single or double

Gossiped with lenny on YM yesterday. She asked me for the bread pudding recipe and I asked her about her feeling as newlywed in return [haha.fair tak?].


Me:Lenny, best tak kawen?
Lenny:Besatla.Hahahaha.
Me:Apa yang best?
Lenny:Semua-semuala.Skang aku dah tak payah pegi bilik Meon [Er..Ami] kalau takut malam-malam.
Me:Hoh!Bestnyer.
Lenny:Skang tak rasa sunyi lagi.Makan pon dah ade kawan, mandi dah ade kawan [ni best gile ok, boleh celen buat buih sabun sape paling besa], tido dah ade kawan and naik lrt boleh peluk-peluk tanpa rase bersalah.
Me:Ces!!Jelesnye aku!


Ha!I do felt jealous, seriously. Especially the sleeping part. I mean, when it come to sleep, I always feel lonesome and would wish someone would hug me tight. I don't like to sleep alone. I enjoy having night talk before dozing off [now korang seme paham ape nik rase bile dia terpaksa tido dgn aku]. It must feel nice to have someone to talk with, to eat with and to debate over silly thing with. Who wouldn't want a life like that? When you wake up the first thing you see is your dearly loved face and in the middle of the night when you wake up from a terrible dream, you feel relieve coz you know that your other half is just few inches beside you. And yes, you will have arguments over stupid things or what so ever but then you always know that someone will be there to do the sweet-talk over you or he or she will try to make it up to you sooner or later.


I thought that was cool, and sweet. Maybe married life is not that bad after all. Well, I have that dandy perception kept inside me until dinner. Dinner, I treated my mom at our local Italian restaurant, Little Italian Kitchen since it was her birthday. I tell you, even the name is not as grand as Italliani's or Fasta Pasta but hey, their food is much much better than those two restaurants. I just love to go there. Sometime when I feel like Italian [haha, bangang tak aku] I would put on my spaghetti strap along with Capri pants, bring along my sunglasses and would have a nice Italian meal pretending that I can talk Italic, minus the cappuccino..coz I hate coffee. Oh, yeah..The food was marvelous! So was last night's.I ordered ermm..Fettucini marinara seafood with white sauce and chocolate shake and my mum ordered..er..sandwich and mineral water? Boleh tak macam tu?Sampai aku pon terconfuse, sape punye birthday sebenanye ni? Anyway, that's not my point. While I was eating, I swear that one of the waiter was bermain mata dengan aku.Okla, tak kirela nak kata aku prasan ke ape tapi aku seresly nampak ok and obviously takde orang lain dekat situ mase tu.And..He is my taste [atleast for this new 2005]. He was tall, fair, slender, squared jaw and yeah, he's good looking. I saw this guy before, as that place is one of my favourite spot to eat and I think he's the owner's son or relatives pasal muke die dgn tokey tu dekat-dekat. Ok whatever,suku sakat die tak penting. I tried not to notice and try to avoid any eye contact sebab..entah. Actually, I really want to look at him at that point and at least battle my eyelash back..But I didn't do that. I pretend like I don't see him staring and giving some flirtiest smile. If I am single, I would definitely flirt to death but haa, I can't coz somebody else is on my mind. I mean I can't do that can I? Even I know that he wouldn't know but it would make me feel bad.Entah..Rasa bersalah kot..


Ok, back to my point. You see, when you're attach with someone you would lost the blood-rushing-to-my-brain moment. I mean imagine.. there's a babe , flashing u a smile and she's hot and..you know that you could have a little fun and yeah, u wanted to..but wait a minute..you are married!!and you have 3 kids and your wife is pregnant with your fourth kid and the Dr.said it might be twins!! Isn't that scary? Hell yeah!! At least to me.


I guess what lenny said is true. The only thing newlywed would tell their friends, were only the good side of the story. Later on, she said "Actually,aku miss gile nak lepak-lepak dengan kawan-kawan..dengan katik..dengan semela..You tend to neglect your friends when you get married and your friends will tend to forget you..coz you're married."


Now, that is something that I dun think I can deal with..
But that's just me..


Or the feeling is mutual?