T.A.B

I was thinking of getting a haircut but it didn't happen coz the student hairstylist was not there.Surely i won't be spending my rm30 to get a simple hair cut.I just want a bit of my hair beeing chopped.Not restyle it..I can do that my self if i want to.I tried to console my self by saying "long hair is so in" and then decided to find a new scrunchie for my old hair when there i met umi who was also alone.Not having my lunch yet, we headed for Dave Deli and i had a plate of lasagne.Then she said something

she:i think u should take a time off
me:time off what?
she:from your relationship with azam.imagine u won't call him for quite a long time..it's like
he's gone from your life.
me:err??
she:if u think u miss him then u know you still want him.

well i thought that was quite an idea.I should be practising that but imagining not having contact with azam suddenly make me feel weak.Maybe the distance, i mean the feel of lost will make me change my mind. Human tend to neglect the things they have and when it's gone..that's the time when we regret.Hoping we would get another chance and wishing we would appreciated of the grived lost thing better.I am azam and he is me..if anything happen between us he will always have a special place in my heart.He took a great care of me for the past 6 years..it just that the excitement is gone.I told umi that and as usual she always had something else to say.

she:if u love someone,it doesn't mean u have to enjoy beeing with him.It's the love..

hmmm..how can that be true?I am a gurl full of excitement and he is a guy who just love to laze around at home..definitely not my type.he's coming back this weekend.I'll try to talk to him,eventhough i know he will not succumb to my sugesstion.He is the man who always think he's right..and probobly think he's the greatest.

Life is just complicated isn't it?

+it's better to be love and hurt rather than not to be loved at all+