Kejinye saye

Dear Adlin Aman Ramlie,
You make my heart bergetar you know..


I love you lahhhh...

Bodolaaa

Hai arnab-arnab[bunnies].Apa khabar awak semua? Saya baik walaupun hari sangat panas sekarang.


Sebenarnya saya baru pulang dari kawasan lembah pantai.Mula-mula saya pergi ke Universiti Malaya untuk menyetelkan beberapa benda. Wah, nampaknya saya sempat juga sesat disitu. Celaka, apsal banyak tempat dah berubah?Fakulti saya ada perubahan juga. Tetapi ketakutan saya pada zaidi razak masih tidak berubah. Saya masih menggelupur kalau-kalau saya bertemu dengan beliau.


Sangat best hari ini. Setelah berasa muda dan merounding UM saya pergi ke tempat yang biasa dituju sekiranya malas pergi kelas iaitu Midveli. Sangatlah best memakan baskin robin di masa waktu orang bekerja sambil berjalan-jalan. Seperti biasa saya telah membeli barang-barang untuk kesedapan diri sendiri. Beli punya beli saya berasa lapar dan pegilah untuk memakan tengahari.Sedang saya makan, saya pon berangan mengenai barang-barang yang telah saya beli.Sekali baru saya terperasan, barang tersebut sudah tiada di sisi saya.Menggelupurla aku skejapkan.lalu saya bangun sambil memegang beg tangan. Yelah, takkan aku nak carik tinggal beg.kang beg pulak hilang. Sekali rupanya tertinggal kat front desk. Hah, suke sbb dah jumpa, boleh sambung makan balik k.Tapiiiiiiiiii..keji sungguh org tukang kemas itu, sebabkan dia dah kemaskan kesemua spaghetti vongole itu.Wahh!! Marah


Kemudian kan, bila terasa tak tau nak buat apa, so balikla. Before balik, kenela bayar parking kan.Wah, di mana tiket parking ku? Chics memang ada satu penyakit, dia tak boleh pegang tiket parking dan dia ada penyakit imnesia tentang tempat dia memarking kereta. Celake, janganlah hilang. So kan, terpaksa buat-buat cool sambil carik tempat duduk.Dengan tenang saya membuka beg dan mencariknya. Mula-mula tenangla k, tapi dah dekat 15 menet aku carik tak jumpa..takde tenang2 lagi derr. Tapi takpe, jangan panic, kita carik alernatif lain.


Maka saya pon jalanlah kearah tempat mula-mula kereta nak masuk parking. Dengan kejinya aku berlakon sebagai kereta nak masuk dan menekan butang "press the button" untuk mendapatkan tiket. Tapi celake punya mesin, jangan kata nak keluarkan tiket, nak nyalakan lampu pon tak nak. Ceh. Series ok, untuk pertama kali saya menyesal kerana berat badan saya tidak sepeti kereta. Tau tak betapa susahnya nak berlakon. Dengan nak kaver dengan kereta -kereta yang lalu lalang lagi, nak kaver dengan pak guard lagi..mana nak berlakon jadi kereta lagi.Ingat senang ke?Hoh.


Last-last sekali, surrender jela. Dengan lemah longlai campur malu[keji gile ok] saya berjalan ke kaunter dan membayar kompaun.


Bodola. Sia-sia bayar 20 inggit Baik aku beli earring, siap boleh dapat 6 lagi.Ceh!


Anyway, happy working bunnies. Jom makan baskin robin jom?.Haha.


Pistachio with almond and caramel pecan with hot choc topping.
Uhhhh!

Chaotic

"I study psychology to understand what I am going through and what are the things that's been bothering me" A dear friend said to me as she read her psychology book.


I said to her "Well, hurry up I rather pay my friend rather than some doctor. I am seeing one you know" with a smile. I thought she would chuckle or at least smile but she frowned and looked at me deeply.


"Actually chics, you don't need psychologist or what ever. It's inside. Be strong inside"


Be strong inside. Inside.


What compose you to be strong inside? Besides God of course.


There are times when we feel so strong. Times when we feel we can overcome almost anything. I too, have my own strong moments.


I am not born genius yet I didn't bother much about my study. It's like if I passed, oh..ok and if I failed, oh..ok. Unaffected expression.. When I got my PMR result, the first person I broke the news to was my mom, she was so happy that she cried [ok, now I feel like I am such an idiot that she might cried of disbelief]. I was pleased but it wasn't adequate to make my tears drop. All I think was to relinquish my schooling in JB and continue my education in Shah Alam so I can have splendid time socializing and be closer to my crush er..friends I mean. I thought I wouldn't shed any tears but then when my dad arrived at the doorstep, it's a different story. My dad is an eventful person. I only see him like two weeks a year or more if I'm lucky enough. That time he was a having a big project that he couldn't even spent his time visiting me at school. But he came home immediately after he heard the news even though he's not supposed to. My dad.. to abandon his job is something out of this world. Yet he did, for me. The moment he hugged me, I feel so big, so strong. If there's a brick happened to batter me on my head, I would still be alive. And smiling.


MJ is like my heart and soul. I adopted her from her mom since she was 6 weeks. She was still hooked with her mom's breast milk that time and was not able to consume solid food. Despite going for parties and some hectic schedules, I would wake up around 6 in the morning to bottle her with animal milk everyday. And once a week, I would bathe her. During classes, I always wonder if she is doing ok or the other way around. So, when she fell sick it was overpowering. Her body temperature was hot and she hardly ate anything. She didn't even move an inch, just laying around helplessly without a single mew. In my experience, she probably would have at least 4 days to survive. That can't be happening. Not to my MJ. I did my best to help her. I woke up every 3 hours at night to feed her water to ensure that she won't get dehydrated and try to feed her soft food. My mom was at Jakarta that time. Sometimes after feeding her medication and saw no improvement, I would go out for a ciggie and cried alone. It may sound stupid to cry over a cat but to me, it's reasonable [shut up, no argument on this k]. But then one evening while I was reading a magazine besides her, she mewed. I lifted my head and I saw her staggering towards me. Do you know how that felt? It's feel like when rammed your mom's beamer onto a tree instead of getting yelled, your mom says it's ok and stay with you all the way on your visit to the doctor. And she hugged you which make you weep even more. You feel weak but so strong at the same time.


Those are some of my strong moments. When I think of my others strong moments, I could only find two similarities.


Love and appreciation.


When you feel loved, when you feel appreciated, you will feel strong.


So far I have two of those three in me.
Am still seeking for the other one..


Oh, on the other news, storytella updated.After sometimes, yeah I know.

Fishing me eh?

Hello bunnies.. How are my bunnies doing? I pening kepala sketla, maybe pasal terlebih tido, maklumla tak keje..Hohohoh.


Anyway, do you realized what months is this hu? It's february all right. The month for aquarius and pisces. Now, today I nak cakap sket pasal pisces. See the picture above?So the lemah gemalai kan?Itulah I.Haha


Nola, actually we pisces are very sensitive people. Sensitif yang tahap dewa punya. Kejap-kejap nak merajuk, kejap-kejap nak naik angin. Tapi kalau pisces mengamuk sangatla tak best sbb selalunyela kan, orang yg berbintang pisces ini, mulutnya sangatla bisa [tak caya meh kiss sket, hehe]. Akan tetapi pisces juga adalah sangat penyayang dan sangat passionate dan selfless. Selalu nak pikir pasal orang padahal diri sendiri macam tahaper-haper ntah.


Ok macam boring pulak. Takla, what I'm trying to say is, if you love a pisces, they will love you back with their whole heart and the weakness is because they are so sensitive and intuitive so cinta merupakan perkara yang agak melemahkan bagi mereka ini.


According to one website the best mate for pisces are sagi and scorpio. I dunno how true is that but how about pisces and pisces?


I received an email on this stating that pisces and pisces akan selalu bercakaran sebab dua-dua super sensitive, dua-dua pengamuk dan perajuk but in the bedroom..they are like..fire. Hahaha.Fire I likee.


Okla, bodoh. See I told you I am a bit pening k. No, sebenanye what I try to tell you guys is..yang sebenar-sebenarnye ialah..


Wey, birthday aku dah dekat. And an albino phyton would be nice.


Tengkiu.
Cintailah pisces.Hehe

Oh looks

Me: You know, I have rashes all over my body.I think I need to see a doctor.
Him:Really.Kesiannya dia.Do they attack your face?
Me: Adala sikit.Gatal sangat ok.
Him:Don't scratch them ok.Kalau u garu yang dekat muka you, I tak nak kawan dengan you dah.
Me: Haha.Jahatnya you ni. *giggles*
Him: I'm serious, siapa nak dengan orang yang muka berbintik parut? So please don't scratch.*serious tone*
Me:Huh?


WTF is that all about?


He is around 30's. He's fair, tall with sharp features. Model materials. Currently residing in south Malaysia and occasionally comes to KL. We met somewhere in a hot spot in KL and he asked for my number. Constantly, he calls me everyday which I always try not to pick up his calls. I even come out with lame excuses whenever he's in KL. I am a moron, I know but somehow I feel uncomfortable. Perhaps I have my own reasons.


I thought by being 30 a guy would somehow find his maturity. He once told me while I was preparing lunch for my family that he was broken hearted by a girl who from his description was kind of gorgeous and now he's only looking for someone loyal. The rest is not important.


Hah!


Even when I hang out with my guy friends, they would always asked me this question without fail.


"Bila kau nak kenalkan aku dengan kawan-kawan kau yang cun?Yang cun je la kalau tak single pon takpe"


Apa korang ingat aku ni ibu ayam? Sorry, but I loathe people, be it man or woman who tend to go for looks barely. Yes, looks is also important but at least let personality and compatibly play their part. Apakah erti kalau lelaki muka hensem but when you talk with them, they don't understand even a simple intellectual conversation that you tried to converse and instead make fun of your every single serious conversation? Or when you talk with a drop dead gorgeous girl when all they did was throwing you some silly giggles and talked about boring-boring stuffs? Perhaps it's tolerable for some people but to me, it's kind of mencabar my intellectuality [not that I have much but at least some]. But if they come with the combination of good looks and nice personality, that's a bonus and haha..good luck in grabbing them.


What happen to those with wits, intellect and credibility but granted with medium or below medium appearance? And those who comes with sincerity and pure sense of loving?


Maka beginilah jadinya. Always we heard that people say "Aku tak puas hati apsal mamat hensem tu nak dekat dengan miss XYZ, dia bukannya cun pon." Which I always reply with a smile but actually what I wanted to say is


"Because some people is not shallow as you are, luv". Perhaps he sees something that you don't. Howla to see when you are so busy scrutinizing only the surface?Kau ingat semua yang hensem and semua yang cun tu best ke?Hah, tell me about it.


Anyway, the conversation did make me think of people perception towards me although it didn't bother me that much. Perhaps, people don't quite take me seriously. I mean what I offer which cannot be seen in a glace can appears not important. Once I asked a question to a guy who I used to date.


Me: You sayang I banyak mana?
He: Banyak sangat.
Me: Kalau I gemuk you sayang I tak?Kalau I gemuk macam syanie?
He: Erm..* long pause* Sayangla..hehe*nervous laugh*


Tsk..

Abihla aku bila dah tua nanti.


I guess today's choices are more drawn to good looks and cleavage and ahh..one more thing, money. Hehe.