Sore

I'm having a sore throat and it feels like having kertas pasir in your mouth.
Feel sick.


I have this feeling that me and my mum will not be speaking for quite some time.
I think she is pissed with me.
Mak, why dun you go marah ayie instead of me..
Issit just because i'm the eldest so I have to do everything?
Issit just because i'm the eldest that I deserve to be yelled at?
Did you ever consider how am i struggling with my life when I feel everything is meaningless?
Perhaps I shud pack my bags and live somewhere else or fake my death.
Perhaps I shud just beg any guy to marry me so I can live happily. Hah
Bad idea.Marriage won't solve the problem
But keeping quiet and eat those words won't either.
But what can I do when I tried to defend myself and u then will say I'm being ungrateful?
Tell melahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Demm..Complicated.


I'm having a bad monday.
When i fell like writing I will write.
Yes, i'm whining again.
Don't give a fuck if you think I shud not.
Like you give a fuck anyway!