A friend of mine brought to me see a live band last wednesday night as a belated birthday treat. Whoaa. I always love live band not to mention music. Some people like to laze in front of tv and watch football, some people like to read, some like gardening but I love to have fun. I love to dance even I'm a hideous dancer [ha!].
It dazes me how singers could sing their lungs out and perform remarkable dance steps. I swear if I have the voice the possibility for me to sing at clubs is there. Now you know why God didn't sanctify me with a good voice. I can't even sync to the rhythm. How bad is that? To think of it, if I voice out to my parents that I want to be a club singer, I bet they will freak out and my dad will surely have his heart attack long time ago. My mom would probably consider it coz yeah, my mom is cool ;). You know what, I think I'm more an artistic person [hahaha] compared to what I am majoring now. I used to dream to be an actress and when I told my mom about it she didn't objects, it just that she don't like the idea seeing my name in the headline, shagging somebody. Picture this " Chics bercinta dengan kerabat diraja Monaco" Ha!!!
How many of you guys out there really follow your dream? During my final year in school, I made a pact with my best friend that we would be a lawyer one day but now, she is the only one who is still sticking to it [even sampai skang aku tak percaya dia lawyer,hehe].What happened? On filling the UPU form, my mom persuaded me to choose IT. You knowla that time every body is talking about IT. Even the-so-infamous Siti Nurhaliza is singing about it.."Sayang It..Cinta It". It's a good thing that I didn't become a lawyer since I'm quite bad in controlling my temper, leave alone my acid tongue. And yeah, I did it because of my parents. Actually my dad wanted me to follow his track, to be an engineer tapi sebab aku bengap fizik dengan add maths so sah-sahla gagal.
I mean what is wrong when somebody talks to their parents they want to become a make-up artist [when he's a he], a club singer or even a musician? It would be OK if we live in LA but since we live in Malaysia, where we are bind with traditional esthetics we have to play by the rule. "Sayangnya kalau awak jadi pelakon, blaja pandai-pandai[ha, mak aku cakap aku pandai ok] tapi jadi pelakon", that's what my mom said which I think what she meant was "Pelakon? Apa aku nak cakap dengan nenek kau nanti?", maybe your mom would say the same thing too. It's true what she said but what about what I want? Are you sure you are happy with what you're doing now even if you are a doctor, a programmer or even an accountant? I'm not happy and I'm not unhappy either .I'm just ok. Fine, I graduated and whether I like it or not I have to find a job so I can waste all the money I have.Hehehe. But when it comes to satisfaction, it's not there. I mean I wake up every morning , do my job and come back with empty feeling. But it different when I write a blog, when I dance or when I do something what my heart desire. I wish I could do what I really yearn for a living so that I would feel contented but hey, life is not all about me, I can't be selfish [see ag, I have moments when I'm not self-seeking]. Sometimes we have to sacrifice in order to make other people happy even it means sacrificing for what you really believe.
Tell you what, if I have a child [if la kan], I will let him decide what ever he wants to be as long as he have a proper education and as long as it's not being a pimp, a drug dealer [tapi ni memang banyak duitla ok] or an assassin. I will still provide him with guidance but to decide what he wants to do for his life when he's ready enough to think on his own, it's up to him. Ok .I dun like this subject because it make me feel uneasy, so I'm going to end it now.
Think, what actually you feel like doing?
Did you follow your heart?
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