Dah balik dah

"sorryla yang, i balik tak tepon you."


"You memang kejila,sampai hati you melupakan i"


"Sedih i"


"Tapi i dengar banyak crita pasal you.Apa ni yang?You dah hilang akal ke?"


kejila nikkit, kau balik senyap-senyap tak tepon.
Hahahaha.Nasib baik aku dah mengadu dekat Tina dengan Nik.Habisla kau kene marah.


Yeay, nikkit balik.
Like..Yeayyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Gundah gulana

Hai kawan-kawan.Nama saya chics.Kadang-kadang orang panggil saya miss sunshine kerana saya suka menyegih dan ketawa-ketawa dengan keji.


Tetapi untuk beberapa hari ini saya tidak boleh mengetawa dengan senang hati.Kadang-kadang saya duduk di bilik seorang diri dan ketawa-ketawa tiba-tiba saya termenangis.Saya sangat susah hati sekarang dan juga terasa sangat sunyi.Saya juga sudah tidak banyak mencarut kerana sudah hilang mood. Selain itu juga saya sudah hilang mood untuk membeli belah. Hari itu saya cuba menggembirakan hati dengan membeli belah tetapi hati saya meronta-ronta mau balik secepat mungkin. Saya berasa benci kepada amoi jurujual itu tanpa arah dan tujuan hidup.


Saya juga malas hendak melayan orang-orangan lagi. Kadang-kadang orang-orangan ada menelefon saya tapi saya malas hendak bercakap. Saya hanya rajin memondankan diri di dalam bilik atau pon berkawan dgn dunhill sebab ianya ada gaya, mutu dan keunggulan. Orang-orangan agak berasa risau dan selalu ajak saya berhuha atau pergi berparty.Saya sudah malas mahu berparti.Saya tidak mahu berpura-pura mesra dengan orang yang tidak dikenali lagi.


Hari-hari kerja saya di pejabat ialah menangis di dalam toilet.Tapi toilet disini best wangi dan bersih dan juga mereka pakai pewangi tangan escape.Mungkin lain kali saya boleh suruh HR saya beli pewangi tangan Dolly Girl,Anna Sui.Barulah bagai pinang di belah dua saya dan pewangi itu.Selain itu, kerja saya di pejabat ialah bz sampai kadang-kadang saya rasa seperti mahu tidur dipejabat. Kadang-kadang saya mintak kerja extra dari boss saya.Hahahahahahahaha.Ye saya pon sendiri pon tak percaya.


Berat saya sekarang ialah 35 kg. Seluar saya semua sudah longgar dan tidak melekap lagi.Saya sangat stress dengan keadaan ini tetapi tiada langkah drastik yang di ambil. Barang-barang saya juga banyak yang hilang. Saya hilang anting-anting dan pelembab bibir stila saya. Mungkin ini adalah kerana bilik saya kelihatan seperti sarang naga sekarang.


Tiap-tap malam saya berdoa pada Tuhan biarlah besok saya hilang akal atau pon amnesia. Ataupun mungkin saya tiba-tiba bertukar kepada seekor kucing.Tapi nampaknya doa saya belum dimakbulkan.


Sebenarnya saya sudah malas hendak memblog lagi. Seperti yang saya katakan, semua benda tidak lagi mengujakan saya.Mungkin saya mahu berhenti, membawa diri. Biarlah tidak ada sesiapa pun yang tahu tetang diri saya lagi.


Tiba-tiba saya berasa poyo [sebenarnya saya tipu, saya nak menangis sebenarnya].
Oleh itu biarlah saya mengundurkan diri dahulu.


Selamat hari isnin, kalau rasa stress marilah sama-sama pegi ke toilet.


Seperti biasa, saya akhiri karangan saya dengan serangkap pantun


Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away


Sekian.

Devil advocates

I was in the office the other day when suddenly the radio played this song. Was stunned, coz you hardly hear this song being aired on the radio.I love this song.


Angels Or Devils


this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside


I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time


the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold


this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see


still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time


the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us


if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold


I guess i'm the devil.
and yes, it's cold.

Cinderellaaaaa

I love shoes. I looove shoes. It's like when you wear the right shoes with the right outfit you can beat anything. Perhaps some people don't understand. Nevermind, I also don't understand the excitement reading Da Vinci's Code either. So, fair.Hehe


So last weekend, Sakinah came down to KL and decided to hold a makan-makan session at her place. On the outset, I'm not planning to go. I planned to stay at home and torture myself but nicky won't let me. She insisted on picking me up with or without kerelaanku. So we went to and talk shit, eat shit..bla..bla. The next agenda was supposed to be futsal but then bena and the others decided to go and makan-makan at kuman's house.Being a zombie, I've got no choice but to tail around.Whateverlakan, bukan aku yang drive.


While waiting for bena to get ready I pleasured myself with ermm ciggies inside nicky's car till I got sort of dizzy. Gilelah aku mana penah isap rokok 2 kotak dalam masa beberapa jam.haha.Tapi itu bukan pointnye.


Bena finally came down from her apartment accompanied by layla. Since Johan [nicky's car] doesn't come with 4 doors so I have to make way for both of them. My left feet was on the ground when bena said "Ala, tak payahla chicky, kitorang bukan gemuk sangat,muat nak nyelit masuk".So I thought, ok.fine.No, actually I was thinking..nothing. My mind was empty.


The futsal session was a blast. My advice, if you feel devastated try kicking ball[s]. Everything was great, even met Sam and had a little chit chat until his team mate marah him and asked to play. Sheesh.


The only thing that was not great was..I realised then that I lost one of my shoes. I love the shoes that I wore that day. It got diamante buckle with black strap and now one of them is missing. So now I'm left with one shoe.


I probably dropped it accidentally while making way for bena and layla.Damn.


Now I'm wondering, who found my shoe?

Please, cinderella need help.Hohohoh

Burn

You know, the weather is killing me.
The water is like icy cold.
The wind shakes my bones.
I wonder how can I survive europe.


Just now, I made my self a hot cocoa
Was so happy coz it looked yummy and hot
But it burned my lips.
Ahh, nasty cocoa.


Coincidence or non.
When your heart is empty.
But you still let it ajar
Surprises awaits.

Bodoh

Somewhere last week I was sooo not in the mood to work. My mind was somewhere else and I couldn't seem to focus. So I went on browsing the internet using my name as the keyword.


Well, this is what I found.


melayu, com, bogel, dan, mp3, 2005, malaysia, cerita, gambar, forum,http://chicsinred.groovylicious.org/2005_10_09_chicsinred_archive.html Add newcomment GNOME PPX ... dövme+resimleri gamze+özçelik(porno+film+izle) ...sex116.info/melayu+tetek.html - 34k - Cached - Similar pages


porno+film? WTF? Bila masala pulak ni?


Was thinking to click on the link but eheh, don't want to be caught surfing porno during office hours (not that I surf porn during other time), instead I clicked the Similar pages link.


And this is the out come.


Your search - related:sex116.info/melayu+tetek.html - did not match any documents.


Ah,sudah.


Tsk..the need to satisfy my curiosity was still there so I clicked Cached.


..........


Hah.Buat menggelupur aku jela.
Bodoh.


Takde keje ke?

Yo

Hello, chics is back.
Anybody miss me?
Non? Sheesh.Kejam k


So what happen to chics?


1. Regaining her conscious.
2. Lala land.
3. Overwhelmed with concern smses and email. Thank you, you guys are so sweet. Sorry for not able to reply a single one.
4. Trying to figure out what to do.
5. Sick-mentally and physically.
6.Lost interest in blogging



On the other interesting news.


1. Received bouquets of flowers. Thanks you to those who send me flowers even know I dunno who you are. But where did you guys get my address hu?
2. Someone called my office and wanted to speak to me twice but he finally spoke to me he pretend he got the wrong number and wanted to drag the conversation to bla..bla... Hah. What is your intentionlah?

Noooo

Sey lo.


My mom totally forbid me to buy new shoes and new bags. Even new clothes. She said I had too much until there are sitting everywhere. Plus she said, I dun need them. Which I object!


If I'm not buying shoes and bag, what am I going to do? Rot at home? And I do need something to cheer me up. Like big time


She threatens me that she would burn those thing if I insist on keep on purchasing new stuff.


What shall I do now? But things and secretly store them in some secret place?
This is absurd!


So how?

Lalala

The say love conquers all. I beg to differ.


Sometime when you are in love with someone else instead of letting go of your feeling you keep for your own good self. Reason being..perhaps you don't want to get hurt or perhaps you just don't want to let go some part of you, to be shared with other people..or perhaps you just want to be loved not loving.


But still you say "I love you"


When you in love, conceivably you think everything is possible. You thought you would die for that person, you thought you would do everything to make that someone happy. You would never allow any tears to be shed. When actually the truth is, while reality slapped your face you realised you just want to gratify yourself. Probably you love someone because it is hurtful to be unwanted, to be unloved and most of all you don't want to be lonely.


Love is never enough. Have you heard someone said "What's wrong? Everything I did for you is never enough". How enough is enough? It's like life. Is what you are getting out of your life is enough? For me, it will never be enough. But along the way, effort will definitely help to alleviate things.


Do you remember the feeling when you are struck with love? The most wonderful feeling of all. All those slap happy faces and blooming heart and do you remember the feeling when your relationship is stable? The feeling is nothing. Still happy but oh well, what to worry about. Things will be fine. Eventually do you remember the feeling when you lost the love of your life? Excruciating until some extent you feel numb.


Love..can be very infatuating but when it's over it can be very annihilating.


And then you will tell yourself not to fall in love again.

Emonye

hai.hati saya berdarah.saya memang emo dan jahat tapi saya tak tahu nak buat apa lagi.


saya akan cuba untuk tidak menangis.akan cuba memikirkan benda benda yang comel-comel di dalam dunia ini.


oh..kalaulah ia begitu mudah sekali.

A day before Raya

Everybody knows that bedroom is meant to be private. You can do anything in your bedroom. I love to be alone in my bedroom and do whatever I want to do. Cry, sleep, reminisce and almost everything.


My bedroom is small so with curtain it looked gloomy. Had to draw the curtain aside to let sunray splash into my room for I hate gloomy places. Murky and gloomy, it's like waiting for me to die. Suffocating


A day before hari raya, I was quite free since my mom went back to Hulu Langat already meaning I was all alone with my bro who was sleeping in the house. Decided to take my own sweet time, had a long shower, did some hair treatment, facial and performed some beauty regime.


Was happily helping my self with all those creams and whatsoever only in my underpants with my hair wrapped to the back. Satisfied with my newly plucked eyebrow, I decided to get my hair dry. Was walking towards my bed which was opposite my bedroom window when from my blurry vision, caught a glimpse of something red.


"Oh, jiran belakang ni tukar langsir merah"


Yeah, but shouldn't it be all red? Why there's only small patch of red?


Still topless I reached out for my glasses on the bed. Without glasses my vision is nearly to naught. How can you aspect someone with 800 power to see clearly?


Oh. Then I can see clearly. Clearly it was not some red curtain but the only thing red about the across view was a man in a red towel staring right at me, a topless girl. Who was in shock and not knowing how to react.


Fuck.


What was he doing? I mean what was he thinking? It was fasting month, for God sake!!


Ye, I know it's my fault at the first place. I should have let my curtain down. But being an absent minded person I forgot that crucial note. Plus, how am I supposed to neat up my brow in a dim room? Kalau kening aku senget seblah macamanala?


With full of kegelupuran, I drew my curtain down but still peeping. He's still there. Get dressed and still peep. He was still there.


The thing is..I know that guy.We never exchange any words but I know him.


Question of the day is..agaknye berapa lama dah dia membuat pekerjaan itu?

Please

I miss him so much
Like i can feel my heart shrinking.


God, please help me to be strong.
Please..please.


I just don't want to be a fool anymore.

Raya story

On this hari raya, I missed my dad so much that I pretend I didn't care at all.






On this hari raya, I ate the best rendang in this world which is my nenek's rendang. Eating while watching my cousins burned mercun under a kuali.It made boomed sound and it was fascinating to see the kuali flew in the air. Sickening is more like it. But that day is hari raya's eve, so it's forgiven.





On this hari raya I had fun with my cousins. I realized we had two resemblances. Eye bags and we are so attracted to camera. Vain is more like it.



On this hari raya my mom nearly send me and dropped me to the nearest Hindu temple coz I refused to take off my nose ring. Luckily I get away with it.Hehe.



On this hari raya I ate too much rendang and ketupat that they gave me headache and forced me to me to pay frequent visits to the toilet.




On this hari raya I woke up at 12 noon in short on the second day and eat mcd for lunch.

and watched craps on tv. Wondering why must I felt guilty for choosing cold mountain rather than watching I know what you did last raya.It's like a sin not torturing yourself with malay movie during raya.




On this hari raya, one pakcik gave me duit raya, I refused to accept it but he made me to.I feel so keji coz probably everybody still think I'm still a school kid. I had to do something with my breast.

On this hari raya, I felt pressured by sordid invariable questions by my relatives. I nearly yelled at them but at the end of the day I decided to put an end to everything. Oh, and as usual I cried.



On this hari raya, I wish I applied for more cuti.* sigh*.



On this hari raya, I would like to ask you, how was your raya? Come on, today is still festive season, too early to start working.hehe.


Honestly, who feel like working today??


Anyway, hari raya snaps are here. Don't say that I didn't warn you, it's full of my face,as usual :P