Kampong

A lot people thought I come from Johor and some even thought I was from Borneo. During my orientation for my first year, a guy came to me and asked
"Are you iban?"
I was like.WTF??


No.I'm not iban and no, I was not originated from Johor. My kampong name is Hulu Langat, my mum's side and Kajang, my father's side but we usually will go back to Hulu Langat instead of Kajang.Anyway, when I was a small kid I was reluctant to tell people that my kampong name is Hulu Langat coz they will laughed their ass out and mocked me
"Hulu?Hahahahahaha"
Macam sial.


Despite the atrocious name, I used to love that place so much. When I was a kid, me and my bro would plead to my mum so that we could stay with my late atuk and nenek along with my youngest aunty, cik ell. To me, cik ell was one of the coolest chic I ever met. She got like tonnes collection of watches, earrings, shoes, clothes and er.. cigarettes. On staying there, nenek will brought us [me, my bro and my cousins] to bathe at 'sungai air panas' early in the morning.Oh my, tell you..it was much more stimulating than sauna. Afterward, my late datuk will brought us to the nearest stall to have breakfast,usually nasik lemak and black coffee. If we didn't for bathing at the river, every morning we will be awaken up by either atuk or atuk's tiong,aswad who loved to swear such as "celake", "mampusla kau" or even "bodoh" . He picked up those languages by listening to my atuk everyday [ha!]. Breakfast then will be roti buku which we bought from the bai roti, toasted in the oven and to be spread with margarine labeled dorina. The kerak was so black and we have to cut it ourself sebab dia memang betul-betul buku and if it's wednesday, nenek will bring us to the pasar rabu and we will get a colourful cekak each.Siap ada reben lagi ok.


And on weekends when everybody were there, we the whole family will play rounders or galah panjang.Or just play at the playground where atuk made specially for us.Siap dengan buaian, gelongsor seme. While we children do that, mommies will bake something for tea and daddies will either climb rambutans tree or talk craps will puffing their ciggies. Nenek will water her flowers using some kind of pump and atuk will polish his rifle.


But the best time was during ramadhan. Atuk will light up pelita around our compound and I think at that time every house will light their own pelita. My atuk was full of surprises, besides love to tango in the house and driving his green mercedes, he loved to pamper us by buying lots of colourful firecrackers. After break fasting, we will united to play with the firecrackers.Ha!That was the best time ever. Nothing beats the misery of kene kejar dengan mercun ayam or mercun gasing.


But that was then. After cik ell left for state, atuk passed away. I missed him dearly, I wasn't there when he went away coz I was sitting for my PMR.Since then everything changed. My nenek renovated the house and rent half of the house to strangers. She then went for vacation all over the world and stop being a 'nenek' that I used to read in malay books. In fact she's not the 'nenek' type from the beginning. I seldom see her now, maybe because she's not in the country or maybe because I couldn't careless anymore.


I don't really like to go back to Hulu Langat anymore. The sense of calming is no more there. Even the grass doesn't smell that sweet anymore. Everything is modernized. Our orchard had been chopped down to build houses for my mom's sibling only my family refused to live there coz ehe..we siblings refused to move there. Flowers nursery was also no where to bee seen, I guess it's been brought down to build a porch for my grandma mercedes. Even the playground that atuk used to build for us is no more to be seen. And during ramadhan, there's no more pelita , only colouful light highlighted the night. I guess, the only thing that last was only memory. And when I think of it, it makes me want to cry.


The last time I went back to Hulu Langat was last Syawal. No, it's not that I hate my kampong.It just that everytime I go there, I feel empty.


You know.. I wish.. some things should never change.
Coz when they does, they leave a big hollow in your heart.

Nurse

He.I didn't update yesterday.Anyone miss me?No?I tot so.


The reason is i went to accompanied ag for his operation.
So I become a nurse for a day. Aku rasa aku ade talentlah nak jadik nurse.Hahaha
As usual, I snapped few pictures but I forgot to bring the dongle.So no piccies for today.


The operation went ok, except for entah nanti taula kot apa bendenye yang ada dekat muka dia tu.


What amazing was I managed to find my way to Gleneagles padahal I'm like totally blind when it comes to finding my way to anywhere.The most far I can go is to midvelli, itupon sebab intensive training masa belajar dulu.But sempatla sesat sampai kampung pandan.haha


He is supposed to be discharge yesterday but he had to be warded, if anything went well, he'll be out by today and balik Shah Alam.Yeay!


Anyway, I changed my mind about the nurse thingy coz when I woke up this morning, I felt so tired like tanak bangun tido and pegi keje but of courselah I had to kan.Bapak letih jaga orang ni ok.Tak naklah jadik nurse.Howla those nurses and doctors survive eh?I wonder.


But then I still can play nurse-doctor with him when he's feeling better nanti.Hehe

Wtf

I'm having my pms. I am depress and angry. So if you don't like the idea of bitterness ruining your day, you can just go away. I mean now.


I am fat, I hate my job, my best friend is getting married[hah!!!!!!!], my hair sux and I am ugly.


I was sitting on the monorail and thinking. I'm 25 and I dunno what I want to do with my life. I mean what the fuck is that? Maybe you would say it's normal.No, to me it's not normal.I am a control freak.I have everything planned and now my future is blur. Before taking the commuter this morning I had a small fight with my mom.


Me:I am going away
Mom:Away, where?
Me:Away from everything.I want to do my master in UK.
Mom:You can always do it here like azwan
Me:I'm not azwan and I don't want to do MBA. I want to go away
Mom:No you don't
Me: I am.And this is my life.I have control of it.
Mom:*keep quiet, looking outside*Bodoh punye kereta, bawakla laju-laju sket
Me:*marah kat aku ke kat sape ni?*


I hate to be ordinary. If I don't do something with my life now, I will end up just the way I am now. A nobody. And I don't want to be like those person who tried their best to live their life without even knowing where they are heading and what they want and ended up mocking and blaming people who made it, who at their earlier days work their ass out.I just don't want to be like everybody else.Have degree, get married and live a simple life. I don't want a simple life!!That is so not me


I dunno what the hell am I doing right now. WTF??


And as usual, my boyfriend become the punchbag.
Me:Hello by.
Him:Hello yang *long pause*
Me:Ha?Apa you panggil I?You panggil i yang?You ingat sape yang cakap kat tepon ni?You ingat ni ex you ke?
Him:Ehh..eh..Takde..i cakap sayangla.
Me:You ingat i pekak ke?You cakap yang kan?
Him:by janganlah camni.Apasal pagi-pagi dah mengamuk ni?
Me:Dahla,tanak kawan you lagik.


Yes, I'm a bitch when I'm angry.Sue me!Like I fucking care pon!!Hoh!!


And I'm angry coz I'm losing my best friend.Enough said.

Plastic surgery

Day:Sunny Saturday morning
Venue:In the car


Me:By, malam tadik i mimpi tau.
Ag:Mimpi ape by?*looking atme while trying to drive straight*
Me:I mimpi kita clash
Ag:Tak bestnye mimpi you
Me:Dengarla dulu. I mimpi kita clash lepas tu kan I couple dengan Anuar Zain. U plak
couple dengan orang lain, tapi tak femesla pompuan tu[haha]
Ag:Ha?
Me:Sekali tu kan I dengan Anuar Zain pegi dinner kat restaurant.U pon ade la dgn gf
baru tu.Lepas tu kan Anuar Zain manja-manja dengan i[hohoh].Skali tu u datang
dekat kitorang, you marah anuar zain.
Ag:Heh!Takkan punyela*while making his so-infamous muke takde perasaan*


Nampak tak macam boifren aku tak kesah.
Nampak tak macam aku kene buat plastic surgery.
Takpe you..tunggulah nanti..
Hoh!!

leaving?

Saturday night. Supposed to be a partying night. Instead I am here, staring at the screen.


i am lonely


i'm losing all i have one by one.
everything seemed so wrong
i think I should get out from here
maybe I can find what i've been looking for
maybe I can change my name..again
and change everything about me.


but i love this place
even the local movies sucks
and there are only two seasons
but still..



here is where i grew up
here is where i kissed a boy
here is where someone get a taste of my bitch slap
and here is where my loved ones are


infact, here is where my heart is


but then.. my soul is not here anymore.

Versus

[the previous entry has been deleted,not suitable for viewers.i apologized]



have a nice weekend

Twinkle..twinkle..

Twinkle twinkle my lovely star
I used to wonder where you are


I search every near and far
But I never find you, my twinklest star


In my search I met a pumpkin
But there's something under its skin


It gives me a tick and it makes me sick
So it's not pumpkin that I pick


I met bear
And he gives me a scare


I met a sun
But he's no fun


But not until one day
When u came to me and say 'hey'


Then only I can see the ray
Thus make may heart feel so gay


Now when I don't see your name on YM
I look at my feet and they began to stamp


I miss you and your witty joke
Pleasela come back before my heart revoke


So please tell me you miss me too
Or I shall break your collarbone into two


You make me my heart losing one screw
Oh my star, I really heart you!



Bangekla MIDF, macamla takde orang lain nak hantar pegi disaster recovery.
Hoh!

The proposal

Let see..Next month there will be 4 weddings on my side and in June there will be like 2 so far. Humm..I am losing my friends more and more.Tu aku tak campur lagi bulan doblas tu.And you know, even those who didn't directly say it to me I'm feeling the heat that they are going to get married soon.Dari segi susunan ayat dan susunan bahasa, I know that they are going to tie the knot soon. Tapi ni stok lagi sebulan nak kawin baru nak bagitau. Saikik tak aku?


I feel warm..like so warm when I heard that my friends are getting married especially if they are my stf sisters. It's like..aww..sweet but at the same time I'm also thinking..so who am I going to lepak with now? They said that
"Dun worry chics, lepas ni aku still boleh lepak-lepak lagi"
Haa..Right.


And who shall listen to my mental illness towards my love life on my ym?You see, once they got married they won't say things yang aku nak denga such as
"Oh, derang mmg camtu",
"Tula, pasal bola seme sanggup, cuba pasal kita.." or
"Aku memang akan..bla..blaa"---> Too dangerous to disclose.hehe
Because at that time the terms we, us does not bear the same meaning anymore.
Different.


But yeah, I still have few more bosom friends namely nicky and nikkit. Kalau nicky kawin, aku tak tahu apa akan jadi dengan aku.I might cried a bucket, coz I can't manja-manja with her at night anymore. Hohoho.And that is sad ok.I mean, really..


Or I have another alternative. I can hang out with my guy friends.
Ok, bad choice.


Now we shall come to my actual point. Since one of our dearest friend is getting married like..so soon[can you believe it?], we are planning to hold a bachelor party and..we would like to know if there any takers among u guys?


Ala, keje die senang je.Pakai topi bomba, baju bomba pastu turun dari pole and nari-nari sket.Pastu kalau rasa cam panas-panas sket, bolehla bukak baju. Heheh.


But,yeah, there's a but..after a brief discussion, nama-nama dibawah tak dibenarkan apply


1.ag
2.amin
3.bulat
4.amir [yes, you who sit in front of me]

Yang lain-lain semua boleh.
Big butts are mostly welcome. hoho


So, anyone? * battling eyelashes *

Picky

You know, I know realised that I'm quite a picky person. I thought I was the 'whatever' kinda person. Main belasah je, janji boleh. It turn out to be I'm not so like that.


On buying clothes, I will look closely to the material. I will feel the material and imagine how it would look like after 15 washing. And mind you, even we have a washing machine at home but I washed some of my clothes using my two hands and use some kind of special soap for it.And..when it come to ironing, I'll make sure my maid iron it very very straight and smooth or..lepas tu aku akan iron sendiri balik.And it pissed me off if the lining of the iron does not go according to my taste.Plus..They are special ways and special arrangements for tops and skirts..and you don't hang them just like that. Tapi kadang-kadang bila aku dah malas nak layan aku blasah je but when the time come to wear them I'll get pissed off and regret for not synchonising them.Yes, I think my maid hate me.


I use only kleenex tissue unless there's an emergency and it drive my man mad. He must be thinking I'm sort of weirdo or something.I don't eat at mamak, I hate it when my mom wash white and colours together, I have my own way to cut onions and others and I don't like it when other person wanted to help me in the kitchen.


I even picked with whom I want to hang out with. Am only open to those who I trust, to the rest I'll remain cold.You see, it's so hard to trust people nowadays. Some of them, tend to look like a real friend, but when you look away, they will stab you on your back. Like..they will only call you, seek for you when they are in need for something.That's why I'm picky on choosing with whom I want to hang out with.


Hmm..After writing it down..I don't think I'm that picky anymore..
You see, now I'm becoming fickle minded..
Duh..

TGIF

Ohh..Finally it's friday.Finally I got to eat during lunch[minus mase kluar dgn amir, aku terpaksa bukak pose sebab amir kuat makan.takkan nak tengok je kan?].Finally I got to see ag sebab besok weekend *smile*


So today, am going to splurge on nasik ayam chee meng.Hah!Dari semalam ok aku teringin nak makan and today is going to be the day.Laydiefa, kau tak teringin ke?Hohohoh..Nway, I lost 3 kilos after err..3 weeks dieting. Yeah, I know it's not that much but still..And yesterday I feel that the slack that I wore was less ketat at the butt area.Tak taula saiko sendiri ke apa but I think, it's shrinking.Hah, watch out all pleated or short skirts..I am coming.Hohohoh [yes, i am that pathetic]


This morning, I saw woman in a monorail.She's so small and so skinny.She wore a kebaya which always never fail to amuse me but...she's too skinny.Actually if a girl is too skinny, she will look..like a skeleton walking. Not pretty ok. I usually will drool over chikas who are gebu..gebu. Which make me wonder, kalaula aku terus berdiet secara habis-habisan mungkin aku akan juga, nampak seperti rangka berjalan..but, how am I going to do that when I need to diet to erm..slim up my butt?Like right now, I diet, I jog, I apply cream.Ok..so maybe I can start eating again..tapi secara sedikit-sedikit[which is ..sort of susah].But you see, supermodels are so damn thinla except for sophie dahl but then she's getting thinner also.Tsk..tsk.. It's difficult to live in this urban era.


Another thing, why issit that when we are in a relationship, then only there are other options seemed to be open in front of us?Why issit that the other people will still want to try when they know that we are in a relationship?Is it that trying to get someone else from his/her couple is such a challange?Why don't they look for single people instead or mengurat orang tu masa dia single?

I don't want to get a headache in this beautiful Friday so I shall stop being a saiko..for now.
And as for you guys..
Happy Friday and have a good weekend.
Hope it will be a bliss!

Hair

I let Honey Star sleep with me since he's sick.And after 2 consecutive nights sleeping with me, he's getting better and has already starts purring. But he still refuse to take his meal.Dang, nak tunggu aku suapla tuh.


As the result of him scattering around my room, I ended with penuh dengan bulu on my outfit today.Demmla, dahla aku pakai suar hitam, outter vest hitam..Nampak cam baru kuar reban ayam ok, banyak bulu.


Speaking of bulu, my hair is getting longer.Ok, macam takde kaitan tapi rambut is also a bulu what?Jenis bulu yang panjang.Make sense ke tak?Whatever.Anyway, yup my hair is getting longer and I mean to keep it although he already asked me "I dah potong rambut, you bila lagi?".Nampak sangatla kan tak suka aku rambut panjang.Maybe it remind him of someone.hohoh..Too bad, I'm still going to keep it long.Yeah, I seldom wear my hair dengan panjang coz I can't stand the heat but u know, I have two crushes on two girls who I always see in the monorail.Both of them sangatla kiut and one smiled at me last two weeks.Memang macam tak relevant tapi because their hair are long and they attract me so I made up my mind, nak rambut panjang jugak.Yes, I know.I'm poyo.Plus, Entah, tetibe rase nak rambut panjang.Nanti boleh beli scrunchie kat Evita Peroni lagi.Tak pun buat ceramic perm..Best best.


To tell you the truthla kan, macam-macam stail rambut pernah aku buat, style ala-ala GI Jane pon penah ok.Demm.I hate to think of those experimenting years.


Ok enough.I will not torture you guys anymore.
Have a nice day people.
Mwah!!

Colour theraphy

I always think..how can one wear white? As in all white? I know it's pretty..so like the britney spears on 'sometimes' videoclip..you know so the virgin..but you see everytime i tried on all white apparel I looked..fat and stupid.Hence, I was known for my clumsy attitude.I mean..within seconds, surely the white tops/bottom will not be so white anymore.Yeah, I know...But that's true..sebab aku bukan jenis kontrol, seme main belasah.But..I do want to parade in white..like..white spaghetti straps and white linen bottom and carrying coach handbag.Uhhh...yeah, that's so not going to happen.*sigh*


Anyway, my favourite colour for my wordrobe are pink, red and black. I love pink, 80% of my tops are pink.I know it's too girlish and boring but I couldn't help feeling extra errm..pretty [?] in pink.It gives me confident.Like I can look silly [the fact that I always do]in that colour.


Red.I wear red on days that I feel I need extra energy or extra confident.I.e:on my first date, on my first day of work, on attending interview and when having futsal match [lama gile tak main dowh, bena cepat!!].


Black...I opt for black when I feel that I need to be polished when actually the fact that I'm not.Like today, I'm having a bad hair day but I need to feel good about myself so I chose black top.And it makes me look extra slimmer..which is good.


You know, I like when a guy wear pink, they look cute and look loving[make sense tak?].It's a turn on tapi ag tanak pakai pink.Dia cakap geli.Apa yang geli pon aku tataula.Mungkin bila dia pakai pink dia teringat zaman dia berjambu-jambu dulu.Tapi takpe, there will be days when I will buy him pink shirt/t-shirt.And masa tu mesti dia tak sampai hati tanak pakai.Hohohohohohoh.Best best.


Anyway, maybe what I'm about to say sort of terkeluar topik but I still want to say it.Besides a guy wearing pink. A guy wearing baju melayu is also considered a dish.Like maroon baju melayu, with all the samping and songkok.Poyo tak aku?


Okla, I don't want to talk craps anymore.
But tell me..what is your colour theraphy?

Showing affection

I was reading the newspaper while my mom cooked dinner when she came to me.


Mom:Awak sebijik resemblance Mak Jai[My aunt on my father's side]
Me:Maksudnye?
Mom:Kaki and bontot gomok.Lopeh tu suko pakai suar katuk, muko dahla macam cinapek.Entah apola yang si Azwan tu suko tah. [ My mom, depending to her moods, love to use noghoghi dialects when talking about relatives]
Me:Maksudnye ape?
Mom:Awak tula, sebijik macam mak jai..Memang ngikut sebelah ayah.


Yeah, me and my aunt looked alike. She's cute and so am I [hihih]. She likes to party and hang at clubs till dawn and so am I. She even called me whenever she and her hubby went out for their night life. She is ignorant to other people and so am I but..what surprise me, during my difficult period last year, she called me once in a fortnight to check out whether I'm doing fine or not. She also offered to introduce me to my uncle's friends.[My uncle friends are yummylicious with fat wallet.Ha!]. Well actually that's not my point.


My point is, I realized that my mum will never fail to criticize me on making a conversation. Even when she wanted to eulogize me she will condemn first. It's like.."Awak pakai suar mmg buruk, bontot besa sangat, pakai skirt macam ni kan elok" instead of saying "cantik awak pakai skirt".You know, in my point of view, parents are like that, maybe not all but my friend's parents are mostly like that. They don't know how to directly show affection to their children..as in word wise. Not actually parents you know, come to think of it..how many times did you say "I love you" to your parents for the past 5 years? For me I only say it directly once which was last January when my mom sort of want to find her peace by running away and twice on sms..Believe it or not..It's so akward to do that.


Maybe you would say "Ala, tayah cakap-cakapla.Faham-faham sendiri sudahla".Oh faham-faham sendiri ye?Kalau boyfriend/girlfriend tak cakap "I love you" tau nak merajuk, nak marah.So how?


Maybe it's malay culture. It's not nice to show affection perhaps? Maybe calling your hubby 'sayang' in the public after 30 years of marriage is something embarrassing? Or maybe scolding your children in front of everybody is a good way to depict that you are being a capable parents? Why can't we for once..just show how we truly feel inside, instead of shielding it by doing the other way around? Like I said, maybe it's a malay thingy. But I believe things are changing slowly. Man nowadays does say sorry when they messed things up not like old times when saying sorry is a huge thing for men to do. And woman do called their children with affectionate names and speak their mind rather than sweet talking over people but then kat blakang cakap lain..


I dunno.I hope things will improve so human being will feel more appreciated. Improvement without disrupting the malay culture.


How?Go figure coz I too..is still looking for the solution.

Meow

Honey Star is sick. My Honey Star is sick, he's having a high fever and it makes me worried.

I'm sick =(

He's Persian and he's yellow, just like a star so we named him honey star coz he's sweet and yellow. He used to be sweet and he used to be my fav..before MJ came. I think the affection between me and MJ had turned him to a green-eyed beast. He still purrs when I stroked him but on seeing MJ he will chase her like she's not going to see the sun anymore. And on my last birthday, he bitted me till I bled and left some ugly scars on my hand. I think he felt contented at that moment but regretted it later coz after that incident he's seemed timorous when he saw me walking nearby even I didn't chew him out for leaving some ugly marks on me.

This year he will turn 6 years old, quite an age for a cat but I'm not ready to let him go. In fact, I'm not ready to let go any of my cat. The thing is I favour cats than human. My love for cats is beyond words. Some of my friends just don't get me, I don't giggle or beam on seeing cute babies but on seeing cats [whether it's cute or not] I will go ga-ga and my heart will soften. I mean, I never get boring entertaining cats, they will never fail to amuse me but sometimes when talking to people, I can't help myself from yawning..like..can we just not talk? Ok fine. Sue me, like I care but that's me all right. Not only me but the whole family actually [excluding my dad, he only love pedigree cats, stray cats can be leave to die] love cats. In my house, cats will get distinctive treatment, they even sleep on the same pillow and the same bed as we are. Yes it's true, no kidding.

Even though some of my friends claimed that I changed my boyfriend like I changed my earings, I have to object to that. I do choose who I go out with and I will never ever date a guy who hates cat. If he hates snake or iguana it's forgiven [although it's quite hard for me to accept] but if he hates cats, it's sort of a turn off for me. Guy who love cats is super duper cute to me.Like aww..you like cats..You sangat kiut...Now, how is he going to be comfy lepaking at my house where all my cats is sleeping, scattering everywhere [I have more than 20 cats] if he hates cats? Kan susah tu.

Anyway, mom already gave Honey the mixture of vitagen [original flavour] and 100 plus. I know it's bizarre and macam tipu but really, it's a cure for demam kucing. And I hope it works.. as usual..

I don't mind to get my hand bitten again..as long as I see my Honey Star everyday..

He mean a lot to me..like you can't imagine how much..

Think.

I'm such a bad girlfriend.
My boyfriend spent 17 hours out of 168 hours in a week for me.
And I still complaint.


What should I do with myself?


Whatever.


Anyway..







Venue:Palace of the golden horses


Agenda:Peterpan press conference


Credits:My boss, Amir who allowed me and ellene to tag along.


Conclusion:Nak kawin dengan Ariel.Kiut sgt..sangat..sangat..



P.S: I have recorded all the live performance but it's in .3gp format..so..takleh view kat sini..hehehe

Takde keje

Ok. I seriously was feeling bored.So, thanks to judd yang sort of inspired me to do it. I created another blog for myself. Tapi this blog is meant for all those crapness and voices that I have in my head.Blog that tell a story


it's called storytella.haha


Pardon me tapi aku betul-betul sangap.

What a girl wants

This post is especially meant for guys. Do you ever wonder why is it so hard to please a woman?Do you sometimes feels like strangling your girlfriend to death?

Ok..see if i can help.Hmm..what actually we want from a guy?

Affection
Affection means we love to have physical contacs like cuddling, holding hands and manja-manja[no,no..it's not sex..yet].Sometimes man think that talking alone is enough.Well, talking is good but talking with displaying affection is much better.And sometimes it bother us when man only showing their affection when they want to get laid, to have sex. I mean kamonla wey, mase lain tak nak la hug, kiss seme ye?I know that guy are created to be like..guys[duh, i mean macho and tak manja] but on loving a manja creature, why not try to manja-manja youself..You'll be suprise on the outcome.

Talking and Listening
Naturally, woman loves to talk.. a lot.We would much appreciate if man can listen to our talking and talk back instead of giving "ooohh", "ye ke", "ahhh" as answers.You know, when we talk and men listen, it mean a lot to us really..especially when men take notes on what we are talking. Takdela bila aku cakap pasal topik tu lain kali kau clueless.Membuat kan aku confius dan takut as if aku telah bercerita kepada lelaki lain.kalau cakap secara lembut, manja and penuh kasih sayang akan lebih mengujakan. And yeah, a man who catch up with gossips is a bonus.

Attention
This one..I think both man and woman wants attention.It's like, when you go out with us, can you please not puji other girls or look at other girls as if they have three tits?[this one does not apply to me sbb aku pon suke tgk pompuan].I know you are busy with works, football, study or whatsoever but when you are with us..spare your time a bit so we will feel loved.Kadang-kadang pompuan akan berasa jeles tak tentu pasal even terhadap kerja or kucing if we don't have enough attention.

Time
Regardless how busy you are, please find some time for us.Please!!

Compliments
It wouldn't hurt to give compliments even I know it's not a man's nature.Compliments boost self esteem for woman.And we like to be told that we are worthy and beautiful.So now you know why we always fish for compliments.Hehehehe..

Suprises
Suprises are good. Do something to suprise your partner like cooking her fav dinner, took her out to some places she never been or give her unexpected gift [no, it's not handcuffs].

Good Sex
Noted I put good.Which means..lots of talking, cuddling and showing affection. For some woman, orgasm is not the main thing, it's the whole procedure that counts.Yeah, it's exactly the other way around with man.


That are some of the things that I can think of. Do you woman out there want to add anything?

It wouldn't be fair kalau cakap pasal what a woman wants jer kan..Nanti cakap aku male bashingla..feministla..tak acila..apela..So any hollar from man?

Rabun

specky smile

"Chics, kau memang pakai spect yer?Tak sangke aku". That's a common statement I get when I go out without my lenses.

Yeap, I wear glasses. I've been togged up in them ever since primary four and my earliest frame were made from some hideous plastic thingy and it was huge. Made me looked like a dork but yeah, I was a dork. I was a nerd back then and every body hates me and now they couldn't believe what I have turned into. They even still gossip about me.. How could a nerdy misshapen into such a harebrained character. Whatever.. Like I care..

I hate wearing them coz it kinda restrict me from moving freely. The frame keep sliding down my nose [sebab tak cukup mancung, obviously] so my credit go to who-ever-invented-contact-lenses for the reason of his or her genius invention, I can now act as if I have perfect vision like everybody else. But my eyes, they are quite sensitive so I have to use my glasses more than lenses.

I always heard that guys are less-attracted to girls who wear glasses. In fact in any movies, to illustrate the role of an unattractive girl, she will always be wearing glasses. What's wrong with people who wear glasses? It's like a statement everywhere and when I'm with it I'll feel..self concious..Like muke aku mcm tak siap..Padahal dah siap-siap dah tadik..weird..Lasik?No thanks, I don't like the idea something poking my eyes. I dunno but to me I do find certain girls with glasses are attractive, if the frame is right. For guys..I find no problem with guys who wear glasses. I think it's cute. You know back in uni, I'm quite attracted to guys who were nerdy and wear glasses. I'll like ..try to find any excuse to talk to them even it's obviously lame, like asking for a piece of paper coz I like to see them menggelupur even the fact that I rarely talk to people. Kiut dowh. Terkemut-kemut koyakkan kertas. And the next time I see them, I'll flash them a smile and they'll smile back sheepishly. Totally cute. But according to my friends, that kind of behaviour was mean.. And I just don't understand why.

My boss asked me once

"Apsal you pakai frame ni?Takde spec lain ke? Tukarla spec lain.".

Instead of screeching at him since that's an insult to me, I answered him with

"Have you ever heard the meaning of stylo? By the way, I like my frame thank you".

Actually I have a smaller frame before, a DKNY frame. I love that frame because at times I felt like me and esther canadias are alike [hahaha, I know..you don't have to say it]. But after an aghast occurrence somewhere between end of August and beginning of September, I decided to revamp my look so I purchased this frame without thinking twice. My heart was breaking like you-don't-know-how-bad-it-was and I need to buy something to cheer me up. A new pair glasses seemed appropriate.

So, no more making weird faces on seeing me with my glasses on ok?
And don't ask me why I wear them coz the answer is simple..

Aku rabun.

Pleated skirt

I desperately need a new pair of jeans or a pleated skirt. Uhh, pleated skirt..they look so hot but having a pair of chunky legs wouldn't help. But still it won't stop me from drooling for one.


So yesterday, I was dogged to get my jeans and skirt. I tried like 7 Zara jeans, 2 MNG jeans, 2 MNG skirt and uhh..one of them really look nice on me and yeah..it's pleated..Doesn't reflect my chubby ankles at all but...my hips..they make the skirt looks 2 more size bigger despite the fact that it sit perfectly at my fat butt. The others..just won't fit nicely coz I have a fat ass and narrow hips, a very bad combination. Sad..sad..


I don't quite adore levi's so you see, no jeans for me. Not even one. Nada. So to heal my wretchedness I bought my self a ring as a replacement. Yeah, I know takde kaitan.tapi takpe..aku suke..sebab cincin tu ade kaler merah. And I love red. You see, that's why my name is chicsinred. Ha! Takde kaitan lagi.


But he got himself another pair of jeans. Albeit he already bought one last week. And it's sisley this time. And I love sisley =(


I think he's turning into me. Shopaholic.

Ahh!!
Ini ngak fair!


Reminder for chicsinred:
I have to start jogging..jogging..and jogging so that my ass would fit nicely to any jeans..or any skirt.


Or maybe a liposuction will do.


Ok.Enough of cerita saiko.


Happy Monday people [I know u guys need that, heee]

Try

I know it's on your heart
That a love like ours shall never fall apart
You're so afraid of the rain
So I will take your hand
And I'll love you in the best way that I can
And I only expect the same



Don't promise me forever
Don't promise me the sun and sky
Don't pretend to know you'll never make me cry
Just hold me now
And promise me you'll try


Though I'm sure of what I feel
Never thought a love so true felt so unreal
And I'm a little afraid myself
But if you love me day by day
With an honest heart and just a little faith
Baby time will tell the tale








And i promise i'll try