Yesterday a friend asked whether my preference for guys have changed. I used to tell him I easily melt for bad boys. But then another friend pointed out that the reason why I always get my heart broken was because I tend to choose guys from the same pattern. In this case, bad boyslah.
Bukan apa, bad boys adalah amat mencabar kredibiliti gua sebagai perempuan dan adalah best bila terjeruk rasa kadang-kadang. haha
Ok. Enough craps and self defense mechanism. Anyway, I told him, my preference had changed. No more bad boys. I am looking for a guy who is strong willed, not afraid to be who he is, able to take responsibilities, manly and of course only see me in his eyes ok [gila selfish aku kan tapi gi mamposla kau].
And he told me it sounded like I still would opt for bad boys. Tsk
Which is totally not true.
What I mean is ..for example, of the guy is nerd, he would accept the fact that he is a nerd and not trying to be a cool guy. And will not be ashamed to be a nerd despite what other people say about him. Strong willed as in tidak berserah sahaja dan instead of aiming to get A+, he aimed for B. I want a real man.
Tetapi tidak perlulah bercakap poyo-poyo. Diam sahajalah and just prove it.
He asked me again, is it difficult to find the 'real man'.
Like helloooooooooooooo?? To me it is but then again, maybe I am too choosy and fuck you if you say so to me because this is my life and I have the right to be choosy. Tq.
So as the conclusion, I told him, I am not looking for neither good boys nor bad boys. I still don't like good boys. Sometimes they are too good till they don't know how to say what they want or worst fail to decide on their own. Yeah terlalu hendak menjaga hati orang lain.
And I also believe, when you found
that person, the whole world doesn't need to know. Until the right time comes.
When will the right time come you asked? When there are you, that person and tok kadi.
