petted my shoulder and slowly said.




"Kasihan, muka udah comel. Tetapi gila"


With that she shook her head and continued cooking.
Tanpa rasa bersalah.


Maybe my assumption that her head will bleed with nanah is wrong after all because it's seemed like dia telah mula menanahkan otakku ini.

Power

If you use federal highway to go towards KL, you will realise a billboard "aku nak power". That billboard somehow disturbed me. Even more when I watched the advertisement.


Seorang lelaki kering yang lemah meminta genie untuk power di malam-malam buta dimana rumahnya suram. Selepas minum kopi dan mendapat power, rumahnya adalah bergegar dan berlampu-lampu.


I don't know why I felt keji. Maybe you know the answer.


The swirly face man then asked me why is it kopi kopi tongkat ali atau kebanyakan produk dari herba menjadikan tenaga batin as their main agenda? I went to a kedai mamak once and saw an old man wearing kopiah drinking coffee with a tagline "untuk menguatkan tenaga batin". That is so euw. Can't they just say "untuk hati senang", "untuk mengelakkan kecacingan" or yang sewaktu dengannya. Plus, I often find tenaga batin advert in magazines mendambakan dada lelaki bidang yang berminyak-minyak. Sungguh keji perlakuan sebegitu


Minus ali cafe [my choice your choice.hehe], don't they know herbs and sumber bumi can do more besides giving a boost for sex life? Mengapakah asyik berbau sex adakah kerana lelaki dan wanita di malaysia ramai yang mati pucuk atau kurang nafsu? I don't think so, sebab banyaknye 3gp bogel disana-sini.


Please, I don't want when I am old, the guy I married pakai bandana and menggetik menari nari naik motor lepas minum kopi.


Aku boleh muntah nanah terus ok.


Speaking about power, I found out there's a kedai who sell sayur asem [indonesian food] at the curve. I don't remember the name but something-something penyetz. The food is not bad. I did not have the sayur asem but will definitely come back for more.


Oh.


The awaited rambut simba, but please take note, ni aku dah letak minyak berkati supaya dia tak menyimba sangat. Kalau tak nampak dan nak kak nam jugak, pegi facebooklah. Hehe.

chics and epy yang suka makan[tapi chics yang habiskan semua makanan :(]

Enjoy your monday bunnies.

Sleeping out

I am not sleeping at home tonight.

1. I left my spec at home and without it I feel miserable. My eyes can't tolerate contact lenses for too long.




2. Oh, it was in the make up bag on my dressing table. Which mean, I left my supply of make up too. Big big problem. Urgh.




3. I am supposed too diet but today I tambah nasi 2 pinggan and ate 3 pieces of donuts. Creamy, buttery, sugared donuts.




4. Now I feel sick for eating too much




5. So I force myself to make the food come out from my body. In fact that was what I had been doing for the past few weeks. I feel pretty and safe after that. And happy




6. Someone tell me I will become bulimic soon but he got to understand, I have to appear skinner than him.




7. I hate my double chin. Aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh more donut please.