Rabun

specky smile

"Chics, kau memang pakai spect yer?Tak sangke aku". That's a common statement I get when I go out without my lenses.

Yeap, I wear glasses. I've been togged up in them ever since primary four and my earliest frame were made from some hideous plastic thingy and it was huge. Made me looked like a dork but yeah, I was a dork. I was a nerd back then and every body hates me and now they couldn't believe what I have turned into. They even still gossip about me.. How could a nerdy misshapen into such a harebrained character. Whatever.. Like I care..

I hate wearing them coz it kinda restrict me from moving freely. The frame keep sliding down my nose [sebab tak cukup mancung, obviously] so my credit go to who-ever-invented-contact-lenses for the reason of his or her genius invention, I can now act as if I have perfect vision like everybody else. But my eyes, they are quite sensitive so I have to use my glasses more than lenses.

I always heard that guys are less-attracted to girls who wear glasses. In fact in any movies, to illustrate the role of an unattractive girl, she will always be wearing glasses. What's wrong with people who wear glasses? It's like a statement everywhere and when I'm with it I'll feel..self concious..Like muke aku mcm tak siap..Padahal dah siap-siap dah tadik..weird..Lasik?No thanks, I don't like the idea something poking my eyes. I dunno but to me I do find certain girls with glasses are attractive, if the frame is right. For guys..I find no problem with guys who wear glasses. I think it's cute. You know back in uni, I'm quite attracted to guys who were nerdy and wear glasses. I'll like ..try to find any excuse to talk to them even it's obviously lame, like asking for a piece of paper coz I like to see them menggelupur even the fact that I rarely talk to people. Kiut dowh. Terkemut-kemut koyakkan kertas. And the next time I see them, I'll flash them a smile and they'll smile back sheepishly. Totally cute. But according to my friends, that kind of behaviour was mean.. And I just don't understand why.

My boss asked me once

"Apsal you pakai frame ni?Takde spec lain ke? Tukarla spec lain.".

Instead of screeching at him since that's an insult to me, I answered him with

"Have you ever heard the meaning of stylo? By the way, I like my frame thank you".

Actually I have a smaller frame before, a DKNY frame. I love that frame because at times I felt like me and esther canadias are alike [hahaha, I know..you don't have to say it]. But after an aghast occurrence somewhere between end of August and beginning of September, I decided to revamp my look so I purchased this frame without thinking twice. My heart was breaking like you-don't-know-how-bad-it-was and I need to buy something to cheer me up. A new pair glasses seemed appropriate.

So, no more making weird faces on seeing me with my glasses on ok?
And don't ask me why I wear them coz the answer is simple..

Aku rabun.