Went for a dinner with azam,i try to act sweet coz i'm trying to hang on with our relationship..heh but he didn't seem to bother..not even trying.I try to talk to him but he gone mad and for all the sudden i regret saying what i say last night and felt what i feel last night.If i knew this is going to happen, i won't spill anything..i thought he would understand my situation but the actual thing is he didn't.I know that i am wrong and i'm in a chaotic position but all i want is for him to help me out.not to blame me for all the wrong doing that i have done in order to face all the problems i have.
Rizal called and we talked about over an hour.He told me if i want to save my relationship i have to change and he accused me for not beeing strong.I was kinda mad but after sometime i think he's right.I have to change.I have to forget my so-called-social-life if i want azam.The thing is,if i don't have such life what am i supposed to do?I have no one around me.My girlfriends are so bz with their guys and my guy friends..erm..i dun want to hang out with them all the time.Maybe i should get bak to my weeping stage coz my 'get bz' plan didn't work out.I can try to tone up my bods or i can be a sim addict again..hmmm
we shall see what happen.
i should be someone better instead of ruining my life with so called 'temporary excitement'.I shall try my very best :)
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