Dissapear

I just want to dissapear.Like vanish into this thin air.
So that nobody can see me and nobody will try to hurt me.


It hurts when all the things that you believe turn out to be a lie
It hurts when the person who u trust the most, who you seek for comfort turn their back on you.


I don't think I can take this life anymore.
Why is that everytime I give my all..the best that I have in me..
They will coma back to me in a bad way?


Am I not deserve to be love..at all?


Please help me..please help me..please help me..please help me..

Rindu

Lat night I was so boring and lonely, practically got nothing to do.Was exhausted playing games or even to read books. So I flipped through my album and reminisce and for all the sudden i felt..rindu..

5 Bersih class of 97


Okay, this is my classmates.Kitorang adalah budak kelas tercorot skali but I must say that we are the most happening class. Still remember, bila part ponteng kelas, everybody would take turns to ponteng but there was this time when everybody went missing from class except for 3 students who happened to be prefects. Tu pon diorang dying inside to ponteng jugak..hehehe




After basketball session


This was taken after a basketball session. Even I was short but I can play basketball[haha..I wish].We tried to gather everyone no matter how bz there were just to play this freaking game on the evening. The reason??Otak yang cerdas datang dari badan yang cergas..muahahahaha..which is true ok..

My hangout friends:Fadzi, Zaireen,Nikkit, Nik, Shaza,me,Tini and Lina

These were[still are] girls that I used to hang out with. Despite our crazy and scary behavior we are bunch of civilized people now. Fadzi is an auditor, Zaireen an engineer, Nikkit is pursuing her MBA, Nik a lawyer, Shaza the KFC Asst Manager, errr..and that's me, Tini a mother to be and a Sales Exec and finally Lina the Add Math teacher[ajar set 1 lagi ok..]. Me and Nik see each other quite often. We used to hang out with Nikkit and Fadzi but since Nikkit went to Aust and Fadzi is super duper bz pursuing her MICPA ..so it's just me and Nik.


Anyway, my point is..Aku rindu masa-masa berlari ke dining hall and round compound. I don't know for you guys but for me, my school sistas are uncomparable.Definetely the best'est' friends I ever known.


Luv you guys.Mwah!

Those old days

I missed my uni days..My lazy days.
When all I did was sleep, shop and party and er..try to attend classes


Still remember what a bliss it was..
When I woke up it's already 10 and forgotten that I got class at 8 but still feel pretty ok..
Now if that happens heh..No doubt I feel damn guilty and damned.



Still remember what a bliss it was..
Going shopping spending my parents money and not even looking at the price tag
Now..still do shopping but now have to scan the price tag first.



And when night came, still remember
How we would boogie all night, dancing on the table
and laughed about it the next morning..trying to remember what happened.
Now..after seeing my boyfriend, will straightly head for my bed.


Back then lecturers used to target me and probobly they hate me but that didn't bother me
Now..My boss hates me and it's killing me!


Huhuhuhh..I want that kind of life back..can I have it back?Pleaaaseeee??


*3 more days to meet him

Faraway

During the weekend, we, stf sista went for Ika and Lenny's wedding. I have been avoiding weddings since..err..August for some personal reason..


Anyaway, I was studying friends face and came out with conclusion. While we were eating or looking at the bride some of them tersengih2 sendiri and looked so dreamy. Hehehe..I assume that they have been dreaming..


"Kalau aku kawen nanti...[sila sambung dengan menggunakan imiginasi anda]"


Betul kan Nik kan?kan?


Anyway, didn't get the chance to speak to Lenny since she was the center of attention and everybody was grabbing her. I manage to talk to the bridegroom though.


Me:Selamat pengantin baru Yang [His name is Yang ok? Takkanla aku nak panggil laki org camtu kot]
Yang:Waaa, kau pakai baju kurung Chics?Ni la pertama kali aku nampak kau pakai pakaian yg mempunyai kain banyak.


Hemm..Luckily it was your day, kalau tak..


Anyway, I have a confession to make. Sebenanye aku pon termasuk dalam golongan orang-orang yang berangan tadi..haha

Joking?

Sometimes when he talks to me or joke around he forgot the fact that i'm a lady and as if he's seeing one of his guy friend in me. The reason? His joke sometimes make drove me mad and even worst make me cry.


Joke 1:
Me:Yang, mana satu yang lawa, kasut merah ke kasut pink ni?
He:Hmm..Same je.Kaki you banyak strech markla so sama je..*laugh histerically*



Joke 2:
Me:I rindula dekat Nikkit*referring to one of my-female-best-buddy*
He:I pun..Dah lama tak dating-dating dengan die*gelak gatal*



Joke 3:
Me:Kalau I gemuk you sayang i tak?
He:Kalau u gemuk, I pegi out station lapan taun tak balik-balik.



Joke 4:
I was wearing eyeshadow with the 'smoky' effect. It took me around 15 minutes to get it done perfectly.
He:Oh my, siapa yang tumbuk mata u?Sakit tak?


Hmm...Cuba kalau aku buat lawak cam tu..


p.s:Annual dinner's pic is here