So, Astro decided to air Akademi Fantasia second season on channel 15. And it brought agony to me coz my mom won't let me do my channel browsing anymore. She's like glued to the tv for the umpteenth time. She watched it like..night and day? When I whined about it she said
"Tula, sapa suruh awak yang ajar mak?Salah sape skang?"
And last night she dragged me along. Hey, I enjoyed that show. I really do. My favourite was.. zahid [ok,nicky I know ur making that face] bcoz he remind me of someone? Sort of ..not important..Anyway, it makes me whimpered for not having the voice or at least the look for like zillionth time.Hey, I too want to be on tv!
You know I spent lots of money to vote for whoever it is last season. Not only using my phone, but I used my mom's, my dad's and even my err..partner's [that time] phone. And I vote like everyday. Hahaha. Poyo tak poyonye aku ni. Nampak sangat aku takde life. Sanggup dtg futsal lambat sebab nak tgk AF. Haha. I wonder who will sizzle this season?
Anyway, while browsing the newspaper last three weeks, I came across a very familiar face..in the page about the latest AF audition. There was..my cousin 'manja'ly known as darling [we, have such affectionate nicks such as darling, ayang and puteri and don't ask me what my nick is] trying her luck out.Gamba besa lagi ok.and yang paling bestnya, the next day, her picture came out again in a different newspaper. I mean..hello..we the whole family can't sing but from my mom's story she's selected for the final 200. Another step to final 12. Surprise..suprise..I mean..if she's selected..whether she can sing or not, we will definitely vote.Sape lagi nak sokong keluarga ye tak?You know I can even picture my other cousins, my aunts, my mom and maybe myself sitting in front and carrying the banner
"Vote for darling!!"
Scary..
Yes I know..but dun worry, I won't let you guys [especially u, who is smirking your face] see my face. In fact I already got a threat last night..
"AF ke AG?"
humm..tricky..
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Blink me
travis,mark and tom
You know, I never like rock or punk or whatever it is song. I'm the mellow type, yang slalu denga lagu jiwang and cinta-cinta but there's one band which is exceptional. And the lucky one is Blink 182
It started when I was doing my thesis. I brought our home computer back to my place in hillpark coz I needed a machine to er...do my thesis?My bro has a very good taste when it comes to music [and a very good taste in woman] and he downloaded tonnes and tonnes of music videos in the pc including blink 182. So,I listened and fall in love. I mean..I constantly listened and watched their clips like everyday..Nak start buat thesis, tengok dulu..dah habis buat thesis..tengok lagi..nak mandi tengok dulu..nak pegi kelas tengok dulu..balik kelas ngadap blink 182 dulu.It's like an addict.Memang poyo aku tau tapi itulah kenyataannye.And blink 182 sedikit sebanyak mempengaruhi thesis aku.hahahahaa..how?Dun ask me b'coz i oso dunno.
My favourite vidz is all the small things.Macam gampang.I love the part when mark buat muka sengal dekat parking machine and when tom eat the flower.Hoh.sungguh turn on..But my favourite song of all time is adam's song.I dunno why but the lyrics made me hooked.Memang sesuailah dengan aku.
Anyway, here's their song from their latest album, always.
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights I hate them
Lets start this again for real
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Always
Always
Akhir kata, tom..please marry me!!
hmphh..
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Limit
Do know how it feels to push yourself to the limit? It's like your heart is bleeding but you force your lips to crave a smile.. So that everybody won't know.
And it hurts twice when your heart is bleeding and you are forcing a smile and people mock you because you are smiling.
It's like loving a person. You tried your best to love him even deep inside you are hemorrhaging. You thought he could be the cure but instead his words tore your heart apart. And sometimes you wonder.. does he really loves you? Like.. you think of him all the time but he rarely calls and when he did..His voice doesn't sound enthusiastic.. Just normal hi and hello. And then you tell yourself..Get a life..The world does not revolve around you.
It's like eating at mamak. You hate mamak..to the max. The smell of curry make you puke. But you have to hang there and you are hungry..and ordered naan which come with curry. You feel like throwing up.And then you tell yourself.. Get a life..curry never kills anybody..unless it's poisonous.
It's like hating a person. You hate him that you wish him all the misfortune in this world. Wishing that he would regret all the things he had done. Wishing that he'll suffered from HIV. Wishing that you could haunt him forever..Or maybe you wish you could burn down his house..enjoying the view with his echo of agonizing voice, fried to death.And the you tell youself.. Get a life..It's not noble to wish for bad things for other people.
I am tired..tired of pushing myself.I am tired to love, to eat at mamak and to hate. My body and my mind can't take these anymore. Maybe I could just stop. Change love to like..change mamak to malay..change hate to ignore.
And then I tell myself..Get a life..I am not that strong..
And it hurts twice when your heart is bleeding and you are forcing a smile and people mock you because you are smiling.
It's like loving a person. You tried your best to love him even deep inside you are hemorrhaging. You thought he could be the cure but instead his words tore your heart apart. And sometimes you wonder.. does he really loves you? Like.. you think of him all the time but he rarely calls and when he did..His voice doesn't sound enthusiastic.. Just normal hi and hello. And then you tell yourself..Get a life..The world does not revolve around you.
It's like eating at mamak. You hate mamak..to the max. The smell of curry make you puke. But you have to hang there and you are hungry..and ordered naan which come with curry. You feel like throwing up.And then you tell yourself.. Get a life..curry never kills anybody..unless it's poisonous.
It's like hating a person. You hate him that you wish him all the misfortune in this world. Wishing that he would regret all the things he had done. Wishing that he'll suffered from HIV. Wishing that you could haunt him forever..Or maybe you wish you could burn down his house..enjoying the view with his echo of agonizing voice, fried to death.And the you tell youself.. Get a life..It's not noble to wish for bad things for other people.
I am tired..tired of pushing myself.I am tired to love, to eat at mamak and to hate. My body and my mind can't take these anymore. Maybe I could just stop. Change love to like..change mamak to malay..change hate to ignore.
And then I tell myself..Get a life..I am not that strong..
Monday, March 28, 2005
Huk..Huk..
"By, i tak pegi keje sebab sakit mata..bla..bla..bla..u baik pegi letak ubat mata dahla smalam lepak dgn i, berjangkit plak kang".
That was the first thing that greeted me this morning.Apa??Ag tak pegi keje?Dahla guna perkataan lepak.Aku terimagine aku dan ag duduk kat tepi lorong sambil isap dadah.Cess, tak klasik lansung penggunaan ayat....Tapi. jeles gile ok, tak pegi keje pulak!!.Fine.So today is going to be a boring day since I will have no one to talk to on YM which means..I need to wear something that will amuse me.Skirts..Skirts always amuse me tapi disebabkan beberapa masalah I opt for slacks and err..orange shirt?Orange..shitty choice tapi sebab dah lama tak pakai, sebat je lah..
The commuter journey was boring.No handsome guy nor hot chicas.Just some plain ppl .Tak menarik..Then when it come to monorail, I have to make bigger step sebab nak kejar masa lampu hijau untuk melintas.The thing is..the green light for crossing only lasted for 15 seconds and having short legs doesn't help much. Even if I miss 2 seconds than I won't be able to cross.
As I was walking from far..I see that the light is red, means any second the light will turn green, so I fasten up my pace.As I reached the staircase where it was only few steps from the crossing line..heels kasut aku tersangkut dekat salah satu tangga and producing the "prap..prap" sound,which being followed by my so infamous melatah+carutan
"Oh, mak kau babi". Fuck.I should change that coz few makciks who happened to be there, started to give me a weird kinda look.
Sakit gile kaki aku ok..Nasib baik aku tak tergolek..Tsk..tsk..
My kaki started to bengkak already.Maybe I need to buy new pair of shoes sebab kasut tu mmg slalu sabotaj aku..heels termasuk dlm lubangla..tersangkut dekat eskelater la..It's a perfect excuse isn't it..Or maybe what I need is an MC..hehe
Hey, my kaki is bengkakla ok!
Anyway..whatever..Happy monday people! [yeah, right]
That was the first thing that greeted me this morning.Apa??Ag tak pegi keje?Dahla guna perkataan lepak.Aku terimagine aku dan ag duduk kat tepi lorong sambil isap dadah.Cess, tak klasik lansung penggunaan ayat....Tapi. jeles gile ok, tak pegi keje pulak!!.Fine.So today is going to be a boring day since I will have no one to talk to on YM which means..I need to wear something that will amuse me.Skirts..Skirts always amuse me tapi disebabkan beberapa masalah I opt for slacks and err..orange shirt?Orange..shitty choice tapi sebab dah lama tak pakai, sebat je lah..
The commuter journey was boring.No handsome guy nor hot chicas.Just some plain ppl .Tak menarik..Then when it come to monorail, I have to make bigger step sebab nak kejar masa lampu hijau untuk melintas.The thing is..the green light for crossing only lasted for 15 seconds and having short legs doesn't help much. Even if I miss 2 seconds than I won't be able to cross.
As I was walking from far..I see that the light is red, means any second the light will turn green, so I fasten up my pace.As I reached the staircase where it was only few steps from the crossing line..heels kasut aku tersangkut dekat salah satu tangga and producing the "prap..prap" sound,which being followed by my so infamous melatah+carutan
"Oh, mak kau babi". Fuck.I should change that coz few makciks who happened to be there, started to give me a weird kinda look.
Sakit gile kaki aku ok..Nasib baik aku tak tergolek..Tsk..tsk..
My kaki started to bengkak already.Maybe I need to buy new pair of shoes sebab kasut tu mmg slalu sabotaj aku..heels termasuk dlm lubangla..tersangkut dekat eskelater la..It's a perfect excuse isn't it..Or maybe what I need is an MC..hehe
Hey, my kaki is bengkakla ok!
Anyway..whatever..Happy monday people! [yeah, right]
Friday, March 25, 2005
Superstitious
Nicky:Aku nanti dapat duit claim Rm 1K.nak buat..
Me:Buat apa?
Nicky:Downpayment..
Me:Ooo..nak beli ke..
Nicky:Shhh...
Me:yela,downpayment kete aku..*rolling eyes*
Nicky:Haah..Downpayment kete kau..Aku bukannya nak beli kete baru.Aku..sayang timmy[her car]*hugging the stearing*
Me:*still rolling eyes*
Nicky:Yeah, I know I'm superstitious.I dun care!
She talks to her car and she thinks Timmy is listening. Hhehehehe..Yeap, that's my best mate.She is thinking to buy a new car but she doesn't want to 'hurt' her Timmy feeling.I never consider my self as superstitious..well with concious.But when I think hard..actually I talked to non-human too.Like..I always sleep with my cat, MJ. When no one is around..I will ask my cat questions..That I believe if she answer, it will be an answer from God..that make her speak and send signals to me..
Me:MJ, do you think XXXXXXX love me?*stroking MJ*
MJ:*licking her fur*
Me:Janganla diam.If he does, meowla sket.Kalau awak diam, maknanya dia tak sayang akak.
MJ:*still licking fur*
Me:MJ!!*pulling MJ's tail to make her mew*
MJ:Meow!!*Leap from my bed and continue licking on the floor*
Me:Yeay!He loves me!!
Hahahha!Puas hati aku!!
Tsk..tsk..poor cat..
Me:Buat apa?
Nicky:Downpayment..
Me:Ooo..nak beli ke..
Nicky:Shhh...
Me:yela,downpayment kete aku..*rolling eyes*
Nicky:Haah..Downpayment kete kau..Aku bukannya nak beli kete baru.Aku..sayang timmy[her car]*hugging the stearing*
Me:*still rolling eyes*
Nicky:Yeah, I know I'm superstitious.I dun care!
She talks to her car and she thinks Timmy is listening. Hhehehehe..Yeap, that's my best mate.She is thinking to buy a new car but she doesn't want to 'hurt' her Timmy feeling.I never consider my self as superstitious..well with concious.But when I think hard..actually I talked to non-human too.Like..I always sleep with my cat, MJ. When no one is around..I will ask my cat questions..That I believe if she answer, it will be an answer from God..that make her speak and send signals to me..
Me:MJ, do you think XXXXXXX love me?*stroking MJ*
MJ:*licking her fur*
Me:Janganla diam.If he does, meowla sket.Kalau awak diam, maknanya dia tak sayang akak.
MJ:*still licking fur*
Me:MJ!!*pulling MJ's tail to make her mew*
MJ:Meow!!*Leap from my bed and continue licking on the floor*
Me:Yeay!He loves me!!
Hahahha!Puas hati aku!!
Tsk..tsk..poor cat..
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Stick
Ok. So ellene passed me the stick. Dia ni aku tau ni, mende-mende macam ni dia memang suke..hehehe...and since aku pon dah tak tau ape nak update..let me layan this thing..
The questions:
1. What is the total amount of music files on your computer?
- 925 MB .I reformatted my pc, most of my fav songs are gone :(
2. The CD you last bought?
- Ha! Believe it or not but I never bought any CD. CDRW adela..hehe..and that's like err.. 3 years ago?
3. What was the last song you listened to before reading this message?
- Everybody's Changing by Keane. Meaningful but it doesn't suit my mood [yet]
4. Write down five songs that you often listen to or that mean a lot to you.
- Uhhh..Five?? But I have more than five..
i. Pupus by Dewa
- I love dewa and I really love this song. It reminds me of my lazing days in uni. Semase bersiap-siap untuk berpoye-poye lagu ini akan ke udara dan semua orang akan menyanyi sambil memakai maskara.Hoh!!!
"Aku mencintai mu
lebih dari yang kau tahu..
Meski kau takkan pernah tahu"
ii. Ku Katakan dengan Indah by Peterpan
- Setiap hari, lepas balik ofis, aku mesti bukak video clip dia. Ariel is cute dan aku sangat terluka melihat dia terluka dalam video clip ni. Plus.. the lyrics..oh my.. expressing frustfuration in a very delicate way.No celake, no babi...Heartrending, uhh..
"Ku katakan dengan indah..dengan terluka
hatiku hampa..sepertinya luka menghampirinya"
iii. Angels or Devils
-This song make me think of my boyfriend [straight forward tak?].
"And I can see the pain in you..
And I can see the love in you.."
iv. Vindicated by Dashboard Confessions
- Feel like my heart is being stabbed, cincang and remuk bila denga lagu ni. Hell, yeah.I am vindicated!
"Vindicated..I am selfish..I am wrong
I am right..I swear I'm right..
I swear I knew it all along.."
v. v. I Know What You Want by Mariah Carey and Busta Ryhmes
- Sexy song. Turn on, sial. I likeee..Put me in the mood to err...sayang-sayang?
"Baby if you give it to me
I'll give it to you
I know what you want
You know I got it
Baby if you give it to me
I'll give it to you
As long as you want
You know I got it"
5. Who are you going to pass this stick to (3 persons) and why.
- Well, this part is not easy ok..Aku terpaksa menggunakan kekerasan..So orang-orang yang akan dipaksa mengeras ialah:-
1. Nicky - Sebab aku nak mencemarkan blog dia yang konon-konon tulis pasal benda-benda intelek je. Pandai
ye, benda bengek bengek seme soh letak kat blog aku. Hoh, nah, amik kau!
2. Ag - because I want to make him update his blog...hehe
3. Laydiefa - I am not sure whether she did it already or not..if you haven't laydiefa, catch it!! And the
reason..sebab aku nak lunch nasik ayam dengan dia jumaat ni. Nyum nyum..
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
The muppet show
This is Azm[w]an Gha[zali]ni.He's single and horny
Orgy party.Azman beeing ..given a **** job by shima.
Cik Bean and O'an are watching, Waiting for their turns.Cepatla Azman!!
Azman falls for susie. Go dating at the taman. After that.....
Shock!Nicky discovered something!
Azman, what have you done to susie??
They even did it on the camel...
Azman satisfied face..And Susie
is so in love
9 months after that....Baby Kadir is born!!
Heheh..Inilah hasilnya bila dua orang budak gile yang kebosanan di tengah malam..
Happy bunnies..Yeah go on and sue us..
The end
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Look up to the star
Was having YM conference with my STF sisters on last fridays and bena said something that generated my mind to think.
Bena:Aku always look up to guys yang menjaga semayang and apa yang dia makan.
Me:Hehe..Aku tibai je..asal best..boleh je dengan aku.
Tibai aje?Betul ke?.Dun think so..So, I've been thinking after that.. What are the criteria of a guy that I look up to?
Well, here it goes..
A guy who feels affection for his family more than anything would beyond doubt, melt my heart. Loves here does not mean to concur to everything without good judgment but loving his family means he have respects for his parents, loves his sibling and not afraid to show that he care. I don't mind having a mama's boy for a boyfriend but he has to stand for what he wants and what he believes. Why not? There's nothing wrong to be close to your mum even you are already 35 years old. And a man like that..Can easily make through my heart.
Hypocrite is a big no no. I don't opt for guys who pretend to be cool and act macho. Nak cakap tepon control, nak jalan control...ceh! I prefer those who are not afraid to show their true colours. I mean, he can laugh, swore and do any other soul would do [even kentut pon, ok]. It's like..just be himself when hes with me. He doesn't need to electrify me by being someone he's not. I'm not looking for Mr. Perfect but I'm looking for someone who I can feel comfy with.
Even though I am a bit err.. outrageous but I do look high to guys who knew where did they came from..as in still have faith in God. The one who still prays [even once in a while], who does not mock religions and yeah.. doesn't denies the fact that there is a creator for all of us. I mean, I know that I'm not the right person to preach about these things but look..who doesn't want to improve for the better?
A guy who has some issues against animal, not to mention cats automatically will not be on my list. Memang komfela gagal. I really..really hate people who treat animals badly. I wish these people [whether u are a man or woman] will suffer for the whole of their life. But when a man does..it makes the whole story different. You know, the sight of a guy cuddling a cat or a guy walking his dog will simply make me go "awww..he's so sweet..is he taken?". Simply irresistible.
Finally, I look up to a man who equipped himself with education. It doesn't matter if he don't have much money [Note that I stated: much] as long as his education level is at least as the same level as mine..It should be all right. I dated a guy [once] with education-less background once , it was difficult..I tell you. Ape bende die cakap pon aku tak tau..Bende yang aku cakap lansungla die tak paham. Makes you feel like an idiot at the same time .Tak best lansung ok...Harap duit je banyak, aku cite pasal CPU dia ingat aku cite pasal nenek aku masuk hospital. CPU la wey..bukan ICU! Bende basic pon dah fail..camne?
.
Kirenye macam tulah..
So korang taula kenapa aku suke ag..hehe[ye aku tau lari dari topic tapi sukati akulakan..]
Bena:Aku always look up to guys yang menjaga semayang and apa yang dia makan.
Me:Hehe..Aku tibai je..asal best..boleh je dengan aku.
Tibai aje?Betul ke?.Dun think so..So, I've been thinking after that.. What are the criteria of a guy that I look up to?
Well, here it goes..
A guy who feels affection for his family more than anything would beyond doubt, melt my heart. Loves here does not mean to concur to everything without good judgment but loving his family means he have respects for his parents, loves his sibling and not afraid to show that he care. I don't mind having a mama's boy for a boyfriend but he has to stand for what he wants and what he believes. Why not? There's nothing wrong to be close to your mum even you are already 35 years old. And a man like that..Can easily make through my heart.
Hypocrite is a big no no. I don't opt for guys who pretend to be cool and act macho. Nak cakap tepon control, nak jalan control...ceh! I prefer those who are not afraid to show their true colours. I mean, he can laugh, swore and do any other soul would do [even kentut pon, ok]. It's like..just be himself when hes with me. He doesn't need to electrify me by being someone he's not. I'm not looking for Mr. Perfect but I'm looking for someone who I can feel comfy with.
Even though I am a bit err.. outrageous but I do look high to guys who knew where did they came from..as in still have faith in God. The one who still prays [even once in a while], who does not mock religions and yeah.. doesn't denies the fact that there is a creator for all of us. I mean, I know that I'm not the right person to preach about these things but look..who doesn't want to improve for the better?
A guy who has some issues against animal, not to mention cats automatically will not be on my list. Memang komfela gagal. I really..really hate people who treat animals badly. I wish these people [whether u are a man or woman] will suffer for the whole of their life. But when a man does..it makes the whole story different. You know, the sight of a guy cuddling a cat or a guy walking his dog will simply make me go "awww..he's so sweet..is he taken?". Simply irresistible.
Finally, I look up to a man who equipped himself with education. It doesn't matter if he don't have much money [Note that I stated: much] as long as his education level is at least as the same level as mine..It should be all right. I dated a guy [once] with education-less background once , it was difficult..I tell you. Ape bende die cakap pon aku tak tau..Bende yang aku cakap lansungla die tak paham. Makes you feel like an idiot at the same time .Tak best lansung ok...Harap duit je banyak, aku cite pasal CPU dia ingat aku cite pasal nenek aku masuk hospital. CPU la wey..bukan ICU! Bende basic pon dah fail..camne?
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Kirenye macam tulah..
So korang taula kenapa aku suke ag..hehe[ye aku tau lari dari topic tapi sukati akulakan..]
Monday, March 21, 2005
A series of fortune and unfortune event
I was obviously not in the mood to work last Friday since I've already feel the weekend vibe. I thought it's going to be like the usual Friday.. Mind-numbing and mundane.. Well, that was my anticipation until someone pm me on my YM and it nearly gave me a heart attack.
someone: u there sharina?
chicsinred: yerp
someone: busy ke
chicsinred: not so
chicsinred: who is that?
someone: u won't believe it if i told u
chicsinred: who?
someone: someone who used to know ur ex too..
chicsinred: hummm?
chicsinred: kirk?
someone: dia dah jadi your ex kan.. ?
someone: ke still on?
chicsinred: my ex
chicsinred: issit u?
chicsinred: my god
someone: eh.. aku bukan kirk la
chicsinred: then?
someone: hehe
chicsinred: who r u?
someone: someone who used to know him
chicsinred: ehehe..well, he got lots of friends..and ur name?
someone: ala takleh agak2 ke..
chicsinred: sapela..ptd ke smap labu ke um ke
someone: i'm not actually frens with him la nowadays
chicsinred: hehehe..i'm quite bad at guessing u know
someone: status lebih kurang cam u jugak la hehe
chicsinred: *****?
someone: haha u know my name?
chicsinred: hahahahahahahahaha..heard so much about u
chicsinred: hahahahaha
someone: ish ish ish
someone: rasa cam artis sekejap hahaha
someone: kidding
chicsinred: ur ex is a wankker big timle
chicsinred: wanker
someone: chehhh ex aku ex kau jugakkk
chicsinred: tula pasal..apsalla aku bangang sgt
someone: so i was not the crazy one.. mmg dia ada masalah tu lah
someone: i've been reading your blog..
someone: sama la masalahnye
chicsinred: my gawd..u must know how traumatizing it is
someone: u jumpa ke mak dia?
chicsinred: hell, yes
someone: shite..
someone: i didn't get the 'opportunity'
someone: tapi kena maki dlm phone tu ade la..
someone: hahaha
chicsinred: well, dun..u can't image the humility that i'm bearing
chicsinred: kene maki??
someone: bukan la maki actually.. tapi kena sound la
chicsinred: like how
someone: kena sound sbb i was trying to give him a wake up call pastu tatau la mak ke kakak dia ckp cam.. "kenapa awak ingat samsul ni takde family ke nak tolong kejutkan dia bla bla bla... "
chicsinred: my gawd
someone: pastu apa lagi la ntah dia cakap dah tak ingat dah sbb terkejut sgt..
someone: hehe mmg tak sengaja la that i came across your blog..
someone: amazing sungguh
chicsinred: since when u've been reading my blog
someone: baru la jugak..
someone: a few weeks back
someone: mula2 i dok baca blog member u.. khai?
someone: pastu saje la gatal2 tgk link lain..
chicsinred: yup..kai@chi
chicsinred: anyway, good for u to left him and get married for someone else
chicsinred: with
someone: hehe tu la..
someone: so anyway i didn't dump him because he was sleeping around
someone: pasal famili tu la.. mmg tak nampak future ngan dia
chicsinred: REALLY?REALLY?
chicsinred: u didn't do that?
chicsinred: sorry for that..that's what he said
chicsinred: that's what he told me
someone: mana ada lah..
someone: i pun dah fed up dah masa tu..
chicsinred: wanker sial mamat ni
someone: asyik bergaduh je
someone: pastu dok pressure pakai tudung..
chicsinred: u know..he never ask me to..and heh, if he did, we are history long time ago
chicsinred: and i'm like..the rebel type
chicsinred: demmitla kirk ni
someone: hahaha
someone: ala dia pun satu..
someone: dah tau mak dia nak wanita solehah..
someone: carik jela awek yg pakai tudung labuh ke
chicsinred: SOLEHAH MY ASSLA,PRANGAI MCM LAHANTAT MACAM AKU JUGAK
someone: sure takde prob nye
chicsinred: alamak..sorry tercaps
someone: HAHAHA
chicsinred: seresly..u dunno what he had done to my family
someone: tu la.. i ada baca yg pasal your mom takleh get over him
someone: ishhh.. apa yg dia ayat power sgt sampai camtu?
chicsinred: i dunnola..mak i mmg syg dier
someone : tu gambar u ngan current bf ke
chicsinred: yup2
someone : good2.. u moved on too
someone : + u look happy hehe
chicsinred: well, obviously my current choice is much much better
chicsinred: anyway, i did know that what actually happened between u 2 after i broke up from lin
someone : haaa.. u still contact lin?
someone : anyway.. cik lin cerita apsal i break ngan kirk?
chicsinred: pasal parents kirkla..before that she did give me a hint but i didn't pick it up
chicsinred: but heh, kirk really missed u last time
someone : yeke?
someone : ada la rasa guilty gak mula2 tu..
someone : tapi lepas dia dah start jadi cam stalker tu.. i got pissed off la pulak
chicsinred: i called him just now u know
chicsinred: coz i left my fav shoes in his car and i want to pay him the credit card bill
someone : sape? kirk?
chicsinred: yup
someone : hehe kirim salam la kat dia eh..
someone : kira u still bercakap2 lagi la ngan dia.. ?
chicsinred: but being a wanker, he put down the phone as soon as he heard my voice and tak angkat2 dah
chicsinred: tak
chicsinred: he's a cowardlah
chicsinred: die marah kot i dah ade org lain
someone : he put down the phone??
someone : ala tak gentle nyeee
someone : dia single ke skang?
chicsinred: tak tau tapi hari tu sape tah mcm bagi i hint yg die tak single dah
someone : takpe la.. hopefully he'll find the right gal for his mom
someone : i pun nak blah dah ni..
someone : lapar ah
chicsinred: okie dokie
chicsinred: nice talking to you[terkejut sebenanye..haha]
someone : jgn sakit jantung
someone : ok i'll see u around..
chicsinred: allright
chicsinred: tata
someone : cau
Yup,she is yamyam ex, the one before me.. and the one that he used to talk about, not to mention..the one I used to write about..[sorry ye babe].
You see, before that I tried to call him, just trying my luck since he never picked up my calls before. Hey, I was fortunate coz this time he did picked up the phone but as soon I said "hello" he slammed the phone down and..I tried calling him again but nobody seemed to bother to pick it up. I mean what was that? Cakap jela dengan aku. Macamla aku ade dekat depan muka kau. I mean, I called him because I want to shell out the credit card bills and to get my favorite shoes back since I left it inside his car. The thing is, when we were together [owch!] he sort of forbid me to apply for my own card instead he asked me to use his but I paid all the bills [my part]. So now, when I walked away just like that, I felt accountable for not paying the balance. I did smsed him but no reply. So kire halallah ye?
And few minutes later, the last person who I imagine to hearsay with ..say hi to me on my YM. I mean, is God trying to show something or what? Well, my ex used to talk unpleasant things about her but then what surprised me that it turn out to be a fib.. for the fact that I used to trust that it's real. Yerp, she did not slept around and so on..so on..Why did I believe her? Coz she's blissfully married now. If she is a swinger..she wouldn't get married so fast wouldn't she?Demmitla..Tipah tertipu sial..Cilako!!
It didn't stop there. On Saturday night, I accompanied ag to a futsal match somewhere in PJ. Belum habis terkejut semalam, aku nak kene sakit jantung lagik. My ex was there..with his friends playing futsal. Aku siries rase nak mati. He didn't came to say hello and neither do I..Tapi aku nampak dia menjeling-jeling ke arah aku [obviously he can't resist to look at my cute face...hohohoh]. I wanted to talk to him at least say hi..but not until I snog my boyfriend infront of him.Haha.Tapi aku tak buatlakan. I mean, really..I was dying to come to him and talk about the bill thingy but I just can't. My knees were weak and so was my heart. Plus his friends were there.Takkan aku nak memalukan diri aku di khalayak ramai. After feeling like membunuh diri..I lost my mood for the whole night. Demm.
I can imagine how is my reputation now look like..He would say that I'm a biatch..that I sleep around..that I slept with ag when I'm with him..that I am a party animal [that was then]..that I disrespect his family..that I can't control my temper [ehe, sometimes it's true but most of the time..not true]..that I use his money [hello, kau yang slalu nak belanja aku] and all other terrible things. His friends probably hate me by now [sebab, dulu masa baru clash ok lagik,skang..macam agak tak ok] and you know maybe I'm being loathed by some person that I don't even know exist.
*/Biatch mode on/*
A friend ask me to give him a taste of his own medicine..To give him my revenge. Hey, that would be nice more than nice actually but God's reprisal is nicer. And I shall wait..If I'm in the right side it, will happen. It just the matter of time.
Like ag said "You couple dengan dia, was the biggest mistake ever. Make sure you learn your lesson well"
Dun worry baby, I did..And also you don't have to worry that if I'm still thinking of him coz I don't. Only forget..but not forgive..Not yet..
Anyway, in case you're reading this, my ex..I just want to say thank you for making me realized that I'm not a respectable match for you..[yelah youkan datang dari family baik-baik and you pandai pulak tu, I pulak blaja sampai from 3 je..mengaji pon tak tau, family pon tahaper-haper..ayah I penoreh getah je..mak I pulak nelayan].Next time I'll make sure I'll picked up some one who stand on the same par as I am.
Actually, I already did. Ha!
*/Biatch mode off/*
Ok.Happy monday people!
*Note that, some part of the conversation has been omitted.
someone: u there sharina?
chicsinred: yerp
someone: busy ke
chicsinred: not so
chicsinred: who is that?
someone: u won't believe it if i told u
chicsinred: who?
someone: someone who used to know ur ex too..
chicsinred: hummm?
chicsinred: kirk?
someone: dia dah jadi your ex kan.. ?
someone: ke still on?
chicsinred: my ex
chicsinred: issit u?
chicsinred: my god
someone: eh.. aku bukan kirk la
chicsinred: then?
someone: hehe
chicsinred: who r u?
someone: someone who used to know him
chicsinred: ehehe..well, he got lots of friends..and ur name?
someone: ala takleh agak2 ke..
chicsinred: sapela..ptd ke smap labu ke um ke
someone: i'm not actually frens with him la nowadays
chicsinred: hehehe..i'm quite bad at guessing u know
someone: status lebih kurang cam u jugak la hehe
chicsinred: *****?
someone: haha u know my name?
chicsinred: hahahahahahahahaha..heard so much about u
chicsinred: hahahahaha
someone: ish ish ish
someone: rasa cam artis sekejap hahaha
someone: kidding
chicsinred: ur ex is a wankker big timle
chicsinred: wanker
someone: chehhh ex aku ex kau jugakkk
chicsinred: tula pasal..apsalla aku bangang sgt
someone: so i was not the crazy one.. mmg dia ada masalah tu lah
someone: i've been reading your blog..
someone: sama la masalahnye
chicsinred: my gawd..u must know how traumatizing it is
someone: u jumpa ke mak dia?
chicsinred: hell, yes
someone: shite..
someone: i didn't get the 'opportunity'
someone: tapi kena maki dlm phone tu ade la..
someone: hahaha
chicsinred: well, dun..u can't image the humility that i'm bearing
chicsinred: kene maki??
someone: bukan la maki actually.. tapi kena sound la
chicsinred: like how
someone: kena sound sbb i was trying to give him a wake up call pastu tatau la mak ke kakak dia ckp cam.. "kenapa awak ingat samsul ni takde family ke nak tolong kejutkan dia bla bla bla... "
chicsinred: my gawd
someone: pastu apa lagi la ntah dia cakap dah tak ingat dah sbb terkejut sgt..
someone: hehe mmg tak sengaja la that i came across your blog..
someone: amazing sungguh
chicsinred: since when u've been reading my blog
someone: baru la jugak..
someone: a few weeks back
someone: mula2 i dok baca blog member u.. khai?
someone: pastu saje la gatal2 tgk link lain..
chicsinred: yup..kai@chi
chicsinred: anyway, good for u to left him and get married for someone else
chicsinred: with
someone: hehe tu la..
someone: so anyway i didn't dump him because he was sleeping around
someone: pasal famili tu la.. mmg tak nampak future ngan dia
chicsinred: REALLY?REALLY?
chicsinred: u didn't do that?
chicsinred: sorry for that..that's what he said
chicsinred: that's what he told me
someone: mana ada lah..
someone: i pun dah fed up dah masa tu..
chicsinred: wanker sial mamat ni
someone: asyik bergaduh je
someone: pastu dok pressure pakai tudung..
chicsinred: u know..he never ask me to..and heh, if he did, we are history long time ago
chicsinred: and i'm like..the rebel type
chicsinred: demmitla kirk ni
someone: hahaha
someone: ala dia pun satu..
someone: dah tau mak dia nak wanita solehah..
someone: carik jela awek yg pakai tudung labuh ke
chicsinred: SOLEHAH MY ASSLA,PRANGAI MCM LAHANTAT MACAM AKU JUGAK
someone: sure takde prob nye
chicsinred: alamak..sorry tercaps
someone: HAHAHA
chicsinred: seresly..u dunno what he had done to my family
someone: tu la.. i ada baca yg pasal your mom takleh get over him
someone: ishhh.. apa yg dia ayat power sgt sampai camtu?
chicsinred: i dunnola..mak i mmg syg dier
someone : tu gambar u ngan current bf ke
chicsinred: yup2
someone : good2.. u moved on too
someone : + u look happy hehe
chicsinred: well, obviously my current choice is much much better
chicsinred: anyway, i did know that what actually happened between u 2 after i broke up from lin
someone : haaa.. u still contact lin?
someone : anyway.. cik lin cerita apsal i break ngan kirk?
chicsinred: pasal parents kirkla..before that she did give me a hint but i didn't pick it up
chicsinred: but heh, kirk really missed u last time
someone : yeke?
someone : ada la rasa guilty gak mula2 tu..
someone : tapi lepas dia dah start jadi cam stalker tu.. i got pissed off la pulak
chicsinred: i called him just now u know
chicsinred: coz i left my fav shoes in his car and i want to pay him the credit card bill
someone : sape? kirk?
chicsinred: yup
someone : hehe kirim salam la kat dia eh..
someone : kira u still bercakap2 lagi la ngan dia.. ?
chicsinred: but being a wanker, he put down the phone as soon as he heard my voice and tak angkat2 dah
chicsinred: tak
chicsinred: he's a cowardlah
chicsinred: die marah kot i dah ade org lain
someone : he put down the phone??
someone : ala tak gentle nyeee
someone : dia single ke skang?
chicsinred: tak tau tapi hari tu sape tah mcm bagi i hint yg die tak single dah
someone : takpe la.. hopefully he'll find the right gal for his mom
someone : i pun nak blah dah ni..
someone : lapar ah
chicsinred: okie dokie
chicsinred: nice talking to you[terkejut sebenanye..haha]
someone : jgn sakit jantung
someone : ok i'll see u around..
chicsinred: allright
chicsinred: tata
someone : cau
Yup,she is yamyam ex, the one before me.. and the one that he used to talk about, not to mention..the one I used to write about..[sorry ye babe].
You see, before that I tried to call him, just trying my luck since he never picked up my calls before. Hey, I was fortunate coz this time he did picked up the phone but as soon I said "hello" he slammed the phone down and..I tried calling him again but nobody seemed to bother to pick it up. I mean what was that? Cakap jela dengan aku. Macamla aku ade dekat depan muka kau. I mean, I called him because I want to shell out the credit card bills and to get my favorite shoes back since I left it inside his car. The thing is, when we were together [owch!] he sort of forbid me to apply for my own card instead he asked me to use his but I paid all the bills [my part]. So now, when I walked away just like that, I felt accountable for not paying the balance. I did smsed him but no reply. So kire halallah ye?
And few minutes later, the last person who I imagine to hearsay with ..say hi to me on my YM. I mean, is God trying to show something or what? Well, my ex used to talk unpleasant things about her but then what surprised me that it turn out to be a fib.. for the fact that I used to trust that it's real. Yerp, she did not slept around and so on..so on..Why did I believe her? Coz she's blissfully married now. If she is a swinger..she wouldn't get married so fast wouldn't she?Demmitla..Tipah tertipu sial..Cilako!!
It didn't stop there. On Saturday night, I accompanied ag to a futsal match somewhere in PJ. Belum habis terkejut semalam, aku nak kene sakit jantung lagik. My ex was there..with his friends playing futsal. Aku siries rase nak mati. He didn't came to say hello and neither do I..Tapi aku nampak dia menjeling-jeling ke arah aku [obviously he can't resist to look at my cute face...hohohoh]. I wanted to talk to him at least say hi..but not until I snog my boyfriend infront of him.Haha.Tapi aku tak buatlakan. I mean, really..I was dying to come to him and talk about the bill thingy but I just can't. My knees were weak and so was my heart. Plus his friends were there.Takkan aku nak memalukan diri aku di khalayak ramai. After feeling like membunuh diri..I lost my mood for the whole night. Demm.
I can imagine how is my reputation now look like..He would say that I'm a biatch..that I sleep around..that I slept with ag when I'm with him..that I am a party animal [that was then]..that I disrespect his family..that I can't control my temper [ehe, sometimes it's true but most of the time..not true]..that I use his money [hello, kau yang slalu nak belanja aku] and all other terrible things. His friends probably hate me by now [sebab, dulu masa baru clash ok lagik,skang..macam agak tak ok] and you know maybe I'm being loathed by some person that I don't even know exist.
*/Biatch mode on/*
A friend ask me to give him a taste of his own medicine..To give him my revenge. Hey, that would be nice more than nice actually but God's reprisal is nicer. And I shall wait..If I'm in the right side it, will happen. It just the matter of time.
Like ag said "You couple dengan dia, was the biggest mistake ever. Make sure you learn your lesson well"
Dun worry baby, I did..And also you don't have to worry that if I'm still thinking of him coz I don't. Only forget..but not forgive..Not yet..
Anyway, in case you're reading this, my ex..I just want to say thank you for making me realized that I'm not a respectable match for you..[yelah youkan datang dari family baik-baik and you pandai pulak tu, I pulak blaja sampai from 3 je..mengaji pon tak tau, family pon tahaper-haper..ayah I penoreh getah je..mak I pulak nelayan].Next time I'll make sure I'll picked up some one who stand on the same par as I am.
Actually, I already did. Ha!
*/Biatch mode off/*
Ok.Happy monday people!
*Note that, some part of the conversation has been omitted.
Friday, March 18, 2005
Babi
Muller, Azmi and Saudi were said that not halal to be eatan.Man..I was craving for Ikea meatballs. Yeah, it is not that the meatball is related to the babi thingy but still..
Talking about this subject, it reminds me of an incident back to 5 years ago. That time, my dad is working in Bangkok so we went there twice.He stayed in sukhunvhit, located in golden triangle in Bangkok.Finding halal food is not easy.The only halal food available is KFC, that time McD and Pizza Hut is still not being label halal. So when going on shopping, we got no choice but to eat KFC. Unless, if my dad and his driver is free, then we could go to some halal restaurant which is quite a distance from our place. Now, there was one particular restaurant that really tempt me, an italian restaurant not far from our service apartment. If we take BTS[lebih kurang macam LRTla], we surely would past that restaurant and I will..drool..
On our second visit, my grandma went along so my mom had to take her shopping. Since it's going to be boring to shop with my grandma, me and my bro decided to go shopping ourselves [the shopping scenery there were hip ok!Mase tu kookai dgn tyan dah ade]. So after getting exhausted, we thought of finding a place to eat. There were dome, delifrance and some sedap-sedap place to eat but yeah, we can only eat KFC.Disebabkan dah tak larat nak makan KFC, we decided to went back to our place and well, maybe buy a bread or something.But..after coming down from BTS,there it was..my italian restaurant.
Aie:Hish, aie dari dulu teringin nak makan kat kedai ni.
Me:Akak pon
*silence, aie gave me the look*
Me:Awak jangan bagitau mak.
Aie:Takkan nak bagitau, bodoh.
Me:Takpe, kita makan vegeterian jela or jangan request for meat.
Aie:Ah yelah, tapi kalau nak selambe pon boleh.
*Dan tanpa disedari kitorang dah duduk dalam kedai tu*
I ordered funghi aglio olio, my all time favourite and my bro ordered angel hair which to me tasted like maggie but we asked the waiter to extract the meat or whatever it is. Sedap gillerla makan kat situ. Siap order eskrem ape tah, pecan ke ape..aku tak ingat.After we happily finished our dessert, a waiter came.
Waiter:Sir, maam..would you like to try our special today?
Me:And what is that?
Waiter:Pork satay.
Aie:Uh sorry, we don't eat pork
As if!!!!
Ye, kembang tekak aku tapi apa nak buat,pasta tadik memang sedap.So we left the restaurant with a big grin on our face.When we talked about what happened now, mesti tergelak punye.Perangai sesekor macam haram.
And my parents only know the truth last year..hehe
But that was 5 years ago.Yelah,zaman jahiliyah.Sekarang dah tak buat dah.
Betul!!
Talking about this subject, it reminds me of an incident back to 5 years ago. That time, my dad is working in Bangkok so we went there twice.He stayed in sukhunvhit, located in golden triangle in Bangkok.Finding halal food is not easy.The only halal food available is KFC, that time McD and Pizza Hut is still not being label halal. So when going on shopping, we got no choice but to eat KFC. Unless, if my dad and his driver is free, then we could go to some halal restaurant which is quite a distance from our place. Now, there was one particular restaurant that really tempt me, an italian restaurant not far from our service apartment. If we take BTS[lebih kurang macam LRTla], we surely would past that restaurant and I will..drool..
On our second visit, my grandma went along so my mom had to take her shopping. Since it's going to be boring to shop with my grandma, me and my bro decided to go shopping ourselves [the shopping scenery there were hip ok!Mase tu kookai dgn tyan dah ade]. So after getting exhausted, we thought of finding a place to eat. There were dome, delifrance and some sedap-sedap place to eat but yeah, we can only eat KFC.Disebabkan dah tak larat nak makan KFC, we decided to went back to our place and well, maybe buy a bread or something.But..after coming down from BTS,there it was..my italian restaurant.
Aie:Hish, aie dari dulu teringin nak makan kat kedai ni.
Me:Akak pon
*silence, aie gave me the look*
Me:Awak jangan bagitau mak.
Aie:Takkan nak bagitau, bodoh.
Me:Takpe, kita makan vegeterian jela or jangan request for meat.
Aie:Ah yelah, tapi kalau nak selambe pon boleh.
*Dan tanpa disedari kitorang dah duduk dalam kedai tu*
I ordered funghi aglio olio, my all time favourite and my bro ordered angel hair which to me tasted like maggie but we asked the waiter to extract the meat or whatever it is. Sedap gillerla makan kat situ. Siap order eskrem ape tah, pecan ke ape..aku tak ingat.After we happily finished our dessert, a waiter came.
Waiter:Sir, maam..would you like to try our special today?
Me:And what is that?
Waiter:Pork satay.
Aie:Uh sorry, we don't eat pork
As if!!!!
Ye, kembang tekak aku tapi apa nak buat,pasta tadik memang sedap.So we left the restaurant with a big grin on our face.When we talked about what happened now, mesti tergelak punye.Perangai sesekor macam haram.
And my parents only know the truth last year..hehe
But that was 5 years ago.Yelah,zaman jahiliyah.Sekarang dah tak buat dah.
Betul!!
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Play
"Do you remember this song chicky?" Nicky asked me on the way to 14 last night.Then she played total eclips of the heart.
Hah, surely I do remember. That was the song that we used for our form three interclass drama. In that play she was my daughter, the daughter that I never want.Well the drama is about a girl who err..sort of mengalami masalah keruntuhan akhlak which is being played by me. She slept around, have unsafe sex and eventually got pregnant.So she confide her boyfriend who is being acted by nikkit. Nikkit jahat gile woo, tanak ngaku tu anak die.Tapi nikkit kau prasan tak, mase kat skolah dulu, kau slalu berlakon jadi romeo dgn orang jahat.One dialog which i still remember was
Aileen [my mom]:Who is the father?
Me[daughter]:I dunno..It can be Ryan, it can be John and it can also be..Err I seriously dunno.
Hhahaha..Bapak bitch gile watak aku dalam tu.After nikkit refuse to take responsibility, I tried to kill myself, by trying to minum some racun but, I was saved by a good guy who used to be teased in class played by shaza[memang tak sesuaila watak ni, manade shaza baik dowh]. He[dlm watak tu dia he la]pujuk me not to kill myself and finally adopt my daughter, lisa. Nicky terrer gile berlakon ok, mase die dapat tau die tu anak tak sah taraf[hahaha, bahase sokabar tak aku] die menangis and aku rase audience pon agak menangisla.Background music was total eclips or my heart, she really was into the music tapi bile music habis je die terus buat muke stone.Tak best lansung.Potongla wey!!Lepas tu, mase tu aku ade suke sorang budak ni laa, but she sort of jual mahal. Disebabkan I have the power to create what ever I want in that drama, aku wujudkan satu watak di mana dia nak dekat aku.Wahahaha..Macam gampang.
The final dialogue was..
Nicky[Lisa]:What?I'm a bastard??
See, that's why we don't won the first place. Our drama was full of explicit words.Bastardla, shitla, fuckla, ape tah lagi.Dahla ade unsur2 liar.Tsk..tsk..Anyway, everybody enjoyed the play.Kalau tak mencarut-carut mesti boleh menang[hahaha]
Lepas tu untuk drama sejarah pon dapat nombor tiga jugak..Sebabnye, salah satu syarat for sejarah drama was to have a traditional dance. Masalahnye budak kelas aku seme kayu bab-bab menari traditional . Budak-budak kelas lain pergh, menari mautnye ok..[siap ade yang jadik bungala menari-nari, ape tah lagik].Kelas aku..cuma buat joget lambak mase orang kawin.Macam sial..sume pakat-pakat masuk and menari berjoget lambak, main tibai je menari, ikut sukati mak bapak kitorang.Hahahaha..budus..budus..
Tula dia, everytime I spent time with my STF sisters, these kind of story will come out..and will make me smile for the whole night :).
Hah, surely I do remember. That was the song that we used for our form three interclass drama. In that play she was my daughter, the daughter that I never want.Well the drama is about a girl who err..sort of mengalami masalah keruntuhan akhlak which is being played by me. She slept around, have unsafe sex and eventually got pregnant.So she confide her boyfriend who is being acted by nikkit. Nikkit jahat gile woo, tanak ngaku tu anak die.Tapi nikkit kau prasan tak, mase kat skolah dulu, kau slalu berlakon jadi romeo dgn orang jahat.One dialog which i still remember was
Aileen [my mom]:Who is the father?
Me[daughter]:I dunno..It can be Ryan, it can be John and it can also be..Err I seriously dunno.
Hhahaha..Bapak bitch gile watak aku dalam tu.After nikkit refuse to take responsibility, I tried to kill myself, by trying to minum some racun but, I was saved by a good guy who used to be teased in class played by shaza[memang tak sesuaila watak ni, manade shaza baik dowh]. He[dlm watak tu dia he la]pujuk me not to kill myself and finally adopt my daughter, lisa. Nicky terrer gile berlakon ok, mase die dapat tau die tu anak tak sah taraf[hahaha, bahase sokabar tak aku] die menangis and aku rase audience pon agak menangisla.Background music was total eclips or my heart, she really was into the music tapi bile music habis je die terus buat muke stone.Tak best lansung.Potongla wey!!Lepas tu, mase tu aku ade suke sorang budak ni laa, but she sort of jual mahal. Disebabkan I have the power to create what ever I want in that drama, aku wujudkan satu watak di mana dia nak dekat aku.Wahahaha..Macam gampang.
The final dialogue was..
Nicky[Lisa]:What?I'm a bastard??
See, that's why we don't won the first place. Our drama was full of explicit words.Bastardla, shitla, fuckla, ape tah lagi.Dahla ade unsur2 liar.Tsk..tsk..Anyway, everybody enjoyed the play.Kalau tak mencarut-carut mesti boleh menang[hahaha]
Lepas tu untuk drama sejarah pon dapat nombor tiga jugak..Sebabnye, salah satu syarat for sejarah drama was to have a traditional dance. Masalahnye budak kelas aku seme kayu bab-bab menari traditional . Budak-budak kelas lain pergh, menari mautnye ok..[siap ade yang jadik bungala menari-nari, ape tah lagik].Kelas aku..cuma buat joget lambak mase orang kawin.Macam sial..sume pakat-pakat masuk and menari berjoget lambak, main tibai je menari, ikut sukati mak bapak kitorang.Hahahaha..budus..budus..
Tula dia, everytime I spent time with my STF sisters, these kind of story will come out..and will make me smile for the whole night :).
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Makan
I develop a serious sensation towards laksa. So when I read this page yesterday, my mouth got watery. And the taste evaluation..9 out of 10.The review was so inviting.. Tapi kenape dekat Kedah?Kenapa?Kenapa?? Kedah tu jauh, tau tak? Kenapa tak buat branch dekat Shah Alam..Lagi elok betul-betul depan signboard Jalan Kebaya. Huhuhu.
This site was promoted to me by my baby who at that time was also starving to death and trying to torture himself more by browsing through food website. You see, even though kitorang selalu bercakaran hampir setiap hari but we have two things in common. Watching hot babes and makan. Pantang nampak kedai makan yang menarik- menarik sikit, mesti nak pegi. The best thing is when we go to midveli, where there is jusco which sells sushi and uhh..tako tao.
You know, he don't actually eat sushi until our second date when I 'influence' him to eat and hah, he's hooked until today. For me, I am capable to eat almost everything from escargot to sup urat except for..mamak food. I simply can't tolerate mamak food .The rest, janji halal semua aku telan. *Uhh, talking about sup urat, there's this shop somewhere near to my house that sells really appetizing sup urat. The sup..is sweltering and boleh nampak asap-asap dia, perah limau nipis and perghh..sedap gilela ok..Makan pulak dengan nasik putih letak sambal blacan..pedas..Sampai malam pun boleh termimpi-mimpi ok. It might sound nauseating but hey, give it a try, then you'll understand. Ani sup utara rawks bit time.* [maybe aku patut claim sebab buat promotion free utk kedai ni]
Ag..He doesn't eat sup urat..nor sup ekor and not even brinjals..which is bad ..Coz I love to cook brinjals and I love sup urat and sup ekor. Never mind I still have like..err.. immeasurable years to pujuk him to devour those things.
Just imagine.. chics and ag eating sup urat while drooling over hot babes..
Uhhhh..
*This part is especially meant for laydiefa, who love to drool over good food for lunch on Yahoo Messenger. Heheh babe, kau terliur tak
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Sentimental
You know my bedroom looks like a dragon lair. Lots of prehistoric stuff being chucked there. It's not that I didn't put much effort to straighten it up [my maid also tried ok] but every time I tried to hurl things out from my room, I feel guilty. It's like throwing a memory.
I like to keep lots of things. Tickets, receipt, long time love letters and lots more. Anyhow, I only manage to keep some of them coz the rest were being thrown by my dad who love to make a surprise inspection to my room and will throw things that he think is unnecessary. Unnecessary to him but pretty important to me.
Anyway, I do believe everything, even a windswept burger wrapper have their own story. One of my cousin always complained that the blanket that I used was kinda small for both of us and maybe I should replace it. Oh yeah, it's small but it still cover me well [sebab aku pendekla kan] . Even if it doesn't I won't throw it away. Green was never my favourite color but that green blanket was out of the ordinary. It was the first blanket I cried beneath, the result of missing my mum badly after being left in a cruel cruel boarding school [hah, padahal aku yang nak pegi sangat].
My mum love green so much so she bought the green blanket which is still remain anonymous [unlike some people who named her blanket after a menteri besar, hehe] at globe silk store. Hey, that time globe was famous ok. It was thick and was made of wool with flowery pattern all over it. And the lining was from satin. I dun really care how nice or not nice a blanket looks like but the thought of my mum picking it up especially for me to cover me up when she's not around that count. I used to have asthma, and when it attacks things were usually appalling. When I'm still living with my mum she would daub vicks all over my chest and my back and would make a steam bath for me in the middle of the night. Well, when I was being accepted to the school, she can't do that anymore..so that's why she bought me that blanket, to replace her warmth when I need her the most. I was a pampered child and a spoilt brat [my dad insisted that I'm still a brat], so I was living in a hell without my mum presence. Every night I would think of her without fail and..cried.. also without fail. I missed her so much. There's nothing I could do apart from crying silently under that green blanket. Well, that only happened when I was a junior.
When I was a senior, the blanket told a different story. I need that blanket no matter what whether and condition it was. Panas ke, hujan ke, riadah ke, prep ke, qiamullail ke, kelas bio ke..That blanket will remain as my best companion ..Only that particular blanket. If I change my blanket, my tido will not be lengkap.Together we develop a new hobby for me which is menidurkan diri di waktu-waktu genting dan penting.[ Sheesh, Pemalas gile aku!!]
The story didn't end there, even when I was doing my asasi in Kuantan, the blanket was still with me a few snores away..and even when I'm dazed in my partying years in uni, the blanket was there to comfort me during hangover and sober time.It also witness how many tears I shed after being left broken hearted [or was it leaving someone but still broken hearted?] Yeah, you can say that it witness how I grew up.
I'm 25 now [demm] and I still have that blanket even thought the satin part doesn't shimmer anymore Despite that I still love that blanket the same. Not a thread less. To me, the blanket really left a sentimental value. It told a lot of story..leaving a lot of memories
That's just about the blanket, I have lots of things that can tell lots of story and I'm sure you guys have your own things with sentimental values..
Selingan:
Aku tau kalau aku marah ni mcm kuar from topic.Tapi aku memang marah sebab kalau tepon aku dah siap mesti aku bleh amik gamba aku denga selimut tu.Ciss tengok, skang sugguh tak sentimental dah jadiknye.Tak dramatic lansung.
Sampukan:
Nicky is back with her blog.Yeay!
The end..back to sentimental sentiment..
I like to keep lots of things. Tickets, receipt, long time love letters and lots more. Anyhow, I only manage to keep some of them coz the rest were being thrown by my dad who love to make a surprise inspection to my room and will throw things that he think is unnecessary. Unnecessary to him but pretty important to me.
Anyway, I do believe everything, even a windswept burger wrapper have their own story. One of my cousin always complained that the blanket that I used was kinda small for both of us and maybe I should replace it. Oh yeah, it's small but it still cover me well [sebab aku pendekla kan] . Even if it doesn't I won't throw it away. Green was never my favourite color but that green blanket was out of the ordinary. It was the first blanket I cried beneath, the result of missing my mum badly after being left in a cruel cruel boarding school [hah, padahal aku yang nak pegi sangat].
My mum love green so much so she bought the green blanket which is still remain anonymous [unlike some people who named her blanket after a menteri besar, hehe] at globe silk store. Hey, that time globe was famous ok. It was thick and was made of wool with flowery pattern all over it. And the lining was from satin. I dun really care how nice or not nice a blanket looks like but the thought of my mum picking it up especially for me to cover me up when she's not around that count. I used to have asthma, and when it attacks things were usually appalling. When I'm still living with my mum she would daub vicks all over my chest and my back and would make a steam bath for me in the middle of the night. Well, when I was being accepted to the school, she can't do that anymore..so that's why she bought me that blanket, to replace her warmth when I need her the most. I was a pampered child and a spoilt brat [my dad insisted that I'm still a brat], so I was living in a hell without my mum presence. Every night I would think of her without fail and..cried.. also without fail. I missed her so much. There's nothing I could do apart from crying silently under that green blanket. Well, that only happened when I was a junior.
When I was a senior, the blanket told a different story. I need that blanket no matter what whether and condition it was. Panas ke, hujan ke, riadah ke, prep ke, qiamullail ke, kelas bio ke..That blanket will remain as my best companion ..Only that particular blanket. If I change my blanket, my tido will not be lengkap.Together we develop a new hobby for me which is menidurkan diri di waktu-waktu genting dan penting.[ Sheesh, Pemalas gile aku!!]
The story didn't end there, even when I was doing my asasi in Kuantan, the blanket was still with me a few snores away..and even when I'm dazed in my partying years in uni, the blanket was there to comfort me during hangover and sober time.It also witness how many tears I shed after being left broken hearted [or was it leaving someone but still broken hearted?] Yeah, you can say that it witness how I grew up.
I'm 25 now [demm] and I still have that blanket even thought the satin part doesn't shimmer anymore Despite that I still love that blanket the same. Not a thread less. To me, the blanket really left a sentimental value. It told a lot of story..leaving a lot of memories
That's just about the blanket, I have lots of things that can tell lots of story and I'm sure you guys have your own things with sentimental values..
Selingan:
Aku tau kalau aku marah ni mcm kuar from topic.Tapi aku memang marah sebab kalau tepon aku dah siap mesti aku bleh amik gamba aku denga selimut tu.Ciss tengok, skang sugguh tak sentimental dah jadiknye.Tak dramatic lansung.
Sampukan:
Nicky is back with her blog.Yeay!
The end..back to sentimental sentiment..
Monday, March 14, 2005
Emo, emo dan emo
Ok.ni second entry untuk hari ni.Hari ni hari emo.Aku bapak bad mood.
Dah 2 minggu diet ni tapi bontot aku still besa jugak.Dahla tu rasa cam nak mati tapi smalam dah makan banyak. Disebabkan pengawalan pemakanan secara rawak malam je aku mesti pening and muntah-muntah sampai menimbulkan syak terhadap boifren aku walaupun die tau aku tgh bulan mengambang. Sangatla tak best tapi aku kene[read:kene] jugak diet sebab er..nak cantik?
Lepas tu..I felt empty.Like..everything is meaningless. I know I have lots of meaningful things in my life tapi some how they don't mean a thing. It's sad and I'm not suppose to feel that tapi aku rasa empty..kenapa??kenapa??Aku rasa I have to go somewhere else.I have to do smething with my life yang aku tak penah buat.Mungkin cuaca kat mesia ni tak sesuai untuk aku..hohohoh..mengada-ngade tak?Ok, jangan jawab soalan tu.
Talipon tak siap lagi. Ni dah dua bulanla ok.Babi. Celake.Bodoh. Aku addict nak amik gamba sendiri tau tak??
Banyak lagi nak marah sebenanye..tapi cukuplah setakat hari ini.
Ok dah..[breath in, breath out]
Dah 2 minggu diet ni tapi bontot aku still besa jugak.Dahla tu rasa cam nak mati tapi smalam dah makan banyak. Disebabkan pengawalan pemakanan secara rawak malam je aku mesti pening and muntah-muntah sampai menimbulkan syak terhadap boifren aku walaupun die tau aku tgh bulan mengambang. Sangatla tak best tapi aku kene[read:kene] jugak diet sebab er..nak cantik?
Lepas tu..I felt empty.Like..everything is meaningless. I know I have lots of meaningful things in my life tapi some how they don't mean a thing. It's sad and I'm not suppose to feel that tapi aku rasa empty..kenapa??kenapa??Aku rasa I have to go somewhere else.I have to do smething with my life yang aku tak penah buat.Mungkin cuaca kat mesia ni tak sesuai untuk aku..hohohoh..mengada-ngade tak?Ok, jangan jawab soalan tu.
Talipon tak siap lagi. Ni dah dua bulanla ok.Babi. Celake.Bodoh. Aku addict nak amik gamba sendiri tau tak??
Banyak lagi nak marah sebenanye..tapi cukuplah setakat hari ini.
Ok dah..[breath in, breath out]
Huhuhu
Monday..Monday blues...
2003
8.00 a.m - Architecture class *Still at home, sleeping*
10.00 a.m - Wake up time
11.00 a.m - neural Network class
11.10 a.m - neural Network class, lecture is teaching *Me slip out from class*
11.13 a.m - at the lab, checking email, download lagu, blogging
1.00 noon - lunch at cafe with kecik, farah and gang
2.00 p.m - SE class *discussing about party scene, what to wear, who to call*
3.00 p.m - call umi to sign attendance for robotic class
3.30 p.m - Midvelli, queueing for movie ticket
8.00 p.m - at home, exhausted after going for shopping
10.00 p.m - getting dress up
10.30 p.m - party!!!
5.30 a.m - at home, half conscious.
2005
7.30 a.m - wake up time
9.30 a.m - at office
7.00 p.m - leave office
8.00 p.m - reach home
11.30 p.m - on the phone
12.30 a.m - zzzzzz
I dont have a life :(.
Nak blaja balik!!!
2003
8.00 a.m - Architecture class *Still at home, sleeping*
10.00 a.m - Wake up time
11.00 a.m - neural Network class
11.10 a.m - neural Network class, lecture is teaching *Me slip out from class*
11.13 a.m - at the lab, checking email, download lagu, blogging
1.00 noon - lunch at cafe with kecik, farah and gang
2.00 p.m - SE class *discussing about party scene, what to wear, who to call*
3.00 p.m - call umi to sign attendance for robotic class
3.30 p.m - Midvelli, queueing for movie ticket
8.00 p.m - at home, exhausted after going for shopping
10.00 p.m - getting dress up
10.30 p.m - party!!!
5.30 a.m - at home, half conscious.
2005
7.30 a.m - wake up time
9.30 a.m - at office
7.00 p.m - leave office
8.00 p.m - reach home
11.30 p.m - on the phone
12.30 a.m - zzzzzz
I dont have a life :(.
Nak blaja balik!!!
Friday, March 11, 2005
Dream
I had a dream last night.A dream that make me feel uneasy.
I dreamt that I had a fight with my baby and things were so bad that we broke up. Since both of us are kepala batu so we just call it off just like that even though I still have feelings for him. After that we did not contact each other. I was a teacher that time[ha!] and he was..err still doing what he's doing now. The funny thing is everybody in my dream were his friends and my friends. So one day, on my way to the classroom, I stumbled upon his friend who is a janitor[ha!].He was so delighted to see me and told me that my ex[at that timela] was having a terrible time..well so do i tapi aku degil.I was so degil even all my friends were angry with me including nicky. They were so mad and refused to talk to me except zaireen [tahaper tah, dahla zaireen pon aku tak tau buat ape skang]. Zaireen used to be a peacemaker when we were in high school.She is the only one who is still talking to me. So one day while I was in the shower with her..suddenly my baby came.Aku pon tak taula apsal bolehla plak lelaki dgn pompuan masuk satu toilet.Sejak bile Mesia ni ade unisex shower room pon aku tatau.Apparently Zaireen had pujuk him to come to see me. We were still not talking tapi mandi shower seblah-seblah yang cover die sikit je.Siap share-share shower foam lagi.Boleh tak macam tu?Skali..dalam proses nak mengorat-ngorat..
"Na, awak ada baju nak basuh tak?", my mom walked into my room and secara tak lansung, woke me up.Aisehhhh..Potong betulla!!Tak sempat aku nak make up and make out.Heheheheh..
Anyway, my dream are all in colour, not like what some people said, dreams are in black and white.And all my dreams involve long conversation bukan macam cite charlie chaplin.
My dream sometimes affect my mood after that.Tapi mimpi yang paling best ialah mimpi jatuh cinte or mimpi er..poron. Feelings die sangatla real and boleh membuatkan rasa high yang berlebihan.
Tapi mimpi malam tadik membuatkan aku rasa aku tak nak dah mengamuk sebelum tido.Sekian.
Have a nice weekend people!
I dreamt that I had a fight with my baby and things were so bad that we broke up. Since both of us are kepala batu so we just call it off just like that even though I still have feelings for him. After that we did not contact each other. I was a teacher that time[ha!] and he was..err still doing what he's doing now. The funny thing is everybody in my dream were his friends and my friends. So one day, on my way to the classroom, I stumbled upon his friend who is a janitor[ha!].He was so delighted to see me and told me that my ex[at that timela] was having a terrible time..well so do i tapi aku degil.I was so degil even all my friends were angry with me including nicky. They were so mad and refused to talk to me except zaireen [tahaper tah, dahla zaireen pon aku tak tau buat ape skang]. Zaireen used to be a peacemaker when we were in high school.She is the only one who is still talking to me. So one day while I was in the shower with her..suddenly my baby came.Aku pon tak taula apsal bolehla plak lelaki dgn pompuan masuk satu toilet.Sejak bile Mesia ni ade unisex shower room pon aku tatau.Apparently Zaireen had pujuk him to come to see me. We were still not talking tapi mandi shower seblah-seblah yang cover die sikit je.Siap share-share shower foam lagi.Boleh tak macam tu?Skali..dalam proses nak mengorat-ngorat..
"Na, awak ada baju nak basuh tak?", my mom walked into my room and secara tak lansung, woke me up.Aisehhhh..Potong betulla!!Tak sempat aku nak make up and make out.Heheheheh..
Anyway, my dream are all in colour, not like what some people said, dreams are in black and white.And all my dreams involve long conversation bukan macam cite charlie chaplin.
My dream sometimes affect my mood after that.Tapi mimpi yang paling best ialah mimpi jatuh cinte or mimpi er..poron. Feelings die sangatla real and boleh membuatkan rasa high yang berlebihan.
Tapi mimpi malam tadik membuatkan aku rasa aku tak nak dah mengamuk sebelum tido.Sekian.
Have a nice weekend people!
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Mungkin nanti
Someone emailed me this song last week. He knew that I love Indonesian band so much. In his email he wrote
"Aku tau kau suka lagu ni,Dedicate.Anyway lagu ni ade sedikit sebanyak pasal kita"
I obviously know this song and I love it but I don't know what he meant by forwarding me this song. As I was concentrating trying to get a clue, my mom came out from her room.
Mom: Lagu apa ni?
Me:Lagu munkin nanti.Peterpan nyanyi.
Mom:Peterpen konon.Tak sedar diri, indon.Letak jela nama indon.Samela macam band-band kat mesia ni.Perasan. Kalau dah mlayu tu mlayu jugakla.
Me:Huh?*Apsal mak aku ni?*
Yeah, sedar diri .That words make me realize that he was trying to say that he is already over me.
Dan mungkin bila nanti..
Kitakan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan
Kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati..
Seperti hari kelmarin
Saat semua disini..
After two years, he's finally over me.
And after two years..I'm finally free from guilt.
P.S: Fahimi, kau rase tak muke vocalist die, Ariel ade iras-iras kau sket ?[except part rambutla]. Adekan?Kan?
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Smiling heart
Woke up late.I thought I was late but when I reached office it's about 9.36, it seemed that only Amir had arrived, itu pon die tido.Best gilela..hahaha
The commuter was empty so I managed to find seat.Facing me there's a girl, talking over the phone.She was smiling, not actually smile.Menyengih sebenanye,sampai nampak gusi.Boleh tahanla kiut tapi serabut sket.Not long after that she put down the phone tapi tetap continue menyengih.Aku tak marah die sengih tapi die sengih macam tu sampai 10 minit and she looked right to my face.Akward aku.Nak sengih pon pandangla tingkap, jangan pandang akula pasal aku tak tau nak buat muka macamana.
She continued sengih-sengih.She looked happy.Must be a hell of a phone call.Maybe her heart was smiling too.Like..yesterday someone ask me
"Do you know what does it mean by a smiling heart?"
Yeah, I know.It happen when you're so happy and your heart feel bigger than your body.
I have a smiling heart when I think about my school days, when I think about the time dad rush back from Sarawak when I received my PMR result and my heart smile when I hang out with my STF sisters.
But u know, skang slalula aku ada smiling heart.Malam-malam after talking over the phone aku rasa hati aku mengembang gile sampai aku takut aku mati besoknye pasal hati aku mungkin akan meletup mase aku tido.Boleh tak macam tu?
Itula die, dulu hati aku cam selalu remuk je dowh, tapi skang sebab tiap-tiap hari makan ubat, dia mcam dah boleh senyum sket-sket lama-lama senyum banyaaaak.
So korang, kalaula aku mati mase tido and Dr.tu cakap aku mati sebab my heart jammed pasal banyak sangat senyum or it burst, korang taula salah sape..hehehe
Ok, corny post aku tau..
The commuter was empty so I managed to find seat.Facing me there's a girl, talking over the phone.She was smiling, not actually smile.Menyengih sebenanye,sampai nampak gusi.Boleh tahanla kiut tapi serabut sket.Not long after that she put down the phone tapi tetap continue menyengih.Aku tak marah die sengih tapi die sengih macam tu sampai 10 minit and she looked right to my face.Akward aku.Nak sengih pon pandangla tingkap, jangan pandang akula pasal aku tak tau nak buat muka macamana.
She continued sengih-sengih.She looked happy.Must be a hell of a phone call.Maybe her heart was smiling too.Like..yesterday someone ask me
"Do you know what does it mean by a smiling heart?"
Yeah, I know.It happen when you're so happy and your heart feel bigger than your body.
I have a smiling heart when I think about my school days, when I think about the time dad rush back from Sarawak when I received my PMR result and my heart smile when I hang out with my STF sisters.
But u know, skang slalula aku ada smiling heart.Malam-malam after talking over the phone aku rasa hati aku mengembang gile sampai aku takut aku mati besoknye pasal hati aku mungkin akan meletup mase aku tido.Boleh tak macam tu?
Itula die, dulu hati aku cam selalu remuk je dowh, tapi skang sebab tiap-tiap hari makan ubat, dia mcam dah boleh senyum sket-sket lama-lama senyum banyaaaak.
So korang, kalaula aku mati mase tido and Dr.tu cakap aku mati sebab my heart jammed pasal banyak sangat senyum or it burst, korang taula salah sape..hehehe
Ok, corny post aku tau..
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Superpower
Semalam dalam monorail, on the way nak balik rumah from office, adela sekumpulan teenagers ni.4 pompuan, 2 lelaki..Kira macam dua couple and 2 ekor lagi tu ikut lepak skalila.Aku agak diorang ni dalam lingkungan umur 17 macam tula..Tengah tunggu result la kot. The first couple look steady but the other couple was like.. malu-malu kucing.Skali, tu budak lelaki tu keluarkanla fon die while the girlfriend is trying to sit on an available space beside me.
Boifren:Saye amik gamba awak ye?
Gilfren yg kunun-kunun pemalu:Eee, tak naklah.Janganlah, janganlah, malulah! *sambil mengkaver muke dengan plastic bag*
Boifren:*snap*snap*
Gilfren yang kunun- kunun pemalu:Izzat, tengokla die ni. Nanti balik suruh die delete tau*talking to the other guy*.
Boifren:Apa nak malu, awak cantiklah.*tunjukkan gamba dekat dalam henfon tu*
Gilfren yang kunun-kunun pemalu:Iskh..tak eloklah gamba saye*gelak-gelak tapi tak delete gamba*.
Aku nak tergelak pon ade.Malula kunun.Ceh, kalau malu bak sini tepon tu biar aku je yang amik gamba aku sendiri.Haaa, baru kau tau nanti.Lepas tu kan kawan die yang lagi sorang tu macam nak bergossip so agak tergesa-gesa jalan kearah budak pompuan tepi aku tu.Sedap la pulak die main langgar je aku macamla aku ni invisible.Nasib baik petang smalam mood aku baik so aku biakan je la, kalau mood aku tak baik ada kemungkinan jugak aku akan berkata "kau apahal?"[ag, familiar tak?] hohohohoh
Tapi bila pikir kan..it's kinda cool if I can be invisible. I sometime, do wish that I have a superpower that can make me disappear. I mean think about it. Banyak bende bolah buat tau.
Firstly, I can go inside designer's boutique after they close their shop pastu try seme-seme baju.Try kasut-kasut or..I can go inside tiffany & co punye kedai and try seme jewellery dier.Lepas tu invent beg invisible supaya aku boleh amik barang-barang yang aku suka, sesuka hati.Uh, menarik ok.
Beside that, I can observe what my boyfriend is doing behind my back.Adakah die betul-betul bz pegi kelas atau berpura-pura bz[ini adalah fitnah secara terang-terangan, so you takleh marah]. And I can hug him at night when he's sleeping :), mungkin dia akan berasa takut sket tapi takpelah..Or maybe I can go into some people house and watch free porn, live.
But the best thing is I can go do anything to those who hurt me without them knowing it's me. For instance, mase derang tido, aku boleh cekik diorang sampai mati ataupon aku boleh bakar rumah diorang dan make it look like it's an accident. Or, in the middle of the night I can talk to them in a whispery voice konon-konon aku hantula kan.Mesti saiko punye kan? Hahahahahahah. Best..Best
Hmm..Nampak tak macam semua benda yang aku nak buat seme macam berunsur negetif?
Know you knowla why I don't have any superpower.
Err..Do you?
Boifren:Saye amik gamba awak ye?
Gilfren yg kunun-kunun pemalu:Eee, tak naklah.Janganlah, janganlah, malulah! *sambil mengkaver muke dengan plastic bag*
Boifren:*snap*snap*
Gilfren yang kunun- kunun pemalu:Izzat, tengokla die ni. Nanti balik suruh die delete tau*talking to the other guy*.
Boifren:Apa nak malu, awak cantiklah.*tunjukkan gamba dekat dalam henfon tu*
Gilfren yang kunun-kunun pemalu:Iskh..tak eloklah gamba saye*gelak-gelak tapi tak delete gamba*.
Aku nak tergelak pon ade.Malula kunun.Ceh, kalau malu bak sini tepon tu biar aku je yang amik gamba aku sendiri.Haaa, baru kau tau nanti.Lepas tu kan kawan die yang lagi sorang tu macam nak bergossip so agak tergesa-gesa jalan kearah budak pompuan tepi aku tu.Sedap la pulak die main langgar je aku macamla aku ni invisible.Nasib baik petang smalam mood aku baik so aku biakan je la, kalau mood aku tak baik ada kemungkinan jugak aku akan berkata "kau apahal?"[ag, familiar tak?] hohohohoh
Tapi bila pikir kan..it's kinda cool if I can be invisible. I sometime, do wish that I have a superpower that can make me disappear. I mean think about it. Banyak bende bolah buat tau.
Firstly, I can go inside designer's boutique after they close their shop pastu try seme-seme baju.Try kasut-kasut or..I can go inside tiffany & co punye kedai and try seme jewellery dier.Lepas tu invent beg invisible supaya aku boleh amik barang-barang yang aku suka, sesuka hati.Uh, menarik ok.
Beside that, I can observe what my boyfriend is doing behind my back.Adakah die betul-betul bz pegi kelas atau berpura-pura bz[ini adalah fitnah secara terang-terangan, so you takleh marah]. And I can hug him at night when he's sleeping :), mungkin dia akan berasa takut sket tapi takpelah..Or maybe I can go into some people house and watch free porn, live.
But the best thing is I can go do anything to those who hurt me without them knowing it's me. For instance, mase derang tido, aku boleh cekik diorang sampai mati ataupon aku boleh bakar rumah diorang dan make it look like it's an accident. Or, in the middle of the night I can talk to them in a whispery voice konon-konon aku hantula kan.Mesti saiko punye kan? Hahahahahahah. Best..Best
Hmm..Nampak tak macam semua benda yang aku nak buat seme macam berunsur negetif?
Know you knowla why I don't have any superpower.
Err..Do you?
Monday, March 07, 2005
Blessed weekend
Three things happened during the weekend. All of them were splendid [at least from my point of view].
The first thing was Effa's wedding. As usual, I never failed to enjoy my friends wedding. Why? Coz this is when all STFians gathered together. I mean wedding is the time when my friends all over Malaysia will get together and I can wear my ridiculous collection of baju-baju. Memangla ada yang tinggal dekat-dekat jugak, tapi masa lain memang susah nak jumpa.Masa orang kawin jela nak jumpa.The food..to me it was cool sebab..ada ayam masak merah!!Hihihih..I likee. Gagal sekejapla diet aku. And..The waiters [orang yang angkat-angkat lauk] were totally cute ok. Aku tau ida dengan nik mesti bersetuju sebab aku nampak korang usha waiter-waiter kat situ.Itula bestnye kalau pegi kenduri kawin, boifren tak ikut. Boleh terase mcm single sket. Hohohoh.In the other hand, I pity other guests there coz they had to bear with us whom are totally nuts about snapping pictures. Sikit-sikit amik gamba. Yang tak tahan tu budak-budak dari meja lain siap boleh berlari-lari nak amik gamba. Gile lense betulla [termasuk akula kan]. Dahla tu, mulut sesekor bising gile. Aku kesian gilela sape yang kawin dengan budak-budak STF ni..tsk..tsk..But like nik said "If you're married to an STFian, means you're also married to her 40 friends".So true.The bride and the bridegroom..Marvellous..Mcm biasela, orang kawin..Akan nampak berseri-seri. May both of you live happily ever after.
Finally, I got the chance to watch 'Sepet'. Worth every cent of my RM 11 watching, beautifully done. I mean, it really potrait a real life situation.Takdela macam cerita melayu yang menggelupur slalu tu yang bila aku tengok terus je rase nak lempang pelakon-pelakon die.I would definitely go for a second watch even it made me cry [mcm slalula]. Best gile ahh.Dahla amani tu cun gile ok.Rase cam nak ku pegang-pegang je die.Anyway, my favourite quote is
Jason:How long does it takes to fall in love?
Orked:1 Minute.
Orked:How long does you take to fall in love with me?
Jason:Less than that
Aww..Yeah, I'm such a romantic slob.Sue me!
And..My dad is back, even only for 6 days. Must be the best birthday present my mom ever got :). At first I was feeling a bit uneasy, yeah the usual feeling that I will encounter every time dad is back for holiday. I'm so used not to have him around and people fussing about me [I'm daddy's daughter ok] since..er..high school? I was home around 2 a.m that night and he's still awake, waiting for me.
"Baru balik?" That was his first word which translate "Lambat gile balik. Dengan budak mana pulakla anak aku keluar ni. Tak serik-serik budak ni. Meh aku nak jumpa sket budak jantan tu, senang sket aku nak carik kalau ada apa-apa jadik ".[ Okey, maybe aku ade tambah sketla tapi takpe].
Now you know what I mean. I mean, usually my mum would never wait for me sebab dia tau, kalau tunggu sia-sia je la.Mungkin dia akan dapat tido bila dah subuh or tak dapat tido lansung. Hehehe. My dad, he's so protective especially to me maybe because I'm the only daughter. Protective but in an ignorant way. Unique isn't it? I bet he know the name of the guy whom I'm currently dating but in the other hand I don't think he know that I'm 25 years old this year [masa aku umur 20 tahun, die terkejut bila dapat tau aku dah sebesar tu, itu pun nasib baik aku bagitau umur aku.]. That's my dad..weird but true yet I know, he loves me all the same. Well, after a big hug and kisses I felt warm and warmer when he looked healthy. That's not all. I got a new bandung kebaya [siap dengan selendang lagi ok] courtesy from mbak neneng, the wife of my dad's driver. Both the driver and his wife were so kind during our last visit there. Sanggupla layan aku dangan adik aku yang banyak songeh ni kan. And now, she gave me a marvelous kebaya. Thank you!
Tak saba nak pakai kebaya baru ok. Tolongla ade orang kawin.
The first thing was Effa's wedding. As usual, I never failed to enjoy my friends wedding. Why? Coz this is when all STFians gathered together. I mean wedding is the time when my friends all over Malaysia will get together and I can wear my ridiculous collection of baju-baju. Memangla ada yang tinggal dekat-dekat jugak, tapi masa lain memang susah nak jumpa.Masa orang kawin jela nak jumpa.The food..to me it was cool sebab..ada ayam masak merah!!Hihihih..I likee. Gagal sekejapla diet aku. And..The waiters [orang yang angkat-angkat lauk] were totally cute ok. Aku tau ida dengan nik mesti bersetuju sebab aku nampak korang usha waiter-waiter kat situ.Itula bestnye kalau pegi kenduri kawin, boifren tak ikut. Boleh terase mcm single sket. Hohohoh.In the other hand, I pity other guests there coz they had to bear with us whom are totally nuts about snapping pictures. Sikit-sikit amik gamba. Yang tak tahan tu budak-budak dari meja lain siap boleh berlari-lari nak amik gamba. Gile lense betulla [termasuk akula kan]. Dahla tu, mulut sesekor bising gile. Aku kesian gilela sape yang kawin dengan budak-budak STF ni..tsk..tsk..But like nik said "If you're married to an STFian, means you're also married to her 40 friends".So true.The bride and the bridegroom..Marvellous..Mcm biasela, orang kawin..Akan nampak berseri-seri. May both of you live happily ever after.
Finally, I got the chance to watch 'Sepet'. Worth every cent of my RM 11 watching, beautifully done. I mean, it really potrait a real life situation.Takdela macam cerita melayu yang menggelupur slalu tu yang bila aku tengok terus je rase nak lempang pelakon-pelakon die.I would definitely go for a second watch even it made me cry [mcm slalula]. Best gile ahh.Dahla amani tu cun gile ok.Rase cam nak ku pegang-pegang je die.Anyway, my favourite quote is
Jason:How long does it takes to fall in love?
Orked:1 Minute.
Orked:How long does you take to fall in love with me?
Jason:Less than that
Aww..Yeah, I'm such a romantic slob.Sue me!
And..My dad is back, even only for 6 days. Must be the best birthday present my mom ever got :). At first I was feeling a bit uneasy, yeah the usual feeling that I will encounter every time dad is back for holiday. I'm so used not to have him around and people fussing about me [I'm daddy's daughter ok] since..er..high school? I was home around 2 a.m that night and he's still awake, waiting for me.
"Baru balik?" That was his first word which translate "Lambat gile balik. Dengan budak mana pulakla anak aku keluar ni. Tak serik-serik budak ni. Meh aku nak jumpa sket budak jantan tu, senang sket aku nak carik kalau ada apa-apa jadik ".[ Okey, maybe aku ade tambah sketla tapi takpe].
Now you know what I mean. I mean, usually my mum would never wait for me sebab dia tau, kalau tunggu sia-sia je la.Mungkin dia akan dapat tido bila dah subuh or tak dapat tido lansung. Hehehe. My dad, he's so protective especially to me maybe because I'm the only daughter. Protective but in an ignorant way. Unique isn't it? I bet he know the name of the guy whom I'm currently dating but in the other hand I don't think he know that I'm 25 years old this year [masa aku umur 20 tahun, die terkejut bila dapat tau aku dah sebesar tu, itu pun nasib baik aku bagitau umur aku.]. That's my dad..weird but true yet I know, he loves me all the same. Well, after a big hug and kisses I felt warm and warmer when he looked healthy. That's not all. I got a new bandung kebaya [siap dengan selendang lagi ok] courtesy from mbak neneng, the wife of my dad's driver. Both the driver and his wife were so kind during our last visit there. Sanggupla layan aku dangan adik aku yang banyak songeh ni kan. And now, she gave me a marvelous kebaya. Thank you!
Tak saba nak pakai kebaya baru ok. Tolongla ade orang kawin.
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Dieting
Am so hungry..Like very-very hungry.
But I can't eat..I only ate a slice of bread today
Am drooling to drive to Hartinie Restaurant to get that yummy gulai kawah
tapi banyak lemak sangat.
This is tormentingla ok.
Malam tadik aku sanggup tak makan nasik lemak
yang komfem sedap tu.
And nasik lemak is my fav. dish
Demmla wey..
Ade tak denga cite orang mati kelaparan sebab diet?
Mungkin aku akan mencipta rekod
Huk..huk..
Lapa...
But I can't eat..I only ate a slice of bread today
Am drooling to drive to Hartinie Restaurant to get that yummy gulai kawah
tapi banyak lemak sangat.
This is tormentingla ok.
Malam tadik aku sanggup tak makan nasik lemak
yang komfem sedap tu.
And nasik lemak is my fav. dish
Demmla wey..
Ade tak denga cite orang mati kelaparan sebab diet?
Mungkin aku akan mencipta rekod
Huk..huk..
Lapa...
Friday, March 04, 2005
Obituary
Since I was in school I develop a weird hobby. Everyday, after having lunch at the dining hall I would read the newspaper, particularly NST in the common room before going back to my dorm. In my uniform I would seek for my favourite page, comic strips and obituaries. I know it's morbid but I dunno why I'm attracted to read about people's death. To me it's interesting to know whether someone died peacefully or if they died suddenly. Plus, I love to read poems written for the dead by their love ones. And I still keep that hobby until this very day.
From my conscious, I only came across Chinese, Indian and other races obituary except Malay. Humm. Issit sinful to do that? I mean, does our religion forbid us to do something like that? Or issit a sensitive issue? I think we have better ways remembering those we love who passed away . We don't advertise, we do kenduri arwah. Like every year my family will hold kenduri arwah in remembrance of my late grandpa and late uncle. The last kenduri arwah was last three weeks ago and my cousin punched someone right to his face for disrespecting my late uncle. I still remember what happen that night.
Me, my bro, ayang and wawa [both are my cousin] we sitting on the stool at the garden while my other cousin, bobo sat on the swing with a boy who came to follow her mom to the tahlil. Apparently the mother is an ustazah. We have no electricity that night and it was pitch black. The unknown boy was talking loudly and laughing hysterically. My cousin in the other hand tried to control his voice. Out of no where, came my other cousin A'ai who is a son of my late uncle. A'ai was in form two and he has a petite body frame but the boy is quite big. He approached the boy.
A'ai :Kau ni bisingla. Dahla tak baca tahlil untuk bapak aku, memekak pulak tu.Respekla sket.
Unknown boy:Apehal pulak kau ni?Dah mati tu matila.Yang hidup ni kenelah teruskan hidup:
Bobo: *murmuring something*
After that, we didn't hear anything so we ignored their conversation and continued talking softly even dalam hati masing-masing amatlah bengkak. Suddenly we heard the swing shake. I'm sort of blind so I can't see what exactly happen but my bro and ayang [both are big-sized] leaped from their seat and rushed to the swing. It happened in a flash.Tapi, even masa tu gelap gelita aku nampak bobo membelasah budak tu.Aie who was holding a ciggie in his hand, terpaksa cucuh rokok dia dekat diorang untuk meleraikan diorang.Ayang in the other hand, try jugak nak leraikan diorang tapi siap kene tumbuk lagi okey. Finally after aie threaten to belasah them , they finally stop.
During makan time, we finally asked bobo why did he create such scene.
"Bobo bukan apo.Sakit ati tau tak dio buek camtu.Pakcik kito yang moninggal tu.Dio ingat kito ni sapo? Bobo kosian kek si A'ai, todiam bilo oghang megato cik jahir [my uncle], iyola..awak kocik, ontok-ontok jolah.. tu yang aku tinju muko dio tu."
Yup, death to Malay is a very sensitive issue. Sensitive and personal. I guess that explain why I don't see any obituary for Malay. But that won't stop me from flipping to my favourite section everyday..
From my conscious, I only came across Chinese, Indian and other races obituary except Malay. Humm. Issit sinful to do that? I mean, does our religion forbid us to do something like that? Or issit a sensitive issue? I think we have better ways remembering those we love who passed away . We don't advertise, we do kenduri arwah. Like every year my family will hold kenduri arwah in remembrance of my late grandpa and late uncle. The last kenduri arwah was last three weeks ago and my cousin punched someone right to his face for disrespecting my late uncle. I still remember what happen that night.
Me, my bro, ayang and wawa [both are my cousin] we sitting on the stool at the garden while my other cousin, bobo sat on the swing with a boy who came to follow her mom to the tahlil. Apparently the mother is an ustazah. We have no electricity that night and it was pitch black. The unknown boy was talking loudly and laughing hysterically. My cousin in the other hand tried to control his voice. Out of no where, came my other cousin A'ai who is a son of my late uncle. A'ai was in form two and he has a petite body frame but the boy is quite big. He approached the boy.
A'ai :Kau ni bisingla. Dahla tak baca tahlil untuk bapak aku, memekak pulak tu.Respekla sket.
Unknown boy:Apehal pulak kau ni?Dah mati tu matila.Yang hidup ni kenelah teruskan hidup:
Bobo: *murmuring something*
After that, we didn't hear anything so we ignored their conversation and continued talking softly even dalam hati masing-masing amatlah bengkak. Suddenly we heard the swing shake. I'm sort of blind so I can't see what exactly happen but my bro and ayang [both are big-sized] leaped from their seat and rushed to the swing. It happened in a flash.Tapi, even masa tu gelap gelita aku nampak bobo membelasah budak tu.Aie who was holding a ciggie in his hand, terpaksa cucuh rokok dia dekat diorang untuk meleraikan diorang.Ayang in the other hand, try jugak nak leraikan diorang tapi siap kene tumbuk lagi okey. Finally after aie threaten to belasah them , they finally stop.
During makan time, we finally asked bobo why did he create such scene.
"Bobo bukan apo.Sakit ati tau tak dio buek camtu.Pakcik kito yang moninggal tu.Dio ingat kito ni sapo? Bobo kosian kek si A'ai, todiam bilo oghang megato cik jahir [my uncle], iyola..awak kocik, ontok-ontok jolah.. tu yang aku tinju muko dio tu."
Yup, death to Malay is a very sensitive issue. Sensitive and personal. I guess that explain why I don't see any obituary for Malay. But that won't stop me from flipping to my favourite section everyday..
Thursday, March 03, 2005
To be beautiful
My feet hurt. Like really hurt. I shifted to a new office which is surrounded by shopping malls so how can I not get my retail therapy after work ait? And when I say work I mean, high heels. How can a woman go to work without high heels? Unless if you are pregnant..and I'm not. So with my heels I went climbing through the shopping malls, during lunch hour and also after working hours. And yesterday, went to the roof top to get that yummylicious tako tao. I like ok!Sangatla sedap. Nyesal aku beli satu, Tak cukup. While waiting for my chow to be prepared, I went for a walk walk [paige, I borrow your word ah] around that place. Now you know why my feet hurt.
Yes, I can wear flat heels. But do you know how awkward and guilty I would feel if I wear flats with my trousers instead of wearing a stilettos? The feeling would be terrible, if I did that, I might lose my mood to work, it's that serious ok. I mean woman choose their shoes based on their moods and what outfit they are wearing. And yes, it is an essential to buy a pair of shoes every month and perhaps two pairs will be good. So if you hear your girlfriend or your wife whine " Ala, nak pakai kasut apa ni, takde kasut dah.." even you know the shoe rack are full with her shoes until there's not even a tiny space left, well.. that's normal. So, even though a pair of shoes I wear sprained my ankle, I will still wear it coz it look goddam nice on my feet. Kalaulah aku pikir tak nak sakit, adela dalam 2 ke 3 kasut je yang betul-betul boleh bawak berjalan. Yang lain seme kene buang.
See, it's not easy to be beautiful. For example, my diet started yesterday [that explain why I bought only 1 tako tao instead of two]. At first I thought I would skip my dinner but I was starving so I drove to the nearest kedai mamak [grocery] in my neighbourhood. That kedai mamak is positioned next to a restaurant. As I was grabbing the hi-fibre-non-cholesterol bread I hear someone saying "Kak, nasik goreng ayam satu" and an aromatic smell rose up..Sedap gile ok.Tau-tau aku dah dekat depan kakak tu dah, nasib baik aku sedar dan meneruskan niat membeli roti sahaja even though my mouth was really dying for that nasi goreng ayam.So I only had baked beans[it's cholesterol free and low fat, I've checked it, so dun worry], an egg [low-fat and non cholesterol too] and err..4 slices of high fiber bread for dinner last night.Healthy tak? Healthy tak?? I feel so proud of myself ok.
My determination did not end there. My new officemate was telling me how Ziana Zain lost all her fats. Home hot-slimming-wrap.. The method sounded absurd but hey, it's worth trying. I mean I won't lose anything.Jangan Tanya aku camne.Malu aku nak bagitau.Hohohoh.But I tried it yesterday..My God it was tormenting. I had to sleep with burning feeling around my thigh and my ass. Plus, it is so uncomfortable to sleep when your body part were being wrapped on an extremely hot weather .Dahla tu, bile nyamuk gigit, sakit jiwa aku nak menggarunye.Leceh dan amatla menyeksakan.Tapi..nak kurusnyer pasal aku sanggup. Jangan kata nyamuk,apa atau siapa gigit pun aku sanggup.
You know why I did all those things? Coz I'm thinking to quit my gym. Honestly I don't have time for gym. Rather than wasting my money paying for the gym that I know I would hardly have a time to go to might as well I used it to buy lovely lovely shoes or get the vita c injection [ am going to do that, tgh tunggu seme toned up dulu]. But at the same point I feel guilty quitting my gym coz I want and like to look beautiful. As a replacement for my gym I would diet and try to tone up by.err..doing the slim wrap? Also I will try do my push up every night...
Yeah, give that smirking face to me ag. I know what you are thinking now. Mock me as you wish tapi lepas ni kalau i kurus and cun gile janganla marah ok..
Jom celen nak sape lagi fit?Nak?Nak??
Hihihi..Ok main- main je.
Added:I want to know if there's any other weblog commenting tools beside haloscan?I want to change to a new one coz haloscan will delete my previous comments and I'm not luvin it.So any suggestion?
Yes, I can wear flat heels. But do you know how awkward and guilty I would feel if I wear flats with my trousers instead of wearing a stilettos? The feeling would be terrible, if I did that, I might lose my mood to work, it's that serious ok. I mean woman choose their shoes based on their moods and what outfit they are wearing. And yes, it is an essential to buy a pair of shoes every month and perhaps two pairs will be good. So if you hear your girlfriend or your wife whine " Ala, nak pakai kasut apa ni, takde kasut dah.." even you know the shoe rack are full with her shoes until there's not even a tiny space left, well.. that's normal. So, even though a pair of shoes I wear sprained my ankle, I will still wear it coz it look goddam nice on my feet. Kalaulah aku pikir tak nak sakit, adela dalam 2 ke 3 kasut je yang betul-betul boleh bawak berjalan. Yang lain seme kene buang.
See, it's not easy to be beautiful. For example, my diet started yesterday [that explain why I bought only 1 tako tao instead of two]. At first I thought I would skip my dinner but I was starving so I drove to the nearest kedai mamak [grocery] in my neighbourhood. That kedai mamak is positioned next to a restaurant. As I was grabbing the hi-fibre-non-cholesterol bread I hear someone saying "Kak, nasik goreng ayam satu" and an aromatic smell rose up..Sedap gile ok.Tau-tau aku dah dekat depan kakak tu dah, nasib baik aku sedar dan meneruskan niat membeli roti sahaja even though my mouth was really dying for that nasi goreng ayam.So I only had baked beans[it's cholesterol free and low fat, I've checked it, so dun worry], an egg [low-fat and non cholesterol too] and err..4 slices of high fiber bread for dinner last night.Healthy tak? Healthy tak?? I feel so proud of myself ok.
My determination did not end there. My new officemate was telling me how Ziana Zain lost all her fats. Home hot-slimming-wrap.. The method sounded absurd but hey, it's worth trying. I mean I won't lose anything.Jangan Tanya aku camne.Malu aku nak bagitau.Hohohoh.But I tried it yesterday..My God it was tormenting. I had to sleep with burning feeling around my thigh and my ass. Plus, it is so uncomfortable to sleep when your body part were being wrapped on an extremely hot weather .Dahla tu, bile nyamuk gigit, sakit jiwa aku nak menggarunye.Leceh dan amatla menyeksakan.Tapi..nak kurusnyer pasal aku sanggup. Jangan kata nyamuk,apa atau siapa gigit pun aku sanggup.
You know why I did all those things? Coz I'm thinking to quit my gym. Honestly I don't have time for gym. Rather than wasting my money paying for the gym that I know I would hardly have a time to go to might as well I used it to buy lovely lovely shoes or get the vita c injection [ am going to do that, tgh tunggu seme toned up dulu]. But at the same point I feel guilty quitting my gym coz I want and like to look beautiful. As a replacement for my gym I would diet and try to tone up by.err..doing the slim wrap? Also I will try do my push up every night...
Yeah, give that smirking face to me ag. I know what you are thinking now. Mock me as you wish tapi lepas ni kalau i kurus and cun gile janganla marah ok..
Jom celen nak sape lagi fit?Nak?Nak??
Hihihi..Ok main- main je.
Added:I want to know if there's any other weblog commenting tools beside haloscan?I want to change to a new one coz haloscan will delete my previous comments and I'm not luvin it.So any suggestion?
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
single or double
Gossiped with lenny on YM yesterday. She asked me for the bread pudding recipe and I asked her about her feeling as newlywed in return [haha.fair tak?].
Me:Lenny, best tak kawen?
Lenny:Besatla.Hahahaha.
Me:Apa yang best?
Lenny:Semua-semuala.Skang aku dah tak payah pegi bilik Meon [Er..Ami] kalau takut malam-malam.
Me:Hoh!Bestnyer.
Lenny:Skang tak rasa sunyi lagi.Makan pon dah ade kawan, mandi dah ade kawan [ni best gile ok, boleh celen buat buih sabun sape paling besa], tido dah ade kawan and naik lrt boleh peluk-peluk tanpa rase bersalah.
Me:Ces!!Jelesnye aku!
Ha!I do felt jealous, seriously. Especially the sleeping part. I mean, when it come to sleep, I always feel lonesome and would wish someone would hug me tight. I don't like to sleep alone. I enjoy having night talk before dozing off [now korang seme paham ape nik rase bile dia terpaksa tido dgn aku]. It must feel nice to have someone to talk with, to eat with and to debate over silly thing with. Who wouldn't want a life like that? When you wake up the first thing you see is your dearly loved face and in the middle of the night when you wake up from a terrible dream, you feel relieve coz you know that your other half is just few inches beside you. And yes, you will have arguments over stupid things or what so ever but then you always know that someone will be there to do the sweet-talk over you or he or she will try to make it up to you sooner or later.
I thought that was cool, and sweet. Maybe married life is not that bad after all. Well, I have that dandy perception kept inside me until dinner. Dinner, I treated my mom at our local Italian restaurant, Little Italian Kitchen since it was her birthday. I tell you, even the name is not as grand as Italliani's or Fasta Pasta but hey, their food is much much better than those two restaurants. I just love to go there. Sometime when I feel like Italian [haha, bangang tak aku] I would put on my spaghetti strap along with Capri pants, bring along my sunglasses and would have a nice Italian meal pretending that I can talk Italic, minus the cappuccino..coz I hate coffee. Oh, yeah..The food was marvelous! So was last night's.I ordered ermm..Fettucini marinara seafood with white sauce and chocolate shake and my mum ordered..er..sandwich and mineral water? Boleh tak macam tu?Sampai aku pon terconfuse, sape punye birthday sebenanye ni? Anyway, that's not my point. While I was eating, I swear that one of the waiter was bermain mata dengan aku.Okla, tak kirela nak kata aku prasan ke ape tapi aku seresly nampak ok and obviously takde orang lain dekat situ mase tu.And..He is my taste [atleast for this new 2005]. He was tall, fair, slender, squared jaw and yeah, he's good looking. I saw this guy before, as that place is one of my favourite spot to eat and I think he's the owner's son or relatives pasal muke die dgn tokey tu dekat-dekat. Ok whatever,suku sakat die tak penting. I tried not to notice and try to avoid any eye contact sebab..entah. Actually, I really want to look at him at that point and at least battle my eyelash back..But I didn't do that. I pretend like I don't see him staring and giving some flirtiest smile. If I am single, I would definitely flirt to death but haa, I can't coz somebody else is on my mind. I mean I can't do that can I? Even I know that he wouldn't know but it would make me feel bad.Entah..Rasa bersalah kot..
Ok, back to my point. You see, when you're attach with someone you would lost the blood-rushing-to-my-brain moment. I mean imagine.. there's a babe , flashing u a smile and she's hot and..you know that you could have a little fun and yeah, u wanted to..but wait a minute..you are married!!and you have 3 kids and your wife is pregnant with your fourth kid and the Dr.said it might be twins!! Isn't that scary? Hell yeah!! At least to me.
I guess what lenny said is true. The only thing newlywed would tell their friends, were only the good side of the story. Later on, she said "Actually,aku miss gile nak lepak-lepak dengan kawan-kawan..dengan katik..dengan semela..You tend to neglect your friends when you get married and your friends will tend to forget you..coz you're married."
Now, that is something that I dun think I can deal with..
But that's just me..
Or the feeling is mutual?
Me:Lenny, best tak kawen?
Lenny:Besatla.Hahahaha.
Me:Apa yang best?
Lenny:Semua-semuala.Skang aku dah tak payah pegi bilik Meon [Er..Ami] kalau takut malam-malam.
Me:Hoh!Bestnyer.
Lenny:Skang tak rasa sunyi lagi.Makan pon dah ade kawan, mandi dah ade kawan [ni best gile ok, boleh celen buat buih sabun sape paling besa], tido dah ade kawan and naik lrt boleh peluk-peluk tanpa rase bersalah.
Me:Ces!!Jelesnye aku!
Ha!I do felt jealous, seriously. Especially the sleeping part. I mean, when it come to sleep, I always feel lonesome and would wish someone would hug me tight. I don't like to sleep alone. I enjoy having night talk before dozing off [now korang seme paham ape nik rase bile dia terpaksa tido dgn aku]. It must feel nice to have someone to talk with, to eat with and to debate over silly thing with. Who wouldn't want a life like that? When you wake up the first thing you see is your dearly loved face and in the middle of the night when you wake up from a terrible dream, you feel relieve coz you know that your other half is just few inches beside you. And yes, you will have arguments over stupid things or what so ever but then you always know that someone will be there to do the sweet-talk over you or he or she will try to make it up to you sooner or later.
I thought that was cool, and sweet. Maybe married life is not that bad after all. Well, I have that dandy perception kept inside me until dinner. Dinner, I treated my mom at our local Italian restaurant, Little Italian Kitchen since it was her birthday. I tell you, even the name is not as grand as Italliani's or Fasta Pasta but hey, their food is much much better than those two restaurants. I just love to go there. Sometime when I feel like Italian [haha, bangang tak aku] I would put on my spaghetti strap along with Capri pants, bring along my sunglasses and would have a nice Italian meal pretending that I can talk Italic, minus the cappuccino..coz I hate coffee. Oh, yeah..The food was marvelous! So was last night's.I ordered ermm..Fettucini marinara seafood with white sauce and chocolate shake and my mum ordered..er..sandwich and mineral water? Boleh tak macam tu?Sampai aku pon terconfuse, sape punye birthday sebenanye ni? Anyway, that's not my point. While I was eating, I swear that one of the waiter was bermain mata dengan aku.Okla, tak kirela nak kata aku prasan ke ape tapi aku seresly nampak ok and obviously takde orang lain dekat situ mase tu.And..He is my taste [atleast for this new 2005]. He was tall, fair, slender, squared jaw and yeah, he's good looking. I saw this guy before, as that place is one of my favourite spot to eat and I think he's the owner's son or relatives pasal muke die dgn tokey tu dekat-dekat. Ok whatever,suku sakat die tak penting. I tried not to notice and try to avoid any eye contact sebab..entah. Actually, I really want to look at him at that point and at least battle my eyelash back..But I didn't do that. I pretend like I don't see him staring and giving some flirtiest smile. If I am single, I would definitely flirt to death but haa, I can't coz somebody else is on my mind. I mean I can't do that can I? Even I know that he wouldn't know but it would make me feel bad.Entah..Rasa bersalah kot..
Ok, back to my point. You see, when you're attach with someone you would lost the blood-rushing-to-my-brain moment. I mean imagine.. there's a babe , flashing u a smile and she's hot and..you know that you could have a little fun and yeah, u wanted to..but wait a minute..you are married!!and you have 3 kids and your wife is pregnant with your fourth kid and the Dr.said it might be twins!! Isn't that scary? Hell yeah!! At least to me.
I guess what lenny said is true. The only thing newlywed would tell their friends, were only the good side of the story. Later on, she said "Actually,aku miss gile nak lepak-lepak dengan kawan-kawan..dengan katik..dengan semela..You tend to neglect your friends when you get married and your friends will tend to forget you..coz you're married."
Now, that is something that I dun think I can deal with..
But that's just me..
Or the feeling is mutual?
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Mom's Birthday
Today is my mom's birthday.Well, I did bought her a present yesterday and you know what?I drove her car.Well ,maybe to you it is not a big deal but for me it's a big deal.Coz..I dunno how to drive a fucking auto car?Haaa??Yeah, you read correctly.I can't drive auto car.I only can drive a manual car.Funny isn't it?
It was raining heavily yesterday and I was alone at home..and cold.So I thought that I might need some fag to heat me up but I don't want to get wet walking in the rain don't I? So, I gained my courage and start to start the car. The last time I drove an auto car, it was a disaster.Aku bawak slow gile siap kene maki lagi dengan orang.Dahla tu everytime brake je, mesti cam jerk semacam.But yesterday, my desire for a fag mengatasi segalanya. I drove slowly and hey, it was not bad after all.Mesti sebab tak banyak kete sangat. Dah alang-alang aku berjaya beli rokok tu, belila hadiah sekali.I actually planned to go to the nearest kedai mamak, tapi bila dah terase macho bawak kete auto, I went to the mall after that. Despite that I drove sangat slow semalam but hey, I felt like aku dah achieve satu cabaran yang besar..Iaitu membawak kete auto.Hahaha..Jangan tak tau, aku kalau bawak manual, terrer gile ok.Bukan setakat satu kete je aku boleh langgar tetapi dalam 2, 3 kete sekali gus.Tak caye,tanyalah sape-sape yang penah naik kete dengan aku.Mesti agak horror.Hohohoh.
Oh lupa plak.Am not suppose to talk about myself.Am suppose to talk about my mom's birthday.
To emak..
Happy Birthday..
May you be blessed with health and wealth [so you can buy me a new car]
Kite sayang emak..Mwah!
It was raining heavily yesterday and I was alone at home..and cold.So I thought that I might need some fag to heat me up but I don't want to get wet walking in the rain don't I? So, I gained my courage and start to start the car. The last time I drove an auto car, it was a disaster.Aku bawak slow gile siap kene maki lagi dengan orang.Dahla tu everytime brake je, mesti cam jerk semacam.But yesterday, my desire for a fag mengatasi segalanya. I drove slowly and hey, it was not bad after all.Mesti sebab tak banyak kete sangat. Dah alang-alang aku berjaya beli rokok tu, belila hadiah sekali.I actually planned to go to the nearest kedai mamak, tapi bila dah terase macho bawak kete auto, I went to the mall after that. Despite that I drove sangat slow semalam but hey, I felt like aku dah achieve satu cabaran yang besar..Iaitu membawak kete auto.Hahaha..Jangan tak tau, aku kalau bawak manual, terrer gile ok.Bukan setakat satu kete je aku boleh langgar tetapi dalam 2, 3 kete sekali gus.Tak caye,tanyalah sape-sape yang penah naik kete dengan aku.Mesti agak horror.Hohohoh.
Oh lupa plak.Am not suppose to talk about myself.Am suppose to talk about my mom's birthday.
To emak..
Happy Birthday..
May you be blessed with health and wealth [so you can buy me a new car]
Kite sayang emak..Mwah!
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