Black is not the new red

I am having a nasty headache. Just because there were not enough lights.


In case you didn't know, I am the type of person who really feel sick and suffocated when there is not enough light provided. I will feel trapped and hence panicked, not to mention huge headache. Oh, I can also naik angin easily if you put me in a gloomy place. This is not club and disco we are talking about. Ofc ourse I can tolerate those places because the objective is to commit sin. Haha, commit sin memangla tempat gelap and you will be too busy getting drunk or swaying your hip to think straightly. No serious matter involved.


I switch on the light at home even it was only a tad cloudy and I don't like to sit in my room during dusk, because like I said they give me headache and make me want to scream.


Now today I went for a new career opportunity meet up at a noted institution. It was something, I thought because that place is not just a small place. So yeay.


But as I stepped to the building I could see everyone is wearing black. Okkk, perhaps it's their black day outfit but it gets weird when you walk through the corridor and realised you are the one and only who is wearing white, and brown pants with a killer looking brown shoes of course. And it gets weirder when you realised the whole building , the wall, the ceiling the chairs, the whatever you can see were black. Maybe to some of you it's cool but to me, it's suffocating.


Maybe it's me but some part of the building look unfinished umpama gelanggang futsal yang dibuat dari tinggalan kilang, or more or less looked like a factory that I used to work for. Ok maybe it's art and probably I am not some insan seni like some people who dengan bangganya mengaku they are.


So during the chit chat session I asked them why everything is black and they said oh it's their corporate colour and it is a must[!] for you to wear black everyday each and everytime you enter the premise. No other colours allowed, no others except black. Ok, now. I am chicsinred and I am supposed to wear red. As bimbo as that statement may sound, it is true. I love colours. I love wearing certain colour of baju according to my mood and this is not the fucking 90's for god sake. Black is not the new red ok.


Ok, at least I can force myself to wear black as if I am mourning my steps to work but sitting in a dark gloomy place for more than 3 hours is a big no no. I tried, today. I was placed in one of the room for more than 1 hour where everything was black and dim even when they were lights but it was not enough. If I did not think about ethics and such I probably had walk away while waiting for my name to be called.


The pay is quite good and they would like to meet up for a second time and sort of hinted they are interested but my headache is still not gone despite it was 8 hours ago.Maybe to some of you, it's a small matter but to me it is not because I can picture myself going gila and menjerit-jerit sambil berlari mencari cahaya matahari. Ibarat daun mencari cahaya untuk fotosintesis.


I know that place carry a big name with some branches around the world but I have to pass. How are you going to work when you don't think you can breath properly at the first place?


One think I don't get, how can black stimulate creativity, isn't it mundane and morbid rather than vibrating?