The one

Ok.This is the actual entry for today.

I am a sucker for romantic movies. One of my favourite is ghost. Aha, yeah I know I'm sort of old-school but hello, that movie always make me feel ultra melt inside. Notably the part where Patrick Swayze embraced Demi Moore from behind and savoured her velvety skin whilst she endeavored making something out of the clay. And..the background song, unchained melody. Hoh. Completes everything.


While watching that scene I was thinking. Wow, it must be magnificent when you really found the one. The one whom you can always to and the one whom always comfort you when you are in need. Must be hell of a person.


I used to think that maybe there is someone for everyone. The one for every one. But the question is..how am I supposed to know whether that person is the one? It's funny when my friend told me that "You will know definitely if he's the one. Your heart will always tell you". I have been in few serious relationships and my heart did say "he's the one" to each and every one of them. Sad to say they are not even close to the one. Semua gagal.Fail. I don't know what went wrong. Perhaps my heart made a deficient judgment or perhaps I was just sightless back then.


What if you found a person who really makes your heart flutter? Just a thought of him made you smile even you were in your most bad moment. Even when you were gnashing your teeth you found yourself talking to him and later you laughed when you remembered you are supposed to be mad at him. At night, before you closed your eyes, you prayed to God that he will have a wonderful sunlight hour and you thanked God for giving you someone who makes your life worth a living. And All those bapak jiwang things you could think of..But most of all.. behind those closed doors, you wished that he's the one..because you can't imagine your life without him. But latterly..because you really believed that he's the one, you never primed your heart to accept the fact that you would lose him one day, and when it happens, you hurt yourself. You bleed. Devastated. Just like Demi when Patrick Swayze got shot after they came back from watching a play.


Imagine this, at some point you are totally head over heels with someone but at times you sniveled within. You wanted to believe but you are too petrified and you wanted to nullify your feelings but it's too late.


[Ok. This may sound out of the topic but hell, I really need to say this.]
Perhaps it's too early to tell but it's never to late to bid farewell..[if you know what I'm saying]
There will always be lights they said.
If the light is bright, perhaps he might be the one..
But if the light is dim..tsk..tsk..


I want to say it but to cry on monday morning is not a good idea.


Hah.I'm getting a headache.
Saiko.


Anyway. Happy monday bunnies