Tata 2003

Today..31st Dec is my brother's b'day.
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to aie..
happy birthday to uuu!!muackks(he will smack me if this really happens to him)

Finally 2003 had come to it's end.Tomorrow 2004 awaits perhaps with new hope and new joy?
I wish..

So many things happen during 2003..Friends come and go but the biggest thing is..losing a guy who i've been attached with for 6 years..When i look back i didn't know how i finally lost my grip and let go.6 years are quite long period..but i never regret..never..because he and the relationship it self tought me lots of things in life..how to love,to share,to tolerate..and how to face the world.Even though we couldn't make all our dreams together come true but i still wish him all the best..may he find the right gurl for him..may he be happy and all the best things that could happen in this world.
Ehe,i promise my beau not to write about this anymore but hunny,kasik canla..this is the end of the year..after this there will be no more heart aching story..should open a new book.

and 2003 also had see me beaing back to my old self again..i started partying and get whatever-a-party-girl-shoul-do after abandoning it for quite long time..and i must say..i still enjoy it..but huhu..that's not a positive side..i should not be doing that..and yes, perhaps i might forget about my party life next year..

2003..Iraq was under attack..millions of people died..innocent people..Saddam hussien was captured..truly sad..Many might be happy on hearing it but i and other minority side wept..Perhaps..during 2004,civilized people will fully and truly understand the meaning of civilization and not just saying they did.

Malaysia gain new PM..Tun Dr.Mahathir eventually let go of his tittle..quite sad for me also.I do admire him(i know some don't).He had done good job for this country.I hope the new PM will do the same.And i without doubt feel that he will :)

2004..i'll be graduating next year..what will happen to me..will i manage to find a job?will i manage to keep my guy?(just kidding hunny,hehe)..will still be a bimbo in people eyes?ahh..to complicated to think..all i can say is..

let see..shall we?

+goodbye my friend
it's not the end+

Rave is on

and it is holiday..the best bit is i didn't knew that i am having my semester break..no wonder there are less people at the uni.Ah..when will i start to care about my life?humm..

i had a long convesation last night about life and love..how it should to be..and it hurt me the most to realize that i have been hurting the person who tried to value me in his life.And yes..he is a softie..hehe..

There will be a rave party for New Year..and the question is..should i go or should i not?My heart say..Gooo..go..goooo..but my mind say err..u will have to sleep the whole day the day after that..it will be tiring..A rave party..thinking of it make me excited already..will be full of people loosing control and colouful lights..ahhhhh..my last rave party was back 2 years ago..tgkla mcmana nanti..

talking about new year..made few new years resolution..should be fulfill slowly not once in a time..

# stop consuming whatever is bad for my body
#less partying..less wasted
#care about my love ones..not my ex love one
#be a good muslim
#take life more seriously

and these are the things that i should keep

#love my life
#have respect for people

hmm..if there any new things i'll add it up to the list..

Extremist

warning:this entry might contain psycho element..i meant to write this for someone who i wish would understand

"U are an extremist"

well i guess i am..perhaps i am rebellious..ah..i think that's the most suitable word to describe me.

Urm..For some X-files reason i never fail to throw my tantrum whenever my bf want to head back to his own shelter..i want him all for my self..ok..ok..my fault..i am selfish..and greedy..God will pay me back..i know but i can't help it..I told him..i came in package..

chics' package(package A++)

1.Tame..(though he said i am the jinak-jinak merpati one).
2.crybaby
3.self centered.
4.caring
5.selfish
6.childish
7.loving

or maybe u could choose chics' package B
1.hostile
2.vile
3.bad mouth biatch
4.whatever
5.party animal
6.er..flirtious??

and he said..i shouldn't come by package..Hello..that's me..remember??
He said i should change..should i?Would i be happy if i change??maybe it's more like..he would be happy if i change..it's for the sake of our relationship he might say..ahahahah..BITE ME!

i want to watch a movie with my friend..a guy friend..is there any problem with that?Watching a movie means watch a movie and not snogging..so i dun see any reason why he should be mad at me..and i feel like watching a movie now and it happen that he is suppose to be working now..so go to work and i go and watch a movie with my friend..is that a problem..

and by saying that "i dun want to see u today" means i want to have my own time chill out so i dun be that selfish biatch and let u have ur own time..it doesn't mean that i hate u or i dun love u..i just want to have my own time..

I am an extremist..a rebellious..i am stubborn..i am a psychopath..ia biatch..a pain in the ass..despite all that..WHY R U STILL IN LOVE WITH ME?

+Love me..love me..said that u love me
Fool me..fool me..come on and fool me..+

Hohohoho

Merry X'mas to all my friends who celebrate christmas..I went back yesterday since it was a holiday..got nuthing to do beside cooking and sleeping with mum..Dad was not home..mom siad he went to work..ehe..what the hell was he doing working on every public holiday?erm..whatever..

i was so damned bored..and so i called my ex since i missed him so much but then i regret it.I missed him lately and i just can't get him out of my head.Even when my bf is around i still keep thinking about him.Somehow my bf knew that he failed to get a grip at my heart and i know he was upset.So i called my ex hoping it can cured my thought to him but instead we when around and around at old things..things that can make me mad..And it make me realize that I AM MISSING A PERSON WHO IS NOT THERE..not even close..i missed the old raja muazam shah who i used to fall in love with..the one with respect to people and full of love..not hatred and big ego like a man he is now..Maybe when u reach a certain point in your life,when u have a good job, a good pay and gain people respect it will change u.that's what happen to him.Money and power changed him completely.It hurted me a lot..i admit i still love him and missed him but hearing he say such undiscerning words about me and my life..couldn't stop my tears from flowing down.I should listen to my bf at the first place..I should not call him anymore or even think about him..and maybe still keeping in touch with him as a good friend is a very bad idea after all..I should perish him like i buried my other exes even i love him the most..

I know it is quite impossible but hey, a girl gotto do what a girl gotto do.My happiness does not only lie in being with him..he is not the only person who loves me as i do but i also have a loving boyfriend now and sadly..i didn't return his love back as the way he did to me..I mistreated him just because some guy who i used to adore.

MY ex..u might be happy to hear that i cried yesterday..
u might be happy thinking that u hurted me back..
nevermind to that..
maybe i desrved to be treated that way..
but next time..please dun call me anymore
coz it only make me bleed more..

"Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby


And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight"

Today..i feel refreshed..i won't lie saying that id din't even think a bit about my ex..but whenever my mind start to flicker around him..i will quickly divert it over..to something else..
maybe that's the way..


+One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time+

Cracked

Had an uncomfy sleep last night..it was full of tossing and turning around untill i had to get up and sit..I wonder what happen to me.Usually i would never get up ..atleast not untill it is noon.I think something is wrong with my room..or wassit my bed?Coz my roomate is having no problem sleeping..It didn't only happen last night but the night before and the night before that..hmm..I feel like everytime i try to get my peaceful sleep,someone will shake my body that force me to open my eyes..Please dun do that again..I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP..

More test to go today and as usual i am unprepared..ok..half prepared since i spent half of my senibina class reading and memorizing all things that could be absorb by my brain.I hope my brain do react like a sponge even though i can feel that my head is getting heavier..

Should be going back to Hillpark..still got something to be read and done..ehem..I promised yamyam that i would do better this sem and i will certainly prove it..so..up up and away..

Testing 1..2..3..

Hummm..My first mid sem paper of the sem..It went quite well,what do u expect for repeater like me?I had another one to go this evening..this one..i don't have a clue about anything.Uh oh..takpe..takpe..jgn menggelabah..i still have time to revise(or it's more to study) but then i have to ask kecik to go for the interview by herselfla..sorry babe,i have to put my study as the first priority..

Yesterday..nuthing interesting happen..i slept all day and ended having headache..at night went to puteri umno open house in KJ..lecaknye..habis all my kain..but hey,dapat makan free..so considered okla..

Tomorrow yam2 shall be attending his interview session for PTD in Putrajaya,i want to follow but somehow i got SE paper to attend and a prolog lab test..arghh..but ..no biggie thursday is a holiday..Hohoho..Merry X'mas!!Ah..like i'll be celebrating any..
My hol would be snuggling in bed with my blankie..and getting lazy..or maybe having lil bit hangover after partying the night b4..ermm..but do i have any party invitation yet?So far no..humm..maybe my friends are getting tired of inviting an MIA like me..

oh yeah,more resolution..Less partying next year..
by the way i am..


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Return of The King

Have u ever been in the situation where u wish u could see ur future?I wish i could..But someone say it's not our job to hold the fate..i know it's true..and i know he's wise but we can do something for our future right?and what would you do if what ur going trough now doesn't reflect what u want for the future?Would u just back off or u just go with the flow,hoping everything will be alright?That's what happen to me..Perhaps i should divert my mind to something else..not having this treacherous thoughts..hmmm

Thought of doing my tutorial yesterday but somehow i went to watch LOTR3 and it was worth missing a tutorial..hehe..Totally awesome..and Aragorn as usual make me melt.Even he's not dashing or have 'some' face but still his manly and his confidence really make me go ga-ga..i always like man who is full with confidence and charisma.More manly is more better.During my secondary i used to fall with pretty guy but not now,pretty guy will only make me say 'cute' but never make it through my heart.So when someone said i was lying for saying he's handsome despite he hasn't got the look,now u know my reason and no hun,i'm not lying.Ah,back to ROTK..Actually ier..not me actually it's my bf didn't expect we will get the tickets seeing that the parking of sunway which is usually free hassle was jammed..meaning..probably everybody were going for ROTK but hey,not only we manage to get the ticket but also a pair of nice seats..except we didnb't make it to buy any tit bits coz the counter lad was kinda slow and we didn't want to miss the opening..anyway,i'm soooooo happy..finally the trilogy has ended even though it did make someone sob.*wink*wink*..

Ahh,two tests to go tomorrow..Shit..I wish i could be an elf..so beautiful yet got nuthing to worry about papers or lecturers..Humm

Big talk..Big Head

I was supposed to join Farah's b'day party last night at Nuovo but somehow i didn't have the heart to go.Hearing that lots of people will turn up sort of kill my mood.Lots of people who i didn't know and probably pretencious people talking about their wealth,their trips to europe will give me headache.Ehe..not that i'm not used to mix with the rich and famous i do but hey,the people who i be friended with who i know are probably more wealthy from the 'unknown' people are far far more cool or 'tak menggelabah' ..even europe probably are their second home.Still they dun brag about cars,home or whatever it is..all we have r just having fun together.If i want i too can brag and tell them blabla..what so ever things i have or whoever person i had go out with..but hmm..no thanks..

and the bad thing is..i think Farah is sort of mad at me..ermm..i know i shouldn.t missed her birthday party but i just can't help it.Spending my time with my boyfriend eating at Kampung Baru and watching movie were better than feeling like stranging my self..and the worst thing is,someone i know will then transform to someone who is not herself..arghh..Sorry,babe..I didn't mean to missed ur birthday party.

Now that i saw how my bf was hurt,i try to promise my self not to loose any temper in front of him.I shall be more tolerate..before raging,i should put myself in his shoe..and..i have to remember not to call him names in the public even they doesn't mean anything to me or to him..coz that's just not right. He is a man and i should respect him as a man.

Going back to Shah Alam today..I must study a lil bit since next week is the mid sem week and i can't afford not to score any paper.I have to...Dah last sem dah ni..

Doc asked me to join them for futsal session but hmm..i dun think my bf would like that so i have to pass and besides futsal with my ex-schoolmate is more important.And..i dun want to play with fire..probably after futsal doc and his gang will go for makan-makan and ehe,of probably i'll be wooed by that-sweet-talker-joe..thus making my bf life a hell.and i'm the one will get the firing..from the green eyes monster..

It's all coming back to me now

There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby

If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back

There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

Thought you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
Al coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now

(It's all coming back to me now)
And when you kiss me like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when I touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we, , ,

I wish i dun start meddling with my bad mouth
I wish i could control my temper
I wish i dun care that much
I wish i dun love a person like that
now that i do i have hurted that special someone
who is just trying to love me..

and..it's all coming back to me now..

Fucker

I went to the faculty but didn't manage to go to class.Why?Coz i was too lazy to go to DK2..i want to do it in Audi as usual..:(..ok..i know i shouldn't have this kind of attitude but..hmm..dunnolah..Tetibe terase menyesal..takpe..takpe..
start from next week kene pegi kelas..KENE!!

i had some kind of bad feeling about my relationship.We've been fighting for almost everyday..Somehow we will settle things but there are something that i dun think i can compromise.

i am very very materialistic so being normal wouldn't help much.And i hate it when the other person took this as my bad trait.Hey,i splurge money but i never splurge his money on buying things that indulge me.It's my own money(okay,it's dad's money). So it really pissed me off when he say "This is because of your environment"
What the Fuck?I was like this since only god know when..It's nuthing to do with my environment(actually he wanted to blame my housemate and party friends).I love to shop..even when i'm still in school..long..long time ago before i met him.And saying that "I dun think i'll be somebody" does not helping either.If u know u would ended marrying nobody,would u marry him in the first place?i dun think so..

As everybody know, i was a control freak and i was vain..i will make sure i look presentable when i go outside to socialize.Call me a freak or whatever u want but that's me.That explain why i always fall for well-dress-men.Men who dress well and smell extremely nice never fail to get my attention.But thay said,love conquer all..issit?I want my love one to dress well because i think,what we try to potray will effect what people think about us.I mean people impression.He might be snickering and smirking if he read this..sorry.. I'm just saying what i am feeling here.

Eventually saying things that can hurt my feelings doesn't help at all!

Somehow i know that..i was the one who created some problems..ehe..i should be more focus on that..


I always wondering about my own feelings..Do i really have the feelings or do i not?The answer still remain fuzzy.Somehow on our way back home last night..i heard an old song by Don Henley which the lyrics sort of touched me

"But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough "


ahhrhghghghghg..

Fuck

Fuck

Fuck

Followers and religion

ahhh..finally i manage to get things rite.blogger had upgrade me..tq so muchh!!takde pening pale dah after this..

yesterday ermm..i didn't went to class coz i was not feeling well..instead i stay at home and cooked..hehehe..then yam yam came and as usual i felt refreshed :P..

while we're watching the news someone babbles something which is related about religion.Hum..for me i respect other people religion, no matter what they beleive.i dun know about other people but for me it's up to the individual to beleive whoever they want to beleive.Maybe some people are will not agree with me and some may think that i'm not doing the best i can do as being a muslim,but hey that's my opinion..I mean during Prophet Muhammad time also, he even respect other people religion.I mean u dun have to swear like saying "Fuck the blabla..Stupid asshole.."

As far as i concern,no religion teaches their followers to be bad,it depends on the individual itself whether to do it right or not. So anything bad happen in the world,blame the people dun blame the religion.

Yeyey!!..managed to catch the grand finale of survivor 7 last night.I was dissapointed that Jon didn't make it to the final 2.Me and Yam yam think he should..a mind of pembongak..hehe..even he was so full of scam but he played well,being a twister and all.That's the game is all about.Tapi..atleast that Lill didn't won that money either.I think she's a bunch of crap..somehow i can't stand people who are being so nice..I vote for Sandra and glad that she grab all the money even my Jon didn't make it.:(

ahh..i felt restless due to lack of sleep last night.
I was having some sort of nightmare.I see things and heard voices.I even remember playing tug of war(it's my blanket actually) when someone or issit rather something try to pull my blanket and after failing..my leg?Then i couldn't move a muscle even i can see things clearly..I was so damn scared..as scared as i could be that i then share the bed with my roomate.She must have an uncomfy night..hehehe..sorry..I think i should see a shrink.Don't u think so?

i made it to class even i was 10 minutes late but..to my dissappointment i couldn't find my class anywhere.I went to all the classes that i could find but i fail to trace where the hell is my class have move to.Ah..it's not my fault..ok it was my fault i was late but hey,atleast i try!!


Going back to Shah Alam.Haven't meet mum since she got back from Sarawak.Wonder what did she get for me?:P

clubbb-ing

went clubbing with my housemate last night.Unexpectedly met doc and tadaaaa... Joe over there..doc as sual will buy all the sista drinks.i had a good time and i bet everybody will but it was spoilt by us following izwan(is it his name?) to Grand Modesto.Ahh..the lair of mat rempit..sheeshhh...i couldn't stand the crowd...thay r annoying and oh my god the toilet r so filthy!!!!
then met yam2 at lotus after that..and as i expected..he was raging..inside?hum..i know it's so mean of me just to think of my self but ..i do want to care about my feeling first before caring about other people's.When we talked before i sleep, i wish i didn't had a good time coz the guilty ate me.If only i could promise not to do it again...hunny,i'm sorry but i am just a girl..

To make thing even worse,Joe called just now and my bf was here with me..eheh..i just dunno how to react.I swear i dun have any feeling for him.Not even a tiny feeling. I dun wamt to elaborate more about the topic.Nuff said.

argh..why is my blog still having problem??tensian camni..lapar pon ada jugak..it's already 4 but i still dun have my lunch :(..

+i'm just a simple gurl
in a high tech digital world+

slim shady

went to nikkit's open house last night..ended with full stomach then off to subang sport planet for futsal but..salah tempat rupanya.The gurls were playing at unlimited..since only 15 mins left so i cancelled to play futsal.Then just lepak-lepak around untill my eyes get droopy.

bangun tido..i felt lil bit cramp on my neck..ades..sakitnye..mesti salah tido ni..untill now i felt uncomfortable..huhuhuh...

today..ermm..go to UPM with yam-yam,thinking of changing the layout for my blog but my genius bf somehow make my plan incomplish.Kalau aku tau tido kat umah lagi best..Furthermore..the weather is so..in to deep sleep..i mean..shady and all..not so hot,not even slightly hot.
ok,now i have start recontructing my page..chaos sket..so sorry if u get headache or something :)

Might be going to more open house today..

the rest is still undecided.

Whatever Hun

hurrahhh..finally i made it to class this very morning.I even turned up to be the first person who wake up this morning..ehehehe..something extraordianary for chics.umm...then after class i became blank..nak buat apa hari ni??maybe i can repair my prolog lab(duhh)..and i'm thinking of cooking something for my self..dah lama tak makan byk.and..maybe i should get my beauty sleep since tomorrow i got no class..ehehe..tonight partyyyyy!!!*wink*wink*..kinda killing me seeing my housemate all dressed up,smelling so sweet went partying without me..sob..sob..

today,might be watching romeo and juliet with my housemate and the boyfriends..ermm..talking about boyfriend..i don't think my boyfriend bangun already since i didn't see him on Ym or messenger this morning.Ahh,,nak balik cepat..besok nak keje konon...band bla..bla..dah brapa hari bgn lambat..he pissed me off last night by turning late and going back early..but..why bother?he has his own life and i have mine..lantak dia la nak buat apa.I don't want to be too care or kisah sangat coz i dun want to get hurt..furthermore..i can get things going my way..kinda stupid of me to get pissed of by him yesterday..i should not care that much..so hunny..do as u wish(so maybe i can do as i wish??)..as i always say(and he somehow read my mind) WHATEVER!!

i dream of something weird..me and my bf went to UK for God know why and when we came back i found out that my family had died in an accident.Then our house had been bought buy some arrogant datuk who refuse to sell it back to me as i want the house coz that's the only thing that can remind me of my beloved family.In my dream, i could see all my family things being trashed away by that evil datuk.Whats more,he claimed all my cat to be his!I thought i only cry in the dream but i realized i was crying in real life..it was sad..sob..sob..weird but scary enough..hope it is just a dream..nauzubillah


talking about quitting smoking last night.yam yam said we should seize the smoke as early as the first dawn of 1 jan 2004 arrive..ermm...errr...tgkla camne..

+whatever tomorrow brings i'll be there+

Bliss

arghhhhh...i missed senibina again..i woke up at 9..dah tak sempat nak pegi..sheeshhhhh..heran pulak,mlm tadi tido awal..apsal tak boleh bgn pon tataulaaa..

went to SE class,sit with my housemate..the result end up talking in class about RP,nuovo and all.Then kene sound dgn lecturer pasal bercakap..hehehe..sorry miss jackson,don't mean to hurt you.Thinking of going to movie tonite tapi ticket mcm dah sold out..hmmmm..camne?My housemate might be going to Rp which i want to go but when i told yam yam tickets are sold out ,he immedietly smell my plan and his voice turns into hulk??not that loud but a bit harsh..neah..maybe i'll pass since i got class on 8 tomorrow,that i should try to REMEMBER not to miss it.

mom will be going to Sarawak this weekend which make me stay put in hillpark..ahh..boogie night!!and nikkit is holding an open house friday night..can't miss it..sound like,this weekend will be a bliss!err..i hope so...

Oh my class

i had an excruciating stomach ache last night which destroy my plan to get jiggy with my housemate. The worst thing, i was also invaded by the stupid flu..make me sneeze all the time.Luckily yam yam was at home with me so i get lots of pampering..hehehe..When i wake up this very morning, the flu had banished.:)

i didn't make it to prolog class today.Mati aku..apa lagi nak klentong pon tatau..Tak sengaja..i over slept.I heard the alarm but somehow i can't get up..instead i woke up at 10.00 but still i missed my SE tutorial at 11.Mandi lama sangat plus berborak-borak dulu.I can't let things happen again..tak boleh malas2..i have to prove something here that being me is not less smarter than whoever it is.Tomorrow i shall not miss all my classes eventhough macam penat je nak attend semua.C'mon chics..lagi 1 sem je to go..then u can do whatever u want..


21 more days to new year.I havent decide how to celebrate it..my friends might be going to nuovo which i think is kinda superb but ehem..my bf want me to spend the day with him..hummm..i can't say no to him right?or can i??

it's look like it's going to rain..i wish i could see snow rather than water..hehehehe..
kalaula me sia turun snow..ahhhhh..........i can wear that cute coat with the fluffy thingy..or maybe fur?faux fur i mean..hmm...interesting

fight?

ahh..held this year open house on the weekend which leaved me dwelling with my tiredness. But i must say, i kinda enjoy seeing my friends again although some didn't showed up..hehehe

I fought with yam-yam over the weekends and i hate it coz it hurts a lot.He yelled at me..again..make me wonder..what the point rowing in relationship if we both get hurt?Well,i admit it was my mistake..and bla..bla..
eventually we get things settled and i hope it will stay that way..
hope i wont get yell and yell at someone i love in the future..

i've been in a painful relationship once
when i was hurt and i still holding on
hoping things will be alright
and for now..
i will not hesitate..
do it b4 it's too late!!

no tittle

hmm...lazy day for me since there are no class.My bf fever still show no good sign..erm..erm..i hope after our visit to the dr. yesterday he will get better.

nothing interesting today..just playing god and get smokin..

i wonder if thing will spice up a bit tonight?

Dancin' Fever

I had planned a night out clubbing with my girlfriends last night but it didn't happen.My bf had a high fever. So instead getting sweaty and probably wasted i had to look after him.He worried me coz his body was so damn hot. I tried to do everything to reduce the tempreture..hmm..i guess sick people can be annoying and banyak songel at times. At the end of the day i felt so tired and ended crying..hum..i dunno why..maybe because i was so tired?or..dunno

my roomate borrowed my car for last night clubbing and as the result my car smelt like Jack Daniel Car Perfume..new formula for ur car..hehehe..no biggie but she forgot to fill up the tank..:(

went to prolog classs today and got busted for not coming untuil the 4th week..had to give some white lies to get away with it..ahh..i hate it when this happens .

Bimbo Limbo

hum..i was used to be told that i was not smart,bimbo and all stuff and..i don't give a shit about it coz..they don't know me.But last night as i was having a conversation with yam-yam we accidently made some comparison about we and our exes.Not that i've been comparing all this time.No,it just came out accidently.

me:who is more smarter?
he:she..

SHE??????hey, i know that she came from an elite school but that doesn't make me less smarter than her.Ok fine,i always screw my test..but does smart only revolved around paper qualification??does some 2/3 hrs answering shitty questions can grade u whether u r smart enough or stupid?I mean everyhting can happen in that period of time.He said no offence but sorry hun,i'm offended. I can be as smart as everyone else if i want to it just that i was well known for my darn lazy attitude and my 'whatever' attitude. Bill gates didn't even finish his study in the uni,i bet maybe he didn't give a shit about exams and all and still he is smart!! I think beeing smart have broad tweaks but for me smarts means the way u think and how u deal with problems in life.Ehe,today when i wake up, i feel...like i dun want to see him coz someone i love kinda disgrade me?but hey,that's his opinion right?and today i feel like..i should get some pampering after feeling rather hurt and offended last night..hum..wonder what it will be?

ah..maybe that's one thing i can put up in my new years resolution.TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY.
SHOVE AWAY UR BIMBO ATTITUDE..ermm..

Might be a tough chores then,coz ehe i prefer to smile and get groovy rather than attending lectures and doing my tutorial.Well, something have to change right?

ahh...my sims addiction is back since MAKIN' MAGIC is now in the market.It's quite tough and this simulations is surely a tough challenge to my new-made-resolution..huhhh..

+me stupid??#$^#^%&$&R&%$+

Eid!!

I had a normal raya..except this year my baju raya is hideous.i hate it.it makes me looked like a pregnant women.waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...but i guess who cares rite?(except me)..anyway..my grandma rendang was totally delicious as usual and the best thing was..me and my cousins didn't have to do any works since grandma had hired a maid to help her..hehhe..i know it sounded bad of me but hey..i am too lazy to do anything..

my collection of duit raya is..better than last year..
even my bf give me his share of duit raya..yeyeyey..that's the way i like it..:P

class starts today but i already missed yamani's class this morning due to lack of sleep after watching 'mekanik' last nite.i loove that movieeeeee..

uh..new years coming..i better start thinking of my new resolution..even though i think resolutions are crappy..ermmm