Faggot

Have you ever face a situation when you nearly get something that you really want but then it just slipped away in a blink?Well..Tell me more about it.

I just lost the person that is so significant in my life.I love him with all my heart..i love him so much. All i did to him was shower him with my love, give all the confident and give all the best i have to him but i guess my appearance blinded everyone else. Just because i'm modernly dress, just because i am not pretentious his parents refused to come up to my parents eventhough there was a promised made. The reason that the parents can't accept me was..coz i have long finger nails and my eyebrow are neatly plucked.What the fuck??

To me it was only excuses. I thought my guy would stand for me but he was not strong enough. Eventhough he cried over the phone saying how much he loved me and all but..he has no guts to do anything.

My parents in other hand is so supportive. Eventhough my dad was smartly dressed waiting for his parents to come and at the end they did not but after that he pretended like nothing happen. And my mum made it look like she cooked everything as if she was cooking for all of us instead of for some guest who were supposed to come.It killed me so much to see them like that..

All i did for this past few days was crying. I just can't beleive what had happen. And today, even though it's a working day i'm sitting at home, typing and try to think what had i done wrong. Maybe i love him sooo much and that's a sin. Maybe i should not have forgive him for all the bad things that he had done to me before.

Samsul Kahar,
I understand your situation. I just hope you would stand out for what you want instead of being a coward. A faggot. Don't worry, you don't need to do anything.Instead i will. I hope your parents will be happy coz i'm going away soon.Away from home and away from you.I wish you all the best and please, dun try to fall in love with any gurl anymore, knowing that your mum will never approved them. Just listen to your mother as you always did.

Don't ask me what am i going to do with my life because from now on..there's no more us. It's just me..and my self.