M...mm...mmmm

Mom started to talk about the 'M' thing again.She make it sounded like it's going to be soon..


Like Pauline said..I'm in deep shit..
oh yeah i am..i can even smell it coming..

Saikoooooo

Letih nak mati..tade mood nak keje..feel like balik rumah and sleep..
Uh..I have no life..SOMEONE PLEASEEEEEEEEE...

Talked to Nik..I asked her why is that i always shun all guys that i had a relationship with even though people keep telling me that they are treating me nice?And she said..I'm needy.Am i?Do u think i am needy?

Well,i want to see mf bf everyday, if he can't make it..fine with me but i'll go out with my friends(including guys) instead since i have to fill up my day..or if he can't go shopping with me..i can go alone..urm..is anything wrong with that?

Or maybe i just love my self too much that's y la aku needy kot..humm..okla...kalau mcm tu tanak jadi needy dah..kau nak dtg..dtg..tanak..sudahhhhhh..sukatila nak buat apa..asalkan bahagiaaa

uh..saiko,sialll

E to Equal

I had lunch with our temp staff today,in the pantry.I never talk to her before and so did she...i don't think she talked to anyone..it's because she just can't.God didn't provide her with a voice.She is mute.

Anyway, we did had some non-verbal conversation and also' writing' conversation. She told me that it's hard for alot of company to hire her because of her diability,except our manager who kind heartedly offer her a job here. By the way, she alos did offer me aj ob here eventhough she knew that i know nuts about this job.

Back to the temp staff.Why issit that other people tend to 'overlook' upon her ability and only saw her disability? I dunno why, but i wish all people will treat each person equally without looking at races, abilities, gender or anything..

Since my job is really killing me, i might as well get a new job fighting for humans right..hehe..Noot..

KFC

Had a girl's night out with my 'bestest' buddies last night and it was fun, except the part that they claimed i try to fake my enthusiasm. i was not faking, for the fist time in this week i was really happy.

During lunch yesterday, i had KFC for lunch since i just can't decide what to eat. KFC pon KFC la..

But..Last night..since we went out with the Asst. Manager of KFC, Shaza decide to feed us with KFC..Thank You,babe..Really love the cheesy wedges with extra-extra cheese..Yummmmy

Menyesal aku makan KFC mase lunch..Chisss...


p.s: To my school sistas, I love u guys soo much!!Muaahhhzzzz..

Ghost

At last i made him admit the fact that i'm just a ghost..

even when i cooked for him everyday
even when i ironed his clothes every morning
even when he hugs me
even when we kiss
and even whe he say "i love you"

he didn't see me, he saw another person..
he never LOVE me as he said everyday, instead he just LIKE me..
as the person who pampered him..as a replacement..

shit..
why didn't i run that far?
why didn't i just leave even i know how much he still miss her..
why..why..

and now..my heart is turning into stone..
and every second i can hear it crack..
it is going to break soon..
and perhaps there will only dust left..

Waaaa

I like men but only the young one and i don't think older man fancy me coz i'm too childish to be the adore my matured men.

But..Few weeks ago an old man on a bike smile and stare at me and said "Nak try tak?".Oh yeah u should see the look on his face. I was not wearing anything revealing or anything tight at that time. I was wearing a shirt and pants. Come to think of it.Try what??

Last saturday while i was walking to the car, an old man whistled at me..I was like speechless and when i ignored him he start to walk towards me..Waaaa..

You might be saying what's the problem..Well, actually these guys are as the same as my late grandpa...very the tua u see..

But the worst pick up line i got from a matured man was "r u sheila majid's cousin coz u look like one?" I wanted to say something but ehe..since he's buying me a drink..what the heck..

My question is..Do i look like someone who can be fancied by 'grandpa' type?Buruk sgt ke aku huuu?

Curry..curry

I hate curry..very much..infact i hate indian food.seeing someone eating curry is even enough to make me throw up..i just don't like it..

But last night..something weird happen..i craved for roti planta and curry!!My mouth get watery thinking of curry..WTF..Luckily i was so damn lazy or else i'll be driving along to the nearest mamak stall..

and today,while i'm typing this i'm having maggie as my breakfast..euww..suprisingly it tasted good..

uh..and i also i think i need my party friends..me so wanna groove!!

Losing Love

Do u realized what's happening?

I used to smile when I think of u but now I cried when I think you..
I used to love when your hand hold mine but now I feel indifferent..
There used to be lots of words when we talked but not I seem to go mute when u talk..
I used to shake my booty when hot song was played on your car stereo but I know I just don't like doing it..
When we walked in the crowd I felt lonely..
When we go for singing I feel empty..

You ask me why?
Why..why..why..why..

Perhaps I'm selfish..
Perhaps i'm not tolerance..
Perhaps..i just can't listen to all your words..
Like u said..

Or perhaps..u just can't accept me as the way I am..

ayam masak merah and wedding

Went to weddings during the weekend. The most thing I love about wedding is ayam masak merah and the sirap. For some unexplainable reason, ayam masak merah and sirap at the kenduri kahwin are so delicious that make me crave for more. Unfortunately there's no ayam masak merah at tek's place but I simply love the dancing and the ceremony..luckily the next day I had the chance to eat ayam masak merah..

Had the chance to met bobby and laydiefa who is a lovely lady that my bf can't seemed to stop talking with her..hehe..sorry bout that laydiefa..haven't got the chance to speak much to both laydiefa and bobby coz was so happy to see abok and anna..and juju..why aa u dowan to sit with us..malu kunun..hehe

And on Monday went to Pd..best mandi laut..and toay back to work..sob..sob..