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Spent my weekend in the Pearl of the Orient.It's quite a marvellous trip except for the tiring part..too bad we didn't have much time to spent for sight seeing.Might be going there again just to enjoy and relax.

Due to the long journey,i caught the flue for two days..leaving me feeling dizzy and wanted to pull out my nose.So i skipped class for two days and regretted it later.Especially robotic class..Yamani told me already that he wants to see my face in his class(after what-a-session) which i really really made up my mind to go but when my head was so heavy yesterday, i decided i'd rather stay with yam yam who happen to skip the job today(thanx to me for my PHD.in provokating people.)

Today,i might be watching movies together with some friends.Hmmm...Should i get a haircut?I think i'm sort of bored with my haircut..or maybe my look.For lots of woman,getting a haircut is so i need when u want to change your life.I mean,woman always get a haircut for a certain reasons like..getting dump,starting a job or when they feel so depressed.In my case..i just feel like i want a new life..hehhe?Issit relevant?But, i also want the girly-long-hair look that is so hot now.U know the 'cinta-cinta' type..hehehe

my caough is getting worst and worst everyday..should seize the smoke..

Fat ass

Finally,after a week of procrastination i managed to finish the book by Sophie Kinsella during my boring Japanese class.To me it was an amazing book, since i love to dream a lot..marry the rich and so on.And she made it so beautifully.It made me laugh and smile at the same time!If u fancy gurl power and shing shing kind of book, this book is a must.I had stop buying books for about a year ago before my life turn upside down.The last book i bought before this one is call Anne Frank's diary.It's kinda touching although by reading it i feel a bit suffocated.Well..but now i think i should be sticking back to my buying-books-habit rather than buying-shoes habit.

So..Can U keep A secret?hahah....Interesting questions.or should i say..do u do white lies?I know not all secrets have to be a lie but most of the are..reading the book make me think a bout my self.Yep..i've been keeping secrets from my parents, my boyfriends and my friends. I know that i am supposed to be honest but..ermm..sometimes..there are few things that we should keep it to ourself..to avoid confrontation and probably to please people.But it's kinda difficult not to spill it..once in a while it will be spill and i have to bear the consequences.

i went back to SA to help mom bath all my darlings and we had lunch together.While driving the car, she glance at me..especially my thigh and she gasp..

"oh my, u are getting fatter..even aunty Fatimah told me she hardly recognize u coz u have full(did she actually mean fat?) cheeks"

i was like..shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttt..i knew i was fat and so far my diet plan didn't go anywhere.huhuhuhh...i tried my best to remember that i should do simple exercise everyday instead i only remember to consume more fat everynight...just before bedtime.Tsk..tsk..Maybe....maybe i should go clubbing tonight..just to loose my weight..or my fat thigh..it's a good idea isn't it?

speaking of my darlings,dad finally succeed to catch ZUES, the pedigree siamese(or stupid siamese i should say) after he ran away for about 2 days.Stupid cat..i will never forget the day he bite and scratched my hand..and let it bled even though i knew he demands for his freedom just like me.It's not my fault he's beeing kept in a cage but he is the one who doesn't know how to behave..plus if he was freed..mom probobly will cry finding him trying to copy other cats eating rubbish and leftovers from the dustbin.On the other hand,Fluffy is so getting horny that when i tried to pat her, she wanted to mate with my hand and she keep following Pete around even he is now nuetered.how horny is that??

Uncle Zahir have cancer.Lungs cancer and it has spread to his body that u could see a big lump on his back.I was mortified,even we are not that close..i was nearly on tears when mom told me the news.Not my own uncle..the one who always teased me while puffing his cigar..cigars..yep..that's what make him what he is now today.Even people know that smoking is bad for their own health but still...maybe they are waiting for it to happen to themselves..as i am writing this i am also trying to remind myself..to stop smoking..and also..i realized i haven't been seeing my family for quite a long time..i must attend all my family gathering..i must..

i didn't call azam at all yesterday till he called me with a very weak voice.He was having a high fever..and i was having a good time..his voice was so..sad coz he said the day before he got sick he was waiting for me to call him and he missed me so much till he got the 'missing-u-fever'.I dun care if he is lying to me but the idea of him lying on his bed,looking so helpless with no one around make me suddenly want to fly there..to comfort him..to take care of him.I told him to go to the clinic to see the docter instead he said he didn't need a doctor what he needed is a warm hug from me.I called him after that to check how was he doing and the first thing i woke up this morning, i did call him again.From his voice,i knew he was happy..and i was happy to know that he is happy.Afterall he is still my boyfriend.

Darn!!

I was prepared for the Face Recognition discussion..with a full mood to start a new day but as i open the lectura hall door,wishing to see Mr.WCS face instead i saw Mr.tutor(can't remember his name) face.Ughh........why should my day be spoiled by something like this.If i enter the class,all i got are just crap,crap and more crap.From the first day he teached the class, i have zero understanding .what make it more interesting is..he likes me..as in his target to ask questions or to show that my stupidity level is at the max.Not that i want to disgrade him..no..it's just that..i'm soooo frusfurated..i want to satisfy myself by showing i still CARE about my study not like other people think..(including me actually).And then i make my way to the lab..as usual.

And at 4,i'll be resiting my robotic test.I hope i can do the test..i did my studying last night in my bedroom although i must admit the were goofy elements in that session..heheheh..I screwed up on my last test..Mr.Yamani must laugh all his lungs out while reading my answer script.He must have think i'm kind of bimbo of sumthing.All though he have a cute face but his words can kill u.Uh..oh..that's remind me that i have too see him personally about my tutorial marks dispite my absentees in his class.Tsk..tsk..i sense danger abroad.

mom called..she want me to go back to S.A to bath all kitties..humm..i wish i could but when???i'm so damn bz..but i think i'll try to make it.Whatever that makes her happy..that's the least i could do after abandoning home for about 1 month,Anyway, i have to send back my car coz i'll be out of town this week.Just let Ayie use it.Even we always yell at each other and call each other stupid name, i still consider him as my brother.It's good to have him around.Once in a while we would talk about serious things that he would never tell my parents.It's like..i'm the only person he trust in the house.Well..the truth i feel same way too.Even he is such a brat, he always keep my secret as i keep his secret.Sometime i wish i have big borthers or sisters.When i'm in need to talk to someone really close,sadly no one is there for me.During my schooling years, my friends were like my sisters but now i'm no more in that world.My friends are my friends.If i have something so deep in my mind..i have to keep it myself..and make my mind became more psychotic everday..

+"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye." +

attitude pleazeeee!!!!

uh,i thought i would make it to class today but hey ho..i didn't coz a friend stayed over last night and we chatted untill we forgotten that we have agendas to do the next morning.hehe..but really, i think few people are getting bored with my attitude.I have to attend class!!not only i fail to make my attendance today but it also occured yesterday..errr...the monday night..i got wasted out..so..tsk..tsk..

not only that, i also failed to follow my diet plan.:(..i tried my best not to ate dinner twice but so far everything was out of control.I have to do it coz i'm getting bloatier than ever.Amazing(?) to find that my fav jeans is so tightly worn.Oh no..i think i should try to reshrunk my self.

On weekend i did lots of shopping..until i felt so worn out..but i did enjoyed it..i always enjoy shopping.Then we went for a karaoke session.I hate my voice coz it sucks..seriously it does but anyhow i can't resist singing one or two songs and regretted it later.I must say i kinda enjoyed it.When i'm with azam,we never did this kind of things..we only cruised the mall..and visit few places..hm..i wonder why we never had this kind of excitement.

I should change my lazy attitude.Tonight i have to study(i know..i said it like 100 times)..but atleast i have a new resolution..right??uh, anyway i bought a new book call "Can u Keep a secret" by..errr..the same person who wrote..something-something shopaholic.It's a hillarious book.Hmm...how can i study when i have a good book to read??

+The challenge is not to manage time, but to manage ourselves.
~ Steven Covey+