Mixed Emotions

It's payday and i'm already broke..haha.

Seriouslyla, I need to get a new job and maybe a new haircut. I hate my hair now. Or maybe I hate my life.

Let see, I have lots of friends but still.. I feel like I'm alone in this world. Not that they dun call me and ask me out but I'm the one who is feeling lazy coz I dun feel like going out. And if I did, I will feel rotten and spoil the mood. So I will chose to sit and home and layan perasaan. Jiwang sial, gua.

There are also some guys who are waiting on the line but somehow I will manage to highlights things that will drive me away from them. Bad eating style, bad teeth, posers..Urgh.. I mean I know I'm not perfect but..I dunnola. They are nice and all it's just that I can't focus on their nice'ness' instead I can only see things that will make me not want to be with them. Anyway, I dun think they are sincere either. Some are but some aren't. How I know? I knowlahh..Ok fine, I'm choosy..I can take that..

Do you think i am getting crankier? Coz I think I am..and I think I'm starting to become a boring person. And maybe more paranoid than usual. And you know what?I think I have two personalities..Like right now..my normal side is talking..having some argument with my miserable side. I'm so confused coz i dunno which side should I listen to.. hehehe..paham tak ni?[meminjam kata-kata ciko]

So tell me..How do I reach the nirvana..the tranquility in life?

Get Connected

Still no connection.Arghh..I soo missed my Yahoo Messenger chatting.Hehe.I feel so miserable and now, have to use dial up connection and this machine is so out of this century.Bapak lembab. To my mesenger frens yg slalu mengumpat or mengurat online..Sorryla people..Will be back in action ASAP ok?Itu pon, can't be that active pasal my superior's pc just seblah pc aku je..hehe..Dengkila derang ni kan?kan?

Ahh..talking about lembab..No more lembab pc for me coz we got new pc's!! And i am entitle for one.Hihihih..Habisla pc tu aku install macam2. If only I could get the flat screen instead of using the new one.Oh well, asalkan processor laju pun dah kire ok. The new office is ok i guess.Much more better than the old one.The bad thing is ..we have to share toilet with other people and..we dun have any basin in the pantry..Urgh..

Anyway, I like the new office coz it reminds me ..that i have to go shopping for ..er..office accecories maybe?But really, I have to..U know to boost my semangat kerja.


Today, will be going for berbuka puasa at Hilton with Ciko and his fiance.Ahh..can't wait!!

Selamat berbuka puasa and take care.

muah..muah..

Tata

Mommy

Still no internet in the new office.I'm now in the old office,juggling betweenn taking calls and surfing the net.Haa..It's better than pretending to be bz at the new office eventhough we know there's nothing can be done.So i chose to become a receptionist here.


Mom went to Jakarta yesterday. She must be feeling so happy now to rejoin dad there.I bet she's happily preparing dishes for berbuka puasa. I kinda missed her though. There's nobody to laught at my jokes at night..No body to main cubit-cubit with..No body to mengumpat2 some more..and nobody to fuss around berbuka puasa time..Yeah, I am sad.I nearly cried when the house went so empty and I was so lonely last night..no more "Na, awak buat apa tu?Jom teman mak tengok tv"..*sigh*..

Uhuk..Uhuk..I want my mommy!

Yang ke 11...

Guess what?The internet connection is still up!Isn't it a bliss?

Received an email from my friend yesterday..She just got married end of last month and now she's pregnant 6 weeks.And same goes to my other friend. To me this news is depressing. I mean..Look at me..I dun even have a boyfriend!! And everyone is happily settling down..with kids and all. I mean..am I that ugly??Must be my fat ass.

Was talking with evilblue about this topic yesterday since that girl is our schoolmate. Oh yeah, we love to gosiip soo much even it's virtually done.

EvilBlue:Nenek aku cakap kalau kite slalu tukar boyfriend, kite akan kahwin dgn boyfriend yg ke 11.
Me:Hoh?*Start counting*
EvilBlue:Nak kene ade 11 boyfriend ke baru bleh kawen :(
Me:Uh, yamyam yg ke spuluh..lepas ni bolehla aku kawen..hihihihihhi
Evilblue:Aku..Bf skang yg dah ke sebelas..mueheheheh*i bet die tgh tergelak-gelak gatal*

Isn't that crappy?Since when i start being a superstitious person?I mean..Where did the old Chics go?I'm suppose to not care about superstitions, feng shui or whatever and i'm suppose to be a paranoid when it comes to the M thing. And why issit must be yg ke 11?Yg ke sepuluh tak boleh?Tau tak nak carik yg ke 11 tu susah? Ingat apa, mcm pilih kain kat Euro Moda ke?Iskhh.. Emo pulak.

Yeah..That's it..I'm going to end up as a spinster with cats..*frown*

Kuih..kuih..

Finally, I made up mymind that I shall bake kuih raya this year, especially tart and kuih conflakes.Was thinking to proceed last year but my aunt did not return the oven.So whithout oven it is not possible. Takkanla aku nak buat tart goreng pulakkan.Since mom will be going on Sunday, I'll start on Saturday so when she's gone I'll know what to do.Let see..I'll be baking for my house, for my aunts and for yamyam.Ok..Ok..I'm not suppose to do that but c'mon..it's hari raya la ok.. Niat sebenanye ialah untuk mengambil hati Pn.Saadiah..haha[gelak terpaksa]

Anyway, my plan are actually to sell them tapi mcm tak sempatla kan.So tgkla camne..

Uh..Felicia told me that there will be no internet connection starting from this afternoon and tomorrow.You see, we are in the verge of moving into our new office.So everything has to be disconnect including pc and cables.

Think again.No internet?Whattt??

I rather die than having no internet connection..Cheewah..poyo..