There she goes

She was not herself on the Thursday night. Quiet and timid was just so not her. So I thought there was something wrong with her.

On Friday, she was weak but still reacting to me, purring when I stroked her. But she did not jump on me like she usually did. I tried to feel her body, if there's any sign of fever but none. Instead her ears felt so cold, so does her body. I tried to pinch the skin at the back of her neck. It stayed there, didn't get back to its usual position. A sign of dehydration. Not good, I thought.

So I started to give her the usual remedy. 100 plus with vitagen natural flavour. That always does the trick. I did that every few hours, and sometimes I alternate it with plain water. Oh, she tried to escape and managed to give me few scars but that would not make stop. I told her

"Come on love, I know you have 9 lives"
And she purred.

On Saturday I was not home and so does the rest of my family member. Every one was busy so she was left all alone. When I got home, she was no where to be found. I searched high and low for her. Was so worried. Please don't tell me she.. Then suddenly she came out from I don't know where, still weak.

My heart jumped in joy.

She was no more purring no matter how hard I hugged her and no matter how many time I kissed her.

Forced her to accept some kitten food since kitten food is softer but she refused. But she made me mile when she voluntarily drink water from the cup I gave to her.

Hey, I thought. She will be alright.

Today, my boss dragged me and her to the vet. I was not ready to go to the vet because I secretly think vet is somehow act like the grim reaper. Most of the time, the victims [from my family] will not survive after meeting up with vets. I was not ready to let go.

During the check up, I refused to go in with her. Oh, my heart is so fragile. It could break anytime, so I opted to wait outside. Praying that she will be ok.

As I was alone, trying not to think to much, somehow I have the feeling that today might be the last day I get to see her.

"So how is she". That's me asking the moment my boss gets out from the vet room.
"She is going to stay here for few days".

Paused.

"But she is unlikely to survive".

Unlikely to survive.

I know what that means. I heard it several times.

At 6.10, received a call from the vet.

She was diagnosed with kidney failure.

She did not make it.

Mahagony is gone. The brown manja mahagony.

I can't tell you how much tears I wasted today. As weird as it may sound, I feel that I lost a family member.

Without her, the house will never be the same again.

I love you gegeny. Kakak really do. I am sorry for not always layan you but kakak wants you to know, tonight my night feel weird because when I watched tv, there's no one to jump on kakak lap and manja-manja.

I miss you already.

Rest in peace my love. One day, I shall kiss you again, like I always do.

Futsal Srikandi 2007

My feet hurts. I played futsal last weekend even aku hanya main sekejap je sebab pancit and ehe nervous + malas [tak reti main pon ye jugak haha]. Bleh?


Honestly,I joined the team to cukupkan orang and the most important is to ambik gamba.Hehe.

Early in the morning where big breakfast would do the smile



With kat.See the pink baju?Hihi



Us minus fadzi.Mana tah dia pegi




Peluh bukan penghalang dari mengambik gambar



Baring.Hehe



Hehe



Poyo tak poyo?

Anyway, cayalah srikandi 937. Yeayy!


Ehem. Please ignore the big bird in the picture and to the abu dhabi guy, jahatla you gelakkan big bird itu. Benci tau takkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.


Oh, btw the rest of the pictures can be found at the fotopages.


Hmm. Despite all that, why am I still feeling hollow? Adalah terasa sangat lach on hearing careless whisper di waktu malam gulita.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


Ok. Dah habis emo dah.


Happy monday.

Match

Sakit kaki.


Sakit mata.


Dah berak + nak berak lagi


Rambut tak cun.


Adakah ramai orang hemsem?[haha]


Nervouslah!!

Jahanam

On my way home from class yesterday I was rounding at the roundabout when a black car nearly knock on me. Gile dah dekat ok, sikit je lagi. Luckily I had an ex who like to merempit that I know what to do. Haha


After the roundbout I could see the black car catching up and when the car appeared next to me I turned on my right to see who was the moron. Two guys, laughing - laughing. The other guy suddenly waved frantically and then before speeding, made a "call me" sign.


Hemsem.Tetapi cacat.


Batal.


I wonder what was that all about.


Is it :-

A. They are retarded
B. I am reta.. nevermind
C. They are stupid
D. They are very stupid
E. They are very very stupid
or
F. They want to mengorat me [hihi].


Tapi, roundabout adalah memang jahanam.

Fertilizer

It's the fruit season once more. And no, I am talking about durian although I am still waiting for my mum to cook the tempoyak udang. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

My grandma used to have lots of fruit tree back in Hulu Langat but now there are only few left which includes a big rambutan tree in front of the house. Unlike durian, I looovee rambutan minus the guardian keeper, ants.

As far as I can recall, the ants used to carry some kind of scent with them. Pungent yet weirdly sweet scent. But mind you, they are a loyal keeper of the tree and err..fruits.

But few weeks ago as I ate the rambutan at nenek's house, I smelt something peculiar on the buah itself. It smells quite familiar but it didn't seemed right to me. I was thinking, takkanlah kot. Perhaps the smell came from somewhere else, I thought. Menggunakan hidung ala-ala anjing mengesan dadah, I tried to detect the smell. Whether you believe it or not, the smell came from the ants on the buah. Yes, the fruit protector.

Weird. Coz it smells like..hmm..nevermind. I must be hallucinating

So I thought I was, until yesterday, during dinner I heard my brother saying.

"Eh, apsal rambutan ni bau taik lembu hah?"

Hah! And I thought I was the only one!

Gila keji sial, rambutan bau taik lembu. But like I said it came from the ants and according to my brother, rasa rambutan tu pon dah ala-ala taik lembu. Ok, I don't really know how he reckoned it was taik lembu taste [sebab aku sure takde sape-sape dalam rumah ni penah makan taik lembu] somehow I know what he meant. Tapi aku tetap melantak jugalahkan.

But really, how could something that used to smell weirdly sweet turned into the smell of cow dunk in few years? Can it be the fertilizer because I am sure that there are no lembu at my nenek house.

But then again, do we put fertilizer for pokok rambutan?

I don't really know. The only thing that I tanam at my yard are my deceased cats.