Ha!
I watched footbal yesterday [Yes, I know that's so not me].No, am not going to eleborate more on the game.Fistly cuz I don't know how to secondly coz the result was $%%$^%^&%.
Anyway how did I find watching football match?Menakutkan and tak sesuai untuk aku yang lemah lembut ni.I mean I was freaking glued to the tv for the whole night except after chelsea scored their first gol[it was not by them actually..tsk..tsk], aku dah start main-main tukar channel between bola, alicia key dengan cite just married.I can't cope with the tension.Tsk..Tsk..Anyway, I found out something last night..that I'm not attacted to blonde guy.You see,mlm semalam despite all the tense I was drooled over some players with black hair.Like..real black.
I mean, be honestla..Do you girls relly watched football for the sake of loving the game?Or for the sake of loving the players?Me...I dun even know which one tapi aku suke kalau ade sesape yang start bertumbuk-tumbuk.Demm..Malam smalam takde plak.But yeah, maybe I can start watch football from now on sebab ade jugak pemain-pemain die yang hensem-hensem..Hohohohoh..Yes, I'm that shallow I know.
But last night while watching it with my bro
My Bro:Hah!Yang tengah nak buat throw in tu muka macam samsul kan?
Me:Mana?Manadelah.Bongokla die ni.
My bro:Adela, first time aie jumpa samsul dah terbayang muka mamat ni.
Me:Hoh!!!
Kenapalah..Kenapalah kau mesti bring out the subject.There's a fine line between that guy and my ex.
Finnan can play and have balls, in the other hand my ex doesn't.
Clear isn't it?
Monday, February 28, 2005
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Love you
Thank you for being there for me.
Thank you for wiping up my tears.
Thank you for your kindness.
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for the warm hugs.
Thank you for those sweet kisses.
Thank you for being mine.
I love you ahmad azwan!!
Mwah!
P.S:Yes, another pyscho entry
Thank you for wiping up my tears.
Thank you for your kindness.
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for the warm hugs.
Thank you for those sweet kisses.
Thank you for being mine.
I love you ahmad azwan!!
Mwah!
P.S:Yes, another pyscho entry
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Lie
Sometimes we lie because we deny the truth.
And it's hurt when the one that we lie to is ourself.
Pretend to be happy, pretend to be that living is so worthwhile
When the truth is i'm breaking inside.
I wish that something in life can be erase.
So the pain would go away.
I wish our memory is like a computer.
That can be formatted anytime.
But..there's no eraser in life.
I have to be strong.
I have to be strong.
I have to be strong.
Please God, let me be strong.
Please remind me that is much more than heartbreaking
And this heartbreak would heal
So that I have the faith to live every day.
Please God.
And it's hurt when the one that we lie to is ourself.
Pretend to be happy, pretend to be that living is so worthwhile
When the truth is i'm breaking inside.
I wish that something in life can be erase.
So the pain would go away.
I wish our memory is like a computer.
That can be formatted anytime.
But..there's no eraser in life.
I have to be strong.
I have to be strong.
I have to be strong.
Please God, let me be strong.
Please remind me that is much more than heartbreaking
And this heartbreak would heal
So that I have the faith to live every day.
Please God.
Friday, February 25, 2005
Heart Desire
A friend of mine brought to me see a live band last wednesday night as a belated birthday treat. Whoaa. I always love live band not to mention music. Some people like to laze in front of tv and watch football, some people like to read, some like gardening but I love to have fun. I love to dance even I'm a hideous dancer [ha!].
It dazes me how singers could sing their lungs out and perform remarkable dance steps. I swear if I have the voice the possibility for me to sing at clubs is there. Now you know why God didn't sanctify me with a good voice. I can't even sync to the rhythm. How bad is that? To think of it, if I voice out to my parents that I want to be a club singer, I bet they will freak out and my dad will surely have his heart attack long time ago. My mom would probably consider it coz yeah, my mom is cool ;). You know what, I think I'm more an artistic person [hahaha] compared to what I am majoring now. I used to dream to be an actress and when I told my mom about it she didn't objects, it just that she don't like the idea seeing my name in the headline, shagging somebody. Picture this " Chics bercinta dengan kerabat diraja Monaco" Ha!!!
How many of you guys out there really follow your dream? During my final year in school, I made a pact with my best friend that we would be a lawyer one day but now, she is the only one who is still sticking to it [even sampai skang aku tak percaya dia lawyer,hehe].What happened? On filling the UPU form, my mom persuaded me to choose IT. You knowla that time every body is talking about IT. Even the-so-infamous Siti Nurhaliza is singing about it.."Sayang It..Cinta It". It's a good thing that I didn't become a lawyer since I'm quite bad in controlling my temper, leave alone my acid tongue. And yeah, I did it because of my parents. Actually my dad wanted me to follow his track, to be an engineer tapi sebab aku bengap fizik dengan add maths so sah-sahla gagal.
I mean what is wrong when somebody talks to their parents they want to become a make-up artist [when he's a he], a club singer or even a musician? It would be OK if we live in LA but since we live in Malaysia, where we are bind with traditional esthetics we have to play by the rule. "Sayangnya kalau awak jadi pelakon, blaja pandai-pandai[ha, mak aku cakap aku pandai ok] tapi jadi pelakon", that's what my mom said which I think what she meant was "Pelakon? Apa aku nak cakap dengan nenek kau nanti?", maybe your mom would say the same thing too. It's true what she said but what about what I want? Are you sure you are happy with what you're doing now even if you are a doctor, a programmer or even an accountant? I'm not happy and I'm not unhappy either .I'm just ok. Fine, I graduated and whether I like it or not I have to find a job so I can waste all the money I have.Hehehe. But when it comes to satisfaction, it's not there. I mean I wake up every morning , do my job and come back with empty feeling. But it different when I write a blog, when I dance or when I do something what my heart desire. I wish I could do what I really yearn for a living so that I would feel contented but hey, life is not all about me, I can't be selfish [see ag, I have moments when I'm not self-seeking]. Sometimes we have to sacrifice in order to make other people happy even it means sacrificing for what you really believe.
Tell you what, if I have a child [if la kan], I will let him decide what ever he wants to be as long as he have a proper education and as long as it's not being a pimp, a drug dealer [tapi ni memang banyak duitla ok] or an assassin. I will still provide him with guidance but to decide what he wants to do for his life when he's ready enough to think on his own, it's up to him. Ok .I dun like this subject because it make me feel uneasy, so I'm going to end it now.
Think, what actually you feel like doing?
Did you follow your heart?
It dazes me how singers could sing their lungs out and perform remarkable dance steps. I swear if I have the voice the possibility for me to sing at clubs is there. Now you know why God didn't sanctify me with a good voice. I can't even sync to the rhythm. How bad is that? To think of it, if I voice out to my parents that I want to be a club singer, I bet they will freak out and my dad will surely have his heart attack long time ago. My mom would probably consider it coz yeah, my mom is cool ;). You know what, I think I'm more an artistic person [hahaha] compared to what I am majoring now. I used to dream to be an actress and when I told my mom about it she didn't objects, it just that she don't like the idea seeing my name in the headline, shagging somebody. Picture this " Chics bercinta dengan kerabat diraja Monaco" Ha!!!
How many of you guys out there really follow your dream? During my final year in school, I made a pact with my best friend that we would be a lawyer one day but now, she is the only one who is still sticking to it [even sampai skang aku tak percaya dia lawyer,hehe].What happened? On filling the UPU form, my mom persuaded me to choose IT. You knowla that time every body is talking about IT. Even the-so-infamous Siti Nurhaliza is singing about it.."Sayang It..Cinta It". It's a good thing that I didn't become a lawyer since I'm quite bad in controlling my temper, leave alone my acid tongue. And yeah, I did it because of my parents. Actually my dad wanted me to follow his track, to be an engineer tapi sebab aku bengap fizik dengan add maths so sah-sahla gagal.
I mean what is wrong when somebody talks to their parents they want to become a make-up artist [when he's a he], a club singer or even a musician? It would be OK if we live in LA but since we live in Malaysia, where we are bind with traditional esthetics we have to play by the rule. "Sayangnya kalau awak jadi pelakon, blaja pandai-pandai[ha, mak aku cakap aku pandai ok] tapi jadi pelakon", that's what my mom said which I think what she meant was "Pelakon? Apa aku nak cakap dengan nenek kau nanti?", maybe your mom would say the same thing too. It's true what she said but what about what I want? Are you sure you are happy with what you're doing now even if you are a doctor, a programmer or even an accountant? I'm not happy and I'm not unhappy either .I'm just ok. Fine, I graduated and whether I like it or not I have to find a job so I can waste all the money I have.Hehehe. But when it comes to satisfaction, it's not there. I mean I wake up every morning , do my job and come back with empty feeling. But it different when I write a blog, when I dance or when I do something what my heart desire. I wish I could do what I really yearn for a living so that I would feel contented but hey, life is not all about me, I can't be selfish [see ag, I have moments when I'm not self-seeking]. Sometimes we have to sacrifice in order to make other people happy even it means sacrificing for what you really believe.
Tell you what, if I have a child [if la kan], I will let him decide what ever he wants to be as long as he have a proper education and as long as it's not being a pimp, a drug dealer [tapi ni memang banyak duitla ok] or an assassin. I will still provide him with guidance but to decide what he wants to do for his life when he's ready enough to think on his own, it's up to him. Ok .I dun like this subject because it make me feel uneasy, so I'm going to end it now.
Think, what actually you feel like doing?
Did you follow your heart?
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Love Fool
Note:Since aku banyak sangat masa free, so aku takde keje lain melainkan menulis.Excuse me for my long entry.Pls bear with me.Sape nak baca baca, tanak baca sudah.
Why issit when people are in love they become sightless and can't seem to get a grip on reality? Have you ever been in a relationship where you know it's not going to work out well coz it's either you or the other parties having doubts or you both have some unsatisfied issues?? Tell me about it.
I have two friends who have been together for 7 year. Oh yeah, it's along time I know. Then the guy went to work oversea and leaved the girlfriend behind since she's till studying. Before he left I witnessed how this coupled quarreled almost everyday. She would shout over the phone and her shrieking voice will bring the house down every time they faced some arguments and the boyfriend would hit the girlfriend when he couldn't cope with his anger. Both of them are my friend and they both confide in me. I know that the guy is seeing someone else and so do the girl. So when that guy went to oversea, he told me that he'll be loyal for once and for all coz after he came back he's definitely going to propose his girlfriend. Fine. But the girl can't seem to let go of her entertainment [how can when she's pretty and guys are eating on the palm of her hand?]. Among them both, I'm closer to the girl but for somehow we grew apart. I seldom see her but we talked over the phone from time to time. And, she will only call me if she is having a conflict with the boyfriend, which I don't mind at all. At the same time I will correspond with the boyfriend on YM since he's far away. The funny thing is he told me to keep it as a secret coz if the girlfriend knew he'll be a dead meat. I mean, she forbid him to talk to any females alive, even her own close friend. Interesting? Well, now the boyfriend discovered that his girlfriend is falling for another guy but still, he can't seemed to let go coz he claimed he loved her. So I asked him.
Me: You love her. Are you sure you still love her?
The boyfriend: Why are you doubting my feeling towards her?
Me: Hmm..Coz I don't think the love is there anymore. You guys fought almost everyday and you guys called each other bad names and sometimes you both wish you could strangle each other to death.
The boyfriend: Hmm.
Me: Maybe you stay just for the sake of that sodding 7 years.
The boyfriend :Shit.I hate you chics. You're the first person who said that to me but the saddest thing is..It's true. I dun think the flame is there anymore but if I leave her I'll feel guilty.You know for the things that we did..
Then he came back here for a short holiday. He told me he's going to break off with the girlfriend since the girlfriend is less than happy to care that the boyfriend is coming back. But did they break off? Of course not. He gave him presents, she begged him and they have sex and things are back to normal. And now I'm waiting for them both to call me and cry saying how their partner mistreated them.Hoh!!Bodoh!!
I too was a fool once and yeah, it's not easy to withdraw. It's so difficult when he's the only one you see and he's the only one you have. But why put hope anymore? Why do you want to make believe that things will become better when what you feel inside you is shit, shit and super duper shit? Don't do it anymore for the sake of he's the only one you have even when he hit you, call you a whore, being too clingy or even you know that he's shagging someone else behind your back.
I know it's not easy. It's easier to leave the exam hall earlier even when you know you have to pass that paper compared to leaving someone you love [or used to love]. But it's no use hanging on empty hope. Before more time is wasted and more heartache why not learn to let it go. Open up your eyes, you heart and let it go.
Put your fear aside. You'll be lot happier and who knows, you'll even meet someone better in the future.
You'll never know.
Why issit when people are in love they become sightless and can't seem to get a grip on reality? Have you ever been in a relationship where you know it's not going to work out well coz it's either you or the other parties having doubts or you both have some unsatisfied issues?? Tell me about it.
I have two friends who have been together for 7 year. Oh yeah, it's along time I know. Then the guy went to work oversea and leaved the girlfriend behind since she's till studying. Before he left I witnessed how this coupled quarreled almost everyday. She would shout over the phone and her shrieking voice will bring the house down every time they faced some arguments and the boyfriend would hit the girlfriend when he couldn't cope with his anger. Both of them are my friend and they both confide in me. I know that the guy is seeing someone else and so do the girl. So when that guy went to oversea, he told me that he'll be loyal for once and for all coz after he came back he's definitely going to propose his girlfriend. Fine. But the girl can't seem to let go of her entertainment [how can when she's pretty and guys are eating on the palm of her hand?]. Among them both, I'm closer to the girl but for somehow we grew apart. I seldom see her but we talked over the phone from time to time. And, she will only call me if she is having a conflict with the boyfriend, which I don't mind at all. At the same time I will correspond with the boyfriend on YM since he's far away. The funny thing is he told me to keep it as a secret coz if the girlfriend knew he'll be a dead meat. I mean, she forbid him to talk to any females alive, even her own close friend. Interesting? Well, now the boyfriend discovered that his girlfriend is falling for another guy but still, he can't seemed to let go coz he claimed he loved her. So I asked him.
Me: You love her. Are you sure you still love her?
The boyfriend: Why are you doubting my feeling towards her?
Me: Hmm..Coz I don't think the love is there anymore. You guys fought almost everyday and you guys called each other bad names and sometimes you both wish you could strangle each other to death.
The boyfriend: Hmm.
Me: Maybe you stay just for the sake of that sodding 7 years.
The boyfriend :Shit.I hate you chics. You're the first person who said that to me but the saddest thing is..It's true. I dun think the flame is there anymore but if I leave her I'll feel guilty.You know for the things that we did..
Then he came back here for a short holiday. He told me he's going to break off with the girlfriend since the girlfriend is less than happy to care that the boyfriend is coming back. But did they break off? Of course not. He gave him presents, she begged him and they have sex and things are back to normal. And now I'm waiting for them both to call me and cry saying how their partner mistreated them.Hoh!!Bodoh!!
I too was a fool once and yeah, it's not easy to withdraw. It's so difficult when he's the only one you see and he's the only one you have. But why put hope anymore? Why do you want to make believe that things will become better when what you feel inside you is shit, shit and super duper shit? Don't do it anymore for the sake of he's the only one you have even when he hit you, call you a whore, being too clingy or even you know that he's shagging someone else behind your back.
I know it's not easy. It's easier to leave the exam hall earlier even when you know you have to pass that paper compared to leaving someone you love [or used to love]. But it's no use hanging on empty hope. Before more time is wasted and more heartache why not learn to let it go. Open up your eyes, you heart and let it go.
Put your fear aside. You'll be lot happier and who knows, you'll even meet someone better in the future.
You'll never know.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Presence
I received an email quite some time ago from a friend. He forwarded me a story. Although it was long ago but I still remember the piece coz it sort taught me something.
The story is about a couple. They are madly in love and adore each other so dearly. One day, the guy had to go somewhere oversea on work purpose so he had to leave his girlfriend behind for 2 years. Before he left they make a vow that they will still love each other. From the first day he left, he kept sending his girlfriend flowers, chocolates, present and wrote her a love letter everyday, saying how he missed her and all. His girlfriend replied his letter everyday, saying she missed him too and how she can't cope with life without him by her side. The guy tried to comfort her girlfriend by saying he's doing that for both of them and keep sending gifts and flowers as a sign that he's always thinking of her. A year after that his girlfriend wanted to call it off. He was devastated because he loves her so very much and couldn't understand what went wrong. So he asked his girlfriend why. This is what the girlfriend answered.
"I don't need chocolates, flowers or expensive presents from you. All I need is your presence and attention. Someone to laugh with and someone to cry with, someone to hug when I'm sad and someone to cuddle when I'm happy. I know that all the things that you did to me were to remind me how you love me but somehow I can't feel the warmth."
She might be a bitch but that is so true. What she did is just following her heart and voiced out how she felt. To woman, remembrance is not enough, presence completes everything. It's not the guy faults that he had to go away [ but actually he got a choice, not to go for it at the first place] and it's not the girls fault to fell out of love either. I mean when you're thousand miles apart and you have so many things going around you, you might loose the feeling of being love and loving someone. They said "Being apart makes hearts go fonder" but to me being apart makes heart grew apart
The problem with some women [which includes me] is when we are in love, we will put man on top of the list and push everything behind. We can classified these women as stupid [say what ever you want but I don't care].We would sometime sacrifice something that we wanted the most even it means melepaskan peluang menengok konsert dewa dekat Singapore yang aku sangat-sangat nak tengok.Ok, that's not my point. Really.
Like right now, I want to pursue my study overbroad but I don't believe in long distance relationship. I know that some people can but sorry, I just can't. Been there and done that and it didn't worked out eventually. If I really want to pursue that thing, I would surely end my relationship that I have here with out without my conscious. I'm a love addict and I can't live without man. How am I supposed to live and love when my boyfriend is thousands miles away? How can I feel the warmness and the flying feeling when the person is not there? I love attention so much and I need my boyfriend to be here with me so that when I'm sad he's here to comfort me and when I'm happy he’s here to share my joy. Call me selfish or conceited. But you know what? Maybe I am.
Guy and woman have different thinking. To guy, remembering is enough [walaupun kadang-kadang benda yang simple pon susah nak ingat] but to woman, showing is everything. Thousands words won't mean anything if you did nothing to prove it. It's like saying "I love you" but you did nothing about the relationship. I think in a relationship both parties have to play their part to show that they love each other. Showing doesn't mean showering your love ones with money or presents but showing means to be there when they need you the most. Both parties have to put some effort. Effort doesn't mean that have to pretend to be someone you are not but at least do something to preserve the fire or to make it sizzles more. Try to be there for the person that you care regardless how busy you are no matter whether it's your mother, your father or your other half [or in my case,my cats]. Love is not only a feeling, love is to feel, to give, to take and to show.
Hum..By the way, should I still pursue my master? I mean, it would be wonderful to go somewhere where you can start a new life and meeting new people and in addition get a master. I can even buy that gorgeous fuschia-alicia-key-look-a-like coat and wear it there.Uhh..Sangatla tempting ok.
On second thought, nolahhh. He's more important compared to a piece of paper.
But who knows something might happen in the future?*
*Ini bukanlah satu hint.Sekian, terima kasih.
The story is about a couple. They are madly in love and adore each other so dearly. One day, the guy had to go somewhere oversea on work purpose so he had to leave his girlfriend behind for 2 years. Before he left they make a vow that they will still love each other. From the first day he left, he kept sending his girlfriend flowers, chocolates, present and wrote her a love letter everyday, saying how he missed her and all. His girlfriend replied his letter everyday, saying she missed him too and how she can't cope with life without him by her side. The guy tried to comfort her girlfriend by saying he's doing that for both of them and keep sending gifts and flowers as a sign that he's always thinking of her. A year after that his girlfriend wanted to call it off. He was devastated because he loves her so very much and couldn't understand what went wrong. So he asked his girlfriend why. This is what the girlfriend answered.
"I don't need chocolates, flowers or expensive presents from you. All I need is your presence and attention. Someone to laugh with and someone to cry with, someone to hug when I'm sad and someone to cuddle when I'm happy. I know that all the things that you did to me were to remind me how you love me but somehow I can't feel the warmth."
She might be a bitch but that is so true. What she did is just following her heart and voiced out how she felt. To woman, remembrance is not enough, presence completes everything. It's not the guy faults that he had to go away [ but actually he got a choice, not to go for it at the first place] and it's not the girls fault to fell out of love either. I mean when you're thousand miles apart and you have so many things going around you, you might loose the feeling of being love and loving someone. They said "Being apart makes hearts go fonder" but to me being apart makes heart grew apart
The problem with some women [which includes me] is when we are in love, we will put man on top of the list and push everything behind. We can classified these women as stupid [say what ever you want but I don't care].We would sometime sacrifice something that we wanted the most even it means melepaskan peluang menengok konsert dewa dekat Singapore yang aku sangat-sangat nak tengok.Ok, that's not my point. Really.
Like right now, I want to pursue my study overbroad but I don't believe in long distance relationship. I know that some people can but sorry, I just can't. Been there and done that and it didn't worked out eventually. If I really want to pursue that thing, I would surely end my relationship that I have here with out without my conscious. I'm a love addict and I can't live without man. How am I supposed to live and love when my boyfriend is thousands miles away? How can I feel the warmness and the flying feeling when the person is not there? I love attention so much and I need my boyfriend to be here with me so that when I'm sad he's here to comfort me and when I'm happy he’s here to share my joy. Call me selfish or conceited. But you know what? Maybe I am.
Guy and woman have different thinking. To guy, remembering is enough [walaupun kadang-kadang benda yang simple pon susah nak ingat] but to woman, showing is everything. Thousands words won't mean anything if you did nothing to prove it. It's like saying "I love you" but you did nothing about the relationship. I think in a relationship both parties have to play their part to show that they love each other. Showing doesn't mean showering your love ones with money or presents but showing means to be there when they need you the most. Both parties have to put some effort. Effort doesn't mean that have to pretend to be someone you are not but at least do something to preserve the fire or to make it sizzles more. Try to be there for the person that you care regardless how busy you are no matter whether it's your mother, your father or your other half [or in my case,my cats]. Love is not only a feeling, love is to feel, to give, to take and to show.
Hum..By the way, should I still pursue my master? I mean, it would be wonderful to go somewhere where you can start a new life and meeting new people and in addition get a master. I can even buy that gorgeous fuschia-alicia-key-look-a-like coat and wear it there.Uhh..Sangatla tempting ok.
On second thought, nolahhh. He's more important compared to a piece of paper.
But who knows something might happen in the future?*
*Ini bukanlah satu hint.Sekian, terima kasih.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
After that
Hah.Another not working day for me.Sangatla best ok.Bangun lambat pastu isap rokok sambil berguling-guling atas katil.Anyway, today I feel so happy.
I'm so flattered by how many people wishes me happy b'day.On this blog,in my email and on my phone.Tak larat sangat ok.Walaupon aku sedih menjadi 25 tetapi to think of I have such wonderful people around me..I feel blessed.Walaupun tangan ku cacat dan sakit tetapi tetap berasa gembira. Anyway..dad didn't wish me at all.Like old times.Agak sedihla jugak.Heh.Nevermind ..I bet he's bz.Too bz working so I he cay buy me a new car.Hohohohoh
Last night I went out to have dinner with my baby with nicky,bena,tina,eti,ida and amin.Had a blast as usual.Talking craps and all.U see what I mean?Life is so meaningful if you are sorrounded by your love ones.Makan banyak gile sampai rasa cam nak mati.Boleh tak macam tu?
I got a new watch.A blink blink watch.Pink in colour.A present from my baby.Thank you baby.I love you.Kalau u tak bagi hadiah pun I love you jugak.Your presence is more meaningful compared to anything.Tapi sebab you bagi hadiah lagi meaningfulla.Hahahahaha.
I'm having a headache.Sebab tido banyak sangat.Tapi best gile tido.Time orang tengah keje aku tido.Hohohohohohoh.Jangan jeles.
Okla i'm talking craps again.
Tata people.Have a nice day!
P.S:I would like to say this out to nicky and ninie."Korang,janganla tutup blog korang.Blogla balik!!We miss your craps!!"
I'm so flattered by how many people wishes me happy b'day.On this blog,in my email and on my phone.Tak larat sangat ok.Walaupon aku sedih menjadi 25 tetapi to think of I have such wonderful people around me..I feel blessed.Walaupun tangan ku cacat dan sakit tetapi tetap berasa gembira. Anyway..dad didn't wish me at all.Like old times.Agak sedihla jugak.Heh.Nevermind ..I bet he's bz.Too bz working so I he cay buy me a new car.Hohohohoh
Last night I went out to have dinner with my baby with nicky,bena,tina,eti,ida and amin.Had a blast as usual.Talking craps and all.U see what I mean?Life is so meaningful if you are sorrounded by your love ones.Makan banyak gile sampai rasa cam nak mati.Boleh tak macam tu?
I got a new watch.A blink blink watch.Pink in colour.A present from my baby.Thank you baby.I love you.Kalau u tak bagi hadiah pun I love you jugak.Your presence is more meaningful compared to anything.Tapi sebab you bagi hadiah lagi meaningfulla.Hahahahaha.
I'm having a headache.Sebab tido banyak sangat.Tapi best gile tido.Time orang tengah keje aku tido.Hohohohohohoh.Jangan jeles.
Okla i'm talking craps again.
Tata people.Have a nice day!
P.S:I would like to say this out to nicky and ninie."Korang,janganla tutup blog korang.Blogla balik!!We miss your craps!!"
Monday, February 21, 2005
Twenty five
Note:Post ini penuh dengan emosi dan kebosanan.Harap maklum
Today is 21 February 2005 and I turn 25 today. Funny, I don't feel 25 at all yet I feel I'm still 17. I'm still the old me. I still giggle at silly jokes, make faces at people remarks, weep on seeing stupid heartrending advertisements, still talking craps to strangers [and non-strangers,sorry guys] and still seek attention from individuals I love. I'm still like the immature 17 years old Sharina. I thought when I reach quarter of the century I would be someone more poise and someone who would have a grip on my own life. Still remember back then in 1997 sitting on Blok A common room during physical education period, waiting for makcik senah to come with her oh-so-famous-and-delicious nasi lemak, while waiting for my laundry [when actually was supposed to play basketball or pretend to do something during the PE period], talking to my mates, "You know, I swear to you guys that I will still remember this conversation even no matter how old I get". And yeah, I still can feel the feeling, still can hear the sweeping sound of the makciks and can still picture my friends face vividly. My emotion at this moment? I feel cheerless.
There's not much achievement of my life at this moment. I only have a degree which I think is a just a piece of shitty paper and people still hate me. To think about it again, I shouldn't feel miserable. I should feel thankful and contented. Gratified to God that I still can breathe to unfold all the mystery of life that yet is still undiscovered. Plus, there are few lessons that I learned along the way.
I learned that no matter how depraved you are, your family will always put up with you, not to mention, be by your side. I used to grow up hating the fact that my parents were so busy and couldn't care less about me. But now, I do realize, despite thousands of arguments I had with them, despite how insensitive they were, they love me unconditionally. There were times in life where I face difficulties and had no one to turn to, my family was the one who help me to stand still again. And my parents are the one who make me who I am today [ha!]. I would never ever turn my back on them.
The most painful feeling is getting your heart broken. I had my arm broken once. It was excruciating. I cried after seeing my bone dislocated, coming out from the elbow axis but the heartache of being broken hearted is unexplainable. Even when the tears dried up your heart is still bleeding, even it's 5 years later. I still remember my depression when I flunked my sodding prolog paper which I had to extend a semester just because of that one lousy paper but when I think of my past relationship it hurt thousand times more than that. I feel like there's thousand knives stabbing my heart. Ouch..It still hurt until this very moment.
Boyfriend comes and go but friends stay forever. One of the best lessons ever. No matter how far you go or no matter how rich you get, never ever put your friends behind. True friends will always stand beside you and will always be true to you. They will always tell you the truth even it is not what you want to hear. Boyfriend will always try to think of something nice to make you happy but friends will say things that they know will make you happy later on. It's like "Takdelah baby..bontot you normal je" compared to "Chics, aku rasa bontot kau makin besar, better kau pegi gym hari-hari" *frown*. To me, my STF sisters is the best ever. I love you guys!
Have faith in yourself. No matter how appalling the situation is never loose yourself. Believe that things happen for a reason and always look on the bright side no matter how ugly the situation is. Accept the fact that not everyone would like you for what you are, to whom who doesn't, sod them all. They don't deserve to be on your list anyway. You are the one who is responsible for every of your decision and for your own life. Don't let some insignificant person ruin it for you.Pegila mati orang lain kan.
Finally, I learned that the most powerful feeling is love and to be love. Like right now, my left hand is bluish and still soaked with blood, the result of getting bitten by one of my cats after I tried to save him from a catfight. Tanganku berlubang-lubang dan nampak sungguh suicidal, sungguh tak elok dan cacat.Baru kene inject dengan dokter tadik, sangatla sakit ok dan sekarang mmg takleh gerak lansung. I was supposed to cry coz it's really ugly and agonizing which I always do but when I heard my boyfriend sleepy voice saying "Ala, kesian baby..Sapu minyak gamat tau" last night I felt warm. So warm that it makes me smile when I was actually supposed to cry. That sentence is so simple but if it came from a person who you truly love, it can mean the whole world to you. Mungkin kalau ag tak angkat telefon pukul 1.30 pagi tadi, kucing itu iaitu Honey Star memang dah kaw-kaw dengan aku atau dengan ag-ag sekali dah kene.Hehehe.Main-main je by,jangan marah.I sayang you.Sangat lagi ok.
Ok, lari topik.I know.
Fine.We shall move on to the next topic then.It's time to make birthday wish [or should I say wishes?]. My wish for my 25 birthday is I wish that I would still have what I have today for the rest of my life.My family, my friends, my faith my baby,ag. Without you guys my life would be meaningless.
Ok.Time to blow the candle.I mean..Happy Birthday to me!!
I'm 25 today!!.*grin* +*frown*
Today is 21 February 2005 and I turn 25 today. Funny, I don't feel 25 at all yet I feel I'm still 17. I'm still the old me. I still giggle at silly jokes, make faces at people remarks, weep on seeing stupid heartrending advertisements, still talking craps to strangers [and non-strangers,sorry guys] and still seek attention from individuals I love. I'm still like the immature 17 years old Sharina. I thought when I reach quarter of the century I would be someone more poise and someone who would have a grip on my own life. Still remember back then in 1997 sitting on Blok A common room during physical education period, waiting for makcik senah to come with her oh-so-famous-and-delicious nasi lemak, while waiting for my laundry [when actually was supposed to play basketball or pretend to do something during the PE period], talking to my mates, "You know, I swear to you guys that I will still remember this conversation even no matter how old I get". And yeah, I still can feel the feeling, still can hear the sweeping sound of the makciks and can still picture my friends face vividly. My emotion at this moment? I feel cheerless.
There's not much achievement of my life at this moment. I only have a degree which I think is a just a piece of shitty paper and people still hate me. To think about it again, I shouldn't feel miserable. I should feel thankful and contented. Gratified to God that I still can breathe to unfold all the mystery of life that yet is still undiscovered. Plus, there are few lessons that I learned along the way.
I learned that no matter how depraved you are, your family will always put up with you, not to mention, be by your side. I used to grow up hating the fact that my parents were so busy and couldn't care less about me. But now, I do realize, despite thousands of arguments I had with them, despite how insensitive they were, they love me unconditionally. There were times in life where I face difficulties and had no one to turn to, my family was the one who help me to stand still again. And my parents are the one who make me who I am today [ha!]. I would never ever turn my back on them.
The most painful feeling is getting your heart broken. I had my arm broken once. It was excruciating. I cried after seeing my bone dislocated, coming out from the elbow axis but the heartache of being broken hearted is unexplainable. Even when the tears dried up your heart is still bleeding, even it's 5 years later. I still remember my depression when I flunked my sodding prolog paper which I had to extend a semester just because of that one lousy paper but when I think of my past relationship it hurt thousand times more than that. I feel like there's thousand knives stabbing my heart. Ouch..It still hurt until this very moment.
Boyfriend comes and go but friends stay forever. One of the best lessons ever. No matter how far you go or no matter how rich you get, never ever put your friends behind. True friends will always stand beside you and will always be true to you. They will always tell you the truth even it is not what you want to hear. Boyfriend will always try to think of something nice to make you happy but friends will say things that they know will make you happy later on. It's like "Takdelah baby..bontot you normal je" compared to "Chics, aku rasa bontot kau makin besar, better kau pegi gym hari-hari" *frown*. To me, my STF sisters is the best ever. I love you guys!
Have faith in yourself. No matter how appalling the situation is never loose yourself. Believe that things happen for a reason and always look on the bright side no matter how ugly the situation is. Accept the fact that not everyone would like you for what you are, to whom who doesn't, sod them all. They don't deserve to be on your list anyway. You are the one who is responsible for every of your decision and for your own life. Don't let some insignificant person ruin it for you.Pegila mati orang lain kan.
Finally, I learned that the most powerful feeling is love and to be love. Like right now, my left hand is bluish and still soaked with blood, the result of getting bitten by one of my cats after I tried to save him from a catfight. Tanganku berlubang-lubang dan nampak sungguh suicidal, sungguh tak elok dan cacat.Baru kene inject dengan dokter tadik, sangatla sakit ok dan sekarang mmg takleh gerak lansung. I was supposed to cry coz it's really ugly and agonizing which I always do but when I heard my boyfriend sleepy voice saying "Ala, kesian baby..Sapu minyak gamat tau" last night I felt warm. So warm that it makes me smile when I was actually supposed to cry. That sentence is so simple but if it came from a person who you truly love, it can mean the whole world to you. Mungkin kalau ag tak angkat telefon pukul 1.30 pagi tadi, kucing itu iaitu Honey Star memang dah kaw-kaw dengan aku atau dengan ag-ag sekali dah kene.Hehehe.Main-main je by,jangan marah.I sayang you.Sangat lagi ok.
Ok, lari topik.I know.
Fine.We shall move on to the next topic then.It's time to make birthday wish [or should I say wishes?]. My wish for my 25 birthday is I wish that I would still have what I have today for the rest of my life.My family, my friends, my faith my baby,ag. Without you guys my life would be meaningless.
Ok.Time to blow the candle.I mean..Happy Birthday to me!!
I'm 25 today!!.*grin* +*frown*
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Letter to ex-boyfriend
Regards to you, my Ex-boyfriend,
I had a sleepless night last night. I can't help myself from thinking about what had happen between us.
I used to think what went wrong but now I succumbed to God's will that we were never meant to be. It's true that I'm the one who decided it's enough and we should go on our separate way but that doesn't mean that I'm happy and proud of it. I am not. My life was miserable and meaningless the day I walked away but I had to do that because both of us knew that there's no point continuing on the relationship. You didn't prove any point so I had to look for my own way. You used to be the only one in my heart. I swear to you that you are the only one even you always doubt my loyalty but hey, I'm a one-man girl. U treated me like princess like no one ever treated me before and made me so loved and at the point I believe that you were the one for me but yeah, God know better.
Even when we are not an item anymore, my mom can never forget you. To her you are like her other son. The one that she will always remember and wish that her only daughter will marry to, even until this point. I knew that she stills calls you and smsed you and she even wrote you letters. I know that even though she never admits it. That shows how much she loves you. So what your brother did to my mom yesterday was just unacceptable. How could he called her up and called her with nasty names? Did I ever called your mom "orang tua tak sedar diri" or "orang tua nak mampus" and other nasty names?.It broke her heart and made her cried.Did I ever do that to you? Did I ever did say mean things about your family regardless they disgraced me by saying that I'm not good enough for you? It's just not fair. She is my mother, the only mother I have in this world and she means the world to me! Despite many arguments I had with her, I still love her unconditionally. How would you feel if my brother calls your mom up and say nasty things to her? How would you feel? What had she did wrong to you? For all this while, she is the one who stood for you even I am her own daughter. Did you know that we fought just because of you? That she always tried to convinced me to forgive you? I tried to call you up so many times, demanding an explanation. I even smsed and leave a voice mail for you but why didn't you return my call?Why did you keep running away? I know that I'm not good enough for you and your family because the way I'm being brought up and because of the way I carry myself but at least I never say such words to elder people .Despite my blond a-like hair, my pierced nose and the undiscerning ways of my dressing sense. I still know my limit. I still know what is the meaning of respect.
If you are angry with me, talk to me. I'm the one that you should throw all those angriness to. Not my mother. Do you know that how you ruined my life? I had to change my job, my phone number and I'm moving out soon. I nearly went crazy because of you until I met a very wonderful guy. Such a special person who filled my days, and loves me in his unique way and thanks to him I manage to patch my life again.
Please, I'm begging you to leave my family alone. I am not going to say I'm sorry coz I'm not. We were supposed to get married this year and thank God it did not went that way or else how just can't imagine how should I live my life with someone who own a family who hate me so much. And thanks to you, I don't think I want to get married..ever. The pain is too much. I don't think I want to go through all those painful experience again.Please..Please stop hurting me..Please let me be happy. I can't take it anymore.It's enough!
I never say this to any one but I'm going to say this now .
I regret meeting you in my life.
I had a sleepless night last night. I can't help myself from thinking about what had happen between us.
I used to think what went wrong but now I succumbed to God's will that we were never meant to be. It's true that I'm the one who decided it's enough and we should go on our separate way but that doesn't mean that I'm happy and proud of it. I am not. My life was miserable and meaningless the day I walked away but I had to do that because both of us knew that there's no point continuing on the relationship. You didn't prove any point so I had to look for my own way. You used to be the only one in my heart. I swear to you that you are the only one even you always doubt my loyalty but hey, I'm a one-man girl. U treated me like princess like no one ever treated me before and made me so loved and at the point I believe that you were the one for me but yeah, God know better.
Even when we are not an item anymore, my mom can never forget you. To her you are like her other son. The one that she will always remember and wish that her only daughter will marry to, even until this point. I knew that she stills calls you and smsed you and she even wrote you letters. I know that even though she never admits it. That shows how much she loves you. So what your brother did to my mom yesterday was just unacceptable. How could he called her up and called her with nasty names? Did I ever called your mom "orang tua tak sedar diri" or "orang tua nak mampus" and other nasty names?.It broke her heart and made her cried.Did I ever do that to you? Did I ever did say mean things about your family regardless they disgraced me by saying that I'm not good enough for you? It's just not fair. She is my mother, the only mother I have in this world and she means the world to me! Despite many arguments I had with her, I still love her unconditionally. How would you feel if my brother calls your mom up and say nasty things to her? How would you feel? What had she did wrong to you? For all this while, she is the one who stood for you even I am her own daughter. Did you know that we fought just because of you? That she always tried to convinced me to forgive you? I tried to call you up so many times, demanding an explanation. I even smsed and leave a voice mail for you but why didn't you return my call?Why did you keep running away? I know that I'm not good enough for you and your family because the way I'm being brought up and because of the way I carry myself but at least I never say such words to elder people .Despite my blond a-like hair, my pierced nose and the undiscerning ways of my dressing sense. I still know my limit. I still know what is the meaning of respect.
If you are angry with me, talk to me. I'm the one that you should throw all those angriness to. Not my mother. Do you know that how you ruined my life? I had to change my job, my phone number and I'm moving out soon. I nearly went crazy because of you until I met a very wonderful guy. Such a special person who filled my days, and loves me in his unique way and thanks to him I manage to patch my life again.
Please, I'm begging you to leave my family alone. I am not going to say I'm sorry coz I'm not. We were supposed to get married this year and thank God it did not went that way or else how just can't imagine how should I live my life with someone who own a family who hate me so much. And thanks to you, I don't think I want to get married..ever. The pain is too much. I don't think I want to go through all those painful experience again.Please..Please stop hurting me..Please let me be happy. I can't take it anymore.It's enough!
I never say this to any one but I'm going to say this now .
I regret meeting you in my life.
Friday, February 18, 2005
Songs
I'm have a mixture of feelings today.Of angry and happy.Angry coz I always became a punching bag every time my brother screwed up and am happy coz today is my second last day at this company.
I love music.I love music especially when it's lyric made it through my heart.Many people would hook up to some songs because of the singer or melody but the lyric of the song always caught my attention.I have fetish for indonesian songs coz to me the lyrics really fits the melody.Can you just imagine even when I'm in happy mood but when I watched the vidzclip of indonesian songs I can cry?My latest crave is "Ku katakan dengan indah" by Peterpan.The singer is ok but the chica in the vidzclip is not ok.Her face is cute but as soon as she open her mouth.Oh my,gigi berterabur gile.Fail habis, patah semangat kelesbianan aku.Tak meransang lansung.
The song is about a guy who thought the girl he felt for shared a mutual feeling but actually she's not.Kira ni kes bertepuk sebelah tanganla ni.I tried to upload the song but hey again..graffiti is down.Anyway here's the lyric
Ku katakan Dengan Indah-Peterpan
Kukatakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya
Kau beri rasa
Yang berbeda
Mungkin kusalah
Mengartikannya
Yang kurasa cinta
* Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu
Selalu meninggikanmu
** Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagih
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
back to *
Membuatku terjatuh
Dan terjatuh lagi
** Membuatku merasakan
Yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik
Dan terlewati
Semua yang terhenti
Tanpa kuakhiri
Well, actually there are many other indonesian songs that i'm looking for malangnya I only manage to find this song.So anybody know any to download indonesian songs?Or do you have the latest song on your list..and can I download it?Hehehe..
Anyway, do you have songs that represent your mood?I do!!
Happy Song
.:Crazy In Love-Beyonce & Jay Z
.:Picture of You- Boyzone
.:Not that type of Lady- Camelia & Urban Exchange
I'm-thinking-of-my-baby Song
.:Angels or devils -Dishwalla
.:Kosong- Dewa
.:These words- Natasha Beddingfield
.:Kau Ilhamku-Man Bai[haha!]
Sappy Sad Song
.:Akhir cerita cinta- Glenn Fredly
.:Pupus-Dewa
.:Aku Bukan untukmu-Rossa
.:Over & Over-Nelly
.:Vindicated-Dashboard Confessional
Feel Good Song
.:Awan yang terpilu-Ning Baizura
.:Sexed up-Robbie William
.:Bittersweet Symphony- The Verve
.:Betterman-Robbie William
.:Breakaway-Kelly Clarkson
Girl Power/Fuck You Song
.:Since You been Gone-Kelly Clarkson
.:You had Me-Joss Stone
.:Hit 'Em Style-Blu Cantrell
.:I will Survive-Tak tau camne nak eje
.:I don't want you back-Eamon
Sexy Song
.:I know what you want-Mariah Carey
.:In da Club-50 cents
What songs affect your mood?
I love music.I love music especially when it's lyric made it through my heart.Many people would hook up to some songs because of the singer or melody but the lyric of the song always caught my attention.I have fetish for indonesian songs coz to me the lyrics really fits the melody.Can you just imagine even when I'm in happy mood but when I watched the vidzclip of indonesian songs I can cry?My latest crave is "Ku katakan dengan indah" by Peterpan.The singer is ok but the chica in the vidzclip is not ok.Her face is cute but as soon as she open her mouth.Oh my,gigi berterabur gile.Fail habis, patah semangat kelesbianan aku.Tak meransang lansung.
The song is about a guy who thought the girl he felt for shared a mutual feeling but actually she's not.Kira ni kes bertepuk sebelah tanganla ni.I tried to upload the song but hey again..graffiti is down.Anyway here's the lyric
Ku katakan Dengan Indah-Peterpan
Kukatakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya
Kau beri rasa
Yang berbeda
Mungkin kusalah
Mengartikannya
Yang kurasa cinta
* Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu
Selalu meninggikanmu
** Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagih
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
back to *
Membuatku terjatuh
Dan terjatuh lagi
** Membuatku merasakan
Yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik
Dan terlewati
Semua yang terhenti
Tanpa kuakhiri
Well, actually there are many other indonesian songs that i'm looking for malangnya I only manage to find this song.So anybody know any to download indonesian songs?Or do you have the latest song on your list..and can I download it?Hehehe..
Anyway, do you have songs that represent your mood?I do!!
Happy Song
.:Crazy In Love-Beyonce & Jay Z
.:Picture of You- Boyzone
.:Not that type of Lady- Camelia & Urban Exchange
I'm-thinking-of-my-baby Song
.:Angels or devils -Dishwalla
.:Kosong- Dewa
.:These words- Natasha Beddingfield
.:Kau Ilhamku-Man Bai[haha!]
Sappy Sad Song
.:Akhir cerita cinta- Glenn Fredly
.:Pupus-Dewa
.:Aku Bukan untukmu-Rossa
.:Over & Over-Nelly
.:Vindicated-Dashboard Confessional
Feel Good Song
.:Awan yang terpilu-Ning Baizura
.:Sexed up-Robbie William
.:Bittersweet Symphony- The Verve
.:Betterman-Robbie William
.:Breakaway-Kelly Clarkson
Girl Power/Fuck You Song
.:Since You been Gone-Kelly Clarkson
.:You had Me-Joss Stone
.:Hit 'Em Style-Blu Cantrell
.:I will Survive-Tak tau camne nak eje
.:I don't want you back-Eamon
Sexy Song
.:I know what you want-Mariah Carey
.:In da Club-50 cents
What songs affect your mood?
Thursday, February 17, 2005
The power of forgiveness
Someone added me on her YM list yesterday. At first I didn't know who she was until she addressed me as "Kak Sharina". Hell, only STfian call me by my full name [and my mom when she's angry]. And since she addressed me as kak, she must be younger than me.You see that's what I like about my school, we were trained to respect elder people [haha!].She turned up to be my junior, one of the junior that I still can remember until now.Not only me.I bet majority of my batch still remember her.
It was 1997, I was the senior, the king of the school. One of my friends was telling us that she was furious with some juniors, to be precise 3 of them for some reason. Back then if we feel 'tak puas' hati with junior we will call them up and give them our piece of mind. We called it 'lecture'. According to my friend they were rude, making up and spreading rumors about my friends and for some other reason that I can't recall .Hohoh.U don't know how much pleasure we got from the lecturing session back then. Best giller marah-marah and buat orang nangis ok. It's sort of a tradition. I was a junior once and I too went through it so given that I was a senior that time I guess we are just succeeding what's being left by our seniors. I know in boys school those girls were probably beaten up to death but hey, we are girls and we are more subtle and still full of mercy. To cut the story short that night after 11.15 which is the time for light off, me and my dormate went to those girls dorm where my other 3 friends already there since it's their dorm. At the outset it was only like 5 of us until almost of the fivers joined, the sort who was dread by juniors. Hehehe.I bet they were up for some entertainment themselves. We lined up those three girls in a straight line and demanded them to line up straight as if they were about to sing the national anthem and everybody began questioning. The mellifluous session then heated up to swearing and uproaring session especially after more and more fivers approached. I bet everybody heard we how we harassed those girls coz I swear my throat hurt after that but nobody did anything and I wonder why. To make the situation more interesting we smacked their faces, flooded them with water[I hope it's clean water] and smacked their head with whatever we can reach namely magazines, gayung and er..tak ingat.The session went until 4 a.m where the dorm was totally packed with us, torturing those girls. Eventually, they cried and we took pictures of them weeping, with smiling and proud faces of us as the background. When I think of it now, I can't believe how mean I was but hey, that's a part of living in a boarding school.
The story did not end there, turn out to be one of the girls somehow got her hand on the picture and passed to one of our teacher. Not sure who she was but I bet she was the 'garang' one. Not only that, she reported to her father who is 'somebody' and not to mention garang too. Even though almost all fivers were there the night that thing happened only few names were called up including me, fadzi and nicky.Tapi aku tak puas hati nikkit tak kene, dahla sah-sah muka penyangak skolah tapi sebab dia tukang ambik gamba she got away with it.Tak adil!!Anyway, we had to go through some sort-of-eyes to eyes session with board of discipline, those 3 girls and the father.After some bla..bla..bla.. session, the father insisted us all to be expelled. Since we were expected to sit for SPM we did not get expelled. Only two girls were suspended for some period and the rest had to do some 'kerja berat'.Two of us there were prefects and after that day they were normal people like me.
Oh yeah, we did had vengeance towards those girls back then but we did nothing after that until we left that school, I guess isolation from their own friends was enough. From what I heard after that, those girls blossomed to be wonderful people after that. Before that incident, they were not so likeable by their friends but later, things changed. One of them develop into a school debater and scored full A's during SPM and now pursuing her degree in UK, one studying in OZ and the one who I've been talking to yesterday is currently studying here.
What surprised me was two of them added me in their friendster list and the girl I chatted with yesterday said something that make me serba salah for the first time.
"Kak Sharina sorry kalau kite penah buat korang susah dulu.Memang kitorang agak teruk dulu.Thanks anyway"
She said sorry and thank you..after what we did to her.After making her life a living hell in school .Kalaulah aku yang kene macam tu..hehehe..tak taulah camne.
That show how powerful forgiveness can be.It can touch a heart even a stone heart like me. Hum.. Maybe I can start forgiving that particular person now. Should I?
Nahhhhhh!!!
It was 1997, I was the senior, the king of the school. One of my friends was telling us that she was furious with some juniors, to be precise 3 of them for some reason. Back then if we feel 'tak puas' hati with junior we will call them up and give them our piece of mind. We called it 'lecture'. According to my friend they were rude, making up and spreading rumors about my friends and for some other reason that I can't recall .Hohoh.U don't know how much pleasure we got from the lecturing session back then. Best giller marah-marah and buat orang nangis ok. It's sort of a tradition. I was a junior once and I too went through it so given that I was a senior that time I guess we are just succeeding what's being left by our seniors. I know in boys school those girls were probably beaten up to death but hey, we are girls and we are more subtle and still full of mercy. To cut the story short that night after 11.15 which is the time for light off, me and my dormate went to those girls dorm where my other 3 friends already there since it's their dorm. At the outset it was only like 5 of us until almost of the fivers joined, the sort who was dread by juniors. Hehehe.I bet they were up for some entertainment themselves. We lined up those three girls in a straight line and demanded them to line up straight as if they were about to sing the national anthem and everybody began questioning. The mellifluous session then heated up to swearing and uproaring session especially after more and more fivers approached. I bet everybody heard we how we harassed those girls coz I swear my throat hurt after that but nobody did anything and I wonder why. To make the situation more interesting we smacked their faces, flooded them with water[I hope it's clean water] and smacked their head with whatever we can reach namely magazines, gayung and er..tak ingat.The session went until 4 a.m where the dorm was totally packed with us, torturing those girls. Eventually, they cried and we took pictures of them weeping, with smiling and proud faces of us as the background. When I think of it now, I can't believe how mean I was but hey, that's a part of living in a boarding school.
The story did not end there, turn out to be one of the girls somehow got her hand on the picture and passed to one of our teacher. Not sure who she was but I bet she was the 'garang' one. Not only that, she reported to her father who is 'somebody' and not to mention garang too. Even though almost all fivers were there the night that thing happened only few names were called up including me, fadzi and nicky.Tapi aku tak puas hati nikkit tak kene, dahla sah-sah muka penyangak skolah tapi sebab dia tukang ambik gamba she got away with it.Tak adil!!Anyway, we had to go through some sort-of-eyes to eyes session with board of discipline, those 3 girls and the father.After some bla..bla..bla.. session, the father insisted us all to be expelled. Since we were expected to sit for SPM we did not get expelled. Only two girls were suspended for some period and the rest had to do some 'kerja berat'.Two of us there were prefects and after that day they were normal people like me.
Oh yeah, we did had vengeance towards those girls back then but we did nothing after that until we left that school, I guess isolation from their own friends was enough. From what I heard after that, those girls blossomed to be wonderful people after that. Before that incident, they were not so likeable by their friends but later, things changed. One of them develop into a school debater and scored full A's during SPM and now pursuing her degree in UK, one studying in OZ and the one who I've been talking to yesterday is currently studying here.
What surprised me was two of them added me in their friendster list and the girl I chatted with yesterday said something that make me serba salah for the first time.
"Kak Sharina sorry kalau kite penah buat korang susah dulu.Memang kitorang agak teruk dulu.Thanks anyway"
She said sorry and thank you..after what we did to her.After making her life a living hell in school .Kalaulah aku yang kene macam tu..hehehe..tak taulah camne.
That show how powerful forgiveness can be.It can touch a heart even a stone heart like me. Hum.. Maybe I can start forgiving that particular person now. Should I?
Nahhhhhh!!!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Kosong
Ahhh..Am not working today.I woke up this morning feeling so lazy but because of the urge wanted too pee I woke up and then spoke to my mom "Malas ah nak gi keje" and continued sleeping.Untill someone called me up probobly coz he didn't see me online on his YM list.I know that he missed meHihihih.
Today is supposed to be the last day for me at my current company since I have leave balance left but My boss did not approave my leave so..Had to work till this Saturday.Apelah, sabtu pon kene keje.I was so pissed off and I guess it shows so my boss said something like "Nevermindla, we'll pay you cash[or issit cheques]for the balace of the days".It's not about the moneyla it's about aku dah malas.Like I have a choice anyway pon kan..whether I like it or not I still have to work till saturday.hah!!
Anyway, to those who can listen to my background sound, I want to ask you guys whatdo you think about the song.I mean what does it really mean.Here's the lyric.
Kosong-Dewa
Kamu seperti hantu
Terus menghantuiku
Ke mana pun tubuhku pergi
Kau terus membayangi aku
Salahku biarkan kamu
Bermain dengan hatiku
Aku tak bisa memusnahkan
Kau dari pikiranku ini
Di dalam keramaian aku masih merasa sepi
Sendiri memikirkan kamu
Kau genggam hatiku
Dan kau tuliskan namamu
Kau tulis namamu
Tubuhku ada di sini
Tetapi tidak jiwaku
Kosong yang hanya kurasakan
Kau telah tinggal di hatiku
To me it's about someone who is totally in love someone that the guy/gurl haunt her.I have been believing that for about 5 years but yesterday someone told me that
"Oh, you sampai hati cakap u rasa kosong bila dengan i "
Sengal gile aku rase.Ke aku yang fail BM dengan begitu teruk skali?
Confuselah.
So apa maksud sebenanr lagu ni?
Today is supposed to be the last day for me at my current company since I have leave balance left but My boss did not approave my leave so..Had to work till this Saturday.Apelah, sabtu pon kene keje.I was so pissed off and I guess it shows so my boss said something like "Nevermindla, we'll pay you cash[or issit cheques]for the balace of the days".It's not about the moneyla it's about aku dah malas.Like I have a choice anyway pon kan..whether I like it or not I still have to work till saturday.hah!!
Anyway, to those who can listen to my background sound, I want to ask you guys whatdo you think about the song.I mean what does it really mean.Here's the lyric.
Kosong-Dewa
Kamu seperti hantu
Terus menghantuiku
Ke mana pun tubuhku pergi
Kau terus membayangi aku
Salahku biarkan kamu
Bermain dengan hatiku
Aku tak bisa memusnahkan
Kau dari pikiranku ini
Di dalam keramaian aku masih merasa sepi
Sendiri memikirkan kamu
Kau genggam hatiku
Dan kau tuliskan namamu
Kau tulis namamu
Tubuhku ada di sini
Tetapi tidak jiwaku
Kosong yang hanya kurasakan
Kau telah tinggal di hatiku
To me it's about someone who is totally in love someone that the guy/gurl haunt her.I have been believing that for about 5 years but yesterday someone told me that
"Oh, you sampai hati cakap u rasa kosong bila dengan i "
Sengal gile aku rase.Ke aku yang fail BM dengan begitu teruk skali?
Confuselah.
So apa maksud sebenanr lagu ni?
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Kenduri
Next Saturday will be a year after the death of my late uncle. So, my grandma and my aunt will be holding kenduri arwah this following Saturday.Kenduri..Aaaaahhh..Another gathering for us.Another fake scene where I will try my best to smile to i-don't-know-who and cuba menjadi selemah lembut yang mungkin.And try to maintain my mouth from not saying something bad.And also it's time for baju kurung and tudung.Everybody will be glad seeing me with my tudung.Not that i hate it tapi kalau aku menjadi terlampau ayu,siapa yang susah?Kezen-kezen aku jugak yg susah.Takde siapa yang akan nampak mereka sebab semua orang akan sibuk memandang aku.Hohohohoh..Best gile perasan,ok.So, usually for kenduri everyone will try to be there despite any arguments and of course my rumah nenek akan menjadi sangat bising.
The thing is, this time for the very first time my granda who used to hate people so much ask me to bring along my boyfriend which is suprise-suprise coz she usually forbid any 'jantan' to go near her house but last week she was "Bawak budak jantan tu, nenek nak tengok".Never that my grandma know that the guy i'm dating now is far from the guy i used to date.My current boyfriend[hope will be the last one sbb aku dah penat] is having this some kind of 'commitment' desease.Jangan nak kata jumpa nenek aku, jumpa mak aku pon belum tentu lagi but i don't mind.I mean buat apa poyo-poyo nak tunjuk konon-konon mesra sangat and at last menjadi cibai?So better mcm ni kan?
The best part was, he asked me to go for his kenduri pindah rumah baru next month which nearly make me choked to death.Apa??Pegi kenduri rumah orang?Aku nak pegi kenduri rumah nenek aku pon liat, ade hatila konon nak pegi kenduri rumah orang.The thing is, his new house adela 2 menet je from rumah aku.So kalau aku tak pegi, nampak sangatla kan.Tapi macamana aku nak pegi?Muka macamana yang aku patut buat nanti?Apa yang aku nak buat?Hoh??Pemikiran-pemikiran sebegini sangatla menakutkan.Lepastu mesti boifren aku akan buat muka mcm sial.Dan berjumpa dengan mak ayah orang adalah perkara paling last yang aku nak buat dalam hidup ni.My last experience was so bad that I dun think I want to repeat it again.Ohh tidak..Please dun remind me of that anymore!
So,to me.. my grandma idea to invite him was such a brilliant idea. Last night when I brought up the subject he claimed that he felt suffocated.Sesak nafas.Hahahha..And God, how he blushed!So, it's only fair for me to come to his kenduri if only he come to my kenduri.I mean,I know the possibility for him to come to the kenduri is next to zero.He wouldn't do such things like that plus, main bola bersama budak-budak STAR adalah lagi best dari attend kenduri arwah orang yang mmg dah tentu-tentu takde lagi kan by kan?Hohohoho.
Think of it..mungkin aku tak payah pegi kenduri itu after all..ahhh..Life is sooo fair!!
The thing is, this time for the very first time my granda who used to hate people so much ask me to bring along my boyfriend which is suprise-suprise coz she usually forbid any 'jantan' to go near her house but last week she was "Bawak budak jantan tu, nenek nak tengok".Never that my grandma know that the guy i'm dating now is far from the guy i used to date.My current boyfriend[hope will be the last one sbb aku dah penat] is having this some kind of 'commitment' desease.Jangan nak kata jumpa nenek aku, jumpa mak aku pon belum tentu lagi but i don't mind.I mean buat apa poyo-poyo nak tunjuk konon-konon mesra sangat and at last menjadi cibai?So better mcm ni kan?
The best part was, he asked me to go for his kenduri pindah rumah baru next month which nearly make me choked to death.Apa??Pegi kenduri rumah orang?Aku nak pegi kenduri rumah nenek aku pon liat, ade hatila konon nak pegi kenduri rumah orang.The thing is, his new house adela 2 menet je from rumah aku.So kalau aku tak pegi, nampak sangatla kan.Tapi macamana aku nak pegi?Muka macamana yang aku patut buat nanti?Apa yang aku nak buat?Hoh??Pemikiran-pemikiran sebegini sangatla menakutkan.Lepastu mesti boifren aku akan buat muka mcm sial.Dan berjumpa dengan mak ayah orang adalah perkara paling last yang aku nak buat dalam hidup ni.My last experience was so bad that I dun think I want to repeat it again.Ohh tidak..Please dun remind me of that anymore!
So,to me.. my grandma idea to invite him was such a brilliant idea. Last night when I brought up the subject he claimed that he felt suffocated.Sesak nafas.Hahahha..And God, how he blushed!So, it's only fair for me to come to his kenduri if only he come to my kenduri.I mean,I know the possibility for him to come to the kenduri is next to zero.He wouldn't do such things like that plus, main bola bersama budak-budak STAR adalah lagi best dari attend kenduri arwah orang yang mmg dah tentu-tentu takde lagi kan by kan?Hohohoho.
Think of it..mungkin aku tak payah pegi kenduri itu after all..ahhh..Life is sooo fair!!
Monday, February 14, 2005
So Far
Hello.How are your day so far?Mine..Not as dandy as the day seems to be.
I miss my handphone badly.So bad.Call Nokie service centre but they said it's still under repairing process.Nak marah pon tak boleh.I know exactly how serba salah must the cs gurl felt.Sbb at times, I feel the same thing too.So I just try to calm down.
At lately streamyx at my office sux big timela.Pagi tadik tak boleh nak online.Marah gile aku.Bukan setakat takleh chat tapi takleh buat keje cos everyhting here is networked.Nak print takleh, nak access file takleh.Hoh!
Valentine's day.Certain ppl prefer not to celebrate it cause yeah it's related to christian thingy buy hey, why not celebrate it for fun?Takyahla mengait-ngaitkan dengan st.valentine's tu.Just one day je, just do it for fun.For the sake of your another half[selalunye lelaki malas sket bende-bende camni].I mean it's true not only today you love your partner buy ala, why not..same mcm birthday, teacher's day and whatsoever day jugak..Just to have fun.Layan la sket, make that someone happy.
For me, nuthing special kot.Just have dinner with my baby and have fun.That's enough and maybe that's quite a thing to ask from a guy who prefer to melepak depan tv layan bola.So, that's good enough for me.Anyway, I lost my sense of being romantic already.Maybe sebab dah besa sket kot[apa yg besa pon tak tau].Dah get more grip of reality.That..things like flowers, chocolates or even kisses can turn out to be fake.Fake and pretencious.It would be nice to have..More than nice..Tipula kalau tak sukekan but it won't mean anything if the person who give it turn out to be macam sial at the end.Sorry if my words doesn't suit the mood tapi itulah kenyataan.
Banyak gile orang kat mesia ni pretentious.Baik lelaki baik pompuan same jek.So before you make any impression on this day make sure it purely come from your heart.But hey, if you're having fun today.Good for you.I hope you guys will have fun coz i'm surely gonna have fun :) .
I miss my handphone badly.So bad.Call Nokie service centre but they said it's still under repairing process.Nak marah pon tak boleh.I know exactly how serba salah must the cs gurl felt.Sbb at times, I feel the same thing too.So I just try to calm down.
At lately streamyx at my office sux big timela.Pagi tadik tak boleh nak online.Marah gile aku.Bukan setakat takleh chat tapi takleh buat keje cos everyhting here is networked.Nak print takleh, nak access file takleh.Hoh!
Valentine's day.Certain ppl prefer not to celebrate it cause yeah it's related to christian thingy buy hey, why not celebrate it for fun?Takyahla mengait-ngaitkan dengan st.valentine's tu.Just one day je, just do it for fun.For the sake of your another half[selalunye lelaki malas sket bende-bende camni].I mean it's true not only today you love your partner buy ala, why not..same mcm birthday, teacher's day and whatsoever day jugak..Just to have fun.Layan la sket, make that someone happy.
For me, nuthing special kot.Just have dinner with my baby and have fun.That's enough and maybe that's quite a thing to ask from a guy who prefer to melepak depan tv layan bola.So, that's good enough for me.Anyway, I lost my sense of being romantic already.Maybe sebab dah besa sket kot[apa yg besa pon tak tau].Dah get more grip of reality.That..things like flowers, chocolates or even kisses can turn out to be fake.Fake and pretencious.It would be nice to have..More than nice..Tipula kalau tak sukekan but it won't mean anything if the person who give it turn out to be macam sial at the end.Sorry if my words doesn't suit the mood tapi itulah kenyataan.
Banyak gile orang kat mesia ni pretentious.Baik lelaki baik pompuan same jek.So before you make any impression on this day make sure it purely come from your heart.But hey, if you're having fun today.Good for you.I hope you guys will have fun coz i'm surely gonna have fun :) .
Saturday, February 12, 2005
On Saturday
It's Saturday.Can belive it's already Saturday?Meaning tomorrow will be Sunday.And what comes after Sunday?Aaahhhhhhhhh...Time is moving very very fast.Demm.
What shall I do today to make this Saturday a worth day to live in?Hmm..Ag suggested for us to see a live band tonight.Not a bad idea.But where??I can't track any band playing at any club right now.Dah lama meninggalkan arena ini.So camne..Takkan nak melepak-lepak and tengok movie lagi kot?Sangap gile!
Tapi yang pasti lepas ni kene masak.Nak masak asam pedas.Hohohohoh..Best giller ok.Nampak tak bila cuti je diet aku akan gagal.Memangla mase keje pon gagal tapi mase cuti lagi melampau.Siap tambah 2 pinggan lagi.Gagal segala impian aku nak pegi gym.
Okla.Ntah hape aku merepek tah.Have a super duper Saturday!!
Tata
What shall I do today to make this Saturday a worth day to live in?Hmm..Ag suggested for us to see a live band tonight.Not a bad idea.But where??I can't track any band playing at any club right now.Dah lama meninggalkan arena ini.So camne..Takkan nak melepak-lepak and tengok movie lagi kot?Sangap gile!
Tapi yang pasti lepas ni kene masak.Nak masak asam pedas.Hohohohoh..Best giller ok.Nampak tak bila cuti je diet aku akan gagal.Memangla mase keje pon gagal tapi mase cuti lagi melampau.Siap tambah 2 pinggan lagi.Gagal segala impian aku nak pegi gym.
Okla.Ntah hape aku merepek tah.Have a super duper Saturday!!
Tata
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Lapar
it's 2.26 and i'm starving.I want to eat but I 'm waiting for ag yang 'konon-konon' call pukul 12 kata nak gerak skang.Aku rasa die tinggal kat gombak tapi kalau dah lebih dua jam camni, aku rasa orang from Ipoh nak datang Kl pon dah sampai.Tapi takpe, sebab hari ni raya cina aku tak marah cuma sengal sket.
Cakap pasal lapar,tiba-tiba teringin nak makan tahaper-haper..Was thinking it would be great if I could have
1.Goreng pisang cicah sambal kicap kat gerai warung mana lagi.
2.Mee rebus dekat Komtar JB.
3.Tak pon mee rebus double [nak dua!] yg makcik kantin buat.
4.Soto yang mak aku buat
5.Daging dendeng masak black pepper
6.Roti telur goreng seterika
7.ABC makcik kantin letak extra susu cair and coklat cair.Perghh!!!
ag cepatla sampai..
Cakap pasal lapar,tiba-tiba teringin nak makan tahaper-haper..Was thinking it would be great if I could have
1.Goreng pisang cicah sambal kicap kat gerai warung mana lagi.
2.Mee rebus dekat Komtar JB.
3.Tak pon mee rebus double [nak dua!] yg makcik kantin buat.
4.Soto yang mak aku buat
5.Daging dendeng masak black pepper
6.Roti telur goreng seterika
7.ABC makcik kantin letak extra susu cair and coklat cair.Perghh!!!
ag cepatla sampai..
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Gong Xi Fa Chai
This is my third attempt posting my blog today.Streamyx sux big timela ,ok. Today is supposed to be a beautiful day. No jam at the federal high way, my mom won't be here until Friday,I ate my delicious nasik lemak peacefully and my office is next to empty. Tapi bila internet down, itu menyebabkan semua elemen-elemen tadi macam tak penting lansung. Tertekan tau tak takleh chat dekat YM, takleh cek email and tak boleh bercinta secara virtual.Ok, enough of cerita kemarahan
Tomorrow is Chinese New Year, not that I celebrate but I am still happy since I dun have to go to the office for the rest of the week.Best gile ok.I was talking to one of my client on the phone yesterday.
Me:Ok,I'll send my dispatch to fetch the time sheet.
Ms.Han:Okie.
Me:Happy Chinese New Year.
Ms.Han:You too.Don't get drunk so much ho?Cheng* chong* [speaking in Chinese]
Me:Err, I dun celebrate lah.
Ms.Han:You're not Chinese meh?But you look like Chinese.
Me:I'm malayla.Hehe
Ms.Han:Ohh..
I meet her like every month and she thought I'm Chinese. Well, she's not the only one. . My colleagues always forget the fact that I'm Malay. During every lunch hour
Me:Where are you guys eating?
Juliana:Corner shop loh[where they sell non halal food]
Me:Hello, I don't eat pork, remember?
Paige:Demm.I always forget that u are malay.Nevermindlah, we can teach you how to eat char siew. A crash course.
Juliana:Yeah, u just eatlah.Dun open your mouth.Surely people will never know u are Malay
Me:You crazy ah? .
Heh!I dun think I look Chinese at all.I think I look Malay. I look so Malay. I just dun get it when I walk alone there will always be someone who will come to me and speak Chinese. The worst was when I was shopping in Pyramid and there's this monk came up to me to sell the Buddha beads. I was like..WTF??.
But that was then, now that I've highlighted my hair, Paige told me that I dun Chinese anymore instead I look Eurasian. Eurasian??Takde pon aku rasa, kalau betul takpelah jugak.Hohohoh.Perasannye aku.
Anyway, to my Chinese friends and to those who are not Chinese tapi bermata sepet[ha!]
Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Holiday!
Tomorrow is Chinese New Year, not that I celebrate but I am still happy since I dun have to go to the office for the rest of the week.Best gile ok.I was talking to one of my client on the phone yesterday.
Me:Ok,I'll send my dispatch to fetch the time sheet.
Ms.Han:Okie.
Me:Happy Chinese New Year.
Ms.Han:You too.Don't get drunk so much ho?Cheng* chong* [speaking in Chinese]
Me:Err, I dun celebrate lah.
Ms.Han:You're not Chinese meh?But you look like Chinese.
Me:I'm malayla.Hehe
Ms.Han:Ohh..
I meet her like every month and she thought I'm Chinese. Well, she's not the only one. . My colleagues always forget the fact that I'm Malay. During every lunch hour
Me:Where are you guys eating?
Juliana:Corner shop loh[where they sell non halal food]
Me:Hello, I don't eat pork, remember?
Paige:Demm.I always forget that u are malay.Nevermindlah, we can teach you how to eat char siew. A crash course.
Juliana:Yeah, u just eatlah.Dun open your mouth.Surely people will never know u are Malay
Me:You crazy ah? .
Heh!I dun think I look Chinese at all.I think I look Malay. I look so Malay. I just dun get it when I walk alone there will always be someone who will come to me and speak Chinese. The worst was when I was shopping in Pyramid and there's this monk came up to me to sell the Buddha beads. I was like..WTF??.
But that was then, now that I've highlighted my hair, Paige told me that I dun Chinese anymore instead I look Eurasian. Eurasian??Takde pon aku rasa, kalau betul takpelah jugak.Hohohoh.Perasannye aku.
Anyway, to my Chinese friends and to those who are not Chinese tapi bermata sepet[ha!]
Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Holiday!
Monday, February 07, 2005
Semangat
I'm having a big breakfast today, yeah probobly my bf is smirking and making faces when he read the word 'big', I so know u lah ag.Stop making that face now.Reason being? I'll be having a very mild lunch and will not be having any dinner at all.I have reached the danger level where I should watch what I eat closely.Like really close.No more junk food or whatsoever.Well, u guys might snicker and say "Hoh, adela 8 juta kali die ni cakap camni".Well, I'm gonna prove u wrong.Hari ni lunch aku nak bawak dua inggit je ok.
Also, I will try my best to stop smoking, even I know having a bf that smoke like a naga won't help but I'm going to take the challange.I mean not today but today I will start reducing it from now onwards.I mean I have to stop, my complexion is getting worst and err..smoking is bad for my health[duh].Hah,terasa sunggul healthy hidup aku tiba-tiba.
So people, be prepared untuk mendapat kawan yang bakal ada body mcm gwen stefani yg sangatla seksi[ha!].Aku rasa even aku smayang hajat tiap-taip hari pon belum tentu dapat lagi :( but hey, atleast I have the spirit.
Dila's wedding went well.Since my bloody handphone is still not ready yet so I can't take pictures but she did.It can be browse here.Tengok aku promote fotopages kau ni Aida.Speaking of phone, I think I have to pinjam phone orang la.My mum and my bro is going to Kedah for CNY, kalau aku takde fon, camne aku nak hidup.Terasa mcm hidup dalam kegelapan.Bangekla nokia ni.Dah dekat sebulan aku hanta tak siap-siap jugak.Marah ni tau!.
Anyway, kepada siapa-siapa yang expect aku akan letak muka aku dgn Nik yang kitorang ambik sendiri tu[especially Katik yg suke mocking aku], sorryla tekaan korang silap.Aku hari ni lebih focus terhadap masalah-masalah lain.Sorry to dissapoint you Katik, mungkin hari lain kau boleh kutuk aku.
Sorry for making you guys read my craps, tapi I never ask to be born cranky.
Ape-apehal pon.Enjoy your day, dun let any body spoil this beautiful day for you!
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Added:
Two cute girls [ aku and Nicky la tu, haha] are looking for housemate at Pantai Hillpark to start around in April.
If you are:
1.Pervert
2.Tak pedulik pasal orang
3.Tak kisah satu rumah dgn org gila
4.Open minded, tak skema, tak poyo.
5.Tidak mempunyai sakit jantung atau kencing manis ataupon HIV
6.Seorang pemakan yang baik
7.Menyukai perempuan i.e suka main mekap-mekap and buat rambut
8.Sanggup menguruskan rumahtangga
9.Saiko dan emo
10.Gebu dan montok[ok yang ni aku main-main je]
11.Perempuan
Can message me tru my mobile or my frenster or cakap jela kat sini kalau berminat.Jomlah..jomlah!!
Also, I will try my best to stop smoking, even I know having a bf that smoke like a naga won't help but I'm going to take the challange.I mean not today but today I will start reducing it from now onwards.I mean I have to stop, my complexion is getting worst and err..smoking is bad for my health[duh].Hah,terasa sunggul healthy hidup aku tiba-tiba.
So people, be prepared untuk mendapat kawan yang bakal ada body mcm gwen stefani yg sangatla seksi[ha!].Aku rasa even aku smayang hajat tiap-taip hari pon belum tentu dapat lagi :( but hey, atleast I have the spirit.
Dila's wedding went well.Since my bloody handphone is still not ready yet so I can't take pictures but she did.It can be browse here.Tengok aku promote fotopages kau ni Aida.Speaking of phone, I think I have to pinjam phone orang la.My mum and my bro is going to Kedah for CNY, kalau aku takde fon, camne aku nak hidup.Terasa mcm hidup dalam kegelapan.Bangekla nokia ni.Dah dekat sebulan aku hanta tak siap-siap jugak.Marah ni tau!.
Anyway, kepada siapa-siapa yang expect aku akan letak muka aku dgn Nik yang kitorang ambik sendiri tu[especially Katik yg suke mocking aku], sorryla tekaan korang silap.Aku hari ni lebih focus terhadap masalah-masalah lain.Sorry to dissapoint you Katik, mungkin hari lain kau boleh kutuk aku.
Sorry for making you guys read my craps, tapi I never ask to be born cranky.
Ape-apehal pon.Enjoy your day, dun let any body spoil this beautiful day for you!
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Added:
Two cute girls [ aku and Nicky la tu, haha] are looking for housemate at Pantai Hillpark to start around in April.
If you are:
1.Pervert
2.Tak pedulik pasal orang
3.Tak kisah satu rumah dgn org gila
4.Open minded, tak skema, tak poyo.
5.Tidak mempunyai sakit jantung atau kencing manis ataupon HIV
6.Seorang pemakan yang baik
7.Menyukai perempuan i.e suka main mekap-mekap and buat rambut
8.Sanggup menguruskan rumahtangga
9.Saiko dan emo
10.Gebu dan montok[ok yang ni aku main-main je]
11.Perempuan
Can message me tru my mobile or my frenster or cakap jela kat sini kalau berminat.Jomlah..jomlah!!
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Pamlah Taik Sendiri
*Note:This entry contains explicit words which will be seemed as a bit gross to some readers.So sape yang penggeli jgn baca,ok?*
Had a girls night out last night.As usual when we hang out together, mesti akan ada mata-mata memandang pasal kitorang bising tak hengat punya.Hoh, buat macam kedai mamak sendiri la plak.But hey, that's the traits, aku pon tak taula bila nak hilang.But yeah, as usual I enjoyed myself.Was feeling blue last night and I told Nik about it.She said "Ahh,takdenye kau rase sedih lepas ni.Kata dah jumpa setan-setan tu seme.Takde masenye kau nak sedih-sedih". How true! Cuma agak marah pasal aku kene balik and budak-budak ni continue lepak kat rumah Tina sambil tgk crite Filipina.Hoh!
Hari ni aku nak komplen pasal sivik minded bile gunakan toilet.Aku rasa orang Malaysia ni patut diajar camne nak pam tandas.We have to share toilets with other workers from other company kat sini sbb yelah, satu floor satu toilet which to me is not a big deal.Tapi yang buat aku menyirap tu ialah adela orang-orang bodoh yang tak tau camne nak flush.Hoi kamonla, pandai berak, pandaila pam taik sendiri.Ingat orang lain ni apa,nak tolong pamkan taik kau?Uhh, tau geli konon dengan taik sendiri sampai tak nak pam.Kalau geli jgnla berak, tak pon pakai je pampers. Same thing happen dekat Syed semalam, which happen to be a unisex toilet.Aku tak tau apsal, tapi aku tak suke unisex toilet.Terasa concious kjap.Anyway, was having sakit perut yg melampau so I went to the toilet tapi hoh!masuk-masuk je the toilet bowl tu penuh dgn kaler kuning-kuning.Pastu ade bende-bende sket kat atas lantai.Dari aku sakit perut je terus rasa nak muntah.Sial betulla!Tapi sebab dah tak thn sgt terpaksala aku tutup mata, flush and simbah-simbah air dekat lantai tu.Tengok, Syed patut bayar aku tau sebab aku dah cuci toilet die.Bodohla diorang ni!
Apa kata diorang-diorang yang tak reti nak basuh taik sendiri ni, kita pegi rumah dia and berak sesuka hati mcm kat ruang tamu die ke, kat dapur die ke lepas tu blah je?Haaa, baru tau.Marah kan?Apala susah sgt nya tu?Lupa?Kalau lupa, sebelum nak kuar tu jelingla sket.Tapi tak logikla kalau lupa.Takkan benda tu pon lupa?Ntah-ntah basuh berak pon lupa kot?
Okla, geli pulak aku.Kang ade jugak yang tak makan seminggu kang.Oklah, di hari sabtu yang sux ini, aku nak berpura-pura buat kerja sambil tunggu kol 12.30.Lepas tu nak pegi Dila Tugi kawin.So people,tata!Mwah!
Have a good weekend!
Had a girls night out last night.As usual when we hang out together, mesti akan ada mata-mata memandang pasal kitorang bising tak hengat punya.Hoh, buat macam kedai mamak sendiri la plak.But hey, that's the traits, aku pon tak taula bila nak hilang.But yeah, as usual I enjoyed myself.Was feeling blue last night and I told Nik about it.She said "Ahh,takdenye kau rase sedih lepas ni.Kata dah jumpa setan-setan tu seme.Takde masenye kau nak sedih-sedih". How true! Cuma agak marah pasal aku kene balik and budak-budak ni continue lepak kat rumah Tina sambil tgk crite Filipina.Hoh!
Hari ni aku nak komplen pasal sivik minded bile gunakan toilet.Aku rasa orang Malaysia ni patut diajar camne nak pam tandas.We have to share toilets with other workers from other company kat sini sbb yelah, satu floor satu toilet which to me is not a big deal.Tapi yang buat aku menyirap tu ialah adela orang-orang bodoh yang tak tau camne nak flush.Hoi kamonla, pandai berak, pandaila pam taik sendiri.Ingat orang lain ni apa,nak tolong pamkan taik kau?Uhh, tau geli konon dengan taik sendiri sampai tak nak pam.Kalau geli jgnla berak, tak pon pakai je pampers. Same thing happen dekat Syed semalam, which happen to be a unisex toilet.Aku tak tau apsal, tapi aku tak suke unisex toilet.Terasa concious kjap.Anyway, was having sakit perut yg melampau so I went to the toilet tapi hoh!masuk-masuk je the toilet bowl tu penuh dgn kaler kuning-kuning.Pastu ade bende-bende sket kat atas lantai.Dari aku sakit perut je terus rasa nak muntah.Sial betulla!Tapi sebab dah tak thn sgt terpaksala aku tutup mata, flush and simbah-simbah air dekat lantai tu.Tengok, Syed patut bayar aku tau sebab aku dah cuci toilet die.Bodohla diorang ni!
Apa kata diorang-diorang yang tak reti nak basuh taik sendiri ni, kita pegi rumah dia and berak sesuka hati mcm kat ruang tamu die ke, kat dapur die ke lepas tu blah je?Haaa, baru tau.Marah kan?Apala susah sgt nya tu?Lupa?Kalau lupa, sebelum nak kuar tu jelingla sket.Tapi tak logikla kalau lupa.Takkan benda tu pon lupa?Ntah-ntah basuh berak pon lupa kot?
Okla, geli pulak aku.Kang ade jugak yang tak makan seminggu kang.Oklah, di hari sabtu yang sux ini, aku nak berpura-pura buat kerja sambil tunggu kol 12.30.Lepas tu nak pegi Dila Tugi kawin.So people,tata!Mwah!
Have a good weekend!
Friday, February 04, 2005
Fat and Angry
I had a fat dinner last night, actually it was not just last night it happened the night before and the night before that..well, in fact I had a fat dinner for the whole week and also for the week before that.Uh, that's bad because I'm supposed to watch what I eat and do push up before I snooze. Not just that I skipped the push up part but I also I failed to remember that I'm supposed to go to gym. Now, frown with me. But who can resist the burger tepi jalan, to be precise special burger where they wrap the meat with egg and with extra so-not-non-fat mayo that it dripped when you start eating it.And uh, with extra cheese that was so cheesy that I just can't explain how appetizing it tasted. I totally swoon when my mouth got the first bite. Had to drove along the way to section 2 despite it was already 11 p.m.See what I mean? Totally a fat dinner on such time, late night. Ahhhhhh.
Talking about section 2, Thank God they had removed the stalls there to other location or else to find a parking there would be next to impossible. I nearly hit someone on his head at that place once and it was all because of the bloody parking. There was the "P" sticker sticked on my car indicated that I was obviously a moron when it comes to drive a car, leave alone to park that time. So I was getting my assignment bind somewhere at one of the shop when I found a motorcycle being parked very very close to my car. I tried to ask around so that the owner would remove his vehicle who at that time pretended not to admit that it's his bike which he was probably waiting for some entertainment to happen. Well, I did my best to reverse safely without hitting his motorcycle but I sucked at doing that and still suck doing it. I was thinking, fine I can still try since I still got plenty of time to waste but not until I see some men started to laughed as if aku ni dibayar untuk melawak bersama kereta. Hey marilah saksikan, seorang awek membadutkan diri bersama keretanya! Kelakar sangatla tu kan nampak aku terkial-kial nak reverse kete. Bukannya nak tolong.Babi! A guy was saying, "Come onla,orang lain pon bawak kete, tapi takdela sampai camni".It was a hot day and that remark was not helping at all. I lost my temper that I was thinking to come out from the car and whack those men with the umbrella that I used to put on my back sit. As I was about to reach for my umbrella I thought of something else.Ah, baik aku langgar je motor tu, mesti diorang menggelupur, baru puas hati aku.Hohohoh! So I just switched my gear to reverse and pushed my pedal hard.Hah!It did hit the motorcycle, all right, not only that particular motorcycle but also other two motorcycles beside it. As that happen, I saw two the of the men who were laughing their ass started to rise up and began shouting "Hoi!!" and quickly come to rescue their bike which I replied with "I dun fucking care!!". With that I quickly drive off. I was not sure whether they were after me or not but if they did, hah!Aku tak takutla wey, Shah Alam kawasan aku.Berlagak sial aku, tapi tula sape soh naikkan darah aku.Hohohohoho!
Yup, I do have bad temper but I'm trying my best to control it. Every time when I'm about to lost my temper I will try to think calmly tapi banyak kalila gagal.Maybe I should put extra effort to control my temper and also to control what I eat. I better mark my words if I dun want to end up as some grumpy and fat old woman later on.
Tiba-tiba teringat dekat Kak Normah and Makcik Selvi. Two people with the same resemblance, the most two scariest people alive back in STF. Adakah aku akan begitu?
Uh, sangatla tak nak,ok. Scary.
Talking about section 2, Thank God they had removed the stalls there to other location or else to find a parking there would be next to impossible. I nearly hit someone on his head at that place once and it was all because of the bloody parking. There was the "P" sticker sticked on my car indicated that I was obviously a moron when it comes to drive a car, leave alone to park that time. So I was getting my assignment bind somewhere at one of the shop when I found a motorcycle being parked very very close to my car. I tried to ask around so that the owner would remove his vehicle who at that time pretended not to admit that it's his bike which he was probably waiting for some entertainment to happen. Well, I did my best to reverse safely without hitting his motorcycle but I sucked at doing that and still suck doing it. I was thinking, fine I can still try since I still got plenty of time to waste but not until I see some men started to laughed as if aku ni dibayar untuk melawak bersama kereta. Hey marilah saksikan, seorang awek membadutkan diri bersama keretanya! Kelakar sangatla tu kan nampak aku terkial-kial nak reverse kete. Bukannya nak tolong.Babi! A guy was saying, "Come onla,orang lain pon bawak kete, tapi takdela sampai camni".It was a hot day and that remark was not helping at all. I lost my temper that I was thinking to come out from the car and whack those men with the umbrella that I used to put on my back sit. As I was about to reach for my umbrella I thought of something else.Ah, baik aku langgar je motor tu, mesti diorang menggelupur, baru puas hati aku.Hohohoh! So I just switched my gear to reverse and pushed my pedal hard.Hah!It did hit the motorcycle, all right, not only that particular motorcycle but also other two motorcycles beside it. As that happen, I saw two the of the men who were laughing their ass started to rise up and began shouting "Hoi!!" and quickly come to rescue their bike which I replied with "I dun fucking care!!". With that I quickly drive off. I was not sure whether they were after me or not but if they did, hah!Aku tak takutla wey, Shah Alam kawasan aku.Berlagak sial aku, tapi tula sape soh naikkan darah aku.Hohohohoho!
Yup, I do have bad temper but I'm trying my best to control it. Every time when I'm about to lost my temper I will try to think calmly tapi banyak kalila gagal.Maybe I should put extra effort to control my temper and also to control what I eat. I better mark my words if I dun want to end up as some grumpy and fat old woman later on.
Tiba-tiba teringat dekat Kak Normah and Makcik Selvi. Two people with the same resemblance, the most two scariest people alive back in STF. Adakah aku akan begitu?
Uh, sangatla tak nak,ok. Scary.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Vanity Fair
I used to be fat, maybe not so fat but still..fat and plain. At that point of time, I was almost barely discernible. My self esteem was low and it hurt not to be notice by people. It hurt when only to be seen as the messenger to my other friends. It hurts to feel insignificant. So, after school I resolute to do something about it.
Sometimes my relatives and friends ask me why issit I have to be so vain. Like, I would put on my make up even on going to the hypermarket or to the wet market. Hey, to me even I'm not blessed with good looks or vulupcious body but nice appearance will simply make my day. It give me self esteem, plus you'll never know who you gonna meet ;). During my uni days, my guy friends always teased me about my appearance it's like "Chics, kau nak pegi mana pakai camni.Kau nak mengorat Zaidi ke?" Heh, do I care? No.
You see, to me woman must always look stunning. Even if you're married or even you're blessed with 6 children. It's distressing to see when a woman got married to someone and start to overlook their appearance. They said "Alah, aku dah ade husband, buat apa nak cantik-cantik,bukan nak mengorat sesape pon".But then when their husband tend to put on weight or dress sloppily they would complain. Or even worst when their man starts to cultivate extra attention to other woman they'll accuse their husband for not being loyal and get pissed off. God created human to appreciate beauty, no matter either they are born with dick or not. It's not the guy fault if they look at other woman when their own wife does not give her best shot to look desirable for her own spouse. It's exactly the same for us woman to drool over married sexy guys such as Brad Pit and George Clooney[am not sure if he's married but who cares] although I must say old people are not my fancy. You know what, it awe me to see a woman who look beautiful yet have like 4 kids as if they are still unattached. Even I as a girl, think that it is something incredible. So to my friends who already tied the knot or for brides to be, I hope you girls will stay beautiful and astounding as they way you are. Don't lose it just because of some rocks on your finger.
So no matter how you think how ugly your are, just dress up aptly coz being in that state will definitely make you feel good about yourself. And it doesn't hurt to look nice. What for you work your ass out 24/7 for some freaking company but at the end you can't feel good about yourself. Give it a go and you'll know what I mean.
Anyway[Nik, pinjam ye,hihih], pardon me for my vainness. I'm a Pisces so blame it on my horoscope.Hehehe.
Sometimes my relatives and friends ask me why issit I have to be so vain. Like, I would put on my make up even on going to the hypermarket or to the wet market. Hey, to me even I'm not blessed with good looks or vulupcious body but nice appearance will simply make my day. It give me self esteem, plus you'll never know who you gonna meet ;). During my uni days, my guy friends always teased me about my appearance it's like "Chics, kau nak pegi mana pakai camni.Kau nak mengorat Zaidi ke?" Heh, do I care? No.
You see, to me woman must always look stunning. Even if you're married or even you're blessed with 6 children. It's distressing to see when a woman got married to someone and start to overlook their appearance. They said "Alah, aku dah ade husband, buat apa nak cantik-cantik,bukan nak mengorat sesape pon".But then when their husband tend to put on weight or dress sloppily they would complain. Or even worst when their man starts to cultivate extra attention to other woman they'll accuse their husband for not being loyal and get pissed off. God created human to appreciate beauty, no matter either they are born with dick or not. It's not the guy fault if they look at other woman when their own wife does not give her best shot to look desirable for her own spouse. It's exactly the same for us woman to drool over married sexy guys such as Brad Pit and George Clooney[am not sure if he's married but who cares] although I must say old people are not my fancy. You know what, it awe me to see a woman who look beautiful yet have like 4 kids as if they are still unattached. Even I as a girl, think that it is something incredible. So to my friends who already tied the knot or for brides to be, I hope you girls will stay beautiful and astounding as they way you are. Don't lose it just because of some rocks on your finger.
So no matter how you think how ugly your are, just dress up aptly coz being in that state will definitely make you feel good about yourself. And it doesn't hurt to look nice. What for you work your ass out 24/7 for some freaking company but at the end you can't feel good about yourself. Give it a go and you'll know what I mean.
Anyway[Nik, pinjam ye,hihih], pardon me for my vainness. I'm a Pisces so blame it on my horoscope.Hehehe.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Moon and Stars
I am going to enroll a class on how to make fondant cake.Yeah, you know those cakes for wedding and engagements.Why?Because I like cooking and baking and hey, I can make money with that. Plus, I need to do something with my life that I really like.Was thinking to pursue my master but OZ it's kinda not dekat and someone will be pouting his lips if I really go there but that thing is still under consideration.You know, I'm not suprised if I'll get soo fat one day coz I have a very bad temper and when it comes to my bad day, I will cook as many dishes as I can.Weird huh?But true.
I was thinking last night since I was alone.Why is that when it comes to courting, mengurat and wooing, one will be extremely sweet and nice that he or she will put his[let it be a 'he' ok?, but this doesn't mean it only happened to man] best effort to win the other party heart.He will definetely do everything namely sweet talking, sending flowers and chocolate and even stalking, not to mention to promise the moon and the stars i.e "I will make you happy" or "You'll never be alone anymore".Ha!But, what always happen is when things get comfortable, he will forget all the things he used to say.I mean,hey..She's in love with him like truly madly and deeply so what could go wrong?Nothing!I'm superman and surely my girlfriend will never leave me even I treated her like shit.Ha!Guess what?This sounded harsh and pathethic but wait till it happen to you.Anyway, why don't this people treated their partner the same as if it's the first day as a couple?Is that so hard to do?I mean, as days go by, the love should grow and the feeling also should grow.Oh,I forget, we are Malaysian and we are not supposed to show affection.Silly me!
I had a friend who treated her boyfriend like shit.I mean she yelled at her boyfriend in front of everybody and even slapped him in front of me once.I mean, what was that??As if the guy hasn't got any feeling and dignity.But she told me that she couldn't live without her boyfriend.Uh, she should get used to it coz I think sooner or later with that kind of tamparan maut, it is not impossible for the guy to mati kene tampar.And I have also see my guy friend treated their gf like shit.He's like "Yang, apsal baju I komot ni.U ni bongokla..Kan I cakap suruh iron betul-betul!Kalau macam ni baik tak payah iron"and went complaining on and on. I mean, come on, she's your girlfriend,not your maidla.The question of the day is why is this happening?Apa masalahnye?And kenapa bila the other party rasa bosan he/she will rasa nak marah?Salah ke rasa bosan when you're not happy?
Ok.Enuff craps.To my baby[even I tau you terlalu bz sangat sampai you takkan baca post ni], good luck for your first paper.I know you can do it.Kalau tak boleh buat, next sem tayah study kuat-kuat sangat, elok you kluar dengan I je.Hehe
I was thinking last night since I was alone.Why is that when it comes to courting, mengurat and wooing, one will be extremely sweet and nice that he or she will put his[let it be a 'he' ok?, but this doesn't mean it only happened to man] best effort to win the other party heart.He will definetely do everything namely sweet talking, sending flowers and chocolate and even stalking, not to mention to promise the moon and the stars i.e "I will make you happy" or "You'll never be alone anymore".Ha!But, what always happen is when things get comfortable, he will forget all the things he used to say.I mean,hey..She's in love with him like truly madly and deeply so what could go wrong?Nothing!I'm superman and surely my girlfriend will never leave me even I treated her like shit.Ha!Guess what?This sounded harsh and pathethic but wait till it happen to you.Anyway, why don't this people treated their partner the same as if it's the first day as a couple?Is that so hard to do?I mean, as days go by, the love should grow and the feeling also should grow.Oh,I forget, we are Malaysian and we are not supposed to show affection.Silly me!
I had a friend who treated her boyfriend like shit.I mean she yelled at her boyfriend in front of everybody and even slapped him in front of me once.I mean, what was that??As if the guy hasn't got any feeling and dignity.But she told me that she couldn't live without her boyfriend.Uh, she should get used to it coz I think sooner or later with that kind of tamparan maut, it is not impossible for the guy to mati kene tampar.And I have also see my guy friend treated their gf like shit.He's like "Yang, apsal baju I komot ni.U ni bongokla..Kan I cakap suruh iron betul-betul!Kalau macam ni baik tak payah iron"and went complaining on and on. I mean, come on, she's your girlfriend,not your maidla.The question of the day is why is this happening?Apa masalahnye?And kenapa bila the other party rasa bosan he/she will rasa nak marah?Salah ke rasa bosan when you're not happy?
Ok.Enuff craps.To my baby[even I tau you terlalu bz sangat sampai you takkan baca post ni], good luck for your first paper.I know you can do it.Kalau tak boleh buat, next sem tayah study kuat-kuat sangat, elok you kluar dengan I je.Hehe
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Sexy Man
What is sexy?People say it's subjective.I think it's true, it does depends on people.But to me sexy does not mean to wear revealing clothes or having big boobs. To me it is more to what they did.
How do you define a sexy men?Uhhh..This I like..
Bald Clean Shaven Man
Have you see this type of man?Uh,I've seen one.I was waiting for LRT at KLCC when I saw a fair guy, who shaved off his hair and have a clean face, fair with no scar or whatever.Uh, I feel like walking to him and give him a kiss but of course I didn't do that.It just turn me on seeing this type of guy and especially when they have broad shoulder and tall.
Nice Smell
Who doesn't?I bet everybody does.But I don't like guys who wear heavy perfume as in the perfume smell so strongly that can choke me.It's like when these 'nice smell' guys passed me by I feel like walking along with them.There this once, a guy wear the same perfume as my bf,I told Paige about it and force Paige to walk faster so I can still smell the scent.Yeah, call me psycho, I dun care.
Glint
It makes me weak when I'm in my bf car and he is concentrating on his driving and for all the sudden he turn to me, giving me a glint and a warm smile.I swear I can feel my heart melting.Demm.
Holding Hands
I know it's nothing but hey, a sudden gesture of holding heart can make a guy look sexy.It's like..When you are busy browsing on a boutique, your beau come closer and hold your hand, and smile warmly.Uhh, I dunno but to me that's sexy.
A Man Who Know How To Dance
It really turns me on to see a man dance.I dunno how to describe, maybe it's the way they move their body and their expression.Dun believe me?Try watch Usher or just go to your local club.
Fold Sleeves
When a man wear his working shirt and fold his sleeves, never fail to get my attention.I know it's stupid but somehow I find it sexy.Well, call me a freak or whatever but yeah, it turns me on.
Passionate
It's sexy allright to see a guy who is passionate in everything he do, but there is an exception.For a guy who is tooooo passionate doing whatever he's doing untill neglecting other things or other people is not sexy ok.But if he is the type that have focused on what he did like when he plays, he put his whole heart in it and when he works he give his best effort, that is a turn on.
A Guy Wearing Your Towel, In Your Room
Enuff said.
But you see, all this won't mean anything if you hardly spent time with that person.Setakat tengok and ingat je buat apa.
Buat, yeah, life is more than just spending time with that special someone.That person can always wait.Ok, aku dah lari topik.I dun want to heat things up on this beautiful Tuesday, so I shall stop here.Anyway, tell me what are the things that you think sizzle..sexy??
P.S:To "the sender is not important", thank you for the flowers and the chocolate, you can stop flattering me now.But yeah, thanks for making my day.
How do you define a sexy men?Uhhh..This I like..
Bald Clean Shaven Man
Have you see this type of man?Uh,I've seen one.I was waiting for LRT at KLCC when I saw a fair guy, who shaved off his hair and have a clean face, fair with no scar or whatever.Uh, I feel like walking to him and give him a kiss but of course I didn't do that.It just turn me on seeing this type of guy and especially when they have broad shoulder and tall.
Nice Smell
Who doesn't?I bet everybody does.But I don't like guys who wear heavy perfume as in the perfume smell so strongly that can choke me.It's like when these 'nice smell' guys passed me by I feel like walking along with them.There this once, a guy wear the same perfume as my bf,I told Paige about it and force Paige to walk faster so I can still smell the scent.Yeah, call me psycho, I dun care.
Glint
It makes me weak when I'm in my bf car and he is concentrating on his driving and for all the sudden he turn to me, giving me a glint and a warm smile.I swear I can feel my heart melting.Demm.
Holding Hands
I know it's nothing but hey, a sudden gesture of holding heart can make a guy look sexy.It's like..When you are busy browsing on a boutique, your beau come closer and hold your hand, and smile warmly.Uhh, I dunno but to me that's sexy.
A Man Who Know How To Dance
It really turns me on to see a man dance.I dunno how to describe, maybe it's the way they move their body and their expression.Dun believe me?Try watch Usher or just go to your local club.
Fold Sleeves
When a man wear his working shirt and fold his sleeves, never fail to get my attention.I know it's stupid but somehow I find it sexy.Well, call me a freak or whatever but yeah, it turns me on.
Passionate
It's sexy allright to see a guy who is passionate in everything he do, but there is an exception.For a guy who is tooooo passionate doing whatever he's doing untill neglecting other things or other people is not sexy ok.But if he is the type that have focused on what he did like when he plays, he put his whole heart in it and when he works he give his best effort, that is a turn on.
A Guy Wearing Your Towel, In Your Room
Enuff said.
But you see, all this won't mean anything if you hardly spent time with that person.Setakat tengok and ingat je buat apa.
Buat, yeah, life is more than just spending time with that special someone.That person can always wait.Ok, aku dah lari topik.I dun want to heat things up on this beautiful Tuesday, so I shall stop here.Anyway, tell me what are the things that you think sizzle..sexy??
P.S:To "the sender is not important", thank you for the flowers and the chocolate, you can stop flattering me now.But yeah, thanks for making my day.
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