Frog song

I have experiencing some trouble to sleep for the past few months. You can see the result shown around my eyes, two dark circle happily circling singing yeay yeay chics dah jadi panda.

I even come to the extent to serenade myself to sleep by letting the mp3 intrude the night with endon songs. Dari Dewa ke Kerispatih, semua dipasang. Nak kata aku lena tak jugakla sebab sebukla pulakkan aku nak nyanyi sekali dengan lagu tu bukannya nak tido. If I shut it down, I will start to think about something else pulak.

For example, agak-agak, ade ke hantu bawah katil aku? Tak pon, kalaula dapat 1 juta, apa nak buat? And all sort of craps. But most of the time I will think about things that are bugging me. Not that I not try to ignore them but somehowkan bila aku ala-ala nak tido tido ayam, mesti terjaga balik.

No, please don't tell me to basuh kaki and what not. As if aku tak taula kan nak buat bende camtu.

More than usual I find myself doing 2 things in order to make me doze off. Yelah kalau dah kol 4/5 pagi tak tido, memang sengallakan. Kepala dah berat, mata dah letih tapi tak mau tido.

One. I will start counting the sheep. No kidding ok. I imagine satu persatu sheep lompat pagar and lastly kene karan. Siapa main 7 sins dia taula.

Two, I will imagine I am in a place that can bring me serenity. Usually, Sanur beach where I stayed in Bali. Tatau apsal but these two things will eventually make me sleep.

But last night it was different. It rained and was cold. My eyes are tired and so does my head. Apa taknya, aku puasa tapi masa kelas takde break pulak. Minum air suam jelakan, kol 9 baru dapat makan. Gila otak aku mencair nanah ok.

So, I lay down on the bed and try to close my eyes. Kenot also.

Pusing kiri nampak MJ jilat bulu. I put my hand between her tummy and she licked it dengan penuh kasih sayang. Macam dia tau tau je aku dahagakan kasih sayang. Genius betul kucing aku ni.

Then I heard the "tik tik" sound. Hujan slow slow. Followed by "Onggg ongg", katak.

I smiled. I don't know why I feel safe.

No hantu can kacau me because MJ is holding me [padahal aku yang letak tangan] and no noise can be heard in my head because I am busy listening to the frog and the rain sound.

I fall asleep not too long. Long, deep uninterrupted sleep.

I tired to seek for comfort that can help me to sleep, less that I know the answer lies in simple things yet neglected and thought as unimportant.

Tapi kalau ada orang tido sekali yang berlainan jantina, tu memang comfort tak ingatla kan. Hehe