Cured

Cured. That's me. I missed the smiling face, I missed the merry laughter. I used to miss my old self.


Thought the sun would never shine again, thought my breath would die away, thought my world would crumbled. I thought I would never find myself again.


Every single day, I asked myself. What happen to me? What happen to me? What had happened to me?


Why is that even surrounded by thousand shoes I feel panic? Why is that even surrounded by flocks of colourful dresses I feel lost? Why is that even painted with layers of make up I feel ugly? Why is that even I had so many wonderful friends I feel lonely?


Am I not going to be happy again?


Therapist. I've known one yet the feeling still remain the same. Lost, lonely, superfluous and wounded. Then she came along.


I used to sleep with tears in my face and let them dried when the sunlight came. But her voice, her empathy, her kindness slowly take them away.


Who would foresee a stranger who follows my daily crapness could be the one to help me through my time of turbulence. Yet she did.


I don't know how she does it but somehow everything turns ok. After few months, she made me enjoy our shopping spree together. She gave me the old feeling of delight ness on seeing rows of shops and shops and the sensation feeling of reaching for the coloured paper bags.


I am the same old me, now.


See the smiling face. It's genuine this time.


Thanks babe.
You know how much you helped me through.

ntahla

It's Chinese New year and I desperately need to go shopping. I repeat desperate.


Why? Because I found that lots of my precious baju were missing. Even the xixili bra is missing.My guess baby t is missing. Tyan skirt is missing. Apa la lagi nak missing. The red halter neck is missing. Wah, siapa yang ambik barang-barang aku?Itu aku belum check mekap dengan accecories aku lagi tu.


Yelah, memangla i'm one absent minded kakak yang comel butttttttttttt.. kalau setakat misplace accecories tu logikla ni baju yang aku suka. Celake.Skirt tu baru pakai sekali ok, pelikla.Siapa yang ambik niiiiii..Dah merata carik ok



Lepas tu ni tgh ada mood nak shopping chinese new yearla pulakkkkkkkkkkkkk.Cutilah semua kedai-kedai itu.


Ok let's make a list what are the things that I wanted to buy.
1.Cute tops/halter/tube/whateverrrrr
2.Miss Sixty /Ax jeans[kalau ade saizla]
3.Shoes for jalan-jalan
4.Shoes for errmm sporty sporty type
5.Bra
6.New navel stud
7.Books



Apa punye listla.
Ah, tak kire..belasah je jalan..kalau suke boleh beli.


Apa pasal entry ni macam dah sampai tahap bimbo?
Whatever.

Entahla wey

Wong Ah Beng said I'm keji because I went out with a guy from friendster.I thought I am keji myself but hey where am I suppose to know guy when what I did every day was go to work in the morning and get back when it was already dark. Plus my ex-colleagues are all woman.So I saw friendster as one of the way for me to got to know people.


But I know someone who is much more keji-er than me. Yesterday we went out for a drink after sometimes not hanging out together since both of us were occupied with our work.


Inside the car he was telling me that few days ago someone called him asking him to join a gym. Now, he did think of joining a gym but not that keen to splurge some money every month on something that he know he won't be doing often. Initially he wanted to say no but he changed his mind after hearing how soothing the voice was from the other line. The next day he set an appointment with the consultant.


She appeared to be a pretty attractive girl. Cute and everything. Being a Casanova [haha, aku tau kau marah bila aku guna words ni :p] he started to play his role. Oh man, if you know him personally you would say he's one of the smooth guys with sugar coated tongue, plus he was granted with great looks.Nasib baik aku kenal kau dari skolah rendah tau. Anyway, the girl told him everything about the package and try to persuade him to join. Now..now..The truth is, he's not that keen but he still say yes..


"Ok, I join tapi u kenela kluar dinner dgn I"
Wah, mentang-menangla kau hensem..Sangatlah keji engkau ini.


I asked him whether did she went out with him, he said yes. And I asked him whether she's still single, he said..comfim!


No wonderlah engkau tersengih-sengih ok.Kalau tak muka kau same je toye mcm aku.Haha.


Demm.Tolonglah kau jangan ada awek cepat-cepat, sebab nanti takde sape nak melepak dengan aku dah sampai malam-malam buta and mendengar craps aku lagi.


Ok, macam lari dari topik. Anyway, my point is, if you have lots of resources, use it. It depends on how you handle things actually.


Kalau engkau dah sememangnya poyo, you go to VVIP clubs and try to woo chic you will still be labeled poyo. Tapi if you are born with talent [seperti kawan aku tadi] letakla dekat mamak pon, you surely can senang get a chica. It's all about the way you do it.


So ah beng, bila you nak klua dgn I?
Hihi.
.

Oh, one more thing, Gong Xi Fatt Chai & Happy holidays!

Shall be missed

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..My ex-colleagues. Even I hate that place but I love you guys from bit to pieces.


They are all chinese but I'm loving them. They even speak chinese but I'm still loving them.


Nicole used to sit besides me. We talked craps all the time.She would tilt her head from her cubicle and start giving me juicy juicy info which I likeeee. I love going lunch with her. Always have something interesting to talk and to bitch about. I told her about the news she was sad, she said "Nooooo sha, who am I going to talk crap with?". Me feel that too Nic. And I love her selection on shoes and bags.And love her manja-ness and humbleness.


Cheryl, ahh my ATL. Always there when I need someone to mengadu. I kuat mengadu k. But i think I gave her headache coz she had to handle someone rebellious like me. But yeah, she can take it, I guess. When I told her, she was nearly in tears. I was sad too k, Cher.Anyway Cher, good luck with sham, now you had to replace my place entertaining him and his story. No worryla, he's a cute and nice guy. Just play along k hun?


Anyway, I wish you guys good luck and yup perhaps we could hang up sometimes but no char siew pleaseeeeeeeeeee.

Mar-ve-lous

Hello bunnies.


How was your day? Mine was mar-ve-lous. Woke up at 11 am.No working for today.
Actually, no working for the rest of my life [until further notice].


See that's the problem with pisces, they tend to follow their guts. Gamble ajelah. Pegila mampus apa nak jadi.Hahaha.Best tak?


I mean, it is soooooooooooooooo wonderful waking up and knowing you don't have to do anything for the rest of the day. But dun worry bunnies, of course I have plans for my life and of course I will do something about it.


So, if you got no date and feel like berpoye-poye, fret not..chics is here.
But tomorrow I am quite tied uplah..Got something to do.


Oklah. I need my afternoon nap.
Hihihi.

The rempits

One of the thing that I hate is rempit. Be it rempit motor or rempit kereta. I hate. Hate. But hah, never talk cocky, the same thing will come stinging at your face.


And so it did. To me.


He chose to bring his favourite car this time. It was black, it was..loud. And for some reason sometimes the engine get too hot [at times, yang aku pon tak sure bila] that you will also feel the heat. When the day is hot and you feel the heat, meaning you feel like you want to go ripping off your kebaya. See that smile? That's a-oh-bapak-panas-smile. And don't let me start about the noise. Don't.


But..the night before it was not that heaty. We went to berpoye-poye and end up going home when the clock stroke 3 or 4 or something like that. When there's no car meaning no traffic so apalah guna ada kereta rempit kalau tak boleh rembat [wah, aku cakap pon dah macam rempit k]. So we were on the elevated highway, passing the toll and he said


"Pegang kuat-kuat ok"
Ah sudahhhhh...


That time there was this car yang aku agak sukala jugak aktiviti-aktiviti macam ni which sort of carik-ing geng to rempit. I could see that he is so teruja coz after that his car went fast. Like really fast until the meter reach the maximum number, with bapak loud sound until I can hear nothing anymore.200 metres away, there's a corner. I glanced at him fully menggelupur but he seemed relax gile [Apakah kau tak takut matiiiiiiiiiiii?]. And there was a cab on the left lane and the other car that initially start the sesi rempit on the right lane. Obviously the other car wouldn't let us pass. If I were the driver I would like..wait patiently [mind you, I pemandu berhemah k] but ..He..He..pressed the pedal and try passing through the 2 cars. The moment we reached nearer a small gap in between the two cars, I closed my eyes and..aku mengucap ok. Celake, bapak takut. And few meters after that we approached a corner where he slower the velocity by reducing only the gap of 20 from what he drove before.


But we managed to survive and won [haha].


"So lain kali kalau I race betul-betul you jadi navigator ok?"
"...!!!!!!!!!!!!...."


Keji.
But that is not the keji-est part.


The most keji-est part is..
I, chics..sort of enjoy it.


Ramai-ramai..Kejiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

I'm so fucking stress that's why i came out with this second entry.


Mak aku balik-balik Jakarta aku dah kene marah.Waahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.Stresssssssssssssss tau tak.Tak sempat nak manja-manja dah kene marah.


I wanna bitch but everybody is not picking up the phone. Pegi manala korang niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.Angkatla telefonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.I soooo neeed a company right now ok.


Today is totally fucked up ok. I thought of having tea with a friend tapi aku dah macam takde mood pulak.I don't feel like going home or even went out with that friend walaupun die adalah nak balik johor besok dan aku tak taula aku dapat jumpa die lagi ke tak. Dude, if i dun see you tonight, you callah i nanti bile balik JB kay.


I'm so like emotional not stable right now ok.
But then again..whyla bother telling if knowing tade orang kesah pon?
Semua orang mesti nak kesah pasal emosi sendiri punye.


Manala aku nak pegi malam ni?Demmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Fffffffffffff

Hafarinifi nifif safayafa safakitfit.


Sayafaya safakitfit peferutfut sefebabfab sefemafalamfam sayafaya mafakanfan mefegifi safahafajafa.


Safayafa safakitfit ofotakfak jufugakfak. Dahfah tryfy pafahamfamkanfan oforangfang tafapifi oforangfang takfak perfernahfah nakfak fafahamfam safayafa wafalufaupunfun efemofosifi safayafa takfak stafabilfil. Kefenafapafa safayafa yangfang afasyikfik nakfak kefenafa mefengafalahfah? Safayafa yangfang nak fak kefenafa fafahamgamkanfan oforangfang afajefe.


Safayafa dahfah pefenatfat. Safangatfat.

Survey n quiz

Ok. Found this in anne's page and feel like doing it today. Sekali sekala ok.
And scroll down till the last part, something new for today!!

1. What is your current ringtone?
   -my humps by BEP for general. Girl for my sisters, awan yang terpilu for family [shadap ok, I love that song] and tiada ertinya for MR 708.




2. What is your current wallpaper?
   - gambar azman ghani, the frog soft toy which nicky bought for me. Sangat comel dan pendiam.Beliau jarang bercakap eventhough bila kami hanya tinggal berdua.




3. Do you own a picture phone?
   - yela, mestila..kalau tak takkanla banyak gamba aku dalam blog ni.Hoho




4. If so, what was the last picture you took?
   - gamba sendiri.hahaha




5. Go to your text message inbox and type the 10th message. from who?
   - MR 708




6. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
   - tak taula, tapi rasa macam tak banyak sebab bila bosan macam takde je orang yang boleh di call. You care to add the list bunnies?:P




7. Go to your missed calls. Who was the last call from?
   - MR 708




8. Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone?
   - My client. Dia ni memang suke call ok.Kadang-kadang tgh malam pon nak call.




9. Who was the last person to text you?
   - Puteree [I lebiu babe]




10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your battery?
    - full sbb smalam baru charge k.




11. Who's on your speed dial number 5?
    - takde speed dial-dial ni derrr..call ajela.




12. Do you have voicemail?
    - ade dan berbunyi sangat comel.haha




13. What does your voicemail message say to callers?
    - "hi, this is chics.. blab..bla" ala usual stuff.




14. How many contacts that start with the letter D do you have?
    - Seploh




15. Who do you call the most(s)?
    - MR 708, Puteree




16. How many text messages do you get a month?
    - tak taula, ape ke jadahnye aku nak kire?




17. Can you send pictures?
    - can..can..why you want one?;P




18. What are the last 4 digits to your number?
    - 1497




19. Go to your message inbox, what does the 8th message say? from?
    - "Ok, so coffee at Mariott is on.Pick you up in 15 mins" from Faizul.
    
    
    
20. What about the 15th?
    - "Manje ye?Malam ni jumpa ok. Nak big hug" from Melawati with love hehe.




21. Who’s the last person that you called?
    - MR 708




22. Last person that texted you?
    - Puteree




23. Last person you added to your contacts?
    - entahla..sape la ntah, tak ingatla.




24. How many minutes are on your plan?
    - aku tak taula brape banyak minit, sampai bill bayar jelah.




25. Do you like your phone?
    - love and hate relationship. I love it because of the function but I hate it when I think of the person who gave it to me.

Now, now..I know that you are not in the mood to work. Why not you guys take a quiz. A quiz about how deep do you know me. To those who had taken some quiz that I made earlier, this is the different quizla. So to siapa siapa yang eksyen dapat top score dulu tu, haa..amikla skali lagi.Siapa yang tak score, inilah masanya nak repeattttt. Jangan sengan-segan.



Happy weekend bunnies!

Mommy instinct

I missed my mum so much that I slept on her bed every night.


Yesterday she smsed me from Jakarta after 3 days not having any communications.


"How are you, are you ok? I sensed something is not right with you. Mak mimpi jumpa ustazah mak yang dah meninggal and she told me something about you. Something which is not good. Mimpi tu dah 2 malam berturut- turut. Pastu mak terbangun and terus semayang hajat. Anything bothering your mind, dear?"


I was at the office at that time and after reading her sms, I was in tears.


Oh, emak. How did you know?


"I'll be coming this weekend instead of staying a little longer. Wait for me on Sunday ok. Banyakkan zikir". That's how her other sms sounded like.


Had to excuse my self to go to the toilet after that second sms.


Inside that small cubicle my mind keep thinking. How did she managed to tell? I purposely try not to let her know coz I want her to enjoy her time with dad.


I guess that's what you call a mother instinct.


I missed you mom, a lot.

Foolish?

I left my cell phone at home yesterday, which is soo me. When I finally get home there were 10 miss calls with 8 messages. My client called and he called me chics instead of my real name.Haha. Cute. I like him though my colleague sort of detest him but yeah, that's not the point.


There's this voice message from a person that I haven't keep in touch with for a long time. If you remember I did write about her few months back, she's the one who wouldn't mind going for people husband. As a friend, it's courteous to return her call since she asked me to ring her back.


It seems that things did not go well on her side. That guy apparently only wants her as a friend but she can't cope with just being a friend. I asked her why that is was so hard for her to let go and why wooed someone who on the record belong to someone else. She told me that all single men whom she had relationship with treated her like a piece of shit. Well, that's not a new story for me.


If she had been through bad relationships before with single men not knowing what will be in the future why go for something that she can already predict the verdict?


Like I said, some woman when they begin to care for someone they forget to put their feet on the ground. At times they tend to give extra things be it attention or material wise not knowing that the other party is not in need of those thing leave alone to care. Sometimes you try to show them affection but to that person it is just gratuitous. One question, how to love but not to care, not to show affection?


Would it be better to let them deal with their own life and you deal with your own life yet claiming both of you care for each other? Isn't caring is sharing? As an attention whore, I don't know the answer.


Apart from that married man, she also had a serious relationship with a single guy since she knows that the married guy is sort of out of reach. That friend told me how hurt she is when she tries to care but the guy [the single one] accused her for being nosy. Nosy for asking what time will the guy finish working so they can have dinner together, nosy for asking whether there is a possibility for them to shop for Hari Raya essentials the following weekend. Now I am confused to whom should I give my bitch slap to.


Perhaps some people just take another person as and when they like at their own convenience. It's like when I feel like calling you, I'll call. When I feel like seeing you, I'll tell but please don't get in my way. My life is so busy and I don't need a headache to mess it up. Sad isn't it?


She cried over the phone and I truly feel sorry for her. I know how does loneliness and emptiness feel. Yet, I can only comfort her with some words that I'm too, not too sure of.


The more you think of it, the trickier it gets. How sure of you that the other person really wants you in his life? Everyday you try to convince your self that you are a psycho bitch who keep thinking about irrelevant thoughts although you know that you could simplify things. Except, how to simplify when the equations does not tally? When what you have in mind does not tally with what you have in heart.


Aiyoh, I can vomit blood ok like this[ quoted from my superior].
Before I vomit blood, I better pen off[haha].


Unless you want to tell me the answer..

Cerita-cerita keji

Hello. Apa khabarla. Sorryla k semalam tak sempat nak update pasal bz sangatla. Sebenanye telah datang lambat ke opis sebab celake mane tah yang tak reti buat jalan lepas tol Damansara tu, bapak jam ok. Sempatla saya menghabiskan 3,4 batang rokok tapi nasib baiklah tidak rasa hendak terberak.Jikalau tidakkkkkkkk..


Sangat sengsara rasanya kalau terpaksa menahan hajat dalam keadaan begitu. Dua tahun lepas kan, saya dengan nik telah menumpang kereta fadzi dan sumainya[masa tu boifren lagi k] Mail untuk pergi ke perkahwinan Tini di Terengganu. Dalam kesejukan malam, saya terjaga dan terasa hendak mengencing. Lalu saya pon menotify Mail, tetapi dia menyuruh saya bersabar. Akhirnya sampai ke satu tandas di mana orang yang menunggu bapakla ramai seperti hendak membeli tiket akademi fantasia. Lalu saya menyuruh mail mencari toilet yang lain sebab saya komfem tak boleh berdiri lama-lama. Kami pun meneruskan perjalanan, setelah banyak onak dan duri kami lalui, tetap tidak juga nampak toilet lalu saya berkata pada mail


"Mail, bentilah sini. Aku seres nak kencing. Selambalah kencing tepi jalan"


Tetapi Mail..


"Kepala hotak kau. takde..takde.. Aku takkan benti tengah jalan..Tahanla sket, skejap je lagi"


Rupa-rupanya sekejap lagi Mail itu bertukar kepada dua jam.Selama dua jam saya terpaksa menghiburkan hati dengan menyanyi lalalala untuk mengawal perasaan. Hanya Tuhan sahaja yang tahu kesyukuran saya apabila berlari-lari anak pergi ke toilet. Perasaan itu memang asyik tetapi keji.


Selain dari suka merasa hendak membuang air besar atau kecil pada masa-masa yang tak relevant, saya juga suka terlupa menutup zip seluar. Ini adalah kerana saya merupakan seorang pelupa, entah kenapala, saya pon tak tahu.


Pada suatu hari pada tahun 1998 saya telah pergi ke library[ha!] bersama kekasih saya[masa tula] untuk mengulangkaji pelajaran sambil bercinta.Setelah penat membuat tutorial kami pon mula berpoya-poya di dalam library. Walaupun ada papan tanda suruh senyap tapi kami sukati cakap kuat-kuat. Tiba-tiba ada seorang budak lelaki memanggil saya.


"Chics, sini kejap"


Wah, mungkin dia mahu memarahi saya kerana membising.Lalu saya dengan garangnya pergi kearah dia.


"Aa..Kenapa?" *Sambil buat muka garang*
"Eemm.." * Muka serba salah*
"Laa..cakapla cepat"
"Seluar kau tak zip"



Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..Terasa diriku ini seperti ingin menyamar sebagai kerusi dan meja disitu. Kenapa dalam banyak-banyak perkataan, perkataan itu yang kau cakaaaaap?


Sejak hari itu, saya mula berasa conscious terhadap diri sendiri. Setiap kali saya pergi berjalan-jalan apabila ada orang memandang tersenyum-senyum saya akan mula berpeluh dan terus pergi ke toilet.


Ok. Cukup cerita keji untuk hari ni.Dah pegi buat keje masing-masing sebelum HR awak orang nampak.


Tata n muah muahhhhhhhhh.

Defensive?Non.

And so..the finger was pointed at me.


But sorry, I just don't get it.


Actually I drafted a long entry to sculputured my feelings like you did but after thinking I thought, why should I? I don't want to be calling the kettle black.


I don't have to prove anything and don't have anything to prove.Like I said, sod off to what people say about me.Like I care anyway.


But I need to say this, next time you want to take my pic and put it on your blog, let me pose, don't take candid pictures coz I look way better when I pose.


Thank You.

Mysteries of universe

1. Kenapala lelaki ni susah sangat nak bangun tido.Dah 8 juta kali aku call tapi tak bangun-bangun jugak lepas tu claim"I memang bangun awal tiap-tiap pagi" or "I memang senang terjaga".
   



2. Why is that when we wish for something we rarely get it but instead we got something else? The thing that makes the situation trickier is, either it is too good to be true or it is something that you always try to avoid before.
   



3. Why issit when we smoke automatically terus rasa nak berak?
   



4. When you want to be strong and found the strength to be strong, why must someone came and makes you feel week and pampered?
   



5. Why woman still wear killer heels even though their feet hurt like only God knows.
   



6. Why sometimes people hate someone but still continue reading that person's blog?
   



7. Sometimes we say we loathed a person but still we feel a certain urge to know what's going on in the other person's life.
   



8. A lot of people say what past is past and they don't care about other people past but when the time come, all the things that they say proven not true at all.
   



9. What is the explanation for there are mat endon and minah endon but there's no perempuan bangla-->Someone asked me this question and I've been thinking since.
   
   



10. Why do we call kucing as "cinng..cinngg" when we want to attract their attention but we never call arnab "naabb..nabb"?

Hoh.TGIF!
Happy weekends bunnies!

My best friends' wedding

All this while I always pray for her happiness. She deserves all the happiness in this world. For she is thoughtful, she is loving, she is gorgeous and she is a very good friend.

Yup, I've known her more than 10 years. She shared my laughter and my tears. My partner in crime.

Last week a lucky man had a greatest moment in his life by walking down the aisle with her. Such a great responsibility but when you find the one that you couldn't live without, what could you ask for more?

I am sad coz I know I will lose a shoulder to cry on but deep inside I'm really happy for her. Seeing her on her wedding day make my heart smile. Seeing her smiling of happiness made my heart leap.

To Nik and Duan, may both of you guys live happily ever after. Insyaallah.


More pictures of Nicky's wedding here.

Shite!

Today is a bad day for me.


I have pictures from nicky's wedding already but the thumbdrive is missing.Stress kay.Can't upload pics unless I bought a new thumbdrive.


My mom went to Jakarta last weekend and everything was out of control [at least I am :P].
I woke up late today as in 8.00 am.Hah menggelupur k bila tengok matahari dah naik.
Then the road was jammed and the fuel tank was empty.
Time consuming..Tsk..


Had to speed up till the extent I hadn't got my morning ciggie left alone breakfast.
I am starving kay. Thinking of that yummy american breakfast. I have to eat something during lunch, my energy was wasted dengan berlari-lari anak sebab tak nak lambat. Demm.


To make it more shitty, I left my cellphone on my bed.Nice eh?
The last thing I need is for my cellphone to be left.Huhu


Loads of workloads..


Ahhhh..


Can't wait for the clock to tick 6.30.
Will pig myself out at Seoul and will make sure I receive a biiiig hug.


Hmm..


Nway, don't let Wednesday ruin your moods kay bunnies?

Pure shore

Someone told me that if you genuinely love somebody, illustrate your earnest appreciation. It's like you would not let anything harm her. That's pure love.


Like a love from a mother to her child, will not even accede a small mosquito looms her precious. Like a love from a partisan for his realm, wouldn't demur drenching thousands of blood to defend his country.


But what is a love from a guy to a girl or from a girl to a guy?
We uttered the three magic words to our significant others every day yet the true meaning is still masquerading.


I love you.


Yet the girl discovers materials are more gratifying. Yes, I love him and for that he had to furnish. It's a man's liability isn't it? He who desires me; shall heed me. I am just a vulnerable girl. He is a guy, he should know better.


But I do love him.
Albeit he in all probability had to squander all his money on me.


Yet the guy finds sexual intercourse is somewhat to look forward to. Why not? We love each other and I bet she favours it too. It's ok if she doesn't want it but if she wants it, it would be better. Eh no, I don't think by doing that I'm disrespecting her. This is the twentieth century. Come on.


Yes, I love her.
She's so pretty, she's so hot. I got to have her.


Being in love is wonderful. Regardless the purity status remains vague or vice versa.
As long as everything is wonderful.


If you really love him, you would not let him feel hampered with debts just to satisfy you.
If you really love her, you would value her or take care of her instead of sleeping with her.
If you really love him, you would not uttered words that tore his heart apart.
If you really love her, you would not beat her and feel sorry later.


If you really love someone purely, you would know, without that person life ..doesn't mean anything.

Tragedy

Oh yeah, it happened on that cold night. It was cold. No, freezing coz it was raining that time.Usually I will switch on my fan but that night I chose not to.


In the middle of the night my phone buzz, received an sms. Wanting to read it but I was too tired so I decided probably I could do that the first thing in the morning and continued on dozing. But..by that time it was getting hot and having a thick cloth as a blanket doesn't help.In the darkness I fumbled to reach for the table fan which is located not far from me. Yes, managed to switch it on..still that didn't satisfy me since it wasn't exactly facing my face. You see..I love the feeling when the wind blow straight to my face.Instead of waking up from bed, I tried to reposition the fan. Everything was fine until..


I heard a bang sound and it came out from my head. Bloody hell. Bapak sakit. Kipas tu jatuh atas kepala aku. Macamana boleh jatuh pon aku tataula k.It was a major pain plus the propeller was still spinning, luckily my hair wasn't that long. Painful, very but my laziness was the paramount of everything. I dunno what happened after that, it's either I fell asleep or I fainted.


The next morning everything was dandy until the time I tried to concentrate reading something on the pc screen. Everything seemed to be blurry and there was this throbbing sensation from my head to my neck. And I threw up few times in the toilet.


See a doctor he was worried despite my laughter on sharing the story. He send me to the hospital where I had to go to the ER room. Naik wheelchair ok, Aku siap berdoa janganla ada sape-sape kenal aku.Haha.


Had to go for CT scan. Abang penjaga CT scan tu agak hensem tapi dia minat manchaster so agak potonglah kan [no offense :P]. Dahla dia marah aku sebab kepala aku aku taleh duduk diam. I was like..camnela nak stay still, kepala aku sakit sangat k.


To cut the crap, the doctor informed me that nothing serious but I had some gegaran otak and need to be supervised. Nasibla gegaran otak k, kalau hilang akal..


Ok dah, I want to continue eating my nasik lemak. You bunnies have fun at work kay!

Weekendku

Friday

In conjunction [ye ke words ni?Tibai jela] with nicky's wedding, the sisters went out for karaoke-ing even ade sekor tu baru kuar hospital but she still went.To support kawan-kawan. Nearly performed a tiger show kejila kawan-kawan aku ni. Anyway, the bride to be went MIA. She fell asleep kat rumah.Ni komfem keji.


Saturday

Happy new Year. Celebrate new year with my all time fav drink, air suam..Bley macam tu? Anyway, had a blast. And yerp, that beautiful smell of that mesmerizing lilies still linger in my room. Hello, orang tu jangan senyum sorang-sorang k.Hohohoho.Ok, terlari topik. Nway, hope 2006 will bring a new beginning to a new life.


Sunday

Despite the rain we still have fun. I was soaking wet and my shoes were full of mud. Tapi tak mlayula kalau tak main lumpur. There were lots of people, crowded especially indonesian which treated the concert like some gigs[aduhla]. Since I am too short ikhwan had to dokong me.Hahaha.Thanks dude, you are the best.Nanti kita pergi berpoye-poye lagi k. And to Ariel,lho kiut banget!!

Monday

Yeay, girl kick ass. Poyo je lebih, main adela dalam 15 mins. Had fun with the sisters kicking balls. Can't play much satu sebab my head is like spinning and seken sebab aku malas. Baik aku duduk tepi and tangkap-tangkap gamba. Gaya itu penting.Haha.

So the conclusion is I had the best weekend for this few months. Yeay for that.

Ok dah, time to pura-pura bz.Tata.

Muah--->Dah lama tak bagi kan?