Like last night, i was supposed to be happy after spending my day with ag instead i cried and as the result my eyes are bapak bengkak today.No, i was happy yesterday but then at the end of the day i felt hollow and as a famous penangis i cried when he asked me what's wrong.what made things worst was he thought that he is the main caused why i felt that shitty.Nola baby, it wasn't you..it was..ermmm..me?cacat tak cacat?
And i am now weight 38 kg.Tadda!!!!I was supposed to be happy but when i looked at the mirror i felt ugly.Gemuk dan huduh.I mean, what's wrong with me? The other day kuman calculated my bmi, mine is 17..the normal bmi is 21,atleast.Hehehehe..well, the thing is..if i am under the par, why am i still not kurus?Ok.solve that later.
the new 38 kg chics
Nway, since i'm such a good gurl, I listened to my friends advice. I tried not to skip my meal anymore..but...there's a problem.Everytime i eat, i will automatically throw up.All the digested food will came out from me. I did not do that on purpose but they came out by themselves. I tried to control it but hehe..even eno wouldn't do the work.You know, if i keep on dong that, i might ended at the hospital.I think i'm bulimic.Help.
I think what chi and ag said it's true. I should not take things too seriously. I should lighten up a bit. I should treasure life. I should not think about those 'what if' thingy.
Tapi masalahnya, aku ini bapak paranoid.
Kontrol freak dan saiko.
Adakah aku perlu berjumpa psychiatrist?
Ok.Solve that.
13 menet dari sekarang.
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