Happy Birthday Nick!!

The Birthday Gal with the killer 'kening'.

I know her 11 years ago.
She likes blue and I like err..blue? [that time la]
She is so funny
She is pretty
and she likes Bon Jovi


We clicked quite well
Despite many differences
Despite many arguments.


Now that she's 25
I still see her as the old Nicky
My best fren
My first love[haha, just kidding]


Happy 25 Birthday
To my gorgeous best friend
Nik Haryati Nik Mohamad
Remember,
You are stuck with me
I will always be by your side
and I love you so much[I mean it]!


-Hugs and Kisses-
Chics



P.S: To that person,you are stuck with me too.hehe

Diet

I have not been eating properly for the past few weeks.I haven't had any dinner since Monday left alone breakfast. Can you guys believe that I still have my ferrero rocher that I bought a month ago, sitting nicely on my table.And yesterday, I made Juliana eat my ruffles since it has been on my table for a week already.Plus, I haven't had any tea since monday. Is this serious or what?Usually I will finish everything, including my collegue's food.Haha


Anyway,I think it's a good sign since I saw some flesh bulging from my underpants while I was drying my hair this morning. Maybe I'll be thinner this year and be drop dead[not dread] gorgeous after all[haha].I wish!Sheesh


Enough craps.


Even if I dun eat anything, I dun feel hungry instead I feel so happy and high. Can't seem to wipe off this smile on my face. Pagi tadi kene maki dgn client pon aku sempat gelak-gelak lagi..High sial!!


I wonder why...

Arghh..Why??

Warning:Another emotional entry


I woke up with a good feeling that today is going to be a good day but I was wrong.


On my way to the office mom started it again


Mom:Semalam emak pegi jumpa Imam besar masjid negeri. I asked about samsul
Me:Huh?
Mom:*cry*
Me:Please, I dun need this.U will just totally blow my whole mood for today.
Mom:No, this is the only time that I can talk to you. I think you need to stand by his side.


So there she goes.and on..and on..and on..About how nice my ex was..how loyal he was..and how wrong for me to ditch him. What she said does make sense but I am the one who is hurting. Sakit tau tak?And did anybody care about that?Did anyone understand how am i feeling at this moment. Why must everybody keep blaming me and don't even care what I want?


I just dun want to be hurt again. Call me sombong, ego or whatsoever but the answer is no.I had enough.My life is getting better now compared to past few months. I began to attend weddings, I began to smile and laugh and I began to date a guy.So why should I blew again? Why should I be sad and cried my lungs out at night anymore?Haven't she forgotten dad got heart attack and was in ICU because of him?Did she forgot that I nearly lost my mind because of him?


I just wish that..someone would understand me..not just thinking about what they want to see..


Sometimes it's good to keep things on your own.


OK.Enough!


By the way, someone ask me last night

"U, lagu buat aku tersenyum tu lagu apa?"

Okla finela, tak penah dengar ye..


Buat Aku Tersenyum
Datanglah sayang dan biarkan ku berbaring
Di pelukanmu walaupun tuk sejenak
Usaplah dahiku dan kan kukatakan semua


Bila kulelah tetaplah disini
Jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila kumarah biarkanku bersandar
Jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar


Rasakan resahku dan buat aku tersenyum
Dengan canda tawamu walaupun tuk sekejap
Karna hanya engkaulah yang sanggup
katakan aku



Karna engkaulah satu-satunya untukku
Dan pastikan kita selalu bersama
Karna dirimulah yang sanggup mengerti aku
Dalam susah ataupun senang


Dapatkah engkau s'lalu menjagaku
Dan mampukah engkau mempertahankanku


Bila kulelah tetaplah disini
Jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila kumarah biarkanku bersandar
Jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar


Peringatan Penting:Lagu ini tiada kaitan dengan yang hidup atau yang mati [ok fine, maybe ade sikit].

Colder I get

Yesterday when I was about to hang out with Ikhwan, my mobile rang. The number started with o8 something something. I was thinking to myself.Borneo's number.Who the hell is this, I dun have any borneo friends except for Laila but she's here now, in KL.


Me:Hello, who is this.
He:Hie, this is xxxx[nama terpaksa dirahsiakan..hehe]
Me:Who?I dun know any xxxx
He:It's me, I'm from myspace, we spoke once or twice on the internet.
Me:How did you get my bloody number?
He:Go on, you can say fuck off but i'm just trying my luck.


I know this guy. I was mean to him and I was mean to everybody who message me on my YM or friendster or myspace or whatever excepts for my existing friends.And now he has the guts to call me even I treated him so cold.I may be cold but I'm not rude. Since he put the effort to find my number and called me all the way from Sarawak [he is an oil and gas engineer and currently is working off shore] so I just talk to him.


I am cold and I am mean to people. Like Ikhwan said I perhaps did that because there is so much bitterness in me, which is so true. I have heard people labelled me as snob,cold blooded, berlagak,biatch and this guy called me JAPS [Jewish American Princess].Do I care?I don't..I'm immune with people calling me names.People don't know me anyway so why should I care ?


He know that I was cold but he took it as a challenge.What?What challenge?This can't be real. I conciously beeing cold to people to drive people away from me coz I have too many heart breaks and I was trying to protect myself and this guy find it interesting.Hah!He even said that he would call again even he know I would still be stiff and hostile.


I hope there won't be too many guys like him coz I have a reputation to mantain.Haha!

Celebrate

New year. New day. New me.


Didn't go to any rave party but when to BBQ party with my friends. Was nice seeing them again for quite some.Was laughing like mad despite cute guys existance there. [cute or not tak sure tapi assume jela cute].


Then had a sleepover with my lovable nicky.

Baring-baring wuth my huge zits showing off it's face.Sheesh

Tido..Zzzzz

Anyway, someone said that i'm such a cold person. Indeed i am. So my latest new year resolution is not to be cold to that person who I had a blast time going out with *wink*.Hehehe..We shall see..Shall we?