Dad..

It's 2.45 p.m.I haven't had any seep since last night.The reason is..I can't.My dearest father had been admitted to ICU coz he got a heart attack last night.Around 3 mom woke me up and i drove like a mad girl to the nearest hospital, Selangor Medical Centre.The dr said my dad condition was bad.His heart beat was very weak and was nearly to nothing.But u know what, that private hospital was so fucking inconsiderate. They insisted us to pay the deposit of RM 3.5 K before they can allow my father to be admitted to that ICU even though his condition was serious. Not that we don't have the money but it's 3 a.m in the morning!!At that moment, my mom only had 2 K with her so she insisted them to accept it but still they refuse. Then i said something like

"If u don't do it, i'll write about this in the newspaper"..and Thank God, they immedietely bring my father to ICU.

Before that happen, I had a tensed conversation with yamyam.I told him that i shall move on and find another guy.We argued and yelled to each other.It was bad.After that cnversation i failed to track him eventhough he is the person who i really need the most at this moment.I was suppose to go for a party after that but i felt bad and decided not to.I tried calling him, to tell him i want to meet him and that i missed him so much but did not succeed.Luckily, i didn't go to that party or else, i don't know what will happen to my father.

My father live a healthy life. He ate lots of veggie and went jogging almost everyday. i know what happened to him last night was my fault. If only i pretend that i'm happy he would not feel miserable. He was buying me a pizza to cheer me up but being and ungrateful daughter, i let him ate alone.He is suppose to leave for Dubai this becoming Friday, but i guess..he would only be sitting in the hospital instead.

If anything happen to my father, i won't be able to forgive my self..

and yayang,i'm so sorry..i know i am wrong but please..call me..coz i really need you at this moment.Please..