No boundry

I was all by myself last Saturday when someone called me on my phone. It was Dila, actually I was thinking about her few minutes earlier. It's her engagement the next day, perhaps she called me to remind me of the date.


Dila : Kau datang tak tunag aku besok?
Me: Talehla, Aku macam segan,sape pon aku tak kenal.
Dila: Alaaa..Ko ajakla sesape.Yip ke?
Me: Yip manaderla. Kan ke die keje kat Shell Sarawak.
Dila: Yeh?Apsal die tak inform aku pon.Engkau je die kontek.Korang ada apa-apa ke?
Me: Hoh?Takdelah dia memang la slalu call akula.Kitorang selalula gak berkontek-kontek.Bln 8 ni dia ajak aku gi Miri [tapi aku rasa bf aku tak bagi]
Dila : Aku rasa at the end kau kawin jugak dengan dia ni. Korang dah kenal lama.Takkanlah kau takde perasaan dekat dia?Aku tau dia ada.*Di turuti dengan gelak-gelak gatal*
Me:Bodola kau ni.
Dila : Eleh kau pon bodoh sama cam aku gak.Agaknyela kan, kau rasa dia sanggup tak nak convert..ke kau yang nak convert?
Me: Apa yang kau merepek ni setan?Takde sape nak convert de..


Yip and I knew each other since we were primary three, while dila got to know him during their secondary years. He's a Chinese with no capability to converse, write any Chinese languages. You should listen to his malay speaking. I bet he can even beats you in mencarut. Hohoh. The real situation was, after I left for JB we both lost contacts and he was exactly like me..searching for each other's number hi and lo. At last we managed to keep in touch again, thanks to Dila.


Besides Yip, I have several guys friends. We will call each other and sometimes go out for a drink. To my mom, the idea of being close to the opposite species without having any feeling is absurd. She will always questions me,"Takkanlah takde apa-apa?" Well, I guess she's not the only one.


To melah kan, I do think guys and girls can be close friends. Well, so far everything is fine for me. With guys I can just tell them almost anything without them being judgmental towards you [at least my circle of friends is]. How bout you?


Shite.Suddenly I remember I still owe Yip a lap dance. Hoh. Hope he had forgotten about it..

High above me

I glanced at my reflection on the mirror. Am ready. Clutched my sunglass and made my way to the door.


It was hot. So my choice of wearing aseana kurta and slacks to the wedding was somewhat suitable. I can anticipate mockery from some people like I give a shit anyway. I came there for the sake of ayam masak merah..but ehe..I get more than I could bargain.. He was there, at the entrance, highlited even in the crowd. In his caramel baju melayu and samping, he stood tall along with his brother. I fasten my pace followed by my mother


He smiled at me. A killer smile that nearly made me paralyze.

"Hi"
"Hi" I replied after 13 years of not speaking.
"Where's your brother?"
"Sleeping as usual"
Chuckle.
Smile. I took a good look at him under my sunnies.

Tall. Lean. Dashing
Melt.
Smile



One week ago someone knocked my door. When the door was opened by me, I saw her mom with a wedding card on her hand.


Please don't tell me that he's getting married. He's still young


Luckily it was his sister. Phew




The catering was appetizing, The ayam masak merah was simply mouth watering. Even my mom started her old perangai. She asked for the caterer's number in case her only daughter gets married. Sorrylah emak. It's not going to happen. I haven't found the one pon yang want to marry me. Sheesh. I was concentrating on my food [really] when out of the sudden I feel the urge to tilt my head. And I saw him.. Stared at him for few minutes. He's always with that smile..The smile that robbed my heart since I was 10.Not only mine but many many hearts. After that, even I told you the food was yummy, I felt it getting yummier...


Had to be the gadis ayu or else my mom will pinch me when nobody's looking [hoh! She still do that :( ]. So had to salam the makciks and prepared to make my way home. Kejinya, I was hoping that I would see him again at the entrance.I did. I swear he was looking at me with that famous smile when two guys came up with shake hands. One of the guy looked at me and smile but I tak selera to smile back. The other said " Awek kau kat blakang "


Oh. She was stunning if you asked me. With the red kebaya and her velvety, silky black hair, she made her way to his arms. I don't mind she wore kebaya, really but please don't let it be red coz red is my ultimate favourite colour in the world. I smirked to myself and walked until at one point I reached a junction where I know I can't see him anymore after this.. I turned my head.. He was looking at me while his hand holding his girlfriend..He glanced and again..gave me that killer smile..I smiled back..secretly.


If given chance to have him I would say no. Even that is the longest wish I ever hold. He and me don't stand on the same league. Having him might granted my wish but with a nightmare every night. Insecurities.


Life is funny. You asked..you wish for something..for many many years..but God never grant your wish. Instead He gave you something else. Something way better. Something priceless.


No. Not something. It's someone.

Blue

I am fasting again today. Nikkit called for some quick lunch with the girls but since I'm fasting and without a car, I have to pass.


I miss ag. He went back to Perlis because his grandpa passed away. Now that I can't menggedik on ym with him anymore simply paint my day blue. Sad. Hence today I sort of can't call him for..I don't want to disturb himlah..Let him bergather-gather with his sedara-mara even I know he and me are two of a kind. Me..I hate to attend family gathering.Reason being? I erm..sort of hate being asked by murderous questions and murderuos stares. Shoot me but I won't pretend as if I'm some girl who you can look and pinang for your son at a glance.


My..my..my..Did I sound mad or what? Perhaps I am..Am missing my chatting mates who always made my day.I know some of them were missing me too coz I sort of received few "missing you" mails on my emails.Aww..you guys are sweet. I miss you guys too.Sob..sob.


Enough of being drama queen.Shall stop my yapping and focus on my job. Akan tetap menguatkan semangat untuk bekerja dengan sunguh rajin. Mareyyyyyyyy..Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..Wtf?

Ms. Brightside

Ehem. So today I finally succumb to the fact that I will not enjoy the privilege of YM on this office. * sigh* .Anything, just leave any message on this blog [macamlah ade,cehh].


You know, for the past few months I'm turning into someone I don;t know. Don't make that face yet but I too, am afraid of my own transformation. Despite being flexible chica, I'm now finding myself engulfing the fact that I'm now becoming a green-eye monster.Ye aku dah pandai berasa jeles sekarang. Keji.


For those who know me close enough, would definitely agreed that I'm not the jealous type of person. Okla finela, maybe I have the twinge of that feeling but the effect is next to none. But not now..


Then..


Lelaki dahulu: Eh, tadi ade pompuan dekat ofis I kirim salam. Siap bagi coklat lagi. *showing me the chocolates*
Me: Sapela?Lawa ke tak? Hihihih* Makan cokelat*
Lelaki dahulu: Bolehla kot.Budak accounts.
Me: Hohohoh..Apa lagi..mintakla no tepon.
Lelaki dahulu: Huh? You tak marah ke?
Me: Tak..Bukannya dia dapat pon..


Now..


Ag: I nak keluar makan dengan kawan I.
Me: Siapala.
Ag: Erin.
Me: Erin manala..
Ag: Ala yang I penah dengan die dulu tu kejap.
Me: Okk.Have fun.


And the next week I ended up having tea at Gloria jeans where this Erin supposed to be working.


I know..I know..So the perangai budak baru belasan tahun but I can't help it. Not that I forbid him to but I just can't keep wondering what they did without my presence. .humm.. I don't know what came over me but when I walked with him, every eyes that stared at us surely will deserved a fork poking from me..if it's permitted. Macam celake tak perangai aku? Shit. I really sounded like perempuan yang berlakon cerita RTM.


Ok. This is not healthy. I mean..it's his life so he can be friend with anybody he wants. No restriction of gender or races. Perhaps I'm being insecure. Someone told me that his exes were good looking ladies which really doesn't help.Yelah aku dahla pendek, banyak jerawat and berbontot besar.Hoh. There I go again, sounded like budak baru lepas SPM. Sheesh.


Fine. Everytime that feeling invade my mind, I would just divert my mind to something else like..why be jealous when I know both of us lead our own life and yeah.. no string attach.. :)

Sunny morning

Heh.Morning people. I'm at the new office.The aircond is good,not too cold and not too warm.Everybody speak chinese but that doesn't bother me.Really.I prefer to be left alone rather than forcing myself to join in some boring conversation.


But they are bunch of nice people. I mean short skirts and see through tops. Yes, they are from different race but hell, I'm no racist.So far..I'm loving it.


But...My attempt to install YM fail.Hah!Can you believe that? Am so going to die.
Like really die.


No worries bunnies, I shall try my best using whatever skills I have to have ym on my pc.Hah.


If I fail..don't miss me..kay.