Am so hungry..Like very-very hungry.
But I can't eat..I only ate a slice of bread today
Am drooling to drive to Hartinie Restaurant to get that yummy gulai kawah
tapi banyak lemak sangat.
This is tormentingla ok.
Malam tadik aku sanggup tak makan nasik lemak
yang komfem sedap tu.
And nasik lemak is my fav. dish
Demmla wey..
Ade tak denga cite orang mati kelaparan sebab diet?
Mungkin aku akan mencipta rekod
Huk..huk..
Lapa...
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Friday, March 04, 2005
Obituary
Since I was in school I develop a weird hobby. Everyday, after having lunch at the dining hall I would read the newspaper, particularly NST in the common room before going back to my dorm. In my uniform I would seek for my favourite page, comic strips and obituaries. I know it's morbid but I dunno why I'm attracted to read about people's death. To me it's interesting to know whether someone died peacefully or if they died suddenly. Plus, I love to read poems written for the dead by their love ones. And I still keep that hobby until this very day.
From my conscious, I only came across Chinese, Indian and other races obituary except Malay. Humm. Issit sinful to do that? I mean, does our religion forbid us to do something like that? Or issit a sensitive issue? I think we have better ways remembering those we love who passed away . We don't advertise, we do kenduri arwah. Like every year my family will hold kenduri arwah in remembrance of my late grandpa and late uncle. The last kenduri arwah was last three weeks ago and my cousin punched someone right to his face for disrespecting my late uncle. I still remember what happen that night.
Me, my bro, ayang and wawa [both are my cousin] we sitting on the stool at the garden while my other cousin, bobo sat on the swing with a boy who came to follow her mom to the tahlil. Apparently the mother is an ustazah. We have no electricity that night and it was pitch black. The unknown boy was talking loudly and laughing hysterically. My cousin in the other hand tried to control his voice. Out of no where, came my other cousin A'ai who is a son of my late uncle. A'ai was in form two and he has a petite body frame but the boy is quite big. He approached the boy.
A'ai :Kau ni bisingla. Dahla tak baca tahlil untuk bapak aku, memekak pulak tu.Respekla sket.
Unknown boy:Apehal pulak kau ni?Dah mati tu matila.Yang hidup ni kenelah teruskan hidup:
Bobo: *murmuring something*
After that, we didn't hear anything so we ignored their conversation and continued talking softly even dalam hati masing-masing amatlah bengkak. Suddenly we heard the swing shake. I'm sort of blind so I can't see what exactly happen but my bro and ayang [both are big-sized] leaped from their seat and rushed to the swing. It happened in a flash.Tapi, even masa tu gelap gelita aku nampak bobo membelasah budak tu.Aie who was holding a ciggie in his hand, terpaksa cucuh rokok dia dekat diorang untuk meleraikan diorang.Ayang in the other hand, try jugak nak leraikan diorang tapi siap kene tumbuk lagi okey. Finally after aie threaten to belasah them , they finally stop.
During makan time, we finally asked bobo why did he create such scene.
"Bobo bukan apo.Sakit ati tau tak dio buek camtu.Pakcik kito yang moninggal tu.Dio ingat kito ni sapo? Bobo kosian kek si A'ai, todiam bilo oghang megato cik jahir [my uncle], iyola..awak kocik, ontok-ontok jolah.. tu yang aku tinju muko dio tu."
Yup, death to Malay is a very sensitive issue. Sensitive and personal. I guess that explain why I don't see any obituary for Malay. But that won't stop me from flipping to my favourite section everyday..
From my conscious, I only came across Chinese, Indian and other races obituary except Malay. Humm. Issit sinful to do that? I mean, does our religion forbid us to do something like that? Or issit a sensitive issue? I think we have better ways remembering those we love who passed away . We don't advertise, we do kenduri arwah. Like every year my family will hold kenduri arwah in remembrance of my late grandpa and late uncle. The last kenduri arwah was last three weeks ago and my cousin punched someone right to his face for disrespecting my late uncle. I still remember what happen that night.
Me, my bro, ayang and wawa [both are my cousin] we sitting on the stool at the garden while my other cousin, bobo sat on the swing with a boy who came to follow her mom to the tahlil. Apparently the mother is an ustazah. We have no electricity that night and it was pitch black. The unknown boy was talking loudly and laughing hysterically. My cousin in the other hand tried to control his voice. Out of no where, came my other cousin A'ai who is a son of my late uncle. A'ai was in form two and he has a petite body frame but the boy is quite big. He approached the boy.
A'ai :Kau ni bisingla. Dahla tak baca tahlil untuk bapak aku, memekak pulak tu.Respekla sket.
Unknown boy:Apehal pulak kau ni?Dah mati tu matila.Yang hidup ni kenelah teruskan hidup:
Bobo: *murmuring something*
After that, we didn't hear anything so we ignored their conversation and continued talking softly even dalam hati masing-masing amatlah bengkak. Suddenly we heard the swing shake. I'm sort of blind so I can't see what exactly happen but my bro and ayang [both are big-sized] leaped from their seat and rushed to the swing. It happened in a flash.Tapi, even masa tu gelap gelita aku nampak bobo membelasah budak tu.Aie who was holding a ciggie in his hand, terpaksa cucuh rokok dia dekat diorang untuk meleraikan diorang.Ayang in the other hand, try jugak nak leraikan diorang tapi siap kene tumbuk lagi okey. Finally after aie threaten to belasah them , they finally stop.
During makan time, we finally asked bobo why did he create such scene.
"Bobo bukan apo.Sakit ati tau tak dio buek camtu.Pakcik kito yang moninggal tu.Dio ingat kito ni sapo? Bobo kosian kek si A'ai, todiam bilo oghang megato cik jahir [my uncle], iyola..awak kocik, ontok-ontok jolah.. tu yang aku tinju muko dio tu."
Yup, death to Malay is a very sensitive issue. Sensitive and personal. I guess that explain why I don't see any obituary for Malay. But that won't stop me from flipping to my favourite section everyday..
Thursday, March 03, 2005
To be beautiful
My feet hurt. Like really hurt. I shifted to a new office which is surrounded by shopping malls so how can I not get my retail therapy after work ait? And when I say work I mean, high heels. How can a woman go to work without high heels? Unless if you are pregnant..and I'm not. So with my heels I went climbing through the shopping malls, during lunch hour and also after working hours. And yesterday, went to the roof top to get that yummylicious tako tao. I like ok!Sangatla sedap. Nyesal aku beli satu, Tak cukup. While waiting for my chow to be prepared, I went for a walk walk [paige, I borrow your word ah] around that place. Now you know why my feet hurt.
Yes, I can wear flat heels. But do you know how awkward and guilty I would feel if I wear flats with my trousers instead of wearing a stilettos? The feeling would be terrible, if I did that, I might lose my mood to work, it's that serious ok. I mean woman choose their shoes based on their moods and what outfit they are wearing. And yes, it is an essential to buy a pair of shoes every month and perhaps two pairs will be good. So if you hear your girlfriend or your wife whine " Ala, nak pakai kasut apa ni, takde kasut dah.." even you know the shoe rack are full with her shoes until there's not even a tiny space left, well.. that's normal. So, even though a pair of shoes I wear sprained my ankle, I will still wear it coz it look goddam nice on my feet. Kalaulah aku pikir tak nak sakit, adela dalam 2 ke 3 kasut je yang betul-betul boleh bawak berjalan. Yang lain seme kene buang.
See, it's not easy to be beautiful. For example, my diet started yesterday [that explain why I bought only 1 tako tao instead of two]. At first I thought I would skip my dinner but I was starving so I drove to the nearest kedai mamak [grocery] in my neighbourhood. That kedai mamak is positioned next to a restaurant. As I was grabbing the hi-fibre-non-cholesterol bread I hear someone saying "Kak, nasik goreng ayam satu" and an aromatic smell rose up..Sedap gile ok.Tau-tau aku dah dekat depan kakak tu dah, nasib baik aku sedar dan meneruskan niat membeli roti sahaja even though my mouth was really dying for that nasi goreng ayam.So I only had baked beans[it's cholesterol free and low fat, I've checked it, so dun worry], an egg [low-fat and non cholesterol too] and err..4 slices of high fiber bread for dinner last night.Healthy tak? Healthy tak?? I feel so proud of myself ok.
My determination did not end there. My new officemate was telling me how Ziana Zain lost all her fats. Home hot-slimming-wrap.. The method sounded absurd but hey, it's worth trying. I mean I won't lose anything.Jangan Tanya aku camne.Malu aku nak bagitau.Hohohoh.But I tried it yesterday..My God it was tormenting. I had to sleep with burning feeling around my thigh and my ass. Plus, it is so uncomfortable to sleep when your body part were being wrapped on an extremely hot weather .Dahla tu, bile nyamuk gigit, sakit jiwa aku nak menggarunye.Leceh dan amatla menyeksakan.Tapi..nak kurusnyer pasal aku sanggup. Jangan kata nyamuk,apa atau siapa gigit pun aku sanggup.
You know why I did all those things? Coz I'm thinking to quit my gym. Honestly I don't have time for gym. Rather than wasting my money paying for the gym that I know I would hardly have a time to go to might as well I used it to buy lovely lovely shoes or get the vita c injection [ am going to do that, tgh tunggu seme toned up dulu]. But at the same point I feel guilty quitting my gym coz I want and like to look beautiful. As a replacement for my gym I would diet and try to tone up by.err..doing the slim wrap? Also I will try do my push up every night...
Yeah, give that smirking face to me ag. I know what you are thinking now. Mock me as you wish tapi lepas ni kalau i kurus and cun gile janganla marah ok..
Jom celen nak sape lagi fit?Nak?Nak??
Hihihi..Ok main- main je.
Added:I want to know if there's any other weblog commenting tools beside haloscan?I want to change to a new one coz haloscan will delete my previous comments and I'm not luvin it.So any suggestion?
Yes, I can wear flat heels. But do you know how awkward and guilty I would feel if I wear flats with my trousers instead of wearing a stilettos? The feeling would be terrible, if I did that, I might lose my mood to work, it's that serious ok. I mean woman choose their shoes based on their moods and what outfit they are wearing. And yes, it is an essential to buy a pair of shoes every month and perhaps two pairs will be good. So if you hear your girlfriend or your wife whine " Ala, nak pakai kasut apa ni, takde kasut dah.." even you know the shoe rack are full with her shoes until there's not even a tiny space left, well.. that's normal. So, even though a pair of shoes I wear sprained my ankle, I will still wear it coz it look goddam nice on my feet. Kalaulah aku pikir tak nak sakit, adela dalam 2 ke 3 kasut je yang betul-betul boleh bawak berjalan. Yang lain seme kene buang.
See, it's not easy to be beautiful. For example, my diet started yesterday [that explain why I bought only 1 tako tao instead of two]. At first I thought I would skip my dinner but I was starving so I drove to the nearest kedai mamak [grocery] in my neighbourhood. That kedai mamak is positioned next to a restaurant. As I was grabbing the hi-fibre-non-cholesterol bread I hear someone saying "Kak, nasik goreng ayam satu" and an aromatic smell rose up..Sedap gile ok.Tau-tau aku dah dekat depan kakak tu dah, nasib baik aku sedar dan meneruskan niat membeli roti sahaja even though my mouth was really dying for that nasi goreng ayam.So I only had baked beans[it's cholesterol free and low fat, I've checked it, so dun worry], an egg [low-fat and non cholesterol too] and err..4 slices of high fiber bread for dinner last night.Healthy tak? Healthy tak?? I feel so proud of myself ok.
My determination did not end there. My new officemate was telling me how Ziana Zain lost all her fats. Home hot-slimming-wrap.. The method sounded absurd but hey, it's worth trying. I mean I won't lose anything.Jangan Tanya aku camne.Malu aku nak bagitau.Hohohoh.But I tried it yesterday..My God it was tormenting. I had to sleep with burning feeling around my thigh and my ass. Plus, it is so uncomfortable to sleep when your body part were being wrapped on an extremely hot weather .Dahla tu, bile nyamuk gigit, sakit jiwa aku nak menggarunye.Leceh dan amatla menyeksakan.Tapi..nak kurusnyer pasal aku sanggup. Jangan kata nyamuk,apa atau siapa gigit pun aku sanggup.
You know why I did all those things? Coz I'm thinking to quit my gym. Honestly I don't have time for gym. Rather than wasting my money paying for the gym that I know I would hardly have a time to go to might as well I used it to buy lovely lovely shoes or get the vita c injection [ am going to do that, tgh tunggu seme toned up dulu]. But at the same point I feel guilty quitting my gym coz I want and like to look beautiful. As a replacement for my gym I would diet and try to tone up by.err..doing the slim wrap? Also I will try do my push up every night...
Yeah, give that smirking face to me ag. I know what you are thinking now. Mock me as you wish tapi lepas ni kalau i kurus and cun gile janganla marah ok..
Jom celen nak sape lagi fit?Nak?Nak??
Hihihi..Ok main- main je.
Added:I want to know if there's any other weblog commenting tools beside haloscan?I want to change to a new one coz haloscan will delete my previous comments and I'm not luvin it.So any suggestion?
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
single or double
Gossiped with lenny on YM yesterday. She asked me for the bread pudding recipe and I asked her about her feeling as newlywed in return [haha.fair tak?].
Me:Lenny, best tak kawen?
Lenny:Besatla.Hahahaha.
Me:Apa yang best?
Lenny:Semua-semuala.Skang aku dah tak payah pegi bilik Meon [Er..Ami] kalau takut malam-malam.
Me:Hoh!Bestnyer.
Lenny:Skang tak rasa sunyi lagi.Makan pon dah ade kawan, mandi dah ade kawan [ni best gile ok, boleh celen buat buih sabun sape paling besa], tido dah ade kawan and naik lrt boleh peluk-peluk tanpa rase bersalah.
Me:Ces!!Jelesnye aku!
Ha!I do felt jealous, seriously. Especially the sleeping part. I mean, when it come to sleep, I always feel lonesome and would wish someone would hug me tight. I don't like to sleep alone. I enjoy having night talk before dozing off [now korang seme paham ape nik rase bile dia terpaksa tido dgn aku]. It must feel nice to have someone to talk with, to eat with and to debate over silly thing with. Who wouldn't want a life like that? When you wake up the first thing you see is your dearly loved face and in the middle of the night when you wake up from a terrible dream, you feel relieve coz you know that your other half is just few inches beside you. And yes, you will have arguments over stupid things or what so ever but then you always know that someone will be there to do the sweet-talk over you or he or she will try to make it up to you sooner or later.
I thought that was cool, and sweet. Maybe married life is not that bad after all. Well, I have that dandy perception kept inside me until dinner. Dinner, I treated my mom at our local Italian restaurant, Little Italian Kitchen since it was her birthday. I tell you, even the name is not as grand as Italliani's or Fasta Pasta but hey, their food is much much better than those two restaurants. I just love to go there. Sometime when I feel like Italian [haha, bangang tak aku] I would put on my spaghetti strap along with Capri pants, bring along my sunglasses and would have a nice Italian meal pretending that I can talk Italic, minus the cappuccino..coz I hate coffee. Oh, yeah..The food was marvelous! So was last night's.I ordered ermm..Fettucini marinara seafood with white sauce and chocolate shake and my mum ordered..er..sandwich and mineral water? Boleh tak macam tu?Sampai aku pon terconfuse, sape punye birthday sebenanye ni? Anyway, that's not my point. While I was eating, I swear that one of the waiter was bermain mata dengan aku.Okla, tak kirela nak kata aku prasan ke ape tapi aku seresly nampak ok and obviously takde orang lain dekat situ mase tu.And..He is my taste [atleast for this new 2005]. He was tall, fair, slender, squared jaw and yeah, he's good looking. I saw this guy before, as that place is one of my favourite spot to eat and I think he's the owner's son or relatives pasal muke die dgn tokey tu dekat-dekat. Ok whatever,suku sakat die tak penting. I tried not to notice and try to avoid any eye contact sebab..entah. Actually, I really want to look at him at that point and at least battle my eyelash back..But I didn't do that. I pretend like I don't see him staring and giving some flirtiest smile. If I am single, I would definitely flirt to death but haa, I can't coz somebody else is on my mind. I mean I can't do that can I? Even I know that he wouldn't know but it would make me feel bad.Entah..Rasa bersalah kot..
Ok, back to my point. You see, when you're attach with someone you would lost the blood-rushing-to-my-brain moment. I mean imagine.. there's a babe , flashing u a smile and she's hot and..you know that you could have a little fun and yeah, u wanted to..but wait a minute..you are married!!and you have 3 kids and your wife is pregnant with your fourth kid and the Dr.said it might be twins!! Isn't that scary? Hell yeah!! At least to me.
I guess what lenny said is true. The only thing newlywed would tell their friends, were only the good side of the story. Later on, she said "Actually,aku miss gile nak lepak-lepak dengan kawan-kawan..dengan katik..dengan semela..You tend to neglect your friends when you get married and your friends will tend to forget you..coz you're married."
Now, that is something that I dun think I can deal with..
But that's just me..
Or the feeling is mutual?
Me:Lenny, best tak kawen?
Lenny:Besatla.Hahahaha.
Me:Apa yang best?
Lenny:Semua-semuala.Skang aku dah tak payah pegi bilik Meon [Er..Ami] kalau takut malam-malam.
Me:Hoh!Bestnyer.
Lenny:Skang tak rasa sunyi lagi.Makan pon dah ade kawan, mandi dah ade kawan [ni best gile ok, boleh celen buat buih sabun sape paling besa], tido dah ade kawan and naik lrt boleh peluk-peluk tanpa rase bersalah.
Me:Ces!!Jelesnye aku!
Ha!I do felt jealous, seriously. Especially the sleeping part. I mean, when it come to sleep, I always feel lonesome and would wish someone would hug me tight. I don't like to sleep alone. I enjoy having night talk before dozing off [now korang seme paham ape nik rase bile dia terpaksa tido dgn aku]. It must feel nice to have someone to talk with, to eat with and to debate over silly thing with. Who wouldn't want a life like that? When you wake up the first thing you see is your dearly loved face and in the middle of the night when you wake up from a terrible dream, you feel relieve coz you know that your other half is just few inches beside you. And yes, you will have arguments over stupid things or what so ever but then you always know that someone will be there to do the sweet-talk over you or he or she will try to make it up to you sooner or later.
I thought that was cool, and sweet. Maybe married life is not that bad after all. Well, I have that dandy perception kept inside me until dinner. Dinner, I treated my mom at our local Italian restaurant, Little Italian Kitchen since it was her birthday. I tell you, even the name is not as grand as Italliani's or Fasta Pasta but hey, their food is much much better than those two restaurants. I just love to go there. Sometime when I feel like Italian [haha, bangang tak aku] I would put on my spaghetti strap along with Capri pants, bring along my sunglasses and would have a nice Italian meal pretending that I can talk Italic, minus the cappuccino..coz I hate coffee. Oh, yeah..The food was marvelous! So was last night's.I ordered ermm..Fettucini marinara seafood with white sauce and chocolate shake and my mum ordered..er..sandwich and mineral water? Boleh tak macam tu?Sampai aku pon terconfuse, sape punye birthday sebenanye ni? Anyway, that's not my point. While I was eating, I swear that one of the waiter was bermain mata dengan aku.Okla, tak kirela nak kata aku prasan ke ape tapi aku seresly nampak ok and obviously takde orang lain dekat situ mase tu.And..He is my taste [atleast for this new 2005]. He was tall, fair, slender, squared jaw and yeah, he's good looking. I saw this guy before, as that place is one of my favourite spot to eat and I think he's the owner's son or relatives pasal muke die dgn tokey tu dekat-dekat. Ok whatever,suku sakat die tak penting. I tried not to notice and try to avoid any eye contact sebab..entah. Actually, I really want to look at him at that point and at least battle my eyelash back..But I didn't do that. I pretend like I don't see him staring and giving some flirtiest smile. If I am single, I would definitely flirt to death but haa, I can't coz somebody else is on my mind. I mean I can't do that can I? Even I know that he wouldn't know but it would make me feel bad.Entah..Rasa bersalah kot..
Ok, back to my point. You see, when you're attach with someone you would lost the blood-rushing-to-my-brain moment. I mean imagine.. there's a babe , flashing u a smile and she's hot and..you know that you could have a little fun and yeah, u wanted to..but wait a minute..you are married!!and you have 3 kids and your wife is pregnant with your fourth kid and the Dr.said it might be twins!! Isn't that scary? Hell yeah!! At least to me.
I guess what lenny said is true. The only thing newlywed would tell their friends, were only the good side of the story. Later on, she said "Actually,aku miss gile nak lepak-lepak dengan kawan-kawan..dengan katik..dengan semela..You tend to neglect your friends when you get married and your friends will tend to forget you..coz you're married."
Now, that is something that I dun think I can deal with..
But that's just me..
Or the feeling is mutual?
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Mom's Birthday
Today is my mom's birthday.Well, I did bought her a present yesterday and you know what?I drove her car.Well ,maybe to you it is not a big deal but for me it's a big deal.Coz..I dunno how to drive a fucking auto car?Haaa??Yeah, you read correctly.I can't drive auto car.I only can drive a manual car.Funny isn't it?
It was raining heavily yesterday and I was alone at home..and cold.So I thought that I might need some fag to heat me up but I don't want to get wet walking in the rain don't I? So, I gained my courage and start to start the car. The last time I drove an auto car, it was a disaster.Aku bawak slow gile siap kene maki lagi dengan orang.Dahla tu everytime brake je, mesti cam jerk semacam.But yesterday, my desire for a fag mengatasi segalanya. I drove slowly and hey, it was not bad after all.Mesti sebab tak banyak kete sangat. Dah alang-alang aku berjaya beli rokok tu, belila hadiah sekali.I actually planned to go to the nearest kedai mamak, tapi bila dah terase macho bawak kete auto, I went to the mall after that. Despite that I drove sangat slow semalam but hey, I felt like aku dah achieve satu cabaran yang besar..Iaitu membawak kete auto.Hahaha..Jangan tak tau, aku kalau bawak manual, terrer gile ok.Bukan setakat satu kete je aku boleh langgar tetapi dalam 2, 3 kete sekali gus.Tak caye,tanyalah sape-sape yang penah naik kete dengan aku.Mesti agak horror.Hohohoh.
Oh lupa plak.Am not suppose to talk about myself.Am suppose to talk about my mom's birthday.
To emak..
Happy Birthday..
May you be blessed with health and wealth [so you can buy me a new car]
Kite sayang emak..Mwah!
It was raining heavily yesterday and I was alone at home..and cold.So I thought that I might need some fag to heat me up but I don't want to get wet walking in the rain don't I? So, I gained my courage and start to start the car. The last time I drove an auto car, it was a disaster.Aku bawak slow gile siap kene maki lagi dengan orang.Dahla tu everytime brake je, mesti cam jerk semacam.But yesterday, my desire for a fag mengatasi segalanya. I drove slowly and hey, it was not bad after all.Mesti sebab tak banyak kete sangat. Dah alang-alang aku berjaya beli rokok tu, belila hadiah sekali.I actually planned to go to the nearest kedai mamak, tapi bila dah terase macho bawak kete auto, I went to the mall after that. Despite that I drove sangat slow semalam but hey, I felt like aku dah achieve satu cabaran yang besar..Iaitu membawak kete auto.Hahaha..Jangan tak tau, aku kalau bawak manual, terrer gile ok.Bukan setakat satu kete je aku boleh langgar tetapi dalam 2, 3 kete sekali gus.Tak caye,tanyalah sape-sape yang penah naik kete dengan aku.Mesti agak horror.Hohohoh.
Oh lupa plak.Am not suppose to talk about myself.Am suppose to talk about my mom's birthday.
To emak..
Happy Birthday..
May you be blessed with health and wealth [so you can buy me a new car]
Kite sayang emak..Mwah!
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