Bad hair

Look like my fantasy to flaunt ceramic perm hair is not going to come true after all. Yesterday, due to ermm.. depression [?] I unconsciously [!] went to get my tresses chopped. Actually, all I wanted was a nice hair treatment but when I saw the promotion "cut + hair treatment for RM100" my brain went dead and let my mouth did all the speaking, which always lead to bad things. As the result I lost my ermm [* trying to find suitable word]..old look, instead now I look like a nerd form 5 scholar. Nerd and naive with no sexual magnetism at all. Okla, to sum it in a phrase I look more hideous than before. Blerghh.

faking a smile...huhuh

Nevermind, at least I can pull the girl in pinafore look. Hah.


Anyway, I was fasting again yesterday and had a wonderful dinner at little Italian alone. My mom was busy, so were everybody. I had aglio olio and chocolate shake which were totally scrumptious. I was the only one who ate alone, where else other customer came either with their partners of families. Despite looking like a lone ranger, I didn't feel so forlorn after all coz I was busy imagining things. In fact I, at times prefer to be alone. I can shop alone, go cruising alone, have a meal at nice restaurant alone or even watch movie alone. No biggie and no hassle. I mean.. I can spend infinite of time touring the same place looking for a pair of shoes without feeling guilty of having someone tagging me in agony, if you know what I mean.


Once, when I was getting pleasure from my own quality-shopping-marathon-time at midvelli, I stumbled upon a good friend of mine. She asked me where was my boyfriend and when I said I was single-handed she gave me a hug.
"Are you ok? Kesianlah kau ni, jalan sorang-sorang"


I felt my face burning coz she meant as if I looked somewhat pathetic which made me felt sorry for myself at that moment. But then again, why feel sorry when all I was feeling extremely happy, carrying loads of shopping bags and enjoy good book while eating good food peacefully?


I was feeling good enough with the fact I ate alone, yes. But not with the fact that I ate alone with ugly hair. People must be spreading rumors.
"Look, there's a retarded girl with a weird hair eating alone. I wonder where she live? Poor soul."


Hoh. Perhaps it's time for hair extension or..tudung?
Nooot..yet.