Playing Cupid

I knew him since I was still in my sweet 17 years. We just clicked hardly any hours meeting. Few months later we were officially an item. I spent almost 6 years with him. He taught me lots of things. Things that had sculptured me to be who I am today. We totally be au fait with each other. He was my shopping partner, gossip partner and even my sparing partner. He was my soulmate..My everything. I loved him so much, unconditionally that I gave up almost everything for him-my night life and even my friends. I though he was my first and definitely my last but I was wide of the mark. Something came up and we broke off. For me, things are not that gruelling for I managed to found a new hero straight away who truly loves me with all his heart but on his side it was vice versa. It was kind of heartbreaking to see someone you care, living a miserable life.No more warm smiles, no more infectious laughter..Just grief and sorrowness. Not that he couldn't grab any girl's attention but he always shunned them off. He said they're not his taste.He was looking for someone who is bubbly, with attitude and..he was looking for someone like..me.

At the same time, I know this girl, a friend of mine, also a suffering the same problem. She is lonely, practically spending all her days thinking and crying for his ex who went for another gurl. To me she is nice and come with a good look.Hence she is lonely..and single..So..why not?

Maybe it's hard to match someone that you used to love..with another gurl who is also your friend..but I'm willing to put my feeling aside.All I wanted is for him to be happy again..For him to laugh again..And for him to love again..I would do anything for his happiness..just like I used to be..

To my ex..Even though we live a separate life now but I wish you all the happiness in the world. Trust me..you too will be happy.Cheers to u.

Convo is Coming Up

2 days more to convo. No, I don't feel any excitement.In fact I don't feel like going. Maybe I should follow Noone style, just skip the convo thingy and just enjoy my leave day.

Why?Coz my robe sux. I am supposed to be wearing S size but when I arrived there last monday, the smallest size available was M. And it was not small, besar and labuh.I look like an American football player, The shoulder pad are way too bulky..In fact I look like an idiot in it.Big idiot. I know I'm supposed to go early to rebut for the robe but I had to meet up with some client that day and only manage to make myself available on the afternoon.

I am well known for my clumsy attitude..Tah2 nanti aku terpijak robe tu and terjatuh depan Nazrin Shah and everybody will laugh at my face. Oh..My robe is so big..Penat2 je aku tempah kebaya baru..what's the point when the stupid robe will cover up everything.Aku nampak mcm lemas je..And I bet I won't be getting any flowers coz my parents are bz sampai dlm minggu ni adela dlm 4/5 kali tanya when is the actual day and I bet dad forget to apply for leave since he's to workaholic to notice anything.My bf..Yeah..he's my only hope..If he happen to turn up la kann..

Demm..Should have not tell my parents about this damn convo thingy...
Agak2 kalau aku alter robe tu..ade org prasan tak?

Chics and The Gym

  

Chics joined a gym yesterday and it nearly make her broke for the whole month of August even it is not even August yet .But because she is so determine to shape up so she thought why not splurge some money eventhough she can picture how her bf 's face would be when the bill of his visa arrive.

The gym was..awesome..And all the chicas there were..bomb..but yeah,there were some exception.And the guys were..*drool*..They have sort-of-dancing class which really makes chics teruja and they also have yoga class.Eventhough chics never tried yoga but since Madonna is practicing it, then it must be cool*..Hehehe

Chics was enjoying the facilities..She somewhat mempoyokan diri using all the facilities eventhough tahaper2 je yg dia buat.And then she and her girlfriend when to use the sauna and was feeling like a roasted chick. The only thing that she hated was ..that gym is using cheap shampoo that make her hair stand on their own.So the keras.

All the effort in the gym nearly gave her another athma attack. She woke up in the middle of the night, hardly breathing, cramped muscle and with some  fever. Too much for working out maybe? This conclude that how un-fit chics is..*frown*

Despite feeling like a shit, chics went to work today and was thinking..

"I'll be going to the gym tomorrow"..

THE END

*Note:Chics is not a bimbo

Night Angel

During some lonely nights.
I never failed ended up crying..
Feeling confused and thinking how could things went wrong..
Things that I can't even find the answers..Things that I need to talk about..
But not to my mother
Not to girlfriends..
and not even to my guy..
and maybe not to anyone. 
 

I can't figure out how or why
But he never fails to read my mind..
To sense that something is wrong with me.
There's always a buzzing phone..
A warm voice to comfort me..
In the middle of that lonely night.

Even though we seldom meet..
Busy getting with our own life..
But we understand each other..
and we confide to each other..
as a friends and not more than that..

He's life is a chaos case..
Practically mingle with any women he met..
And ended having what he wants..
He never believe in feeling or love..
Coz love always deny him..
But he swears in the name of friendship..
Me on the other hand..
Had all the love I want..
But just fail to deal with my own 'inner voice'..

 
It's ironic and cynical..
How a chaos guy who didn't even know what to do for his life tomorrow
Could always give a huge comfort to a girl
Who thinks she know exactly wants she wants ..
Who thinks she is in control with her life
Ended up, always making stupid decisions..

To my night angel..
U know who u are..
I thank you for being there for me..
And..remember..
I will too, be there for U.

 

My Ignorance

I was on my way to buy Gym gears (remember that I need to reshape?) that I bumped into a friend.Actually not my actual friend.A friend to my yayang is more like it.Anyway, whatever..We went for a drink and some puff of cigarettes and this is when she spoke to me.

She:I actually kinda mad at you..or hate U.
Me:Uh??
She:Remember the day..bla..bla
Me:Well, I didn't know that u were hurt..My intention is pure..yada..yada

What was I saying in my heart?The actual thing.I didn't know that some gesture offended her..I mean I was telling her that I'm feeling fine eventhough yamyam's car broke down and we have to wait.So she was expecting me to feel sorry and sad?Okay..maybe I was being ignorant to her..maybe I should realize that she wanted to show her concern or something..sorry I didn't mean to hurt u.See..I'm one ignorant biatch..I dun really care how people around me feel..Oh,man this is bad..No wonder she had been giving me cold treatment when we went lepaking at her place..Darn..Ye..Lepas ni aku akan jadi minah kepoh..Or at least give a shit to what ppl say.Hmm..

Anyway,the part where she told me how is she feeling about me is something good.I can take things like that..I mean..I never care what ppl say but in her case..lain..pasal i'll always be hanging out with her sbb bf aku baik giler dgn bf dier. So I dowan her to hate me..not that I care tapi yela..nanti tak best pulak..

And I didn't told my bf about this which is so un-natural of me..I guess something is better left unsaid..Ye ke?Ke tak?Tahhla..